NIGHT
Threedayshadpassed,andOrlandoBrothersonsatinhisroomatthehotelbeforeatableladenwithtelegrams,lettersandmarkednewspapers。Thenewsofhisachievementhadgoneabroad,andDerbywas,forthemoment,thecentreofinterestfortwocontinents。
Hissuccesswasanestablishedfact。Thesecondtrialwhichhehadmadewithhiscar,thistimewiththewholetowngatheredtogetherinthestreetsaswitnesses,hadprovednotonlythereliabilityofitsmechanism,butthegreatadvantageswhichitpossessedforadirectflighttoanygivenpoint。AlreadyhesawFortunebeckoningtohimintheshapeofanunconditionalofferofmoneyfromafirst-classsource;andbetterstill,-forhewasamanofuntiringenergyandboundlessresource-thatopportunityfornewandenlargedeffortwhichcomeswiththerecognitionofone’sexceptionalpowers。
Allthiswashisandmore。Asweeterhope,amoreenduringjoyhadfollowedhardupongratifiedambition。Dorishadsmiledonhim;-
Doris!Shehadcaughtthecontagionoftheuniversalenthusiasmandhadgivenhimherfirstungrudgingtokenofapproval。Ithadalteredhiswholeoutlookonlifeinaninstant,fortherewasaneagernessinthisdemonstrationwhichproclaimedtherelievedheart。
Shenolongertrustedeitherappearancesorherdream。Hehadsucceededinconqueringherdoubtsbytheveryforceofhispersonality,andtheshadowwhichhadhithertodarkenedtheirintercoursehadmeltedquiteaway。ShewasreadytotakehiswordnowandOswald’s,afterwhichtherestmustfollow。Lovedoesnotlagfarbehindanardentadmiration。
Fame!Fortune!Love!Whatmorecouldamandesire?Whatmorecouldthisman,withhisstrenuouspastandanunlimitedcapacityforanenlargedfuture,askfromfatethanthis。Yet,ashebendsoverhisletters,fingeringsome,butreadingnonebeyondalineortwo,hebetraysbutapassingelation,andhardlyliftshisheadwhenaburstofloudacclaimcomesringinguptohiswindowfromsomeardentpasser-by:”HurrahforBrotherson!Hehasputourtownonthemap!”
Whythisdespondency?Havethosetwodemonsseizedhimagain?Itwouldseemsoandwithnewandovermasteringfury。Afterthehouroftriumphcomesthehourofreckoning。OrlandoBrothersoninhishourofproudattainmentstandsnakedbeforehisownsoul’stribunalandthepleaderisdumbandthejudgeinexorable。ThereisbutoneWitnesstosuchstruggles;butoneeyetonotethewasteanddesolationofthedevastatedsoul,whenthestormisoverpast。
OrlandoBrothersonhassuccumbed;theattackwastookeen,hisforcestooshaken。Butastheheavyminutespass,heslowlyre-gathershisstrengthandrises,intheend,aconqueror。
Nevertheless,heknows,eveninthatmomentofregainedcommand,thatthepeacehehadthusboughtwithstrainandstressisbutmomentary;thatthebattleisonforlife:thatthedayswhichtoothereyeswouldcarryasenseofbrilliancy-daysteemingwithworkandoutwardsatisfaction-wouldholdwithintheirhiddendepthsabroodinguncertaintywhichwouldrobapplauseofitsmusicandevenovershadowtheangelfaceofLove。
Hequailedattheprospect,materialistthoughhewas。Thedays-theinterminabledays!Inhisunbrokenstrengthandtheglareofthenoondaysun,heforgottotakeaccountofthenightsloominginblackandendlessprocessionbeforehim。Itwasfromthedayphantomheshrank,andnotfromtheghoulwhichworksinthedarknessandmakesagraveoftheheartwhilehappiermortalssleep。
Andtheformerterrorseemedformidableenoughtohiminthishishourofstartlingrealisation,evenifhehadfreedhimselfforthenoncefromitscontrollingpower。Toescapeallfurthercontemplationofithewouldwork。Theselettersdeservedattention。HewouldcarrythemtoOswald,andintheirconsiderationfinddistractionfortherestoftheday,atleast。
