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第57章

  `Abitofabedcouldbemadeonthefloor。Itwouldbegoodenoughforme。’
  Unabletobeharshwithher,andnotknowingwhattodo,Judecalledthemanwholetthelodgings,andsaidthiswasanacquaintanceofhisingreatdistressforwantoftemporaryshelter。
  `YoumayremembermeasbarmaidattheLambandFlagformerly?’
  spokeupArabella。`Myfatherhasinsultedmethisafternoon,andI’velefthim,thoughwithoutapenny!’
  Thehouseholdersaidhecouldnotrecallherfeatures。`Butstill,ifyouareafriendofMr。Fawley’swe’lldowhatwecanforadayortwo-ifhe’llmakehimselfanswerable?’
  `Yes,yes,’saidJude。`Shehasreallytakenmequiteunawares;
  butIshouldwishtohelpheroutofherdifficulty。’AndanarrangementwasultimatelycometounderwhichabedwastobethrowndowninJude’slumber-room,tomakeitcomfortableforArabellatillshecouldgetoutofthestraitshewasin-notbyherownfault,asshedeclared-andreturntoherfather’sagain。
  WhiletheywerewaitingforthistobedoneArabellasaid:`Youknowthenews,Isuppose?’
  `Iguesswhatyoumean;butIknownothing。’
  `IhadaletterfromAnnyatAlfredstonto-day。Shehadjustheardthattheweddingwastobeyesterday:butshedidn’tknowifithadcomeoff。’
  `Idon’twishtotalkofit。’
  `No,no:ofcourseyoudon’t。Onlyitshowswhatkindofwoman——’
  `Don’tspeakofherIsay!She’safool!Andshe’sanangel,too,poordear!’
  `Ifit’sdone,he’llhaveachanceofgettingbacktohisoldposition,byeverybody’saccount,soAnnysays。Allhiswell-wisherswillbepleased,includingthebishophimself。’
  `Dospareme,Arabella。’
  Arabellawasdulyinstalledinthelittleattic,andatfirstshedidnotcomenearJudeatall。Shewenttoandfroaboutherownbusiness,which,whentheymetforamomentonthestairsorinthepassage,sheinformedhimwasthatofobtaininganotherplaceintheoccupationsheunderstoodbest。WhenJudesuggestedLondonasaffordingthemostlikelyopeningintheliquortrade,sheshookherhead。`No-thetemptationsaretoomany,’shesaid。`Anyhumbletaverninthecountrybeforethatforme。’
  OntheSundaymorningfollowing,whenhebreakfastedlaterthanonotherdays,shemeeklyaskedhimifshemightcomeintobreakfastwithhim,asshehadbrokenherteapot,andcouldnotreplaceitimmediately,theshopsbeingshut。
  `Yes,ifyoulike,’hesaidindifferently。
  Whiletheysatwithoutspeakingshesuddenlyobserved:`Youseemallinabrood,oldman。I’msorryforyou。’
  `Iamallinabrood。’
  `Itisabouther,Iknow。It’snobusinessofmine,butIcouldfindoutallaboutthewedding-ifitreallydidtakeplace-ifyouwantedtoknow。’
  `Howcouldyou?’
  `IwantedtogotoAlfredstontogetafewthingsIleftthere。
  AndIcouldseeAnny,who’llbesuretohaveheardallaboutit,asshehasfriendsatMarygreen。’
  Judecouldnotbeartoacquiesceinthisproposal;buthissuspensepitteditselfagainsthisdiscretion,andwoninthestruggle。`Youcanaskaboutitifyoulike,’hesaid。`I’venotheardasoundfromthere。
  Itmusthavebeenveryprivate,if-theyhavemarried。’
  `IamafraidIhaven’tenoughcashtotakemethereandback,orIshouldhavegonebefore。ImustwaittillIhaveearnedsome。’
  `Oh-Icanpaythejourneyforyou,’hesaidimpatiently。AndthushissuspenseastoSue’swelfare,andthepossiblemarriage,movedhimtodispatchforintelligencethelastemissaryhewouldhavethoughtofchoosingdeliberately。
  Arabellawent,Juderequestinghertobehomenotlaterthanbytheseveno’clocktrain。Whenshehadgonehesaid:`WhyshouldIhavechargedhertobebackbyaparticulartime!She’snothingtome-northeotherneither!’
  ButhavingfinishedworkhecouldnothelpgoingtothestationtomeetArabella,draggedthitherbyfeverishhastetogetthenewsshemightbring,andknowtheworst。Arabellahadmadedimplesmostsuccessfullyallthewayhome,andwhenshesteppedoutoftherailwaycarriageshesmiled。Hemerelysaid`Well?’withtheveryreverseofasmile。
  `Theyaremarried。’
  `Yes-ofcoursetheyare!’hereturned。Sheobserved,however,thehardstrainuponhislipashespoke。
  `AnnysaysshehasheardfromBelinda,herrelationoutatMarygreen,thatitwasverysad,andcurious!’
