Itwasdifficultinthosedaystofind“treats“inPolchester。
“Oh,doyouthinkthey’dletus?“shesaid,hereyeswide。
“Wecantry,“saidJeremy。“IheardAuntAmysaytheotherdaythatshedidn’tthinkitwasrightforchildrentoseeacting,andMotheralwaysdoestheoppositetowhatAuntAmysays,sop’r’apsitwillbeallright。IwishHamletcouldgo,“headded。
“Don’tbesilly!“saidHelen。
“Itisn’tsilly,“Jeremysaidindignantly。“It’sallaboutacat,anyway,andhe’dlovetoseealltheratsandthings。Hewouldn’tbarkifwetoldhimnotto,andIheldhiscollar。“
“IfAuntAmysatnexthimhewould,“saidMary。
“Oh,botherAuntAmy,“saidJeremy。
AfterthisHelenneededagreatdealofurging;butsheheardthatLucyandAngela,theaforesaiddaughtersoftheDean,weregoing,andthespiritofrivalrydroveherforward。
IthappenedthattheDeanhimselfonedaysaidsomethingtoMr。Coleabout“supportingaverypraiseworthyeffort。Theyarepresenting,I
understand,theproceedsofthefirstperformancetotheCathedralOrphanage。“
Helenwassurprisedatthereadinesswithwhichherrequestwasgranted。
“We’llallgo,“saidMr。Cole,inhisgenial,pastoralfashion。
“Goodforus……goodforus……toseethelittleoneslaugh……goodforusall。“
OnlyUncleSamuelsaid“thatnothingwouldinducehim——“
II
IpassswiftlyoverChristmasEve,ChristmasDay,andthedayafter,althoughIshouldliketolingeruponthesesumptuousdates。Jeremyhadasumptuoustime;Hamlethadasumptuoustimeawholesugarrat,platesandplatesofbones,andashoeofAuntAmy’s;MaryandHelenhadsumptuoustimesintheirownfemininefashion。
UpontheeveningofChristmasEve,whentheearthwassnow-lit,andthestreet-lampssparkledwithcrystals,andtherimeonthedoorstepscrackledbeneathone’sfeet,Jeremyaccompaniedhismotheronapresent-leavingexpedition。Theexcitementofthat!Thewonderfulshapesandsizesoftheparcels,themysteriousstreets,thedoor-handlesandthedoor-bells,theglitteringstars,themaidservants,thesenseofthelightedhouse,asthoughvouopenedaboxfullofexcitementsandthenhurriedlyshuttheliddownagain。
Jeremytrembledandshook,notwithcold,butwithexalting,completelysatisfyinghappiness。
TherefollowedtheStocking,theWaits,theCarols,theTurkey,theChristmasCake,theTree,thePresents,Snapdragon,Bed……TherefollowedHeadache,Ill-temper,SmackingofMary,AfternoonWalk,GoodTemperagain,CompleteWeariness,HamletsickontheGoldenCockatoos,HamletBeaten,FiveminuteswithMotherdownstairs,Bed……Christmaswasover。
FromthatmomentofthepassingofBoxingDayitwassimplythecountingoftheminutesto“DickWhittington。“SixdaysfromBoxingDay。Sayyousleptfromeighttoseven——elevenhours;thatleftthirteenhours;sixthirteenhourswas,soHelensaid,seventy-
eight。Seventy-eighthours,andSundaytwiceaslongastheotherdays,andthatmadethirteenmore;ninety-one,saidHelen,hernoseintheair。
Theweekdraggedalong,verydifficultworkforeverybody,andevenHamletfelttheexcitementandwatchedhiscornerwiththeJampot’ssewingmachineinitwithmorequiveringintensitythanever。TheDayBeforeTheDayarrived,theeveningbeforeTheDay,thelastsupperbeforeTheDay,thelastbedbeforeTheDay……Suddenly,likeaJack-in-the-Box,TheDayitself。
Thentheawfulthinghappened。
Jeremyawoketotheconsciousnessthatsomethingterrificwasabouttooccur。Helayforaminutethinking——thenhewasup,runningaboutthenurseryfloorasthoughhewereayoungmaninMr。
Rossetti’spoetryshouting:“Helen!Mary!Mary!Helen!……It’sDickWhittington!DickWhittington!“
Onsuchoccasionshelostentirelyhisnaturalreserveandcaution。
Hedressedwithimmensespeed,asthoughthatwouldhastenthecomingoftheevening。Heranintothenursery,carryingtheblacktiethatwentunderhissailor-collar。
HehelditouttotheJampot,whoeyedhimwithdisfavour。Shewasleavingthemallinaweekandwasastrangeconfusionofsentimentandbadtemper,loveandhatred,woundedprideandinjureddignity。
“Nurse。Please。Fastenit,“hesaidimpatiently。
“Andthat’snotthewaytospeak,MasterJeremy,andwellyouknowit,“shesaid。“’Aveyoucleanedyourteeth?“
