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第34章

  ThelastdaysofAugustcame,andwiththemthelastweekoftheholiday。Alreadytherewasascentofautumnintheair,leaveswereturninggoldandred,andtheeveningscamecoolandsudden,uponthehotsummerafternoons。Marywasnotverywell;shehadcaughtacoldsomewhere,andexistedintheirritatingconditionofgoingoutonedayandbeingheldindoorsthenext。Thisupsethertemper,andatnightshehadnightmares,inwhichshesawcloudsofsmokecrawlinginatherwindow,snakesonthefloor,andcrimsonflamesdartingatherfromtheceiling。ItwasbecauseshewasinanabnormalconditionofhealththattheideaofdoingsomethingwithHamlethadgainedsuchaholduponher。Sheconsideredthematterfromeverypointofview。Shedidnotwanttobecrueltothedog;
  shesupposedthatafteraweekortwohewouldbequitehappywithhisnewmaster,and,inanycase,hehadstrolledinsocasuallyupontheColefamilythathewasaccustomedtoawanderinglife。
  Shedidnotintendthatanyoneshouldknow。Itwastobeadeepsecretallofherown。
  JeremywasgoingtoschoolinSeptember,andbeforethenshemustmakehimfriendlytoheragain。Shesawstretchinginfrontofherallthelonelyautumnwithouthimandherownmemoriesofthemiserablesummertomakeherwretched。Shewasanextremelysentimentallittlegirl。
  Asalwayshappenswhenoneismeditatingwithaplacatedconscienceawickeddeed,theopportunitywassuddenlyofferedtoMaryofachievingherpurpose。OnemorningJeremy,afterrefusingtolistentooneofMary’slongromances,losthistemper。
  “Ican’tstop,“hesaid。“Youbotherandbotherandbother。AuntAmysaysyounearlymakehermad。“
  “Idon’tcarewhatAuntAmysays,“Maryontheedgeoftearsreplied。
  “HamletandIaregoingout。AndI’msickofyoursillyoldstories。“ThenhesuddenlystoppedandgazedatMary,whowasbeginning,asusual,toweep。
  “Lookhere,Mary,what’sbeenthematterwithyoulately?You’realwayscryingnoworsomething。AndyoulookatmeasthoughI’ddonesomethingdreadful。Ihaven’tdoneanything。“
  “I——never——saidyou——had,“Marygulpedout。Herubbedhisnoseinawaythathehadwhenhewaspuzzled。
  “Ifit’sanythingIdo,tellme。It’ssosillyalwayscrying。Theholidayswillbeoversoon,andyou’vedonenothingbutcry。“
  “You’re——never——withme——now,“Marysobbed。
  “Well,I’vebeenbusy。“
  “Youhaven’t。Youcan’tbebusyall——byyourself。“
  “Oh,yes,youcan。“Hewasgettingimpatient。“Anyway,youmightletHamletandmealone。You’realwaysbotheringoneofus。“
  “No,I’mnot。“Shechokedanenormoussobandburstoutwith:“It’salwaysHamletnow。Iwishhe’dnever——come。Itwasmuchnicerbefore。“
  Thenhelosthistemper。“Oh,you’reababy!I’msickofyouandyournonsense,“hecried,andstampedoff。
  InMary’sred-rimmedeyes,asshewatchedhimgo,determinationgrew。
  IthappenedthatupontheafternoonofthatsamedayMissJonesannouncedthatshewouldtakeMaryforawalk;then,justastheypassedthroughthefarmgates,Hamlet,rushingout,joinedthem。Hedidnotoftenhonourthemwithhiscompany,despisingwomenmostespeciallywhentheywalked,butto-dayhismasterwasbusydiggingforwormsinthevegetablegarden,and,afteraquarterofanhour’scontemplationofthisfascinatingoccupation,hehadwanderedoffinsearchofaliveliergame。HedecidedtojoinMissJones;hecoulddowhathepleased,hecouldamusehimselfwithherineffectualattemptstokeephiminorder,andhecouldirritateMary;sohedancedalong,withhistailintheair,barkingatimaginaryratsandpokinghisnoseintohedges。
  Mary,withasuddentightenedclutchingoftheheart,realisedthatherhourwasuponher。Shefeltsowickedassherealisedthisthatshewonderedthatthegrounddidn’topenupandswallowher,asithaddonewiththoseunfortunatepeopleintheBible。Butno,theworldwascalm。Littlewhitemilkycloudsracedinlinesandcirclesacrossthesky,andonceandagainaleaffloatedfromatree,hungforamomentsuspended,andthenturnedslowlytotheground。Thehedgeswereadarkblack-green,highandthickabovethedustyroad;
  therehadbeennorainforweeks。Trulyastableworld。Mary,glaringatFate,wonderedhowitcouldbeso。
  MissJones,whowashappyandoptimisticto-day,talkedinatenderlyreminiscenttoneofheryouth。ThisveinofreminiscenceMary,onhernormalday,loved。To-dayshedidnothearawordthatMissJonessaid。
