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第46章

  knewitwould!Ishother-butnotwithanordinarybullet。Mychargewasasmalliciclemadedeliberatelyforthepurpose。Ithadstrengthenoughtopenetrate,butitleftnotracebehindit。
  ’Abulletoficeforaheartofice,’Ihadsaidinthetormentofmyrage。Butthewordwaswithoutknowledge,Mr。Challoner。I
  seeitnow;Ihaveseenitfortwowholeweeks。Ididnotmisjudgehercondemnationofme,butImisjudgeditscause。Itwasnottothecomparativelypoor,thecomparativelyobscuremanshesoughttoshowcontempt,buttothebrotherofOswaldwhoseclaimsshesawinsulted。AwomanIshouldhaverespected,notkilled。Awomanofnoprideofstation;awomanwholovedamannotonlyofmyownclassbutofmyownblood-awoman,toavengewhoseunmeriteddeathIstandherebeforeyouaself-condemnedcriminal。Thatisbutjustice,Mr。Challoner。ThatisthewayIlookatthings。
  Thoughnosentimentalist;anddeadtoallbeliefssavetheeternaltruthsofscience,Ihavethatinmewhichwillnotletmeprofit,nowthatIknowmyselfunworthy,bythegreatsuccessIhaveearned。
  Hencethisconfession,Mr。Challoner。Ithasnotcomeeasily,nordoIshutmyeyesintheleasttotheresultswhichmustfollow。
  ButIcannotdodifferently。To-morrow,youmaytelegraphtoNewYork。TillthenIdesiretobeleftundisturbed。Ihavemanythingstodisposeofintheinterim。”
  Mr。Challoner,verywhitebynow,pointedtothedoorbeforehesankagainintohischair。Brothersontookitfordismissalandsteppedslowlyback。ThentheireyesmetagainandMr。Challonerspokehisfirstword:”Therewasanother-apoorwoman-shediedsuddenly-andherwoundwasnotunlikethatinflicteduponEdith。Didyou-””Idid。”Theanswercamewithoutatremour。”YoumaysayandsomayothersthatIwaslessjustifiedinthisattackthanintheother;butIdonotseeitthatway。Atheorydoesnotalwaysworkinpractice。IwishedtotesttheunusualmeansIcontemplated,andthewomanIsawbeforemeacrossthecourtwashard-workingandwithnothinginlifetolookforwardto,so-”
  AcryofbitterexecrationfromMr。Challonercuthimshort。
  Turningwithashrughewasabouttolifthishandtothedoor,whenhegaveaviolentstartandfellhastilybackbeforeaquicklyenteringfigureofsuchpassionandfuryasneitherofthesemenhadeverseenbefore。
  ItwasOswald!Oswald,thekindly!Oswald,theloverofmenandtheadorerofwomen!Oswald,withthewordsofthedastardlyconfessionhehadpartlyoverheardsearinghotwithinhisbrain!
  Oswald,raisedinamomentfromthedespondinginvalidtoaterrifyingministrantofretributivejustice。
  Orlandocouldscarcelyraisehishandbeforetheother’swasuponhisthroat。”Murderer!doubly-dyedmurdererofinnocentwomen!”washissedinthestrongman’sears。”Notwiththelawbutwithmeyoumustreckon,andmayGodandthespiritofmymothernervemyarm!”
  DESOLATE
  Thestrugglewasfiercebutmomentary。OswaldwithhisweakenedpowerscouldnotlongwithstandthesteadyexertionofOrlando’sgiantstrength,anderelongsankawayfromthecontestintoMr。
  Challoner’sarms。”Youshouldnothavesummonedtheshadeofourmothertoyouraid,”
  observedtheotherwithasmile,inwhichtheironywaslostinterriblepresage。”Iwasalwaysherfavourite。”
  Oswaldshuddered。Orlandohadspokentruly;shehadalwaysbeenblindly,arrogantlytrustfulofhereldestson。Nofaultcouldsheseeinhim;andnow-
  ImpetuouslyOswaldstruggledwithhisweakness,raisedhimselfinMr。Challoner’sarmsandcriedinloudrevolt:
  ButGodisjust。Hewillnotletyouescape。IfHedoes,Iwillnot。Iwillhoundyoutotheendsofthisearthand,ifnecessary,intotheeternities。Notwiththethreatofmyarm-youaremymasterthere,butwiththecurseofabrotherwhobelievedyouinnocentofhisdarling’sbloodandwouldhavebelievedyousoinfaceofeverythingbutyourownword。”
  Peace!”adjuredOrlando。”ThereisnoaccountIamnotreadytosettle。Ihaverobbedyouofthewomanyoulove,butIhavedespoiledmyself。Istanddesolateintheworld,whobutanhouragocouldhavechosenmyseatamongthebestandgreatest。Whatcanyourcursesdoafterthat?””Nothing。”Thewordcameslowlylikeadropwrungfromanearlyspentheart。”Nothing;nothing。Oh,Orlando,Iwishwewerebothdeadandburiedandthattherewerenofurtherlifeforeitherofus。”
  Thesoftenedtone,thewistfulprayerwhichwouldblotoutanimmortalityofjoyfortheone,thatitmightsavetheotherfromanimmortalityofretribution,touchedsomelongunsoundedchordinOrlando’sextraordinarynature。
  Advancingastep,heheldouthishand-theleftone。”We’llleavethefuturetoitself,Oswald,anddowhatwecanwiththepresent,”saidhe。”I’vemadeamessofmylifeandspoiledacareerwhichmighthavemadeusbothkings。Forgiveme,Oswald。
  IaskfornothingelsefromGodorman。Ishouldlikethat。Itwouldstrengthenmeforto-morrow。”
  ButOswald,everkindly,generousandmorereadytothinkofothersthanofhimself,hadyetsomeofOrlando’stenacity。Hegazedatthathandandaflushsweptupoverhischeekwhichinstantlybecameghastlyagain。”Icannot,”saidhe-”noteventheleftone。MayGodforgiveme!”
