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第41章

  ButthesightoftheHighStreetsoonrestoredhisequanimity。Onotheroccasionshehadbeenpushedthroughit,eitherbytheJampotorMissJones,sorapidlythathecouldgatheronlythemostfleetingimpressions。To-dayhecouldlingerandlinger;hedid。ThetwonicestshopswereMannings’thehairdressersandPonting’sthebook-shop,butRosethegrocer’s,andCoulter’stheconfectioner’swereverygood。Mr。Manningwasanartist。Hedidnotsimplyputasimperingbustwithanelaborateheadofhairinhiswindowandleaveitatthat——hedid,indeed,placethereasmilingladywithawonderfuljewelledcombandaradiantrowofteeth,butaroundthishebuiltupamagnificentworldofsilverbrushes,tortoise-shellcombs,essencesandperfumesandpowders,jarsandbottlesandboxes。Manningwasthefinestartistinthetown。Ponting,atthetopofthestreetjustatthecorneroftheClose,wasanartisttoo,butinquiteanotherfashion。Pontingwasthebestestablished,mostsacredandseriousbooksellerinthecounty。Inthedayswhenthenew“Waverley“wasthesensationofthemomentMr。Ponting,grandfatherofthepresentMr。Ponting,hadbeeninquiteconstantcorrespondencewithMr。Southey,andMr。Coleridge,andhadonce,whenonavisittoLondon,spokentothegreatLordByronhimself。
  Thistraditionofaristocracyremained,andthepresentMr。PoutingalwaysadvisedtheBishopwhattoreadandwasconsultedbyMrs。
  Lamb,ouronlyauthoress,onquestionsofpublishersandeditionsandsuchtechnicalpoints。ForallthisJeremy,athispresentstageofinterest,wouldhavecarednothingevenhadheknownit,butwhathedidcareforweretherowsofcalf-boundbookswithlittleridgesofgold,thatmadeafinewallacrossthewindowwithanoldprintoftheCathedralandtheCloseinthemiddleofthem。InsidePontingstherewasahushasofthestudyandthechurchcombined。
  Itwasaratherdarkshopwithrowsandrowsofbooksdisappearingintotheceiling,andonegraveandunnaturallyoldyoungmanbehindthecounter。JeremydidnotknowwhatheshoulddoaboutHamlet,sohebroughthiminside,onlytodiscovertohishorrorthatthefiercestofalltheCanons,CanonWaterbury,heldtheflooroftheshop。CanonWaterburyhadablackbeardandabitingtongue。HehadoncewarnedJeremyofftheCathedralgrassinavoiceofthunder,andJeremyhadneverforgottenit。Heglarednowandpulledhisbeard,butHamletfortunatelybehavedwell,andtheoldyoungmandiscoveredJeremy’snotepaperwithinaveryshortperiod。
  ThensuddenlytheCanonspoke。
  “Dogsshouldnotbeinsideshops,“Hesaid,asthoughhewerecondemningsomeonetodeath。
  “Iknow,“saidJeremyfrankly。“Iwantedtotiehimuptosomethingandtherewasnothingtotiehimupto。“
  “Whatdidyoubringhimoutforatall?“saidtheCanon。
  “Becausehe’sgottohaveexercise,“saidJeremy,discovering,tohisowndelightedsurprise,thathewasnotfrightenedintheleast。
  “Oh,hashe?Idon’tknowwhatpeoplekeepdogsfor。“
  Andthenhestampedoutoftheshop。
  Jeremyregardedthisinthelightofavictoryandmarchedaway,hisheadmoreintheairthanever。Heshouldnowhavehurriedhome。ThemiddaychimeshadrungoutandJeremy’sdutieswereperformed。Buthelingered,listeningtothelastnotesofthechimes,hearingthecriesoftheCathedralchoir-boysastheymovedacrossthegreentothechoir-school,watchingallthepeoplehurryupanddownthestreet。Ah,therewastheCastlecarriage!PerhapstheoldCountesswasinsideit。Hehadonlyseenheronce,atsomeserviceintheCathedraltowhichhismotherhadtakenhim,butshehadmadeagreatimpressiononhimwithhersnow-whitehair。Hehadheardpeoplespeakofheras“awickedoldwoman。“Perhapsshewasinsidethecarriage……butheonlysawtheCastlecoachmanandfootmanandthecoronetonthedoor。Itrolledslowlyupthehillwithitsfineairofcommandingthewholeworld——thenitdisappearedaroundthecorneroftheClose。
