`Sillyfools-liketwochildren!’Arabellawhisperedtoherselfmorosely,assherejoinedhercompanions,withwhomshepreservedapreoccupiedsilence。
AnnymeanwhilehadjokinglyremarkedtoVilbertonArabella’shankeringinterestinherfirsthusband。
`Now,’saidthephysiciantoArabella,apart;`doyouwantanythingsuchasthis,Mrs。Cartlett?Itisnotcompoundedoutofmyregularpharmacopoeia,butIamsometimesaskedforsuchathing。’Heproducedasmallphialofclearliquid。`Alove-philtre,suchaswasusedbytheancientswithgreateffect。Ifounditoutbystudyoftheirwritings,andhaveneverknownittofail。’
`Whatisitmadeof?’askedArabellacuriously。
`Well-adistillationofthejuicesofdoves’hearts-otherwisepigeons’-isoneoftheingredients。Ittooknearlyahundredheartstoproducethatsmallbottlefull。’
`Howdoyougetpigeonsenough?’
`Totellasecret,Igetapieceofrock-salt,ofwhichpigeonsareinordinatelyfond,andplaceitinadovecotonmyroof。Inafewhoursthebirdscometoitfromallpointsofthecompass-east,west,north,andsouth-andthusIsecureasmanyasIrequire。Youusetheliquidbycontrivingthatthedesiredmanshalltakeabouttendropsofitinhisdrink。Butremember,allthisistoldyoubecauseIgatherfromyourquestionsthatyoumeantobeapurchaser。Youmustkeepfaithwithme?’
`Verywell-Idon’tmindabottle-togivesomefriendorothertotryitonheryoungman。’Sheproducedfiveshillings,thepriceasked,andslippedthephialinhercapaciousbosom。Sayingpresentlythatshewasdueatanappointmentwithherhusbandshesaunteredawaytowardstherefreshmentbar,Jude,hiscompanion,andthechildhavinggoneontothehorticulturaltent,whereArabellacaughtaglimpseofthemstandingbeforeagroupofrosesinbloom。
Shewaitedafewminutesobservingthem,andthenproceededtojoinherspousewithnoveryamiablesentiments。Shefoundhimseatedonastoolbythebar,talkingtooneofthegailydressedmaidswhohadservedhimwithspirits。
`Ishouldthinkyouhadenoughofthisbusinessathome!’Arabellaremarkedgloomily。`Surelyyoudidn’tcomefiftymilesfromyourownbartostickinanother?Come,takemeroundtheshow,asothermendotheirwives!Dammy,onewouldthinkyouwereayoungbachelor,withnobodytolookafterbutyourself!’
`Butweagreedtomeethere;andwhatcouldIdobutwait?’
`Well,nowwehavemet,comealong,’shereturned,readytoquarrelwiththesunforshiningonher。Andtheyleftthetenttogether,thispot-belliedmanandfloridwoman,intheantipathetic,recriminatorymoodoftheaveragehusbandandwifeofChristendom。
Inthemeantimethemoreexceptionalcoupleandtheboystilllingeredinthepavilionofflowers-anenchantedpalacetotheirappreciativetaste-Sue’susuallypalecheeksreflectingthepinkofthetintedrosesatwhichshegazed;forthegaysights,theair,themusic,andtheexcitementofaday’soutingwithJudehadquickenedherbloodandmadehereyessparklewithvivacity。Sheadoredroses,andwhatArabellahadwitnessedwasSuedetainingJudealmostagainsthiswillwhileshelearntthenamesofthisvarietyandthat,andputherfacewithinaninchoftheirbloomstosmellthem。
`Ishouldliketopushmyfacequiteintothem-thedears!’shehadsaid。`ButIsupposeitisagainsttherulestotouchthem-isn’tit,Jude?’
`Yes,youbaby,’saidhe:andthenplayfullygaveheralittlepush,sothathernosewentamongthepetals。
`Thepolicemanwillbedownonus,andIshallsayitwasmyhusband’sfault!’
Thenshelookedupathim,andsmiledinawaythattoldsomuchtoArabella。
`Happy?’hemurmured。
Shenodded。
`Why?BecauseyouhavecometothegreatWessexAgriculturalShow-orbecausewehavecome?’