  `Howdoyoumeansad?Shewantedtomarryhimagain,didn’tshe?
  Andheher!’
  `Yes-thatwasit。Shewantedtoinonesense,butnotintheother。Mrs。Edlinwasmuchupsetbyitall,andspokeouthermindatPhillotson。
  ButSuewasthatexcitedaboutitthatsheburntherbestembroiderythatshe’dwornwithyou,toblotyououtentirely。Well-ifawomanfeelslikeit,sheoughttodoit。Icommendherforit,thoughothersdon’t。’
  Arabellasighed。`Shefelthewasheronlyhusband,andthatshebelongedtonobodyelseinthesightofGodA’mightywhilehelived。Perhapsanotherwomanfeelsthesameaboutherself,too!’Arabellasighedagain。
  `Idon’twantanycant!’exclaimedJude。
  `Itisn’tcant,’saidArabella。`Ifeelexactlythesameasshe!’
  Heclosedthatissuebyremarkingabruptly:`Well-nowIknowallIwantedtoknow。Manythanksforyourinformation。Iamnotgoingbacktomylodgingsjustyet。’Andheleftherstraightway。
  InhismiseryanddepressionJudewalkedtowell-nigheveryspotinthecitythathehadvisitedwithSue;thencehedidnotknowwhither,andthenthoughtofgoinghometohisusualeveningmeal。Buthavingallthevicesofhisvirtues,andsometospare,heturnedintoapublichouse,forthefirsttimeduringmanymonths。AmongthepossibleconsequencesofhermarriageSuehadnotdweltonthis。
  Arabella,meanwhile,hadgoneback。Theeveningpassed,andJudedidnotreturn。Athalf-pastnineArabellaherselfwentout,firstproceedingtoanoutlyingdistrictneartheriverwhereherfatherlived,andhadopenedasmallandprecariouspork-shoplately。
  `Well,’shesaidtohim,`forallyourrowingmethatnight,I’vecalledin,forIhavesomethingtotellyou。IthinkIshallgetmarriedandsettledagain。Onlyyoumusthelpme:andyoucandonoless,afterwhatI’vestood’ee。’
  `I’lldoanythingtogettheeoffmyhands!’
  `Verywell。Iamnowgoingtolookformyyoungman。He’sonthelooseI’mafraid,andImustgethimhome。AllIwantyoutodoto-nightisnottofastenthedoor,incaseIshouldwanttosleephere,andshouldbelate。’
  `Ithoughtyou’dsoongettiredofgivingyourselfairsandkeepingaway!’
  `Well-don’tdothedoor。That’sallIsay。’
  Shethensalliedoutagain,andfirsthasteningbacktoJude’stomakesurethathehadnotreturned,beganhersearchforhim。AshrewdguessastohisprobablecoursetookherstraighttothetavernwhichJudehadformerlyfrequented,andwhereshehadbeenbarmaidforabriefterm。
  Shehadnosooneropenedthedoorofthe`PrivateBar’thanhereyesfelluponhim-sittingintheshadeatthebackofthecompartment,withhiseyesfixedonthefloorinablankstare。Hewasdrinkingnothingstrongerthanalejustthen。Hedidnotobserveher,andsheenteredandsatbesidehim。
  Judelookedup,andsaidwithoutsurprise:`You’vecometohavesomething,Arabella?……I’mtryingtoforgether:that’sall!ButIcan’t;
  andIamgoinghome。’Shesawthathewasalittlewayoninliquor,butonlyalittleasyet。
  `I’vecomeentirelytolookforyou,dearboy。Youarenotwell。
  Nowyoumusthavesomethingbetterthanthat。’Arabellaheldupherfingertothebarmaid。`Youshallhavealiqueur-that’sbetterfitforamanofeducationthanbeer。Youshallhavemaraschino,orcuracaodryorsweet,orcherrybrandy。I’lltreatyou,poorchap!’
  `Idon’tcarewhich!Saycherrybrandy……Suehasservedmebadly,verybadly。Ididn’texpectitofSue!Istucktoher,andsheoughttohavestucktome。I’dhavesoldmysoulforhersake,butshewouldn’triskhersajotforme。Tosaveherownsoulsheletsminegodamn!……
  Butitisn’therfault,poorlittlegirl-Iamsureitisn’t!’
