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第42章

  Whentheothertravellersclosedtheireyes,whichtheydidonebyone-eventhekittencurlingitselfupinthebasket,wearyofitstoocircumscribedplay-theboyremainedjustasbefore。Hethenseemedtobedoublyawake,likeanenslavedanddwarfeddivinity,sittingpassiveandregardinghiscompanionsasifhesawtheirwholeroundedlivesratherthantheirimmediatefigures。
  ThiswasArabella’sboy。WithherusualcarelessnessshehadpostponedwritingtoJudeabouthimtilltheeveofhislanding,whenshecouldabsolutelypostponenolonger,thoughshehadknownforweeksofhisapproachingarrival,andhad,asshetrulysaid,visitedAldbrickhammainlytorevealtheboy’sexistenceandhisnearhome-comingtoJude。Thisverydayonwhichshehadreceivedherformerhusband’sansweratsometimeintheafternoon,thechildreachedtheLondonDocks,andthefamilyinwhosechargehehadcome,havingputhimintoacabforLambethanddirectedthecabmantohismother’shouse,badehimgood-bye,andwenttheirway。
  OnhisarrivalattheThreeHorns,Arabellahadlookedhimoverwithanexpressionthatwasasgoodassaying,`YouareverymuchwhatIexpectedyoutobe,’hadgivenhimagoodmeal,alittlemoney,and,lateasitwasgetting,dispatchedhimtoJudebythenexttrain,wishingherhusbandCartlett,whowasout,nottoseehim。
  ThetrainreachedAldbrickham,andtheboywasdepositedonthelonelyplatformbesidehisbox。Thecollectortookhisticketand,withameditativesenseoftheunfitnessofthings,askedhimwherehewasgoingbyhimselfatthattimeofnight。
  `GoingtoSpringStreet,’saidthelittleoneimpassively。
  `Why,that’salongwayfromhere;a’mostoutinthecountry;
  andthefolkswillbegonetobed。’
  `I’vegottogothere。’
  `Youmusthaveaflyforyourbox。’
  `No。Imustwalk。’
  `Ohwell:you’dbetterleaveyourboxhereandsendforit。There’sa’busgoeshalf-way,butyou’llhavetowalktherest。’
  `Iamnotafraid。’
  `Whydidn’tyourfriendscometomeet’ee?’
  `Isupposetheydidn’tknowIwascoming。’
  `Whoisyourfriends?’
  `Motherdidn’twishmetosay。’
  `AllIcando,then,istotakechargeofthis。Nowwalkasfastasyoucan。’
  Sayingnothingfurthertheboycameoutintothestreet,lookingroundtoseethatnobodyfollowedorobservedhim。Whenhehadwalkedsomelittledistanceheaskedforthestreetofhisdestination。Hewastoldtogostraightonquiteintotheoutskirtsoftheplace。
  Thechildfellintoasteadymechanicalcreepwhichhadinitanimpersonalquality-themovementofthewave,orofthebreeze,orofthecloud。Hefollowedhisdirectionsliterally,withoutaninquiringgazeatanything。Itcouldhavebeenseenthattheboy’sideasoflifeweredifferentfromthoseofthelocalboys。Childrenbeginwithdetail,andlearnuptothegeneral;theybeginwiththecontiguous,andgraduallycomprehendtheuniversal。Theboyseemedtohavebegunwiththegeneralsoflife,andnevertohaveconcernedhimselfwiththeparticulars。Tohimthehouses,thewillows,theobscurefieldsbeyond,wereapparentlyregardednotasbrickresidences,pollards,meadows;butashumandwellingsintheabstract,vegetation,andthewidedarkworld。
  Hefoundthewaytothelittlelane,andknockedatthedoorofJude’shouse。Judehadjustretiredtobed,andSuewasabouttoenterherchamberadjoiningwhensheheardtheknockandcamedown。
  `IsthiswhereFatherlives?’askedthechild。
  `Who?’
  `Mr。Fawley,that’shisname。’
  SueranuptoJude’sroomandtoldhim,andhehurrieddownassoonashecould,thoughtoherimpatienceheseemedlong。
  `What-isithe-sosoon?’sheaskedasJudecame。
  Shescrutinizedthechild’sfeatures,andsuddenlywentawayintothelittlesitting-roomadjoining。Judeliftedtheboytoalevelwithhimself,keenlyregardedhimwithgloomytenderness,andtellinghimhewouldhavebeenmetiftheyhadknownofhiscomingsosoon,sethimprovisionallyinachairwhilsthewenttolookforSue,whosesupersensitivenesswasdisturbed,asheknew。Hefoundherinthedark,bendingoveranarm-chair。
  Heenclosedherwithhisarm,andputtinghisfacebyhers,whispered,`What’sthematter?’
