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第46章

  Theywentbacktowheretheotherswerestanding,talkinginundertones:
  andonesaid-Suecouldnothearwhich-`She’shiswife,Isuppose?’
  `SomesayYes:somesayNo,’wasthereplyfromthecharwoman。
  `Not?Thensheoughttobe,orsomebody’s-that’sveryclear!’
  `They’veonlybeenmarriedaveryfewweeks,whetherorno。’
  `AstrangepairtobepaintingtheTwoTables!IwonderBilesandWilliscouldthinkofsuchathingashiringthose!’
  ThechurchwardensupposedthatBilesandWillisknewofnothingwrong,andthentheother,whohadbeentalkingtotheoldwoman,explainedwhatshemeantbycallingthemstrangepeople。
  Theprobabledriftofthesubduedconversationwhichfollowedwasmadeplainbythechurchwardenbreakingintoananecdote,inavoicethateverybodyinthechurchcouldhear,thoughobviouslysuggestedbythepresentsituation:
  `Well,now,itisacuriousthing,butmygrandfathertoldmeastrangetaleofamostimmoralcasethathappenedatthepaintingoftheCommandmentsinachurchoutbyGaymead-whichisquitewithinawalkofthisone。InthemdaysCommandmentsweremostlydoneingiltlettersonablackground,andthat’showtheywereoutwhereIsay,beforetheowldchurchwasrebuilded。ItmusthavebeensomewhereaboutahundredyearsagothatthemCommandmentswanteddoingupjustasoursdohere,andtheyhadtogetmenfromAldbrickhamtodo’em。NowtheywishedtogetthejobfinishedbyaparticularSunday,sothemenhadtoworklateSaturdaynight,againsttheirwill,forovertimewasnotpaidthenas’tisnow。Therewasnotruereligioninthecountryatthatdate,neitheramongpa’sons,clerks,norpeople,andtokeepthemenuptotheirworkthevicarhadtolet’emhaveplentyofdrinkduringtheafternoon。Aseveningdrawedontheysentforsomemorethemselves;rum,byallaccount。Itgotlaterandlater,andtheygotmoreandmorefuddled,tillatlasttheywenta-puttingtheirrum-bottleandrummersuponthecommuniontable,anddrawedupatrestleortwo,andsateroundcomfortableandpouredoutagainrightheartybumpers。Nosoonerhadtheytossedofftheirglassesthan,sothestorygoestheyfelldownsenseless,oneandall。Howlongtheybodesotheydidn’tknow,butwhentheycametothemselvestherewasaterriblethunder-storma-raging,andtheyseemedtoseeinthegloomadarkfigurewithverythinlegsandacuriousvoot,a-standingontheladder,andfinishingtheirwork。Whenitgotdaylighttheycouldseethattheworkwasreallyfinished,andcouldn’tatallmindfinishingitthemselves。Theywenthome,andthenextthingtheyheardwasthatagreatscandalhadbeencausedinthechurchthatSundaymorning,forwhenthepeoplecameandservicebegan,allsawthattheTenCommandmentswezpaintedwiththe`nots’leftout。Decentpeoplewouldn’tattendservicethereforalongtime,andtheBishophadtobesentfortoreconsecratethechurch。That’sthetraditionasIusedtohearitasachild。Youmusttakeitforwhatitiswo’th,butthiscaseto-dayhasremindedmeo’t,asIsay。’
  Thevisitorsgaveonemoreglance,asiftoseewhetherJudeandSuehadleftthe`nots’outlikewise,andthenseverallyleftthechurch,eventheoldwomanatlast。SueandJude,whohadnotstoppedworking,sentbackthechildtoschool,andremainedwithoutspeaking;till,lookingathernarrowly,hefoundshehadbeencryingsilently。
  `Nevermind,comrade!’hesaid。`Iknowwhatitis!’
  `Ican’tbearthatthey,andeverybody,shouldthinkpeoplewickedbecausetheymayhavechosentolivetheirownway!Itisreallytheseopinionsthatmakethebestintentionedpeoplereckless,andactuallybecomeimmoral!’
  `Neverbecastdown!Itwasonlyafunnystory。’
  `Ah,butwesuggestedit!IamafraidIhavedoneyoumischief,Jude,insteadofhelpingyoubycoming!’
  Tohavesuggestedsuchastorywascertainlynotveryexhilarating,inaseriousviewoftheirposition。However,inafewminutesSueseemedtoseethattheirpositionthismorninghadaludicrousside,andwipinghereyesshelaughed。
  `Itisdroll,afterall,’shesaid,`thatwetwo,ofallpeople,withourqueerhistory,shouldhappentobeherepaintingtheTenCommandments!
