It’sthewallorsomething。“
Hecamedownfromthechairyawning。
“Jim’snice,“heconfidedtoher。“He’sgoingtotakemerattingoneday!“
“I’mgoing,“Marysaidagain,andwaited。
Jeremycoloured,lookedasthoughhewouldsaysomething,then,insilence,presentedaverygrimycheek。“Good-night,“hesaid,withanairofintenserelief。
“Good-night,“shesaid,kissinghim。
Sheclosedthedoorbehindher。Sheknewthattheworsthadhappened。Hehadpassedaway,utterlybeyondhercompany,herworld,herinterests。Shecreptalongtoherroom,andthere,withadeterminationandastrengthrareinachildsoyoungandsoundisciplined,facedherloneliness。
CHAPTERXI
THEMERRY-GO-ROUND
I
Theholidayswereover。TheColeswereoncemorebackinPolchester,andthemostexcitingperiodofJeremy’slifehadbegun。Soatanyratehefeltit。Itmightbethatinlateryearstherewouldbenewexcitingevents,lion-hunting,forinstance,orawar,orthetrackingofniggersintheheartofAfrica——hewouldbereadyforthemwhentheycame——buttheselastweeksbeforehisfirstdepartureforschoolofferedhimtheprospectofthefirstrealindependenceofhislife。Therecouldneverbeanythingquitelikethatagain。
Nevertheless,schoolseemedstillalongwaydistant。Itwasonlyhismanlinessthathewasrealisingandacertainimpatienceandrestlessnessthatunderlayeverythingthathedid。
SeptemberandOctoberareoftenverylovelymonthsinPolchester;
autumnseemstocometherewithagreaterwarmthandrichnessthanitdoeselsewhere。AlongallthereachesofthePol,rightdowntothesea,theleavesofthewoodshungwithariotousmagnificencethatisgloriousinitsrecklessness。Thewatersofthatsilentriveraresostill,soglassy,thatthebanksofgoldandflamingredarereflectedinalltheirrichestcolourdownintotheveryheartofthestream,anditisonlywhenafishjumpsoratwigfallsfromtheoverhangingtreesthatthemirrorisbrokenandthecoloursflashintoripplesandshadowsofwhiteandgrey。TheuttersilenceofallthisworldmakestheCathedraltownsleepy,sluggish,forgottenofallmen。AstheautumncomesitseemstodrowseawayintowintertothetuneofitsCathedralbells,tothescentofitsburningleavesandthesoftstepsofitsCanonsandclergy。Thereiseveryautumnhereaclericalconference,andlongbeforetheappointedweekbegins,andlongafteritislawfullyconcluded,clergymen,strangeclergymenwithsoftblackhats,takethetownfortheirown,gazeintoMartinthepastry-cook’s,sitintheduskoftheCathedrallisteningtotheorgan;walk,theirheadsinair,theirarmsfoldedbehindtheirbacks,straightupOrangeStreetasthoughtheywerescalingHeavenitself;stoplittlechildren,pattheirheads,andgivethempennies;standoutsidePoole’sbookshopanddelveinthe2d。boxforthumb-markedsermons;standgazinginlearnedfashionatthegreatWestDoor,investigatingthesaintsandapostlesportrayedthereon;hurryintheirbesthatsandcoatsalongtheClosetosomeladies’tea-party,orpasswithsolemnandanxiousmienintothepalaceoftheBishophimself。
AllthesethingsbelongtoautumninPolchester,asJeremyverywellknew,buttheeventthatmarksthetruebeginningoftheseason,theonlywaybywhichyoumaysurelyknowthatsummerisoverandautumniscomeisPauper’sFair。
Thisfamousfairhasbeen,fromtimeimmemorial,anotedeventinGlebeshirelife。Evennow,whenfairshaveyieldedtocinematographsasattractionsforthepeople,Pauper’sFairgivesitsannualexcitement。ThirtyyearsagoitwasthegreatesteventoftheyearinPolchester。Allourfinepeople,ofcourse,dislikeditextremely。Itdisturbedthetownfordays,thetownrockedinthearmsofcrowdsofdrunkensailors,thetowngavesheltertogipsiesandroguesandscoundrels,thetown,thedecent,amiable,happytownactuallyforaweekorsoseemedtoinvitetheworldoftheblazingfireandthedancingclown。Nowonderthatourfinepeopleshuddered。Onlytheotherday——Ispeaknowofthesemoderntimes——
