WhenUrfriedhadwithclamoursandmenacesdrivenRebeccabacktotheapartmentfromwhichshehadsallied,sheproceededtoconducttheunwillingCedricintoasmallapartment,thedoorofwhichsheheedfullysecured。Thenfetchingfromacupboardastoupofwineandtwoflagons,sheplacedthemonthetable,andsaidinatoneratherassertingafactthanaskingaquestion,``ThouartSaxon,father——Denyitnot,’’shecontinued,observingthatCedrichastenednottoreply;``thesoundsofmynativelanguagearesweettomineears,thoughseldomheardsavefromthetonguesofthewretchedanddegradedserfsonwhomtheproudNormansimposethemeanestdrudgeryofthisdwelling。ThouartaSaxon,father——aSaxon,and,saveasthouartaservantofGod,afreeman——
Thineaccentsaresweetinmineear。’’
``DonotSaxonpriestsvisitthiscastle,then?’’
repliedCedric;``itwere,methinks,theirdutytocomforttheoutcastandoppressedchildrenofthesoil。’’
``Theycomenot——oriftheycome,theybetterlovetorevelattheboardsoftheirconquerors,’’
answeredUrfried,``thantohearthegroansoftheircountrymen——so,atleast,reportspeaksofthem——
ofmyselfIcansaylittle。Thiscastle,fortenyears,hasopenedtonopriestsavethedebauchedNormanchaplainwhopartookthenightlyrevelsofFront-de-Buf,andhehasbeenlonggonetorenderanaccountofhisstewardship——ButthouartaSaxon——aSaxonpriest,andIhaveonequestiontoaskofthee。’’
``IamaSaxon,’’answeredCedric,``butunworthy,surely,ofthenameofpriest。Letmebegoneonmyway——IswearIwillreturn,orsendoneofourfathersmoreworthytohearyourconfession。’’
``Stayyetawhile,’’saidUrfried;``theaccentsofthevoicewhichthouhearestnowwillsoonbechokedwiththecoldearth,andIwouldnotdescendtoitlikethebeastIhavelived。Butwinemustgivemestrengthtotellthehorrorsofmytale。’’Shepouredoutacup,anddrankitwithafrightfulavidity,whichseemeddesirousofdrainingthelastdropinthegoblet。``Itstupifies,’’shesaid,lookingupwardsasshefinishedherdrought,``butitcannotcheer——Partakeit,father,ifyouwouldhearmytalewithoutsinkingdownuponthepavement。’’Cedricwouldhaveavoidedpledgingherinthisominousconviviality,butthesignwhichshemadetohimexpressedimpatienceanddespair。
Hecompliedwithherrequest,andansweredherchallengeinalargewine-cup;shethenproceededwithherstory,asifappeasedbyhiscomplaisance。
``Iwasnotborn,’’shesaid,``father,thewretchthatthounowseestme。Iwasfree,washappy,washonoured,loved,andwasbeloved。Iamnowaslave,miserableanddegraded——thesportofmymasters’passionswhileIhadyetbeauty——theobjectoftheircontempt,scorn,andhatred,sinceithaspassedaway。Dostthouwonder,father,thatIshouldhatemankind,and,aboveall,theracethathaswroughtthischangeinme?Canthewrinkleddecrepithagbeforethee,whosewrathmustventitselfinimpotentcurses,forgetshewasoncethedaughterofthenobleThaneofTorquilstone,beforewhosefrownathousandvassalstrembled?’’
``ThouthedaughterofTorquilWolfganger!’’
saidCedric,recedingashespoke;``thou——thou——
thedaughterofthatnobleSaxon,myfather’sfriendandcompanioninarms!’’
``Thyfather’sfriend!’’echoedUrfried;``thenCedriccalledtheSaxonstandsbeforeme,forthenobleHerewardofRotherwoodhadbutoneson,whosenameiswellknownamonghiscountrymen。
ButifthouartCedricofRotherwood,whythisreligiousdress?——hastthoutoodespairedofsavingthycountry,andsoughtrefugefromoppressionintheshadeoftheconvent?’’
