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第20章

Kim
  Imayspendonenighthereandperhapsthenext。Ithashappenedbefore。
  ThenIwillrunawayandreturntothee。’
  `Buttellthemthatthouartmychela。TellthemhowthoudidstcometomewhenIwasfaintandbewildered。TellthemofourSearch,andtheywillsurelylettheegonow。’
  `Ihavealreadytoldthem。Theylaugh,andtheytalkofthepolice。’
  `Whatareyousaying?’askedMrBennett。
  `Oah。Heonlysaysthatifyoudonotletmegoitwillstophiminhisbusiness-hisur-gentprivateaf-fairs。’ThislastwasareminiscenceofsometalkwithaEurasianclerkintheCanalDepartment,butitonlydrewasmile,whichnettledhim。`Andifyoudidknowwhathisbusinesswasyouwouldnotbeinsuchabeastlyhurrytointerfere。’
  `Whatisitthen?’saidFatherVictor,notwithoutfeeling,ashewatchedthelama’sface。
  `ThereisaRiverinthiscountrywhichhewishestofindsoverreemuch。ItwasputoutbyanArrowwhich-’KimtappedhisfootimpatientlyashetranslatedinhisownmindfromthevernaculartohisclumsyEnglish。
  `Oah,itwasmadebyourLordGodBuddha,youknow,andifyouwashthereyouarewashedawayfromallyoursinsandmadeaswhiteascotton-wool。’
  Kimhadheardmission-talkinhistime。`Iamhisdisciple,andwemustfindthatRiver。Itissoverreevaluabletous。’
  `Saythatagain,’saidBennett。Kimobeyed,withamplifications。
  `Butthisisgrossblasphemy!’criedtheChurchofEngland。
  `Tck!Tck!’saidFatherVictorsympathetically。`I’dgiveagooddealtobeabletotalkthevernacular。Ariverthatwashesawaysin!Andhowlonghaveyoutwobeenlookingforit?’
  `Oh,manydays。Nowwewishtogoawayandlookforitagain。Itisnothere,yousee。’
  `Isee,’saidFatherVictorgravely。`Buthecan’tgooninthatoldman’scompany。Itwouldbedifferent,Kim,ifyouwerenotasoldier’sson。TellhimthattheRegimentwilltakecareofyouandmakeyouasgoodamanasyour-asgoodamanascanbe。Tellhimthatifhebelievesinmiracleshemustbelievethat-’
  `Thereisnoneedtoplayonhiscredulity,’Bennettinterrupted。
  `I’mdoingnosuchthing。Hemustbelievethattheboy’scominghere-tohisownRegiment-insearchofhisRedBullisinthenatureofamiracle。Considerthechancesagainstit,Bennett。ThisoneboyinallIndia,andourRegimentofallothersonthelineo’marchforhimtomeetwith!It’spredestinedonthefaceofit。Yes,tellhimit’sKismet。Kismet,mallum?[Doyouunderstand?]’
  Heturnedtowardsthelama,towhomhemightaswellhavetalkedofMesopotamia。
  `Theysay,’-theoldman’seyelightedatKim’sspeech-`theysaythatthemeaningofmyhoroscopeisnowaccomplished,andthatbeingledback-thoughasthouknowestIwentoutofcuriosity-tothesepeopleandtheirRedBullImustneedsgotoamadrissahandbeturnedintoaSahib。NowImakepretenceofagreement,forattheworstitwillbebutafewmealseatenawayfromthee。ThenIwillslipawayandfollowdowntheroadtoSaharunpore。Therefore,HolyOne,keepwiththatKuluwoman-onnoaccountstrayfarfromhercarttillIcomeagain。Pastquestion,mysignisofWarandofarmedmen。Seehowtheyhavegivenmewinetodrinkandsetmeuponabedofhonour!Myfathermusthavebeensomegreatperson。Soiftheyraisemetohonouramongthem,good。Ifnot,goodagain。
  Howeveritgoes,IwillrunbacktotheewhenIamtired。ButstaywiththeRajputni,orIshallmissthyfeet……Oahyess,’saidtheboy,`Ihavetoldhimeverythingyoutellmetosay。’
  `AndIcannotseeanyneedwhyheshouldwait,’saidBennett,feelinginhistrouser-pocket。`Wecaninvestigatethedetailslater-andIwillgivehimaru-’
  `Givehimtime。Maybehe’sfondofthelad,’saidFatherVictor,halfarrestingtheclergyman’smotion。
  Thelamadraggedforthhisrosaryandpulledhishugehat-brimoverhiseyes。
  `Whatcanhewantnow?’
  `Hesays’-Kimputuponehand。`Hesays:Bequiett。Hewantstospeaktomebyhimself。Yousee,youdonotknowonelittlewordofwhathesays,andIthinkifyoutalkhewillperhapsgiveyouverybadcurses。Whenhetakesthosebeadslikethat,yousee,healwayswantstobequiett。’
  ThetwoEnglishmensatoverwhelmed,buttherewasalookinBennett’seyethatpromisedillforKimwhenheshouldberelaxedtothereligiousarm。
  `ASahibandthesonofaSahib-’Thelama’svoicewasharshwithpain。`Butnowhitemanknowsthelandandthecustomsofthelandasthouknowest。Howcomesitthisistrue?’