  Youareprobate,andI-inmycondition……Odear!’……Andwithherhandoverhereyesshelaughedagainsilentlyandintermittently,tillshewasquiteweak。
  `That’sbetter,’saidJudegaily。`Nowwearerightagain,aren’twe,littlegirl!’
  `Ohbutitisserious,allthesame!’shesighedasshetookupthebrushandrightedherself。`Butdoyouseetheydon’tthinkwearemarried?Theywon’tbelieveit!Itisextraordinary!’
  `Idon’tcarewhethertheythinksoornot,’saidJude。`Ishan’ttakeanymoretroubletomakethem。’
  Theysatdowntolunch-whichtheyhadbroughtwiththemnottohindertime-andhavingeatenitwereabouttosettoworkanewwhenamanenteredthechurch,andJuderecognizedinhimthecontractorWillis。
  HebeckonedtoJude,andspoketohimapart。
  `Here-I’vejusthadacomplaintaboutthis,’hesaid,withratherbreathlessawkwardness。`Idon’twishtogointothematter-asofcourseIdidn’tknowwhatwasgoingon-butIamafraidImustaskyouandhertoleaveoff,andletsomebodyelsefinishthis!Itisbest,toavoidallunpleasantness。I’llpayyoufortheweek,allthesame。’
  Judewastooindependenttomakeanyfuss;andthecontractorpaidhim,andleft。Judepickeduphistools,andSuecleansedherbrush。
  Thentheireyesmet。
  `Howcouldwebesosimpleastosupposewemightdothis!’saidshe,droppingtohertragicnote。`Ofcourseweoughtnot-Ioughtnot-tohavecome!’
  `Ihadnoideathatanybodywasgoingtointrudeintosuchalonelyplaceandseeus!’Judereturned。`Well,itcan’tbehelped,dear;andofcourseIwouldn’twishtoinjureWillis’strade-connectionbystaying。’
  Theysatdownpassivelyforafewminutes,proceededoutofthechurch,andovertakingtheboypursuedtheirthoughtfulwaytoAldbrickham。
  Fawleyhadstillaprettyzealinthecauseofeducation,and,aswasnaturalwithhisexperiences,hewasactiveinfurthering`equalityofopportunity’byanyhumblemeansopentohim。HehadjoinedanArtizans’
  MutualImprovementSocietyestablishedinthetownaboutthetimeofhisarrivalthere;itsmembersbeingyoungmenofallcreedsanddenominations,includingChurchmen,Congregationalists,Baptists,Unitarians,Positivists,andothers-agnosticshadscarcelybeenheardofatthistime-theironecommonwishtoenlargetheirmindsformingasufficientlyclosebondofunion。Thesubscriptionwassmall,andtheroomhomely;andJude’sactivity,uncustomaryacquirements,andaboveall,singularintuitiononwhattoreadandhowtosetaboutit-begottenofhisyearsofstruggleagainstmalignantstars-hadledtohisbeingplacedonthecommittee。
  Afeweveningsafterhisdismissalfromthechurchrepairs,andbeforehehadobtainedanymoreworktodo,hewenttoattendameetingoftheaforesaidcommittee。Itwaslatewhenhearrived:alltheothershadcome,andasheenteredtheylookeddubiouslyathim,andhardlyutteredawordofgreeting。Heguessedthatsomethingbearingonhimselfhadbeeneitherdiscussedormooted。Someordinarybusinesswastransacted,anditwasdisclosedthatthenumberofsubscriptionshadshownasuddenfallingoffforthatquarter。Onemember-areallywell-meaninganduprightman-beganspeakinginenigmasaboutcertainpossiblecauses:thatitbehovedthemtolookwellintotheirconstitution;forifthecommitteewerenotrespected,andhadnotatleast,intheirdifferences,acommonstandardofconduct,theywouldbringtheinstitutiontotheground。NothingfurtherwassaidinJude’spresence,butheknewwhatthismeant;andturningtothetablewroteanoteresigninghisofficethereandthen。
  Thusthesupersensitivecoupleweremoreandmoreimpelledtogoaway。Andthenbillsweresentin,andthequestionarose,whatcouldJudedowithhisgreat-aunt’sheavyoldfurniture,ifheleftthetowntotravelheknewnotwhither?This,andthenecessityofreadymoney,compelledhimtodecideonanauction,muchashewouldhavepreferredtokeepthevenerablegoods。
  Thedayofthesalecameon;andSueforthelasttimecookedherown,thechild’s,andJude’sbreakfastinthelittlehousehehadfurnished。