  JeremydecidedthenthathewouldgohomeacrossthegreenanddownOrchardLane。HehadawishtoentertheCathedralforamoment;
  suchavisitwould,afterall,completetheroundofhisexperiences。HehadneverenteredtheCathedralalone,andnow,ashesawitfacinghim,sovastandmajesticandquiet,acrossthesun-drenchedgreen,hefeltasuddenfearandawe。HefoundaringinastonenearthewestendthroughwhichhemightfastenHamlet’slead,then,slowlypushingbacktheheavydoor,hepassedinside。
  TheCathedralwasutterlyquiet。Thevastnave,stainedwithreflectionsofpurpleandgreenandruby,wasvagueandunsubstantial,allthelittlewoodenchairshuddledtogethertotherightandleft,leavingagreatpaththatsweptuptotheHighAltarundershaftsoflightthatfelllikesearchlightsfromthewindows。
  Thetombsandthestatuespeereddimlyfromtheshadow,andthegreateastendwindow,withitsdeeppurplelight,seemedtodrawthewholenaveupintoitsheartandholditthere。Allwasspaceandsilence,lightanddusk;alittledollofavergermovedinthefardistance,anoldwoman,soquietthatsheseemedonlyashadow,passedhim,wipingthelittlechairswithaduster。
  ItseemedtoJeremythathehadneverbeenintheCathedralbefore;
  hestoodthere,breathless,asthoughinamomentsomethingmustinevitablyhappen。Althoughhedidnotthinkofit,themomentwasoneofasequencethathadcometohimduringtheyear——hisentryintothetheatrewithhisuncle,hisfirstconversationwiththesea-captain,thehourwhenhismotherhadbeensoill,theeveningonthebeachwhenCharlottehadbeenfrightened,thetimewhenHamlethadbeenlostandhehadsleptwithhimunderatree。Allthesemomentshadbeensomethingmorethanmerelythemselves,hadhadsomethingbehindthemorinsidethemforwhichsimplytheystoodaswordsstandforpictures。Heanalysed,ofcourse,nothing,beingaperfectlyhealthysmallboy,butifafterwardshelookedbackthesewerethemomentsthathesawasoneseesstationsonajourney。Onedayhewouldknowforwhattheystood。
  Hesimplynowwaitedthereasthoughheexpectedsomethingtohappen。Thoughtsslippedthroughhismindquitecasually,whetherHamletwerebehavingwelloutside,whattheoldladydidwhenshewastiredofdusting,whothestonefigurelyingnearhimmightbe,afigureveryfinewithhisruffandhispeakedbeard,hisarmsfolded,histoespointingupwards,whetherthebodywereinsidethestonelikeamummy,orunderneaththegroundsome-where;howstrangelydifferentthenavelookednowfromitsSundayshow,andwhatfunitwouldbetorunracesallthewaydownandseewhocouldreachthegoldenangelsoverthereredosfirst;hefeltnoreverence,andyetadeepreverence,nofear,but,nevertheless,awe;hewaswarmandhappyandcomfortable,andyetsuddenly,givingalittleshudder,heslippedoutintothesunlight,releasedHamletandstartedforhome。
  II
  Backagaininthebosomofhisfamilyhefeltthattheywerebeginningtobeawareofhisdeparture。
  “Whatshallwedothisevening,Jeremy——yourlastevening?“saidhismother。
  Everyonelookedathim。
  “Oh,Idon’tknow,“hesaiduncomfortably。“Justasusual,I
  suppose。“
  “You’remakinghimfeeluncomfortable,“saidAuntAmy,wholovedtoexplainquiteobviousthings。“Youwantittobejustanordinaryevening,dear,don’tyou?“
  “Oh,Idon’tknow,“hesaidagain,hatinghisaunt。
  “Idon’tthinkthatquitethewaytospeaktoyouraunt,myson,“
  saidhisfather。“Weonlyinquireoutofkindness,thinkingtopleaseyou。No,Mary,nomore。Friday——onehelping——“
  “Jeremymighthaveanotherasit’shislastday,Isuggest,“saidAuntAmy,whowasdeterminedtobepleasant。
  “Idon’twantany,thankyou,“saidJeremy,althoughitwastreaclepudding,whichheloved。
  “Well,Ithink,“saidMrs。Cole,“thatwe’llhavehighteaathalf-
  pastseven,andthechildrenshallstayupafterwardsandwe’llhave’MidshipmanEasy。’“
