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第44章

  NIGHT
  Threedayshadpassed,andOrlandoBrothersonsatinhisroomatthehotelbeforeatableladenwithtelegrams,lettersandmarkednewspapers。Thenewsofhisachievementhadgoneabroad,andDerbywas,forthemoment,thecentreofinterestfortwocontinents。
  Hissuccesswasanestablishedfact。Thesecondtrialwhichhehadmadewithhiscar,thistimewiththewholetowngatheredtogetherinthestreetsaswitnesses,hadprovednotonlythereliabilityofitsmechanism,butthegreatadvantageswhichitpossessedforadirectflighttoanygivenpoint。AlreadyhesawFortunebeckoningtohimintheshapeofanunconditionalofferofmoneyfromafirst-classsource;andbetterstill,-forhewasamanofuntiringenergyandboundlessresource-thatopportunityfornewandenlargedeffortwhichcomeswiththerecognitionofone’sexceptionalpowers。
  Allthiswashisandmore。Asweeterhope,amoreenduringjoyhadfollowedhardupongratifiedambition。Dorishadsmiledonhim;-
  Doris!Shehadcaughtthecontagionoftheuniversalenthusiasmandhadgivenhimherfirstungrudgingtokenofapproval。Ithadalteredhiswholeoutlookonlifeinaninstant,fortherewasaneagernessinthisdemonstrationwhichproclaimedtherelievedheart。
  Shenolongertrustedeitherappearancesorherdream。Hehadsucceededinconqueringherdoubtsbytheveryforceofhispersonality,andtheshadowwhichhadhithertodarkenedtheirintercoursehadmeltedquiteaway。ShewasreadytotakehiswordnowandOswald’s,afterwhichtherestmustfollow。Lovedoesnotlagfarbehindanardentadmiration。
  Fame!Fortune!Love!Whatmorecouldamandesire?Whatmorecouldthisman,withhisstrenuouspastandanunlimitedcapacityforanenlargedfuture,askfromfatethanthis。Yet,ashebendsoverhisletters,fingeringsome,butreadingnonebeyondalineortwo,hebetraysbutapassingelation,andhardlyliftshisheadwhenaburstofloudacclaimcomesringinguptohiswindowfromsomeardentpasser-by:”HurrahforBrotherson!Hehasputourtownonthemap!”
  Whythisdespondency?Havethosetwodemonsseizedhimagain?Itwouldseemsoandwithnewandovermasteringfury。Afterthehouroftriumphcomesthehourofreckoning。OrlandoBrothersoninhishourofproudattainmentstandsnakedbeforehisownsoul’stribunalandthepleaderisdumbandthejudgeinexorable。ThereisbutoneWitnesstosuchstruggles;butoneeyetonotethewasteanddesolationofthedevastatedsoul,whenthestormisoverpast。
  OrlandoBrothersonhassuccumbed;theattackwastookeen,hisforcestooshaken。Butastheheavyminutespass,heslowlyre-gathershisstrengthandrises,intheend,aconqueror。
  Nevertheless,heknows,eveninthatmomentofregainedcommand,thatthepeacehehadthusboughtwithstrainandstressisbutmomentary;thatthebattleisonforlife:thatthedayswhichtoothereyeswouldcarryasenseofbrilliancy-daysteemingwithworkandoutwardsatisfaction-wouldholdwithintheirhiddendepthsabroodinguncertaintywhichwouldrobapplauseofitsmusicandevenovershadowtheangelfaceofLove。
  Hequailedattheprospect,materialistthoughhewas。Thedays-theinterminabledays!Inhisunbrokenstrengthandtheglareofthenoondaysun,heforgottotakeaccountofthenightsloominginblackandendlessprocessionbeforehim。Itwasfromthedayphantomheshrank,andnotfromtheghoulwhichworksinthedarknessandmakesagraveoftheheartwhilehappiermortalssleep。
  Andtheformerterrorseemedformidableenoughtohiminthishishourofstartlingrealisation,evenifhehadfreedhimselfforthenoncefromitscontrollingpower。Toescapeallfurthercontemplationofithewouldwork。Theselettersdeservedattention。HewouldcarrythemtoOswald,andintheirconsiderationfinddistractionfortherestoftheday,atleast。