  Itchancedtobeawetday;moreoverSuewasunwell,andnotwishingtodesertherpoorJudeinsuchgloomycircumstances,forhewascompelledtostayawhile,sheactedonthesuggestionoftheauctioneer’sman,andensconcedherselfinanupperroom,whichcouldbeemptiedofitseffects,andsokeptclosedtothebidders。HereJudediscoveredher;andwiththechild,andtheirfewtrunks,baskets,andbundles,andtwochairsandatablethatwerenotinthesale,thetwosatinmeditativetalk。
  Footstepsbeganstampingupanddownthebarestairs,thecomersinspectingthegoods,someofwhichwereofsoquaintandancientamakeastoacquireanadventitiousvalueasart。Theirdoorwastriedonceortwice,andtoguardthemselvesagainstintrusionJudewrote`Private’onascrapofpaper,andstuckituponthepanel。
  Theysoonfoundthat,insteadofthefurniture,theirownpersonalhistoriesandpastconductbegantobediscussedtoanunexpectedandintolerableextentbytheintendingbidders。Itwasnottillnowthattheyreallydiscoveredwhatafools’paradiseofsupposedunrecognitiontheyhadbeenlivinginoflate。Suesilentlytookhercompanion’shand,andwitheyesoneachothertheyheardthesepassingremarks-thequaintandmysteriouspersonalityofFatherTimebeingasubjectwhichformedalargeingredientinthehintsandinnuendoes。Atlengththeauctionbeganintheroombelow,whencetheycouldheareachfamiliararticleknockeddown,thehighlyprizedonescheaply,theunconsideredatanunexpectedprice。
  `Peopledon’tunderstandus,’hesighedheavily。`Iamgladwehavedecidedtogo。’
  `Thequestionis,whereto?’
  `ItoughttobetoLondon。Thereonecanliveasonechooses。’
  `No-notLondon,dear!Iknowitwell。Weshouldbeunhappythere。’
  `Why?’
  `Can’tyouthink?’
  `BecauseArabellaisthere?’
  `That’sthechiefreason。’
  `ButinthecountryIshallalwaysbeuneasylestthereshouldbesomemoreofourlateexperience。AndIdon’tcaretolessenitbyexplaining,foronething,allabouttheboy’shistory。TocuthimofffromhispastIhavedeterminedtokeepsilence。Iamsickenedofecclesiasticalworknow;andIshouldn’tliketoacceptit,ifofferedme!’
  `Yououghttohavelearntclassic。Gothicisbarbaricart,afterall。Puginwaswrong,andWrenwasright。RemembertheinteriorofChristminsterCathedral-almostthefirstplaceinwhichwelookedineachother’sfaces。
  UnderthepicturesquenessofthoseNormandetailsonecanseethegrotesquechildishnessofuncouthpeopletryingtoimitatethevanishedRomanforms,rememberedbydimtraditiononly。’
  `Yes-youhavehalf-convertedmetothatviewbywhatyouhavesaidbefore。Butonecanwork,anddespisewhatonedoes。Imustdosomething,ifnotchurchgothic。’
  `Iwishwecouldbothfollowanoccupationinwhichpersonalcircumstancesdon’tcount,’shesaid,smilingupwistfully。`Iamasdisqualifiedforteachingasyouareforecclesiasticalart。Youmustfallbackuponrailwaystations,bridges,theatres,music-halls,hotels-everythingthathasnoconnectionwithconduct。’
  `Iamnotskilledinthose……Ioughttotaketobread-baking。
  Igrewupinthebakingbusinesswithaunt,youknow。Butevenabakermustbeconventional,togetcustomers。’
  `Unlesshekeepsacakeandgingerbreadstallatmarketsandfairs,wherepeoplearegloriouslyindifferenttoeverythingexceptthequalityofthegoods。’
  Theirthoughtsweredivertedbythevoiceoftheauctioneer:`Nowthisantiqueoaksettle-auniqueexampleofoldEnglishfurniture,worthytheattentionofallcollectors!’
  `Thatwasmygreat-grandfather’s,’saidJude。`Iwishwecouldhavekeptthepooroldthing!’
  Onebyonethearticleswent,andtheafternoonpassedaway。Judeandtheothertwoweregettingtiredandhungry,butaftertheconversationtheyhadheardtheywereshyofgoingoutwhilethepurchaserswereintheirlineofretreat。However,thelaterlotsdrewon,anditbecamenecessarytoemergeintotherainsoon,totakeonSue’sthingstotheirtemporarylodging。
  `Nowthenextlot:twopairsofpigeons,allaliveandplump-
  anicepieforsomebodyfornextSunday’sdinner!’