  `Whatmatter,HolyOne?-butrememberitisonlyforanightortwo。
  Remember,Icanchangeswiftly。ItwillallbeasitwaswhenIfirstspoketotheeunderZam-Zammahthegreatgun-’
  `Asaboyinthedressofwhitemen-whenIfirstwenttotheWonderHouse。AndasecondtimethouwastaHindu。Whatshallthethirdincarnationbe?’Hechuckleddrearily。`Ah,chela,thouhasdoneawrongtoanoldmanbecausemyheartwentouttothee。’
  `Andminetothee。ButhowcouldIknowthattheRedBullwouldbringmetothisbusiness?’
  Thelamacoveredhisfaceafresh,andnervouslyrattledtherosary。
  Kimsquattedbesidehimandlaidholduponafoldofhisclothing。
  `NowitisunderstoodthattheboyisaSahib?’hewentoninamuffledtone。`SuchaSahibaswashewhokepttheimagesintheWonderHouse。’
  Thelama’sexperienceofwhitemenwaslimited。Heseemedtoberepeatingalesson。`SothenitisnotseemlythatheshoulddootherthanastheSahibsdo。Hemustgobacktohisownpeople。’
  `Foradayandanightandaday,’Kimpleaded。
  `No,yedon’t!’FatherVictorsawKimedgingtowardsthedoor,andinterposedastrongleg。
  `Idonotunderstandthecustomsofwhitemen。ThePriestoftheImagesintheWonderHouseinLahorewasmorecourteousthanthethinonehere。
  Thisboywillbetakenfromme。TheywillmakeaSahibofmydisciple?
  Woetome!HowshallIfindmyRiver?Havetheynodisciples?Ask。’
  `HesaysheisverysorreethathecannotfindtheRivernowanymore。
  Hesays,Whyhaveyounodisciples,andstopbotheringhim?Hewantstobewashedofhissins。’
  NeitherBennettnorFatherVictorfoundanyanswerready。
  SaidKiminEnglish,distressedforthelama’sagony:`Ithinkifyouwillletmegonowwewillwalkawayquietlyandnotsteal。WewilllookforthatRiverlikebeforeIwascaught。IwishIdidnotcomeheretofindtheRedBullandallthatsortofthing。Idonotwantit。’
  `It’stheverybestday’sworkyoueverdidforyourself,youngman,’
  saidBennett。
  `Goodheavens,Idon’tknowhowtoconsolehim,’saidFatherVictor,watchingthelamaintently。`Hecan’ttaketheboyawaywithhim,andyethe’sagoodman-I’msurehe’sagoodman。Bennett,ifyougivehimthatrupeehe’llcurseyourootandbranch!’
  Theylistenedtoeachother’sbreathing-three-fivefullminutes。
  Thenthelamaraisedhishead,andlookedforthacrossthemintospaceandemptiness。
  `AndIamaFolloweroftheWay,’hesaidbitterly。`Thesinismineandthepunishmentismine。Imadebelievetomyself-fornowIseeitwasbutmake-belief-thatthouwastsenttometoaidintheSearch。Somyheartwentouttotheeforthycharityandthycourtesyandthewisdomofthylittleyears。ButthosewhofollowtheWaymustpermitnotthefireofanydesireorattachment,forthatisallIllusion。Assays……`Hequotedanold,oldChinesetext,backeditwithanother,andreinforcedthesewithathird。`IsteppedasidefromtheWay,mychela。Itwasnofaultofthine。Idelightedinthesightoflife,thenewpeopleupontheroads,andinthyjoyatseeingthesethings。IwaspleasedwiththeewhoshouldhaveconsideredmySearchandmySearchalone。NowIamsorrowfulbecausethouarttakenawayandmyRiverisfarfromme。ItistheLawwhichIhavebroken!’
  `PowersofDarknessbelow!’saidFatherVictor,who,wiseintheconfessional,heardthepainineverysentence。
  `IseenowthatthesignoftheRedBullwasasignformeaswellasforthee。AllDesireisred-andevil。IwilldopenanceandfindmyRiveralone。’
  `AtleastgobacktotheKuluwoman,’saidKim,`otherwisethouwiltbelostupontheroads。ShewillfeedtheetillIrunbacktothee。’
  Thelamawavedahandtoshowthatthematterwasfinallysettledinhismind。
  `Now,’-histonealteredasheturnedtoKim,-`whatwilltheydowiththee?AtleastImay,acquiringmerit,wipeoutpastill。’
  `MakemeaSahib-sotheythink。ThedayaftertomorrowIreturn。Donotgrieve。’
  `Ofwhatsort?Suchanoneasthisorthatman?’HepointedtoFatherVictor。`SuchanoneasthoseIsawthisevening-menwearingswordsandstampingheavily?’