`Youarealwaystryingtomakemeconfesstoallsortsofabsurdities。
BecauseIamimprovingmymind,ofcourse,byseeingallthesesteam-ploughs,andthreshing-machines,andchaff-cutters,andcows,andpigs,andsheep。’
Judewasquitecontentwithabafflefromhiseverevasivecompanion。
Butwhenhehadforgottenthathehadputthequestion,andbecausehenolongerwishedforananswer,shewenton:`IfeelthatwehavereturnedtoGreekjoyousness,andhaveblindedourselvestosicknessandsorrow,andhaveforgottenwhattwenty-fivecenturieshavetaughttheracesincetheirtime,asoneofyourChristminsterluminariessays……Thereisoneimmediateshadow,however-onlyone。’Andshelookedattheagedchild,whom,thoughtheyhadtakenhimtoeverythinglikelytoattractayoungintelligence,theyhadutterlyfailedtointerest。
Heknewwhattheyweresayingandthinking。`Iamvery,verysorry,FatherandMother,’hesaid。`Butpleasedon’tmind!-Ican’thelpit。
Ishouldliketheflowersveryverymuch,ifIdidn’tkeeponthinkingthey’dbeallwitheredinafewdays!’
JudetheObscureChapter40V-viTheunnoticedlivesthatthepairhadhithertoledbegan,fromthedayofthesuspendedweddingonwards,tobeobservedanddiscussedbyotherpersonsthanArabella。ThesocietyofSpringStreetandtheneighbourhoodgenerallydidnotunderstand,andprobablycouldnothavebeenmadetounderstand,SueandJude’sprivateminds,emotions,positions,andfears。
Thecuriousfactsofachildcomingtothemunexpectedly,whocalledJude`Father,’andSue`Mother,’andahitchinamarriageceremonyintendedforquietnesstobeperformedataregistrar’soffice,togetherwithrumoursoftheundefendedcasesinthelaw-courts,boreonlyonetranslationtoplainminds。
LittleTime-forthoughhewasformallyturnedinto`Jude,’theaptnicknamestucktohim-wouldcomehomefromschoolintheevening,andrepeatinquiriesandremarksthathadbeenmadetohimbytheotherboys;andcauseSue,andJudewhenheheardthem,agreatdealofpainandsadness。
Theresultwasthatshortlyaftertheattemptattheregistrar’sthepairwentoff-toLondonitwasbelieved-forseveraldays,hiringsomebodytolooktotheboy。Whentheycamebacktheyletitbeunderstoodindirectly,andwithtotalindifferenceandwearinessofmien,thattheywerelegallymarriedatlast。Sue,whohadpreviouslybeencalledMrs。
BrideheadnowopenlyadoptedthenameofMrs。Fawley。Herdull,cowed,andlistlessmannerfordaysseemedtosubstantiateallthis。
Butthemistakeasitwascalledoftheirgoingawaysosecretlytodothebusiness,keptupmuchofthemysteryoftheirlives;andtheyfoundthattheymadenotsuchadvanceswiththeirneighboursastheyhadexpectedtodothereby。Alivingmysterywasnotmuchlessinterestingthanadeadscandal。
Thebaker’sladandthegrocer’sboy,whoatfirsthadusedtolifttheirhatsgallantlytoSuewhentheycametoexecutetheirerrands,inthesedaysnolongertookthetroubletorenderherthathomage,andtheneighbouringartizans’wiveslookedstraightalongthepavementwhentheyencounteredher。
Nobodymolestedthem,itistrue;butanoppressiveatmospherebegantoencircletheirsouls,particularlyaftertheirexcursiontotheshow,asifthatvisithadbroughtsomeevilinfluencetobearonthem。
Andtheirtemperamentswerepreciselyofakindtosufferfromthisatmosphere,andtobeindisposedtolightenitbyvigorousandopenstatements。Theirapparentattemptatreparationhadcometoolatetobeeffective。
Theheadstoneandepitaphordersfelloff:andtwoorthreemonthslater,whenautumncame,Judeperceivedthathewouldhavetoreturntojourney-workagain,acourseallthemoreunfortunatejustnow,inthathehadnotasyetclearedoffthedebthehadunavoidablyincurredinthepaymentofthelaw-costsofthepreviousyear。
OneeveninghesatdowntosharethecommonmealwithSueandthechildasusual。`Iamthinking,’hesaidtoher,`thatI’llholdonherenolonger。Thelifesuitsus,certainly;butifwecouldgetawaytoaplacewhereweareunknown,weshouldbelighterhearted,andhaveabetterchance。AndsoIamafraidwemustbreakituphere,howeverawkwardforyou,poordear!’
Suewasalwaysmuchaffectedatapictureofherselfasanobjectofpity,andshesaddened。
`Well-Iamnotsorry,’saidshepresently。`Iammuchdepressedbythewaytheylookatmehere。Andyouhavebeenkeepingonthishouseandfurnitureentirelyformeandtheboy!Youdon’twantityourself,andtheexpenseisunnecessary。Butwhateverwedo,whereverwego,youwon’ttakehimawayfromme,Judedear?Icouldnotlethimgonow!Theclouduponhisyoungmindmakeshimsopathetictome;Idohopetoliftitsomeday!Andhelovesmeso。Youwon’ttakehimawayfromme?’