Oswaldwasagoodfellow。Ifpleasureweretobegottenfromthesetokensofgood-will,heshouldhavehisshareofit。AgleamofOswald’soldspiritinOswald’soncebrighteye,wouldgofartowardsthrottlingoneofthosedemonswhosetalonshehadjustreleasedfromhisthroat;andifDorisrespondedtoo,hewoulddeservehisfate,ifhedidnotsucceedingainingthatmasteryofhimselfwhichwouldmakesuchhoursasthesebutepisodesinalifebigwithinterestandpotentwithgreatemotions。
Risingwitharesoluteair,hemadeabundleofhispapersand,withtheminhand,passedoutofhisroomanddownthehotelstairs。
Amanstooddirectlyinhisway,ashemadeforthefrontdoor。
ItwasMr。Challoner。
Courtesydemandedsomeshowofrecognitionbetweenthem,andBrothersonwaspassingwithhisusualcoldbow,whenasuddenimpulseledhimtopauseandmeettheother’seye,withthesarcasticremark:”Youhaveexpressed,orsoIhavebeentold,somesurpriseatmychoiceofmechanician。Amanofvariedaccomplishments,Mr。
Challoner,butoneforwhomIhavenofurtheruse。If,therefore,youwishtocalloffyourwatch-dog,youareatlibertytodoso。
Ihardlythinkhecanbeserviceabletoeitherofusmuchlonger。”
Theoldergentlemanhesitated,seekingpossiblyforcomposure,andwhenheanswereditwasnotonlywithoutironybutwithacertainforcedrespect:”Mr。SweetwaterhasjustleftforNewYork,Mr。Brotherson。Hewillcarrywithhim,nodoubt,thefullparticularsofyourgreatsuccess。”
Orlandobowed,thistimewithdistinguishedgrace。Notaflickerofreliefhaddisturbedthecalmserenityofhisaspect,yetwhenamomentlater,hesteppedamonghisshoutingadmirersinthestreet,hisairandglancebetrayedaboundingjoyforwhichanothersourcemustbefoundthanthatofgratifiedpride。A
chainhadslippedfromhisspirit,andthoughthepeopleshrankalittle,evenwhiletheycheered,itwasratherfromaweofhisbearingandtherecognitionofthatsenseofapartnesswhichunderlayhissmilethanfromanyperceptionoftheman’srealnatureoroftheawesomepurposewhichatthatmomentexaltedit。Buthadtheyknown-couldtheyhaveseenintothistumultuousheart-whatasilencewouldhavesettleduponthesenoisystreets;andinwhatterrorandsoul-confusionwouldeachmanhaveslunkawayfromhisfellowsintothequietandsolitudeofhisownhome。
Brothersonhimselfwasnotwithoutasenseoftheincongruityunderlyingthisovation;for,asheslowlyworkedhimselfalong,thebrightnessofhislookbecamedimmedwithatingeofsarcasmwhichinitsturngavewaytoanexpressionofextrememelancholy-bothquiteunbefittingtheheroofthehourinthefirstflushofhisnew-bornglory。HadheseenDoris’youthfulfigureemergeforamomentfromthevine-hungporchhewasapproaching,bringingwithitsomedoubtofthereceptionawaitinghim?Possibly,forhemadeastandbeforehereachedthehouse,andsenthisfollowersback;afterwhichheadvancedwithanunhurryingstep,sothatseveralminuteselapsedbeforehefinallydrewupbeforeMr。Scott’sdoorandenteredthroughthenowemptyporchintohisbrother’ssitting-room。
HehadmeanttoseeDorisfirst,buthismindhadchanged。IfallpassedoffwellbetweenhimselfandOswald,ifhefoundhisbrotherresponsiveandwide-awaketotheinterestsandnecessitiesofthehour,hemightforegohisinterviewwithhertillhefeltbetterpreparedtomeetit。Forcallitcowardiceorsimplyareasonableprecaution,anydelayseemedpreferabletohiminhispresentmoodofdiscouragement,tothatfinalcastingofthedieuponwhichhungsomanyandsuchtremendousissues。Itwasthefirstmomentofrealhaltinhiswholetumultuouslife!Never,asdaringexperimentalistoragitator,hadheshrunkfromdangerseenorunseenorfromthreatutteredorunuttered,asheshrankfromthisyounggirl’sno;andsomethingofthedreadhehadfeltlestheshouldencounterherunawareinthehallandsobeledontospeakwhenhisownjudgmentbadehimbesilent,darkenedhisfeaturesasheenteredhisbrother’spresence。