  `WhatArabellasaysistrue-true!Iseeyouinhim!’
  `Well:that’sonethinginmylifeasitshouldbe,atanyrate。’
  `Buttheotherhalfofhimis-she!Andthat’swhatI
  can’tbear!ButIoughtto-I’lltrytogetusedtoit;yes,Iought!’
  `JealouslittleSue!Iwithdrawallremarksaboutyoursexlessness。
  Nevermind!Timemayrightthings……AndSue,darling;Ihaveanidea!
  We’lleducateandtrainhimwithaviewtotheuniversity。WhatIcouldn’taccomplishinmyownpersonperhapsIcancarryoutthroughhim?Theyaremakingiteasierforpoorstudentsnow,youknow。’
  `Ohyoudreamer!’saidshe,andholdinghishandreturnedtothechildwithhim。Theboylookedatherasshehadlookedathim。`Isityouwho’smyrealmotheratlast?’heinquired。
  `Why?DoIlooklikeyourfather’swife?’
  `Well,yes;’ceptheseemsfondofyou,andyouofhim。CanI
  callyouMother?’
  Thenayearninglookcameoverthechildandhebegantocry。
  Suethereuponcouldnotrefrainfrominstantlydoinglikewise,beingaharpwhichtheleastwindofemotionfromanother’sheartcouldmaketovibrateasreadilyasaradicalstirinherown。
  `YoumaycallmeMother,ifyouwishto,mypoordear!’shesaid,bendinghercheekagainsthistohidehertears。
  `What’sthisroundyourneck?’askedJudewithaffectedcalmness。
  `Thekeyofmyboxthat’satthestation。’
  Theybustledaboutandgothimsomesupper,andmadehimupatemporarybed,wherehesoonfellasleep。Bothwentandlookedathimashelay。
  `HecalledyouMothertwoorthreetimesbeforehedroppedoff,’
  murmuredJude。`Wasn’titoddthatheshouldhavewantedto!’
  `Well-itwassignificant,’saidSue。`There’smoreforustothinkaboutinthatonelittlehungryheartthaninallthestarsofthesky……Isuppose,dear,wemustpluckupcourage,andgetthatceremonyover?Itisnousestrugglingagainstthecurrent,andIfeelmyselfgettingintertwinedwithmykind。OhJude,you’lllovemedearly,won’tyou,afterwards!Idowanttobekindtothischild,andtobeamothertohim;andouraddingthelegalformtoourmarriagemightmakeiteasierforme。’
  JudetheObscureChapter38V-ivTheirnextandsecondattemptthereatwasmoredeliberatelymade,thoughitwasbegunonthemorningfollowingthesingularchild’sarrivalattheirhome。
  Himtheyfoundtobeinthehabitofsittingsilent,hisquaintandweirdfaceset,andhiseyesrestingonthingstheydidnotseeinthesubstantialworld。
  `HisfaceislikethetragicmaskofMelpomene,’saidSue。`Whatisyourname,dear?Didyoutellus?’
  `LittleFatherTimeiswhattheyalwayscalledme。Itisanickname;
  becauseIlooksoaged,theysay。’
  `Andyoutalkso,too,’saidSuetenderly。`Itisstrange,Jude,thatthesepreternaturallyoldboysalmostalwayscomefromnewcountries。
  Butwhatwereyouchristened?’
  `Ineverwas。’
  `Whywasthat?’
  `Because,ifIdiedindamnation,’twouldsavetheexpenseofaChristianfuneral。’
  `Oh-yournameisnotJude,then?’saidhisfatherwithsomedisappointment。
  Theboyshookhishead。`Neverheerdonit。’
  `Ofcoursenot,’saidSuequickly;`sinceshewashatingyouallthetime!’
  `We’llhavehimchristened,’saidJude;andprivatelytoSue:
  `Thedaywearemarried。’Yettheadventofthechilddisturbedhim。
  Theirpositionlentthemshyness,andhavinganimpressionthatamarriageatasuperintendentregistrar’sofficewasmoreprivatethananecclesiasticalone,theydecidedtoavoidachurchthistime。BothSueandJudetogetherwenttotheofficeofthedistricttogivenotice:theyhadbecomesuchcompanionsthattheycouldhardlydoanythingofimportanceexceptineachother’scompany。
  JudeFawleysignedtheformofnotice,Suelookingoverhisshoulderandwatchinghishandasittracedthewords。Asshereadthefour-squareundertaking,neverbeforeseenbyher,intowhichherownandJude’snameswereinserted,andbywhichthatveryvolatileessence,theirloveforeachother,wassupposedtobemadepermanent,herfaceseemedtogrowpainfullyapprehensive。`NamesandSurnamesoftheParties’-theyweretobepartiesnow,notlovers,shethought。`Condition’-ahorrididea-
  `RankorOccupation’-`Age’-`Dwellingat’-`LengthofResidence’-
  `ChurchorBuildinginwhichtheMarriageistobesolemnized’-`DistrictandCountyinwhichthePartiesrespectivelydwell。’
  `Itspoilsthesentiment,doesn’tit!’shesaidontheirwayhome。
  `Itseemsmakingamoresordidbusinessofiteventhansigningthecontractinavestry。Thereisalittlepoetryinachurch。Butwe’lltrytogetthroughwithit,dearest,now。’
  `Wewill。`Forwhatmanishethathathbetrothedawifeandhathnottakenher?Lethimgoandreturnuntohishouse,lesthedieinthebattle,andanothermantakeher。’SosaidtheJewishlaw-giver。’
  `HowyouknowtheScriptures,Jude!Youreallyoughttohavebeenaparson。Icanonlyquoteprofanewriters!’