  Oswaldwasagoodfellow。Ifpleasureweretobegottenfromthesetokensofgood-will,heshouldhavehisshareofit。AgleamofOswald’soldspiritinOswald’soncebrighteye,wouldgofartowardsthrottlingoneofthosedemonswhosetalonshehadjustreleasedfromhisthroat;andifDorisrespondedtoo,hewoulddeservehisfate,ifhedidnotsucceedingainingthatmasteryofhimselfwhichwouldmakesuchhoursasthesebutepisodesinalifebigwithinterestandpotentwithgreatemotions。
  Risingwitharesoluteair,hemadeabundleofhispapersand,withtheminhand,passedoutofhisroomanddownthehotelstairs。
  Amanstooddirectlyinhisway,ashemadeforthefrontdoor。
  ItwasMr。Challoner。
  Courtesydemandedsomeshowofrecognitionbetweenthem,andBrothersonwaspassingwithhisusualcoldbow,whenasuddenimpulseledhimtopauseandmeettheother’seye,withthesarcasticremark:”Youhaveexpressed,orsoIhavebeentold,somesurpriseatmychoiceofmechanician。Amanofvariedaccomplishments,Mr。
  Challoner,butoneforwhomIhavenofurtheruse。If,therefore,youwishtocalloffyourwatch-dog,youareatlibertytodoso。
  Ihardlythinkhecanbeserviceabletoeitherofusmuchlonger。”
  Theoldergentlemanhesitated,seekingpossiblyforcomposure,andwhenheanswereditwasnotonlywithoutironybutwithacertainforcedrespect:”Mr。SweetwaterhasjustleftforNewYork,Mr。Brotherson。Hewillcarrywithhim,nodoubt,thefullparticularsofyourgreatsuccess。”
  Orlandobowed,thistimewithdistinguishedgrace。Notaflickerofreliefhaddisturbedthecalmserenityofhisaspect,yetwhenamomentlater,hesteppedamonghisshoutingadmirersinthestreet,hisairandglancebetrayedaboundingjoyforwhichanothersourcemustbefoundthanthatofgratifiedpride。A
  chainhadslippedfromhisspirit,andthoughthepeopleshrankalittle,evenwhiletheycheered,itwasratherfromaweofhisbearingandtherecognitionofthatsenseofapartnesswhichunderlayhissmilethanfromanyperceptionoftheman’srealnatureoroftheawesomepurposewhichatthatmomentexaltedit。Buthadtheyknown-couldtheyhaveseenintothistumultuousheart-whatasilencewouldhavesettleduponthesenoisystreets;andinwhatterrorandsoul-confusionwouldeachmanhaveslunkawayfromhisfellowsintothequietandsolitudeofhisownhome。
  Brothersonhimselfwasnotwithoutasenseoftheincongruityunderlyingthisovation;for,asheslowlyworkedhimselfalong,thebrightnessofhislookbecamedimmedwithatingeofsarcasmwhichinitsturngavewaytoanexpressionofextrememelancholy-bothquiteunbefittingtheheroofthehourinthefirstflushofhisnew-bornglory。HadheseenDoris’youthfulfigureemergeforamomentfromthevine-hungporchhewasapproaching,bringingwithitsomedoubtofthereceptionawaitinghim?Possibly,forhemadeastandbeforehereachedthehouse,andsenthisfollowersback;afterwhichheadvancedwithanunhurryingstep,sothatseveralminuteselapsedbeforehefinallydrewupbeforeMr。Scott’sdoorandenteredthroughthenowemptyporchintohisbrother’ssitting-room。
  HehadmeanttoseeDorisfirst,buthismindhadchanged。IfallpassedoffwellbetweenhimselfandOswald,ifhefoundhisbrotherresponsiveandwide-awaketotheinterestsandnecessitiesofthehour,hemightforegohisinterviewwithhertillhefeltbetterpreparedtomeetit。Forcallitcowardiceorsimplyareasonableprecaution,anydelayseemedpreferabletohiminhispresentmoodofdiscouragement,tothatfinalcastingofthedieuponwhichhungsomanyandsuchtremendousissues。Itwasthefirstmomentofrealhaltinhiswholetumultuouslife!Never,asdaringexperimentalistoragitator,hadheshrunkfromdangerseenorunseenorfromthreatutteredorunuttered,asheshrankfromthisyounggirl’sno;andsomethingofthedreadhehadfeltlestheshouldencounterherunawareinthehallandsobeledontospeakwhenhisownjudgmentbadehimbesilent,darkenedhisfeaturesasheenteredhisbrother’spresence。
