Imayspendonenighthereandperhapsthenext。Ithashappenedbefore。
ThenIwillrunawayandreturntothee。’
`Buttellthemthatthouartmychela。TellthemhowthoudidstcometomewhenIwasfaintandbewildered。TellthemofourSearch,andtheywillsurelylettheegonow。’
`Ihavealreadytoldthem。Theylaugh,andtheytalkofthepolice。’
`Whatareyousaying?’askedMrBennett。
`Oah。Heonlysaysthatifyoudonotletmegoitwillstophiminhisbusiness-hisur-gentprivateaf-fairs。’ThislastwasareminiscenceofsometalkwithaEurasianclerkintheCanalDepartment,butitonlydrewasmile,whichnettledhim。`Andifyoudidknowwhathisbusinesswasyouwouldnotbeinsuchabeastlyhurrytointerfere。’
`Whatisitthen?’saidFatherVictor,notwithoutfeeling,ashewatchedthelama’sface。
`ThereisaRiverinthiscountrywhichhewishestofindsoverreemuch。ItwasputoutbyanArrowwhich-’KimtappedhisfootimpatientlyashetranslatedinhisownmindfromthevernaculartohisclumsyEnglish。
`Oah,itwasmadebyourLordGodBuddha,youknow,andifyouwashthereyouarewashedawayfromallyoursinsandmadeaswhiteascotton-wool。’
Kimhadheardmission-talkinhistime。`Iamhisdisciple,andwemustfindthatRiver。Itissoverreevaluabletous。’
`Saythatagain,’saidBennett。Kimobeyed,withamplifications。
`Butthisisgrossblasphemy!’criedtheChurchofEngland。
`Tck!Tck!’saidFatherVictorsympathetically。`I’dgiveagooddealtobeabletotalkthevernacular。Ariverthatwashesawaysin!Andhowlonghaveyoutwobeenlookingforit?’
`Oh,manydays。Nowwewishtogoawayandlookforitagain。Itisnothere,yousee。’
`Isee,’saidFatherVictorgravely。`Buthecan’tgooninthatoldman’scompany。Itwouldbedifferent,Kim,ifyouwerenotasoldier’sson。TellhimthattheRegimentwilltakecareofyouandmakeyouasgoodamanasyour-asgoodamanascanbe。Tellhimthatifhebelievesinmiracleshemustbelievethat-’
`Thereisnoneedtoplayonhiscredulity,’Bennettinterrupted。
`I’mdoingnosuchthing。Hemustbelievethattheboy’scominghere-tohisownRegiment-insearchofhisRedBullisinthenatureofamiracle。Considerthechancesagainstit,Bennett。ThisoneboyinallIndia,andourRegimentofallothersonthelineo’marchforhimtomeetwith!It’spredestinedonthefaceofit。Yes,tellhimit’sKismet。Kismet,mallum?[Doyouunderstand?]’
Heturnedtowardsthelama,towhomhemightaswellhavetalkedofMesopotamia。
`Theysay,’-theoldman’seyelightedatKim’sspeech-`theysaythatthemeaningofmyhoroscopeisnowaccomplished,andthatbeingledback-thoughasthouknowestIwentoutofcuriosity-tothesepeopleandtheirRedBullImustneedsgotoamadrissahandbeturnedintoaSahib。NowImakepretenceofagreement,forattheworstitwillbebutafewmealseatenawayfromthee。ThenIwillslipawayandfollowdowntheroadtoSaharunpore。Therefore,HolyOne,keepwiththatKuluwoman-onnoaccountstrayfarfromhercarttillIcomeagain。Pastquestion,mysignisofWarandofarmedmen。Seehowtheyhavegivenmewinetodrinkandsetmeuponabedofhonour!Myfathermusthavebeensomegreatperson。Soiftheyraisemetohonouramongthem,good。Ifnot,goodagain。
Howeveritgoes,IwillrunbacktotheewhenIamtired。ButstaywiththeRajputni,orIshallmissthyfeet……Oahyess,’saidtheboy,`Ihavetoldhimeverythingyoutellmetosay。’
`AndIcannotseeanyneedwhyheshouldwait,’saidBennett,feelinginhistrouser-pocket。`Wecaninvestigatethedetailslater-andIwillgivehimaru-’
`Givehimtime。Maybehe’sfondofthelad,’saidFatherVictor,halfarrestingtheclergyman’smotion。
Thelamadraggedforthhisrosaryandpulledhishugehat-brimoverhiseyes。
`Whatcanhewantnow?’
`Hesays’-Kimputuponehand。`Hesays:Bequiett。Hewantstospeaktomebyhimself。Yousee,youdonotknowonelittlewordofwhathesays,andIthinkifyoutalkhewillperhapsgiveyouverybadcurses。Whenhetakesthosebeadslikethat,yousee,healwayswantstobequiett。’
ThetwoEnglishmensatoverwhelmed,buttherewasalookinBennett’seyethatpromisedillforKimwhenheshouldberelaxedtothereligiousarm。
`ASahibandthesonofaSahib-’Thelama’svoicewasharshwithpain。`Butnowhitemanknowsthelandandthecustomsofthelandasthouknowest。Howcomesitthisistrue?’