theBishoptriedtostopthewholebusiness。HewrotetotheGlebeshireMorningNews,urgingthatPauper’sFair,inthesedaysofenlightenmentandculture,cannotbutberegrettedbyallthosewhohavethehealthyprogressofourdearcountryatheart。Well,youwouldbeamazedatthestormthathisprotestraised。PeoplewrotefromallovertheCounty,andtherewereultimatelylettersfrompatrioticGlebeshirecitizensinNewZealandandSouthAfrica。AndinPolchesteritself!Everyone——eventhosewhohadshudderedmostatthefair’siniquities——wasindignant。Giveupthefair!OneofthefewsignsleftofthatjollyOldEnglandwhosesentimentischerishedbyus,whosefragmentsneverthelesswesoreadilystampupon。No,thefairmustremainandwillremain,Ihavenodoubt,untiltheveryendofournationalchapter。
Nowadaysithasshed,verylargely,Iamafraid,thecharacterthatitgloriouslymaintainedthirtyyearsago。ThenitwasreallyaninvasionbytheseafaringelementoftheCounty。Allthelittlecountryportsandharbourspouredouttheirfishermenandsailors,whocamewalking,driving,singing,laughing,swearing;theyfilledthestreets,andwentpeering,likethewildestofancientPicts,intothemysteriousbeautiesoftheCathedral,andlateatnight,whenthetownshouldhaveslept,arminarmtheywentroaringpastthedarkwindows,singingtheirsongs,stampingtheirfeet,andeveryonceandagainringingadecentdoor-bellfortheiramusement。
Itwasveryseldomthatanyharmwasdone。Onceaseriousfirebrokeoutamongsttheoldwoodenhousesdownontheriver,andsomeofthemwereburnttotheground,afatethatnoonedeplored;onceasailorwasmurderedinadrunkensquabbleat“TheDogandPilchard,“
thewildestoftheriversidehostelries;andonceaCanonwascaughtandstrippedandduckedinthewatersofthePolbyamobwhoresentedhisgentleappealsthattheyshouldtrytopreferlemonadetogin;buttheseweretheonlythreecatastrophesinallthehistoryofthefair。
Duringthefairweekthetownsniffedofthesea——oflobsterandseaweedandtarandbrine——andallthetalesoftheseathathaveeverbeentoldbymanweretoldduringthesedaysinPolchester。
Thedecentpeoplekepttheirdoorslocked,theirchildrenathome,andtheirvaluablesinthefamilysafe。NoupperclasschildinPolchestersomuchassawtheoutsideofagipsyvan。TheDean’sErnestwasaccustomedtoboastthathehadoncebeengivenaridebyagipsyonadonkey,whenhisnursewasnotlooking,butnoonecreditedthestory,andthedetailswithwhichhesupporteditwerefeebleandunconvincing。ThePolchesterchildreningeneralweretoldthat“theywouldbestolenbythegipsiesiftheyweren’tcareful,“and,althoughsomeoftheminextrememomentsofrebellionanddepressionfeltthatthelifeofadventurethusofferedtothem,might,afterall,bemoreagreeablethanthedrearyrealismoftheirnaturaldays,thewarningmaybesaidtohavebeeneffective。
NofamilyinPolchesterwasguardedmorecarefullyinthismatterofthePauper’sFairthantheColefamily。Mr。Colehadanabsolutehorrorofthefair。Sailorsandgipsiesweretohimthesignandsealofutterdamnation,andalthoughhetried,asaChristianclergyman,tobelievethattheydeservedpitybecauseofthedisadvantagesunderwhichtheyhadfromthefirstlaboured,heconfessedtohisintimatefriendsthathesawverylittlehopeforthemeitherinthisworldorthenext。Jeremy,HelenandMarywere,duringFairWeek,keptseverelywithindoors;theirexercisehadtobetakenintheColegarden,andthefarthestthattheypokedtheirnosesintothetownwastheirvisittoSt。John’sonSundaymorning。