  Orlando,strucksilentforamoment,droppedhishandandslowlyturnedaway。Mr。ChallonerfeltOswaldstiffeninhisarms,andbreaksuddenlyaway,onlytostopshortbeforehehadtakenoneofthehalfdozenstepsbetweenhimselfandhisdepartingbrother。”Whereareyougoing?”hedemandedintoneswhichmadeOrlandoturn。”Imightsay,Tothedevil,”wasthesarcasticreply。”ButIdoubtifhewouldreceiveme。No,”headded,inmoreordinarytonesastheothershiveredandagainstartedforward,”youwillhavenotroubleinfindingmeinmyownroomto-night。Ihaveletterstowriteand-otherthings。Amanlikemecannotdropoutwithoutaripple。Youmaygotobedandsleep。Iwillkeepawakefortwo。””Orlando!”VisionswerepassingbeforeOswald’seyes,soul-crushingvisionssuchasinhisblamelesslifeheneverthoughtcouldenterintohisconsciousnessorblasthistranquiloutlookuponlife。”Orlando!”heagainappealed,coveringhiseyesinafrenziedattempttoshutoutthesehorrors,”Icannotletyougolikethis。
  To-morrow-””To-morrow,ineverynicheandcornerofthisworld,whereverEdithChalloner’snamehasgone,wherevermynamehasgone,itwillbeknownthatthediscovererofapracticalair-ship,isamanwhomtheycannolongerhonour。Doyouthinkthatisnothellenoughforme;orthatIdonotrealisethehellitwillbeforyou?I’veneverweariedyouoranymanwithmyaffection;butI’mnotalldemon。Iwouldgladlyhavesparedyouthisadditionalanguish;butthatwasimpossible。Youaremybrotherandmustsufferfromtheconnectionwhetherwewouldhaveitsoofnot。Ifitpromisestoomuchmisery-andIknownomiserylikethatofshame-comewithmewhereIgoto-morrow。Therewillberoomfortwo。”
  Oswald,swayingwithweakness,butmaddenedbythesightofanoverthrowwhichcarriedwithitthestifledaffectionsandtheadmirationofhiswholelife,gaveaboundforward,openedhisarmsand-fell。
  Orlandostoppedshort。Gazingdownonhisprostratebrother,hestoodforamomentwithagleamofsomethinglikehumantendernessshowingthroughtheflareofdyingpassionsandperishinghopes;
  thenheswungopenthedoorandpassedquietlyout,andMr。
  Challonercouldhearthelaughingremarkwithwhichhemetanddismissedthehalf-dozenmenandwomenwhohadbeendrawntothisendofthehallbywhathadsoundedtothemlikeafracasbetweenangrymen。
  FIVEO’CLOCKINTHEMORNING
  Theclockinthehotelofficestruckthree。OrlandoBrothersoncountedthestrokes;thenwentonwriting。Histransomwaspartlyopenandhehadjustheardastepgobyhisdoor。Thiswasnothingnew。Hehadalreadyhearditseveraltimesbeforethatnight。ItwasMr。Challoner’sstep,andeverytimeitpassed,hehadrustledhispapersorscratchedvigorouslywithhispen。”HeiskeepingwatchforOswald,”washisthought。”Theyfearasuddenendtothis。
  Noone,notthesonofmymotherknowsme。DoIknowmyself?”
  Fouro’clock!Thelightwasstillburning,thepileoflettershewaswritingincreasing。
  Fiveo’clock!Arattlingshadebetraysanopenwindow。Noothersounddisturbsthequietoftheroom。Itisemptynow;butMr。
  Challoner,longsincesatisfiedthatallwaswell,goesbynomore。Silencehassettleduponthehotel;-thatheavysilencewhichprecedesthedawn。
  Therewassilenceinthestreetsalso。Thefewwhowereabroad,creptquietlyalong。Anelectricstormwasintheairandthesurchargedcloudshungheavyandlow,bidingthemomentofoutbreak。
  Amanwhohadleftaplaceofmanyshadowsforthemoreopenroad,pausedandlookedupattheseclouds;thenwentcalmlyon。
  Suddenlytheshriekofanapproachingtraintearsthroughthevalley。Hasitacallforthisman?No。Yethepausesinthemidstofthestreetheiscrossingandwatches,asachildmightwatch,fortheflashofitslightsattheendofthedarkenedvista。