ButOswaldwassunkinabitterreveryofhisown,andtooknoheedofthesesignsofdepression。Inthere-actionfollowingthesedaysofgreatexcitement,thepasthadre-asserteditself,andallwasgloominhisoncegeneroussoul。This,Orlandohadtimetoperceive,quickasthechangecamewhenhisbrotherreallyrealisedwhohisvisitorwas。Theglad”Orlando!”andtheforcedsmiledidnotdeceivehim,andhisvoicequaveredatrifleasheheldouthispacketwiththewords:”Ihavecometoshowyouwhattheworldsaysofmyinvention。Wewillsoonbegreatmen,”heemphasised,asOswaldopenedtheletters。”Moneyhasbeenofferedmeand-Read!read!”heurged,withanunconsciousdictatorialness,asOswaldpausedinhistask。”Seewhatthefateshavepreparedforus;foryoushallshareallmyhonours,asyouwillfromthisdaysharemyworkandenterintoallmyexperiments。Cannotyouenthusealittlebitoverit?Doesn’ttheprospectcontainanyallurementforyou?Wouldyouratherstaylockedupinthispettytown-””Yes;or-die。Don’tlooklikethat,Orlando。ItwasacowardlyspeechandIaskyourpardon。I’mhardlyfittotalkto-day。
Edith-”
Orlandofrowned。”Notthatname!”heharshlyinterrupted。”Youmustnothamperyourlifewithuselessmemories。Thatdreamofyoursmaybesacred,butitbelongstothepast,andagreatrealityconfrontsyou。Whenyouhavefullyrecoveredyourhealth,yourownmanhoodwillrebelataweaknessunworthyoneofourname。Rouseyourself,Oswald。Takeaccountofourprospects。Givemeyourhandandsay,’Lifeholdssomethingformeyet。IhaveabrotherwhoneedsmeifIdonotneedhim。Together,wecanproveourselvesinvincibleandwrenchfameandfortunefromtheworld。’”
Butthehandhereachedfordidnotriseathiscommand,thoughOswaldstartederectandfacedhimwithmanlyearnestness。”Ishouldhavetothinklonganddeeply,”hesaid,”beforeItookuponmyselfresponsibilitieslikethese。Iambrokeninmindandheart,Orlando,andmustremainsotillGodmercifullydeliversme。
Ishouldbeapoorassistanttoyou-adrag,ratherthanahelp。
DeeplyasIdeploreit,hardasitmaybeforoneofyourtemperamenttounderstandsocompleteanoverthrow,Iyetmustacknowledgemyconditionandprayyounottocountuponmeinanyplansyoumayform。Iknowhowthislooks-Iknowthatasyourbrotherandtruestadmirer,Ishouldrespond,andrespondstrongly,tosuchoverturesasthese,butthemotiveforachievementisgone。
Shewasmyall;andwhileImightwork,itwouldbemechanically。
Thelift,theelevatingthoughtisgone。”
Orlandostoodamomentstudyinghisbrother’sface;thenheturnedshortlyaboutandwalkedthelengthoftheroom。Whenhecameback,hetookuphisstandagaindirectlybeforeOswald,andasked,withanewnoteinhisvoice:”DidyouloveEdithChallonersomuchasthat?”
AglancefromOswald’seye,sadderthananytear。”Sothatyoucannotbereconciled?”
Agesture。Oswald’swordswerealwaysfew。
Orlando’sfrowndeepened。”SuchgriefIpartlyunderstand,”saidhe。”Buttimewillcureit。
Somedayanotherlovelyface-””We’llnottalkofthat,Orlando。””No,we’llnottalkofthat,”acquiescedtheinventor,walkingawayagain,thistimetothewindow。”Foryouthere’sbutonewoman;-
andshe’samemory。””Killed!”brokefromhisbrother’slips。”Slainbyherownhandunderanimpulseofwildnessandterror!CanIeverforgetthat?
Donotexpectit,Orlando。””Thenyoudoblameme?”OrlandoturnedandwaslookingfullatOswald。”Iblameyourunreasonablenessandyouroverweeningpride。”
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