``ItmattersnotwhoIam,’’saidCedric;``proceed,unhappywoman,withthytaleofhorrorandguilt!——Guilttheremustbe——thereisguilteveninthylivingtotellit。’’
``Thereis——thereis,’’answeredthewretchedwoman,``deep,black,damningguilt,——guilt,thatlieslikealoadatmybreast——guilt,thatallthepenitentialfiresofhereaftercannotcleanse——Yes,inthesehalls,stainedwiththenobleandpurebloodofmyfatherandmybrethren——intheseveryhalls,tohavelivedtheparamouroftheirmurderer,theslaveatonceandthepartakerofhispleasures,wastorendereverybreathwhichIdrewofvitalair,acrimeandacurse。’’
``Wretchedwoman!’’exclaimedCedric。``Andwhilethefriendsofthyfather——whileeachtrueSaxonheart,asitbreathedarequiemforhissoul,andthoseofhisvaliantsons,forgotnotintheirprayersthemurderedUlrica——whileallmournedandhonouredthedead,thouhastlivedtomeritourhateandexecration——livedtounitethyselfwiththeviletyrantwhomurderedthynearestanddearest——whoshedthebloodofinfancy,ratherthanamaleofthenoblehouseofTorquilWolfgangershouldsurvive——withhimhastthoulivedtounitethyself,andinthehandsoflawlesslove!’’
``Inlawlesshands,indeed,butnotinthoseoflove!’’answeredthehag;``lovewillsoonervisittheregionsofeternaldoom,thanthoseunhallowedvaults——No,withthatatleastIcannotreproachmyself——hatredtoFront-de-Bufandhisracegovernedmysoulmostdeeply,eveninthehourofhisguiltyendearments。’’
``Youhatedhim,andyetyoulived,’’repliedCedric;``wretch!wastherenoponiard——noknife——nobodkin!——Wellwasitforthee,sincethoudidstprizesuchanexistence,thatthesecretsofaNormancastlearelikethoseofthegrave。ForhadIbutdreamedofthedaughterofTorquillivinginfoulcommunionwiththemurdererofherfather,theswordofatrueSaxonhadfoundtheeouteveninthearmsofthyparamour!’’
``WouldstthouindeedhavedonethisjusticetothenameofTorquil?’’saidUlrica,forwemaynowlayasideherassumednameofUrfried;``thouartthenthetrueSaxonreportspeaksthee!forevenwithintheseaccursedwalls,where,asthouwellsayest,guiltshroudsitselfininscrutablemystery,eventherehasthenameofCedricbeensounded——
andI,wretchedanddegraded,haverejoicedtothinkthatthereyetbreathedanavengerofourunhappynation——Ialsohavehadmyhoursofvengeance——
Ihavefomentedthequarrelsofourfoes,andheateddrunkenrevelryintomurderousbroil——Ihaveseentheirbloodflow——Ihaveheardtheirdyinggroans!——Lookonme,Cedric——aretherenotstillleftonthisfoulandfadedfacesometracesofthefeaturesofTorquil?’’
``Askmenotofthem,Ulrica,’’repliedCedric,inatoneofgriefmixedwithabhorrence;``thesetracesformsucharesemblanceasarisesfromthegravesofthedead,whenafiendhasanimatedthelifelesscorpse。’’
``Beitso,’’answeredUlrica;``yetworethesefiendishfeaturesthemaskofaspiritoflightwhentheywereabletosetatvariancetheelderFront-de-BufandhissonReginald!Thedarknessofhellshouldhidewhatfollowed,butrevengemustlifttheveil,anddarklyintimatewhatitwouldraisethedeadtospeakaloud。Longhadthesmoulderingfireofdiscordglowedbetweenthetyrantfatherandhissavageson——longhadInursed,insecret,theunnaturalhatred——itblazedforthinanhourofdrunkenwassail,andathisownboardfellmyoppressorbythehandofhisownson——sucharethesecretsthesevaultsconceal!——Rendasunder,yeaccursedarches,’’sheadded,lookinguptowardstheroof,``andburyinyourfallallwhoareconsciousofthehideousmystery!’’
``Andthou,creatureofguiltandmisery,’’saidCedric,``whatbecamethylotonthedeathofthyravisher?’’
``Guessit,butaskitnot——Here——hereIdwelt,tillage,prematureage,hasstampeditsghastlyfeaturesonmycountenance——scornedandinsultedwhereIwasonceobeyed,andcompelledtoboundtherevengewhichhadoncesuchamplescope,totheeffortsofpettymaliceofadiscontentedmenial,orthevainorunheededcursesofanimpotenthag——condemnedtohearfrommylonelyturretthesoundsofrevelryinwhichIoncepartook,ortheshrieksandgroansofnewvictimsofoppression。’’
``Ulrica,’’saidCedric,``withaheartwhichstill,Ifear,regretsthelostrewardofthycrimes,asmuchasthedeedsbywhichthoudidstacquirethatmeed,howdidstthoudaretoaddresstheetoonewhowearsthisrobe?Consider,unhappywoman,whatcouldthesaintedEdwardhimselfdoforthee,werehehereinbodilypresence?TheroyalConfessorwasendowedbyheavenwithpowertocleansetheulcersofthebody,butonlyGodhimselfcancuretheleprosyofthesoul。’’
``Yet,turnnotfromme,sternprophetofwrath,’’
sheexclaimed,``buttellme,ifthoucanst,inwhatshallterminatethesenewandawfulfeelingsthatburstonmysolitude——Whydodeeds,longsincedone,risebeforemeinnewandirresistiblehorrors?
