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第42章

  ThroughouttheeveningJeremywasmoreandmorelonely。Hehadneverbeforefeltsodeepanaffectionforthefamilyandneverbeensoutterlyunabletoexpressit。Itwasasthough,duringthewholeyearhehad,byhisownwill,beenslippingawayfromthem,andnowtheyhadgonetoofarforhimtocallthemback。
  Hesatonthefloorathismother’sfeetwhilstsheread“MidshipmanEasy。“Itwasallsocosy,theroomwassocomfortablewithallthefamiliarpicturesandphotographsandbooks,andHelenandMarydiligentlysewing,andHamletstretchedoutinfrontofthefire,hisnoseonhispaws——sixmonthsagoJeremywouldhavefeltutterlyandabsolutelypartofit。Nowhewasoutsideitand,atthesametime,wasinsidenothingelse。Itmightbethatinaweek’stimehewouldbesofamiliarwithhisnewworldthathewouldbeashappyasacricket——hedidnotknow。Heonlyknewthatatthismomenthewouldhavegivenallthathehadtoflinghisarmsroundhismother’sneck,tobehuggedandkissedandnursedbyher,andthat,atthesametime,hewouldhavediedratherthandosuchathing。
  Theeveningcametoanend。Thegirlsgotupandsaidgood-night。
  Hismotherkissedhim,holdinghimperhapsforamomentlongerthanusual,butatthatsameinstantshesaid:
  “Oh,ImustremindEllaaboutthehalf-pastsevenbreakfastagain,shealwayshastobetoldeverythingtwice。“
  Thegirlswentonahead,JeremyandHamletfollowingclosebehind。
  Jeremyfoundhimselfaloneintheschoolroom,wherethefirewasverylow,givingonlylittlespurtsandflashesthatranlikegoldensnakessuddenlythroughthedarkness。
  Movedbyanimpulse,hewenttothetoy-cupboardand,openingit,puthishandquitebychanceonthetoyvillage。Thetoyvillage!Helaiditoutandspreaditonthefloor。Hecouldnotsee,buthekneweverypiecebyheart,andhelaiditallout,thechurchandtheflowergarden,andtheNoah’shouseandthevillagestreet,theanimalsandtheNoahs。Whatcenturiesagothatbirthdaywas,whatworldsaway!Howexcitedhehadbeen,andnow——!
  Withasuddenimpatientgesturehetumbledthepiecesoverontotheirsides,thenquickly,asthoughhewereafraidofthedark,wentintohisbedroomandbegantoundress。
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  Inthemorningeventsmovedtooquicklyforthought。Hehadstillthesamelonelypainathisheart,butnowhesimplywasnotgiventimetoconsiderit。
  Hisfathercalledhimintothestudy。Hegavehimtenshillingsandanewprayer-book。Jeremyknewthathewastryingtocomeclosetohimandbeafriendofanewkindtohim。
  Heheardinadistancesuchwordsas:“……anewworld,fulloftrialandtemptation。Godseesus……WorkatyourLatin……
  cricketandfootball……prayerseverynight……“Buthecouldfeelnoemotionnothingbutterrorlestsomesuddenstupidemotionalsceneshouldoccur。Nothingoccurred。Hekissedhisfatherandwent。
  Then,quitesuddenly,justashecamedowninhishatandcoatandheardthatthecabwasthere,hisrestraintmelted;hewasfreeandimpulsiveandnatural。HekissedMary,tellingher:
  “Youmayhavemytoyvillage。I’dlikeyouto——Yes,rather。Imeanit。“
  HekissedHelenandBarbara,andthenheldtohismother,notcaringwhetheralltheworldwastheretosee。Theoldlifewasgoingwithhim!Hewasnotleavingitafterall。Thetownandthehouse,andallthethingstowhichhehadthoughtthathehadsaidgood-bye,weregoingwithhim。
  Hamlet!Hefoundthedogstrugglingtogetintothecab。Thatwasmorethanhecouldstand。Hewasnotgoingtomakeafoolofhimself,buttheonlywaytobesecurewastogetintothecabandhidethere。HecaughtHamlet’shead,gaveitakiss,thenjumpedin,catchingalastglimpseofthefamilygroupedatthedoor,theservantsatthewindow,theoldgardenwiththedeadleavesgathereduponit,Hamletheld,struggling,inMary’sarms。
  Hechokeddownhissobs,feltthetenshillingsinhispocket,thenwithamightyresolve,towhichitseemedthatthelaboursofHerculeswereasnothing,leanedoutandwavedhishand。
  Thecabrolledoff。
  Hamletlaydownuponthematjustinsidethehall-door。Someonetriedtopullhimaway。Hegrowled,showinghisteeth。Hismasterhadgoneout。Hewouldwaitforhisreturn——andnooneshouldmovehim。
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