  HowArabellahadobtainedmoneydidnotappear,butsheorderedaliqueureach,andpaidforthem。WhentheyhaddrunktheseArabellasuggestedanother;andJudehadthepleasureofbeing,asitwere,personallyconductedthroughthevarietiesofspirituousdelectationbyonewhoknewthelandmarkswell。ArabellakeptveryconsiderablyintherearofJude;butthoughsheonlysippedwherehedrank,shetookasmuchasshecouldsafelytakewithoutlosingherhead-whichwasnotalittle,asthecrimsonuponhercountenanceshowed。
  Hertonetowardshimto-nightwasuniformlysoothingandcajoling;
  andwheneverhesaid`Idon’tcarewhathappenstome,’athinghedidcontinually,shereplied,`ButIdoverymuch!’Theclosinghourcame,andtheywerecompelledtoturnout;whereuponArabellaputherarmroundhiswaist,andguidedhisunsteadyfootsteps。
  Whentheywereinthestreetsshesaid:`Idon’tknowwhatourlandlordwillsaytomybringingyouhomeinthisstate。Iexpectwearefastenedout,sothathe’llhavetocomedownandletusin。’
  `Idon’tknow-Idon’tknow。’
  `That’stheworstofnothavingahomeofyourown。Itellyou,Jude,whatwehadbestdo。Comeroundtomyfather’s-Imadeitupwithhimabitto-day。Icanletyouin,andnobodywillseeyouatall;andbyto-morrowmorningyou’llbeallright。’
  `Anything-anywhere,’repliedJude。`Whatthedevildoesitmattertome?’
  Theywentalongtogether,likeanyotherfuddlingcouple,herarmstillroundhiswaist,andhis,atlast,roundhers;thoughwithnoamatoryintent;butmerelybecausehewasweary,unstable,andinneedofsupport。
  `This-isth’Martyrs’-burning-place,’hestammeredastheydraggedacrossabroadstreet。`Iremember-inoldFuller’sHolyState-andIamremindedofit-byourpassingbyhere-oldFullerinhisHolyStatesays,thatattheburningofRidley,DoctorSmith-preachedsermon,andtookashistext`ThoughIgivemybodytobeburned,andhavenotcharity,itprofitethmenothing。’-OftenthinkofitasIpasshere。Ridleywasa——’
  `Yes。Exactly。Verythoughtfulofyou,deary,eventhoughithasn’tmuchtodowithourpresentbusiness。’
  `Why,yesithas!I’mgivingmybodytobeburned!But-ah-
  youdon’tunderstand!-itwantsSuetounderstandsuchthings!AndIwasherseducer-poorlittlegirl!Andshe’sgone-andIdon’tcareaboutmyself!Dowhatyoulikewithme!……Andyetshediditforconscience’
  sake,poorlittleSue!’
  `Hangher!-Imean,Ithinkshewasright,’hiccupedArabella。
  `I’vemyfeelingstoo,likeher;andIfeelIbelongtoyouinHeaven’seye,andtonobodyelse,tilldeathusdopart!Itis-hic-nevertoolate-hictomend!’
  Theyhadreachedherfather’shouse,andshesoftlyunfastenedthedoor,gropingaboutforalightwithin。
  ThecircumstanceswerenotaltogetherunlikethoseoftheirentryintothecottageatCresscombe,suchalongtimebefore。NorwereperhapsArabella’smotives。ButJudedidnotthinkofthat,thoughshedid。
  `Ican’tfindthematches,dear,’shesaidwhenshehadfastenedupthedoor。`Butnevermind-thisway。Asquietasyoucan,please。’
  `Itisasdarkaspitch,’saidJude。
  `Givemeyourhand,andI’llleadyou。That’sit。Justsitdownhere,andI’llpulloffyourboots。Idon’twanttowakehim。’
  `Who?’
  `Father。He’dmakearow,perhaps。’
  Shepulledoffhisboots。`Now,’shewhispered,`takeholdofme-nevermindyourweight。Now-firststair,secondstair’
  `But,-areweoutinouroldhousebyMarygreen?’askedthestupefiedJude。`Ihaven’tbeeninsideitforyearstillnow!Hey?Andwherearemybooks?That’swhatIwanttoknow?’
  `Weareatmyhouse,dear,wherethere’snobodytospyouthowillyouare。Now-thirdstair,fourthstair-that’sit。Nowweshallgeton。’
  JudetheObscureChapter49VI-viiArabellawaspreparingbreakfastinthedownstairsbackroomofthissmall,recentlyhiredtenementofherfather’s。Sheputherheadintothelittlepork-shopinfront,andtoldMr。Donnitwasready。Donn,endeavouringtolooklikeamasterpork-butcher,inagreasyblueblouse,andwithastraproundhiswaistfromwhichasteeldangled,cameinpromptly。