`CertainlyIwon’t,dearlittlegirl!We’llgetnicelodgings,whereverwego。Ishallbemovingaboutprobably-gettingajobhereandajobthere。’
`Ishalldosomethingtoo,ofcourse,till-tillWell,nowI
can’tbeusefulintheletteringitbehovesmetoturnmyhandtosomethingelse。’
`Don’thurryaboutgettingemployment,’hesaidregretfully。`I
don’twantyoutodothat。Iwishyouwouldn’t,Sue。Theboyandyourselfareenoughforyoutoattendto。’
Therewasaknockatthedoor,andJudeansweredit。Suecouldheartheconversation:
`IsMr。Fawleyathome?……BilesandWillisthebuildingcontractorssentmetoknowifyou’llundertakethereletteringofthetencommandmentsinalittlechurchthey’vebeenrestoringlatelyinthecountrynearhere。’
Judereflected,andsaidhecouldundertakeit。
`Itisnotaveryartisticjob,’continuedthemessenger。`Theclergymanisaveryold-fashionedchap,andhehasrefusedtoletanythingmorebedonetothechurchthancleaningandrepairing。’
`Excellentoldman!’saidSuetoherself,whowassentimentallyopposedtothehorrorsofover-restoration。
`TheTenCommandmentsarefixedtotheeastend,’themessengerwenton,`andtheywantdoingupwiththerestofthewallthere,sincehewon’thavethemcartedoffasoldmaterialsbelongingtothecontractorintheusualwayofthetrade。’
Abargainastotermswasstruck,andJudecameindoors。`There,yousee,’hesaidcheerfully。`Onemorejobyet,atanyrate,andyoucanhelpinit-atleastyoucantry。Weshallhaveallthechurchtoourselves,astherestoftheworkisfinished。’
NextdayJudewentouttothechurch,whichwasonlytwomilesoff。Hefoundthatwhatthecontractor’sclerkhadsaidwastrue。ThetablesoftheJewishlawtoweredsternlyovertheutensilsofChristiangrace,asthechiefornamentofthechancelend,inthefinedrystyleofthelastcentury。Andastheirframeworkwasconstructedofornamentalplastertheycouldnotbetakendownforrepair。Aportion,crumbledbydamp,requiredrenewal;andwhenthishadbeendone,andthewholecleansed,hebegantorenewthelettering。OnthesecondmorningSuecametoseewhatassistanceshecouldrender,andalsobecausetheylikedtobetogether。
Thesilenceandemptinessofthebuildinggaveherconfidence,and,standingonasafelowplatformerectedbyJude,whichshewasneverthelesstimidatmounting,shebeganpaintinginthelettersofthefirstTablewhilehesetaboutmendingaportionofthesecond。Shewasquitepleasedatherpowers;shehadacquiredtheminthedaysshepaintedilluminedtextsforthechurch-fittingshopatChristminster。Nobodyseemedlikelytodisturbthem;andthepleasanttwitterofbirds,andrustleofOctoberleafage,cameinthroughanopenwindow,andmingledwiththeirtalk。
Theywerenot,however,tobeleftthussnugandpeacefulforlong。Abouthalf-pasttwelvetherecamefootstepsonthegravelwithout。
Theoldvicarandhischurchwardenentered,and,cominguptoseewhatwasbeingdone,seemedsurprisedtodiscoverthatayoungwomanwasassisting。
Theypassedonintoanaisle,atwhichtimethedooragainopened,andanotherfigureentered-asmallone,thatoflittleTime,whowascrying。
Suehadtoldhimwherehemightfindherbetweenschool-hours,ifhewished。
Shecamedownfromherperch,andsaid,`What’sthematter,mydear?’
`Icouldn’tstaytoeatmydinnerinschool,becausetheysaid——`Hedescribedhowsomeboyshadtauntedhimabouthisnominalmother,andSue,grieved,expressedherindignationtoJudealoft。Thechildwentintothechurchyard,andSuereturnedtoherwork。Meanwhilethedoorhadopenedagain,andthereshuffledinwithabusinesslikeairthewhite-apronedwomanwhocleanedthechurch。SuerecognizedherasonewhohadfriendsinSpringStreet,whomshevisited。Thechurch-cleanerlookedatSue,gaped,andliftedherhands;shehadevidentlyrecognizedJude’scompanionasthelatterhadrecognizedher。Nextcametwoladies,andaftertalkingtothecharwomantheyalsomovedforward,andasSuestoodreachingupward,watchedherhandtracingtheletters,andcriticallyregardedherpersoninreliefagainstthewhitewall,tillshegrewsonervousthatshetrembledvisibly。
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