Whatfateispreparedbeyondthegraveforher,towhomGodhasassignedonearthalotofsuchunspeakablewretchedness?BetterhadIturntoWoden,Hertha,andZernebock——toMista,andtoSkogula,thegodsofouryetunbaptizedancestors,thanendurethedreadfulanticipationswhichhaveoflatehauntedmywakingandmysleepinghours!’’
``Iamnopriest,’’saidCedric,turningwithdisgustfromthismiserablepictureofguilt,wretchedness,anddespair;``Iamnopriest,thoughIwearapriest’sgarment。’’
``Priestorlayman,’’answeredUlrica,``thouartthefirstIhaveseenfortwentyyears,bywhomGodwasfearedormanregarded;anddostthoubidmedespair?’’
``Ibidtheerepent,’’saidCedric。``Seektoprayerandpenance,andmayestthoufindacceptance!
ButIcannot,Iwillnot,longerabidewiththee。’’
``Stayyetamoment!’’saidUlrica;``leavemenotnow,sonofmyfather’sfriend,lestthedemonwhohasgovernedmylifeshouldtemptmetoavengemyselfofthyhard-heartedscorn——Thinkestthou,ifFront-de-BuffoundCedrictheSaxoninhiscastle,insuchadisguise,thatthylifewouldbealongone?——Alreadyhiseyehasbeenupontheelikeafalcononhisprey。’’
``Andbeitso,’’saidCedric;``andlethimtearmewithbeakandtalons,eremytonguesayonewordwhichmyheartdothnotwarrant。IwilldieaSaxon——trueinword,openindeed——Ibidtheeavaunt!——touchmenot,staymenot!——ThesightofFront-de-Bufhimselfislessodioustomethanthou,degradedanddegenerateasthouart。’’
``Beitso,’’saidUlrica,nolongerinterruptinghim;``gothyway,andforget,intheinsolenceofthysuperority,thatthewretchbeforetheeisthedaughterofthyfather’sfriend——Gothyway——ifIamseparatedfrommankindbymysufferings——
separatedfromthosewhoseaidImightmostjustlyexpect——notlesswillIbeseparatedfromtheminmyrevenge!——Nomanshallaidme,buttheearsofallmenshalltingletohearofthedeedwhichI
shalldaretodo!——Farewell!——thyscornhasburstthelasttiewhichseemedyettounitemetomykind——athoughtthatmywoesmightclaimthecompassionofmypeople。’’
``Ulrica,’’saidCedric,softenedbythisappeal,``hastthouborneupandenduredtolivethroughsomuchguiltandsomuchmisery,andwiltthounowyieldtodespairwhenthineeyesareopenedtothycrimes,andwhenrepentancewerethyfitteroccupation?’’
``Cedric,’’answeredUlrica,``thoulittleknowestthehumanheart。ToactasIhaveacted,tothinkasIhavethought,requiresthemaddeningloveofpleasure,mingledwiththekeenappetiteofrevenge,theproudconsciousnessofpower;droughtstoointoxicatingforthehumanhearttobear,andyetretainthepowertoprevent。Theirforcehaslongpassedaway——Agehasnopleasures,wrinkleshavenoinfluence,revengeitselfdiesawayinimpotentcurses。Thencomesremorse,withallitsvipers,mixedwithvainregretsforthepast,anddespairforthefuture!——Then,whenallotherstrongimpulseshaveceased,webecomelikethefiendsinhell,whomayfeelremorse,butneverrepentance——
Butthywordshaveawakenedanewsoulwithinme——Wellhastthousaid,allispossibleforthosewhodaretodie!——Thouhastshownmethemeansofrevenge,andbeassuredIwillembracethem。Ithashithertosharedthiswastedbosomwithotherandwithrivalpassions——henceforwarditshallpossessmewholly,andthouthyselfshaltsay,that,whateverwasthelifeofUlrica,herdeathwellbecamethedaughterofthenobleTorquil。Thereisaforcewithoutbeleagueringthisaccursedcastle——hastentoleadthemtotheattack,andwhenthoushaltseearedflagwavefromtheturretontheeasternangleofthedonjon,presstheNormanshard——theywillthenhaveenoughtodowithin,andyoumaywinthewallinspitebothofbowandmangonel——Begone,Ipraythee——followthineownfate,andleavemetomine。’’
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