  DuringtheintervalbeforetheissuingofthecertificateSue,inherhousekeepingerrands,sometimeswalkedpasttheoffice,andfurtivelyglancinginsawaffixedtothewallthenoticeofthepurposedclinchtotheirunion。Shecouldnotbearitsaspect。Comingafterherpreviousexperienceofmatrimony,alltheromanceoftheirattachmentseemedtobestarvedawaybyplacingherpresentcaseinthesamecategory。ShewasusuallyleadinglittleFatherTimebythehand,andfanciedthatpeoplethoughthimhers,andregardedtheintendedceremonyasthepatchingupofanolderror。
  MeanwhileJudedecidedtolinkhispresentwithhispastinsomeslightdegreebyinvitingtotheweddingtheonlypersonremainingonearthwhowasassociatedwithhisearlylifeatMarygreen-theagedwidowMrs。
  Edlin,whohadbeenhisgreat-aunt’sfriendandnurseinherlastillness。
  Hehardlyexpectedthatshewouldcome;butshedid,bringingsingularpresents,intheformofapples,jam,brasssnuffers,anancientpewterdish,awarming-pan,andanenormousbagofgoosefeatherstowardsabed。
  ShewasallottedthespareroominJude’shouse,whithersheretiredearly,andwheretheycouldhearherthroughtheceilingbelow,honestlysayingtheLord’sPrayerinaloudvoice,astheRubricdirected。
  As,however,shecouldnotsleep,anddiscoveredthatSueandJudewerestillsittingup-itbeinginfactonlyteno’clock-shedressedherselfagainandcamedown,andtheyallsatbythefiretillalatehour-FatherTimeincluded;though,asheneverspoke,theywerehardlyconsciousofhim。
  `Well,Ibain’tsetagainstmarryingasyourgreat-auntwas,’
  saidthewidow。`AndIhope’twillbeajocundweddingforyeinallrespectsthistime。Nobodycanhopeitmore,knowingwhatIdoofyourfamilies,whichismore,Isuppose,thananybodyelsenowliving。Fortheyhavebeenunluckythatway,Godknows。’
  Suebreatheduneasily。
  `Theywasalwaysgood-heartedpeople,too-wouldn’tkillaflyiftheyknowedit,’continuedtheweddingguest。`Butthingshappenedtothwart’em,andifeverythingwasn’tvittytheywereupset。Nodoubtthat’showhethatthetaleistoldofcametodowhat’adid-ifhewereoneofyourfamily。’
  `Whatwasthat?’saidJude。
  `Well-thattale,yeknow;hethatwasgibbetedjustonthebrowofthehillbytheBrownHouse-notfarfromthemilestonebetweenMarygreenandAlfredston,wheretheotherroadbranchesoff。ButLord,’twasinmygrandfather’stime;anditmedn’havebeenoneofyourfolkatall。’
  `Iknowwherethegibbetissaidtohavestood,verywell,’murmuredJude。`ButIneverheardofthis。What-didthisman-myancestorandSue’s-killhiswife?’
  `’Twernotthatexactly。Sheranawayfromhim,withtheirchild,toherfriends;andwhileshewastherethechilddied。Hewantedthebody,toburyitwherehispeoplelay,butshewouldn’tgiveitup。Herhusbandthencameinthenightwithacart,andbrokeintothehousetostealthecoffinaway;buthewascatched,andbeingobstinate,wouldn’ttellwhathebrokeinfor。Theybroughtitinburglary,andthat’swhyhewashangedandgibbetedonBrownHouseHill。Hiswifewentmadafterhewasdead。
  Butitmedn’tbetruethathebelongedtoyemorethantome。’
  Asmallslowvoicerosefromtheshadeofthefireside,asifoutoftheearth:`IfIwasyou,Mother,Iwouldn’tmarryFather!’ItcamefromlittleTime,andtheystarted,fortheyhadforgottenhim。
  `Oh,itisonlyatale,’saidSuecheeringly。