`Whatmatter,HolyOne?-butrememberitisonlyforanightortwo。
Remember,Icanchangeswiftly。ItwillallbeasitwaswhenIfirstspoketotheeunderZam-Zammahthegreatgun-’
`Asaboyinthedressofwhitemen-whenIfirstwenttotheWonderHouse。AndasecondtimethouwastaHindu。Whatshallthethirdincarnationbe?’Hechuckleddrearily。`Ah,chela,thouhasdoneawrongtoanoldmanbecausemyheartwentouttothee。’
`Andminetothee。ButhowcouldIknowthattheRedBullwouldbringmetothisbusiness?’
Thelamacoveredhisfaceafresh,andnervouslyrattledtherosary。
Kimsquattedbesidehimandlaidholduponafoldofhisclothing。
`NowitisunderstoodthattheboyisaSahib?’hewentoninamuffledtone。`SuchaSahibaswashewhokepttheimagesintheWonderHouse。’
Thelama’sexperienceofwhitemenwaslimited。Heseemedtoberepeatingalesson。`SothenitisnotseemlythatheshoulddootherthanastheSahibsdo。Hemustgobacktohisownpeople。’
`Foradayandanightandaday,’Kimpleaded。
`No,yedon’t!’FatherVictorsawKimedgingtowardsthedoor,andinterposedastrongleg。
`Idonotunderstandthecustomsofwhitemen。ThePriestoftheImagesintheWonderHouseinLahorewasmorecourteousthanthethinonehere。
Thisboywillbetakenfromme。TheywillmakeaSahibofmydisciple?
Woetome!HowshallIfindmyRiver?Havetheynodisciples?Ask。’
`HesaysheisverysorreethathecannotfindtheRivernowanymore。
Hesays,Whyhaveyounodisciples,andstopbotheringhim?Hewantstobewashedofhissins。’
NeitherBennettnorFatherVictorfoundanyanswerready。
SaidKiminEnglish,distressedforthelama’sagony:`Ithinkifyouwillletmegonowwewillwalkawayquietlyandnotsteal。WewilllookforthatRiverlikebeforeIwascaught。IwishIdidnotcomeheretofindtheRedBullandallthatsortofthing。Idonotwantit。’
`It’stheverybestday’sworkyoueverdidforyourself,youngman,’
saidBennett。
`Goodheavens,Idon’tknowhowtoconsolehim,’saidFatherVictor,watchingthelamaintently。`Hecan’ttaketheboyawaywithhim,andyethe’sagoodman-I’msurehe’sagoodman。Bennett,ifyougivehimthatrupeehe’llcurseyourootandbranch!’
Theylistenedtoeachother’sbreathing-three-fivefullminutes。
Thenthelamaraisedhishead,andlookedforthacrossthemintospaceandemptiness。
`AndIamaFolloweroftheWay,’hesaidbitterly。`Thesinismineandthepunishmentismine。Imadebelievetomyself-fornowIseeitwasbutmake-belief-thatthouwastsenttometoaidintheSearch。Somyheartwentouttotheeforthycharityandthycourtesyandthewisdomofthylittleyears。ButthosewhofollowtheWaymustpermitnotthefireofanydesireorattachment,forthatisallIllusion。Assays……`Hequotedanold,oldChinesetext,backeditwithanother,andreinforcedthesewithathird。`IsteppedasidefromtheWay,mychela。Itwasnofaultofthine。Idelightedinthesightoflife,thenewpeopleupontheroads,andinthyjoyatseeingthesethings。IwaspleasedwiththeewhoshouldhaveconsideredmySearchandmySearchalone。NowIamsorrowfulbecausethouarttakenawayandmyRiverisfarfromme。ItistheLawwhichIhavebroken!’
`PowersofDarknessbelow!’saidFatherVictor,who,wiseintheconfessional,heardthepainineverysentence。
`IseenowthatthesignoftheRedBullwasasignformeaswellasforthee。AllDesireisred-andevil。IwilldopenanceandfindmyRiveralone。’
`AtleastgobacktotheKuluwoman,’saidKim,`otherwisethouwiltbelostupontheroads。ShewillfeedtheetillIrunbacktothee。’
Thelamawavedahandtoshowthatthematterwasfinallysettledinhismind。
`Now,’-histonealteredasheturnedtoKim,-`whatwilltheydowiththee?AtleastImay,acquiringmerit,wipeoutpastill。’
`MakemeaSahib-sotheythink。ThedayaftertomorrowIreturn。Donotgrieve。’
`Ofwhatsort?Suchanoneasthisorthatman?’HepointedtoFatherVictor。`SuchanoneasthoseIsawthisevening-menwearingswordsandstampingheavily?’
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