Exceptononefamousoccasion。TheFairWeekofJeremy’sfifthyearsawhimwrithingunderaterribleattackoftoothache,whichbecame,aftertwoagonisednights,suchatormentanddistresstothewholehouseholdthathehadtobeconveyedtothehouseofMr。Pilter,whohadhistorture-chamberatNo。3MarketSquare。ItistruethatJeremywasconveyedthitherinacab,andthathispainandhisdarkenedwindowspreventedhimfromseeingverymuchofthegayworld;nevertheless,inspiteoftheJampot,whoguardedhimlikeadragon,hecaughtaglimpseofflags,agleamingbrassbandandaPunchandJudyshow,andheheardthetrumpetsandthedrum,andtheshoutsofexcitedlittleboys,andtheblowingofthePunchandJudypipes,andhesmeltroastingchestnuts,badtobacco,andbeerandgin。Hereturned,youngashewas,andreducedtoacorpse-likeconditionbytheroughbutkindlyintentionedservicesofMr。
Pilter,withthepictureofahysterical,abandonedworldclearlyimprinteduponhisbrain。
“Iwanttogo,“hesaidtotheJampot。
“Youcan’t,“saidshe。
“IwillwhenI’msix,“saidhe。
“Youwon’t,“saidshe。
“IwillwhenI’mseven,“saidhe。
“Youwon’t,“saidshe。
“IwillwhenI’meight,“heanswered。
“Oh,giveover,do,MasterJeremy,“saidshe。Andnowhewaseight,verynearlynine,andgoingtoschoolinafortnight。Thereseemedtobeatouchofdestinyabouthisprophecy。
II
Hehadnointentionofdisobedience。Hadhebeenoncedefinitelytoldbysomeoneinauthoritythathewasnottogotothefairhewouldnothavedreamtofgoing。Hehadnointentionofdisobedience——
buthehadreturnedfromtheCowFarmholidayinastrangeconditionofmind。
Hehadfoundtherethissummermorefreedomthanhehadbeeneverallowedinhislifebefore,andithadbeenfreedomthathadcome,notsomuchfromanychangeofrules,butratherfromhisownattitudetothefamily——simplyhehadwantedtodocertainthings,andhehaddonethemandthefamilyhadstoodaside。Hebegantobeawarethathehadonlytopushandthingsgaveway——adangerousknowledge,anditscomingmarksaperiodinone’slife。
Heseemed,too,duringthissummer,tohavelefthissistersdefinitelybehindhimandtostandmuchmorealonethanhehaddonebefore。TheonlypersoninhisworldwhomhefeltthathewouldliketoknowbetterwasUncleSamuel,andthatargued,onhispart,acertaintendencytowardsrebellionandindividuality。HewasnolongerrudetoAunt’Amy,althoughhehatedherjustashehadalwaysdone。Shedidnotseemanylongeraquestionthatmattered。
Hisattitudetohiswholefamilynowwasindependent。
Indeed,hewas,inreality,nowbeginningtolivehisindependentlife。Hewasperhapsveryyoungtobesentofftoschoolbyhimself,althoughinthosedaysforaboyofeighttobeplungedwithoutanyhelpbutafriendlywordofwarningintothestormyseasofprivateschoollifewascommonenough——nevertheless,hisfather,consciousthatthechild’slifehadbeenhithertospentalmostentirelyamongwomen,senthimeverymorningduringtheselastweeksathomedowntotheCurateofSt。Martin’s-in-the-MarkettolearnafewwordsofLatin,aneasysumortwo,andtherudimentsofspelling。Thisyoungcurate,theRev。WilfredSomerset,recentlyofEmmanuelCollege,Cambridge,hadbuttwoideasinhishead——thenoblegameofcricketandthejollyqualitiesofMr。Surtees’snovels。Hewasstoutandstrong,red-faced,andthickintheleg,alwayssmokingalargoblack-lookingpipe,andwearingtrousersveryshortandtight。HedidnotstrikeJeremywithfear,buthewas,nevertheless,aninfluence。Jeremy,apparently,amusedhimintensely。Hewouldroarwithlaughteratnothingatall,smackhisthighandshout,“Goodforyou,young’un,“whateverthatmightmean,andJeremy,gazingathim,athispipeandhistrousers,likinghimrather,butnotsufficientlyinawetobereallyimpressed,wouldaskhimquestionsthatseemedtohimperfectlysimpleandnatural,butthat,nevertheless,amusedtheRev。Wilfredsofundamentallythathewasunabletogivethemanintelligibleanswer。
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