ThroughouttheeveningJeremywasmoreandmorelonely。Hehadneverbeforefeltsodeepanaffectionforthefamilyandneverbeensoutterlyunabletoexpressit。Itwasasthough,duringthewholeyearhehad,byhisownwill,beenslippingawayfromthem,andnowtheyhadgonetoofarforhimtocallthemback。
Hesatonthefloorathismother’sfeetwhilstsheread“MidshipmanEasy。“Itwasallsocosy,theroomwassocomfortablewithallthefamiliarpicturesandphotographsandbooks,andHelenandMarydiligentlysewing,andHamletstretchedoutinfrontofthefire,hisnoseonhispaws——sixmonthsagoJeremywouldhavefeltutterlyandabsolutelypartofit。Nowhewasoutsideitand,atthesametime,wasinsidenothingelse。Itmightbethatinaweek’stimehewouldbesofamiliarwithhisnewworldthathewouldbeashappyasacricket——hedidnotknow。Heonlyknewthatatthismomenthewouldhavegivenallthathehadtoflinghisarmsroundhismother’sneck,tobehuggedandkissedandnursedbyher,andthat,atthesametime,hewouldhavediedratherthandosuchathing。
Theeveningcametoanend。Thegirlsgotupandsaidgood-night。
Hismotherkissedhim,holdinghimperhapsforamomentlongerthanusual,butatthatsameinstantshesaid:
“Oh,ImustremindEllaaboutthehalf-pastsevenbreakfastagain,shealwayshastobetoldeverythingtwice。“
Thegirlswentonahead,JeremyandHamletfollowingclosebehind。
Jeremyfoundhimselfaloneintheschoolroom,wherethefirewasverylow,givingonlylittlespurtsandflashesthatranlikegoldensnakessuddenlythroughthedarkness。
Movedbyanimpulse,hewenttothetoy-cupboardand,openingit,puthishandquitebychanceonthetoyvillage。Thetoyvillage!Helaiditoutandspreaditonthefloor。Hecouldnotsee,buthekneweverypiecebyheart,andhelaiditallout,thechurchandtheflowergarden,andtheNoah’shouseandthevillagestreet,theanimalsandtheNoahs。Whatcenturiesagothatbirthdaywas,whatworldsaway!Howexcitedhehadbeen,andnow——!
Withasuddenimpatientgesturehetumbledthepiecesoverontotheirsides,thenquickly,asthoughhewereafraidofthedark,wentintohisbedroomandbegantoundress。
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Inthemorningeventsmovedtooquicklyforthought。Hehadstillthesamelonelypainathisheart,butnowhesimplywasnotgiventimetoconsiderit。
Hisfathercalledhimintothestudy。Hegavehimtenshillingsandanewprayer-book。Jeremyknewthathewastryingtocomeclosetohimandbeafriendofanewkindtohim。
Heheardinadistancesuchwordsas:“……anewworld,fulloftrialandtemptation。Godseesus……WorkatyourLatin……
cricketandfootball……prayerseverynight……“Buthecouldfeelnoemotionnothingbutterrorlestsomesuddenstupidemotionalsceneshouldoccur。Nothingoccurred。Hekissedhisfatherandwent。
Then,quitesuddenly,justashecamedowninhishatandcoatandheardthatthecabwasthere,hisrestraintmelted;hewasfreeandimpulsiveandnatural。HekissedMary,tellingher:
“Youmayhavemytoyvillage。I’dlikeyouto——Yes,rather。Imeanit。“
HekissedHelenandBarbara,andthenheldtohismother,notcaringwhetheralltheworldwastheretosee。Theoldlifewasgoingwithhim!Hewasnotleavingitafterall。Thetownandthehouse,andallthethingstowhichhehadthoughtthathehadsaidgood-bye,weregoingwithhim。
Hamlet!Hefoundthedogstrugglingtogetintothecab。Thatwasmorethanhecouldstand。Hewasnotgoingtomakeafoolofhimself,buttheonlywaytobesecurewastogetintothecabandhidethere。HecaughtHamlet’shead,gaveitakiss,thenjumpedin,catchingalastglimpseofthefamilygroupedatthedoor,theservantsatthewindow,theoldgardenwiththedeadleavesgathereduponit,Hamletheld,struggling,inMary’sarms。
Hechokeddownhissobs,feltthetenshillingsinhispocket,thenwithamightyresolve,towhichitseemedthatthelaboursofHerculeswereasnothing,leanedoutandwavedhishand。
Thecabrolledoff。
Hamletlaydownuponthematjustinsidethehall-door。Someonetriedtopullhimaway。Hegrowled,showinghisteeth。Hismasterhadgoneout。Hewouldwaitforhisreturn——andnooneshouldmovehim。
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