  Jeremylovedhismotherintenselyatthatmoment。Howdidsheknowsoexactlywhatwasright?Shemadesolittledisturbance,wassoquietandwasneverangry,andyetshewasalwaysrightwhentheotherswerealwayswrong。Sheknewthataboveallthingshelovedhightea——fishpieandboiledeggsandteaandjamandcake——ahorriblemealthathislaterjudgmentwouldutterlycondemn,butneverthelesssomethingsocosyandsocomfortablethatnolatermealwouldeverbeabletorivalitinthosequalities。
  “Oh,thatwillbelovely!“hesaid,hisfaceshiningallover。
  Nevertheless,astheafternoonadvancedastrangenewsenseofinsecurity,unhappinessandforlornnesscreptincreasinglyuponhim。
  Herealisedthathehadthatmorningsaidgood-byetothetown,andnowhefeltasthoughhehad,insomeway,hurtorinsultedit。And,alltheafternoon,hewassayingfarewelltothehouse。Hedidnotwanderfromroomtoroom,butrathersatupintheschoolroompretendingtomendafishingrodwhichMr。Monkhadgivenhimthatsummer。Hedidnotreallycareabouttherod——hewasnoteventhinkingofit。Heheardallthesoundsofthehouseashesatthere。Hecouldtellalltheclocks,thatoneboomingsoftlythehalfhourswasinhismother’sbedroom,therewasarattleandawhirrandtherecamethecuckoo-clockonthestairs,therewasthefast,cheapcarelesschatterofthelittleclockontheschoolroommantelpiece,therewasthewhisperofMissJones’swatchwhichshehadputoutonthetabletomarkthetimeofMary’ssewingby。Therewerealltheregularsoundsofthehouse。Thedistantclosingofdoors,deepdownintheheartofthehousesomeonewasusingasewingmachinesomewhere,voicescameupoutofthevoidandfadedagain,someonewhistled,someonesang。Hisgloomincreased。Hewasexchangingaworldheknewforaworldthathedidnotknow,andhecouldnotescapethefeelingthathewas,insomeway,insultingthisworldthathewasleaving。Hebotheredhimselfalltheafternoonwithunnecessarystupidaffairstocoverhisdeepdiscomfort。Hewhistledcarelesslyandoutoftune,hepokedthefireandwalkedabout。HewasincreasinglyawareofHamletandMary。
  Marywasdeterminedsohardthatshewouldshownoemotionatallthatshewasapainfulsighttowitness。Shescarcelyspoketohim,andonlyansweredinmonosyllablesifheaskedhersomething。
  AndHamlethadsuddenlydiscoveredthattheatmosphereofthehousewasunusual。Hehadexpected,inthefirstplace,tobetakenforawalkthatafternoon;thenhismasterwasverybusydoingnothing,whichwasmostunusual。Thenatteatimehisworstsuspicionswereconfirmed。Jeremysuddenlymadeafussofhim,pouringhisteaintohissaucer,givinghimapieceofbreadandjamandanextralumpofsugar。Hamletdrankhisteaandatehisbreadandjamthoughtfully。
  Theywereverynice,butwhatwasthematter?
  Helookedupthroughhishairanddiscoveredthathismaster’seyeswererestlessandunhappy,andthathewasthinkingofthingsthatdisturbedhim。Hewentawaytothefireand,sittingonhishaunches,gazinginhismetaphysicalwayattheflames,consideredthematter。Jeremycameovertohimand,drawinghimbacktohim,laidhisheaduponhiskneeandsoheldhim。Hamletdidnotmove,saveoccasionallytosigh,and,onceortwice,tosnapinasuddenwaythathehadatanimaginaryfly。Hethoughtthatinallprobabilityhismasterhadbeenpunishedforsomething,andinthishewasdeeplysympathetic,neverseeingwhyhismasterneedbepunishedforanythingandresentingthestupidityofhumanbeingswiththeireternaldesiretobe,insomewayorother,assertingtheirauthority。
  Gradually,infrontofthehotfire,bothboyanddogfellasleep。
  Jeremy’sdreamswereconfused,bewildered,distressing;hewasstrugglingtofindsomething,wasalwaysclimbinghigherandhighertodiscoverit,onlytobetoldthat,intheend,hewasintheplacewherehehadbegun。
  Hamlet’sdreamwasofanenormoussucculentbonethatwaspulledawayfromhimsosoonashesnappedatit。Theybothawokewithastarttofindthatitwastimeforhightea。