“Yes,“heansweredwithouthesitation。Itwasnotuntilthewordwasspokenthatherealisedthathehadnot。Heflushed。TheJampoteyedhimwithasuddensharpsuspicion。Hewasthenandeverafterwardsaverybadhandatalie……
Hewouldhavetakenthewordback,hewantedtotakeitback——butsomethingheldhimasthoughastrongerthanhehadplacedhishandoverhismouth。Hisfaceflamed。
“You’vetrulycleanedthem?“shesaid。
“Yes,truly,“heanswered,hiseyesontheground。Neverwasthereamoreobviousliarinalltheworld。
Shesaidnomore;hemovedtothefireplace。Hisjoywasgone。Therewasacoldclammysensationabouthisheart。Slowly,veryslowly,theconsciousnessstoleuponhimthathewasaliar。Hehadnotthoughtitaliewhenhehadfirstspoken,nowheknew。
Stilltherewastime。Hadheturnedroundandspoken,allmightstillhavebeenwell。Butnowobstinacyheldhim。HewasnotgoingtogivetheJampotanopportunityfortriumphingoverhim。Afterall,hewouldcleanthemsosoonasshewenttobrushHelen’shair。
Inamomentwhathehadsaidwouldbetrue。
Buthewasmiserable。Hamletcameupfromthenetherregionswherehehadspentthenight,showinghisteeth,wagginghistail,andevenrollingonthecockatoos。Jeremypaidnoattention。Theweightinhisheartgrewheavierandheavier。Hewatched,fromunderhiseyelids,theJampot。InamomentshemustgointoHelen’sroom。Butshedidnot。Shestayedforalittlearrangingthethingsonthebreakfast-table——thensuddenly,withoutaword,sheturnedintoJeremy’sbedchamber。Hisheartbegantohammer。Therewasanawfulpause;heheardfrommilesawayMary’svoice:“Dodothatbutton,Helen,Ican’tgetit!“andHelen’s“Oh,bother!“
Then,likeJudgment,theJampotappearedagain。Shestoodinthedoorway,lookingacrossathim。
“You’avenotcleanedyourteeth,MasterJeremy,“shesaid。“Theglassisn’ttouched,noryourtoothbrush……Youwicked,wickedboy。Soit’saliaryou’vebecome,addedontoallyourotherwickedness。“
“Iforgot,“hemutteredsullenly。“IthoughtIhad。“
Shesmiledthesmileofapproachingtriumph。
“No,youdidnot,“shesaid。“Youknewyou’dtoldalie。Itwasinyourface。Allofapiece——allofapiece。“
Thewayshesaidthis,likeapiratecountingoverhiscapturedtreasure,wasenraging。Jeremycouldfeelthewildfuryathimself,ather,atthestupidblunderofthewholebusinessrisingtohisthroat。
“IfyouthinkI’mgoingtoletthispassyou’remakingamightymistake,“shecontinued,“whichIwouldn’tdonotifyoupaidmeallthegoldinthekingdom。Imayn’tbegoodenoughtokeepmyplaceandlookaftersuchasyou,butanywaysI’mabletostopyourlyingforanotherweekortwo。Iknowmydutyeventhoughthere’sthemasthinksIdon’t。“
Shepositivelysnorted,andtheexcitementofherownvindicationandthejustcondemnationofJeremywassuchthatherhandstrembled。
“Idon’tcarewhatyoudo,“Jeremyshouted。“Youcantellanyoneyoulike。Idon’tcarewhatyoudo。You’reabeastlywoman。“
Sheturneduponhim,herfacepurple。“That’senough,MasterJeremy,“shesaid,hervoicelowandtrembling。“I’mnotheretobecallednamesbysuchasyou。You’llbesorryforthisbeforeyou’remucholder……Yousee。“
Therewasthenanawfulandsicklypause。Jeremyseemedtohimselftobesinkinglowerandlowerintoadampclammydepthofdegradation。Whatmustthisworldbethatitcouldchangeitselfsoinstantlyfromaplaceofgayandhappypleasureintoadimgropingroomofpunishmentanddismay?
Hisfeelingswereutterlyconfused。Hesupposedthathewasterriblywicked。Buthedidnotfeelwicked。Heonlyfeltmiserable,sickanddefiant。MaryandHelencamein,theireyesopentoacrisis,theirbodiestunedsympatheticallytotheatmosphereofsinandcrimethattheydiscernedaroundthem。
ThenMr。Colecameinaswashisdailyhabit——foramomentbeforehisbreakfast。
“Well,hereareyouall,“hecried。“Readyforto-night?Nobreakfastyet?Why,now……?“
Thenperceiving,asallpractisedfathersinstantlymust,thattheatmospherewassinful,hechangedhisvoicetothatoftheChildren’sSundayAfternoonService——avoicewellknowninhisfamily。
“Please,sir,“begantheJampot,“I’msorryto’avetotellyou,sir,thatMasterJeremy’snotbeenatallgoodthismorning。“
“Well,Jeremy,“hesaid,turningtohisson,“whatisit?“
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