  ButOswaldwassunkinabitterreveryofhisown,andtooknoheedofthesesignsofdepression。Inthere-actionfollowingthesedaysofgreatexcitement,thepasthadre-asserteditself,andallwasgloominhisoncegeneroussoul。This,Orlandohadtimetoperceive,quickasthechangecamewhenhisbrotherreallyrealisedwhohisvisitorwas。Theglad”Orlando!”andtheforcedsmiledidnotdeceivehim,andhisvoicequaveredatrifleasheheldouthispacketwiththewords:”Ihavecometoshowyouwhattheworldsaysofmyinvention。Wewillsoonbegreatmen,”heemphasised,asOswaldopenedtheletters。”Moneyhasbeenofferedmeand-Read!read!”heurged,withanunconsciousdictatorialness,asOswaldpausedinhistask。”Seewhatthefateshavepreparedforus;foryoushallshareallmyhonours,asyouwillfromthisdaysharemyworkandenterintoallmyexperiments。Cannotyouenthusealittlebitoverit?Doesn’ttheprospectcontainanyallurementforyou?Wouldyouratherstaylockedupinthispettytown-””Yes;or-die。Don’tlooklikethat,Orlando。ItwasacowardlyspeechandIaskyourpardon。I’mhardlyfittotalkto-day。
  Edith-”
  Orlandofrowned。”Notthatname!”heharshlyinterrupted。”Youmustnothamperyourlifewithuselessmemories。Thatdreamofyoursmaybesacred,butitbelongstothepast,andagreatrealityconfrontsyou。Whenyouhavefullyrecoveredyourhealth,yourownmanhoodwillrebelataweaknessunworthyoneofourname。Rouseyourself,Oswald。Takeaccountofourprospects。Givemeyourhandandsay,’Lifeholdssomethingformeyet。IhaveabrotherwhoneedsmeifIdonotneedhim。Together,wecanproveourselvesinvincibleandwrenchfameandfortunefromtheworld。’”
  Butthehandhereachedfordidnotriseathiscommand,thoughOswaldstartederectandfacedhimwithmanlyearnestness。”Ishouldhavetothinklonganddeeply,”hesaid,”beforeItookuponmyselfresponsibilitieslikethese。Iambrokeninmindandheart,Orlando,andmustremainsotillGodmercifullydeliversme。
  Ishouldbeapoorassistanttoyou-adrag,ratherthanahelp。
  DeeplyasIdeploreit,hardasitmaybeforoneofyourtemperamenttounderstandsocompleteanoverthrow,Iyetmustacknowledgemyconditionandprayyounottocountuponmeinanyplansyoumayform。Iknowhowthislooks-Iknowthatasyourbrotherandtruestadmirer,Ishouldrespond,andrespondstrongly,tosuchoverturesasthese,butthemotiveforachievementisgone。
  Shewasmyall;andwhileImightwork,itwouldbemechanically。
  Thelift,theelevatingthoughtisgone。”
  Orlandostoodamomentstudyinghisbrother’sface;thenheturnedshortlyaboutandwalkedthelengthoftheroom。Whenhecameback,hetookuphisstandagaindirectlybeforeOswald,andasked,withanewnoteinhisvoice:”DidyouloveEdithChallonersomuchasthat?”
  AglancefromOswald’seye,sadderthananytear。”Sothatyoucannotbereconciled?”
  Agesture。Oswald’swordswerealwaysfew。
  Orlando’sfrowndeepened。”SuchgriefIpartlyunderstand,”saidhe。”Buttimewillcureit。
  Somedayanotherlovelyface-””We’llnottalkofthat,Orlando。””No,we’llnottalkofthat,”acquiescedtheinventor,walkingawayagain,thistimetothewindow。”Foryouthere’sbutonewoman;-
  andshe’samemory。””Killed!”brokefromhisbrother’slips。”Slainbyherownhandunderanimpulseofwildnessandterror!CanIeverforgetthat?
  Donotexpectit,Orlando。””Thenyoudoblameme?”OrlandoturnedandwaslookingfullatOswald。”Iblameyourunreasonablenessandyouroverweeningpride。”