  “Iremembermymothersayingsowelltomydearbrother:’Dowhatyoulike,myboy。Itrustyou。’AndindeedAlfredwastobetrustedifeveraboywas。Itisaremarkablething,butIcannotrememberasingleoccasionofdishonestyonAlfred’spart。’Awhitelie,’hewouldoftensay,’isalie,andalieisasin——whiteorblack,alwaysasin’;andIrememberthathewouldoftenputmothertoaseriousinconveniencebyhistellingcallersthatshewasinwhenshehadwishedittobesaidthatshewasnotathome。Hefeltithisseriousduty,andsohetoldMother。’Don’taskmetotellalie,Mother,’Irememberhissaying。’Icannotdoit。’“
  “LikeGeorgeWashington,“saidMary,suddenlycatchingthelastwordsofMissJones’ssentence。
  “Hewaslikemanyfamouscharactersinhistory,Iusedtothink。
  OnceIrememberreadingaboutOliverCromwell……“Whereisthatdog?Hamlet!Hamlet!Perhapshe’sgoneafterthesheep。Ah!thereheis!Hamlet,younaughtydog!“
  Theywereapproachingoneoftheirfavouritepiecesofcountry——
  MellotWood。Here,onthewood’sedge,thegroundbrokeaway,runningdowninafieldofcorntoalittlegreenvalleywithclusteredtreesthatshowedonlytheirheads,sothicklyembeddedwerethey,andbeyondthevalleythesea。Thesealookedquiteclosehere,althoughitwasinrealityfourmilesdistant。Neverwassuchaplaceasthisviewforlightandshadow。Thecloudsracedliketheblackwingsofenormousbirdsacrossthelightgreenvalley,andthered-goldofthecornfieldwastossedintothehazeandsweptlikeagoldenshadowacrosstheearth,bendingbackagainwhenthebreezehaddied。BehindMellotWoodwasMellotFarm,anoldeighteenth-
  centuryhouseaboutwhichtherewasafinetragicstorywithamurderandaghostinit,andthis,ofcourse,gaveMellotWoodanadditionalcharm。WhentheyarrivedattheoutskirtsofMellotWoodMarylookedabouther。Itwashere,ontheedgeoftheRafielRoadthatskirtedthewood,thatshehadonceseenthedog-maneatinghisluncheonoutofaredpocket-handkerchief。Therewasnosignofhimto-day。Allwassilentandstill。Onlythelittlewoodutteredlittlesighsofcontentbeneaththeflyingclouds。Hamlet,tiredwithhisracingafterimaginaryrabbits,walkedquietlyalongbyMary’sside。Whatwasshetodo?Shehadonceagainthedesperatefeelingthatsomethingstrongerthanshehadsweptdownuponherandwasforcinghertodothisthing。Sheseemedtohavenowillofherown,buttobewatchingsomeothercommitanactwhosedangerouswickednessfrozeherheart。Howcouldshe?Butshemust。Someonewasdoingitforher。
  Andinverytruthitseemedso。MissJonessaidthatnowtheywerehereshemightaswellcalluponMissAndrews,thesisteroftheMellotfarmer。MissAndrewshadpromisedhersomeducks’eggs。Theypushedopenthefarmgate,passedacrosstheyardandknockedonthehousedoor。NearMarywasalargebarnwithaheavydoor,nowajar。
  Hamletsatgazingpensivelyataflockofgeese,histongueout,pantingcontentedly。
  “Waithereoneminute,Mary,“saidMissJones。“Iwon’tstay。“
  MissJonesdisappeared。Mary,stillunderthestrangesensethatitwasnotshe,butanother,whodidthesethings,movedbacktothebarn,callingsoftlytoHamlet。Hefollowedher,sniffingaratsomewhere。Veryquicklyshepulledbackthedoor;he,stillinvestigatinghisrat,followedintothedarkexcitementsofthebarn。Withaquickmovementshebentdown,slippedoffhiscollar,whichshehidinherdress,thenshuthimin。Sheknewthatforamomentortwohewouldstillbepursuinghisrat,andshesaw,withguiltyrelief,MissJonescomeouttoherjustasshehadfinishedherevildeed。
  “MissAndrewsisout,“saidMissJones。“TheyareallawayatLiskaneFair。“
  Theyleftthefarmandwalkeddowntheroad。Hamlethadnotbegunhiscry。
  IV
  MissJoneswaspleased。“Suchaniceservant,“shesaid。“Oneoftheoldkind。Shehadbeenwiththefamilyfiftyyears,shetoldme,andhadnursedMr。Andrewsonherknee。Fancy!Suchalargefatmanasheisnow。Toomuchbeer,Isuppose。Isupposetheygetsothirstywithallthestrawandhayabout。Yes,areallynicewoman。ShetoldmethattherewasnoplaceinGlebeshiretotouchthemforcream。I
  daresaythey’reright。Afterall,younevercantell。Irememberathome……“
  Shebrokeoffthenandcried:“Where’sHamlet?“
  Mary,wickederthanever,staredthroughherspectaclesdowntheroad。“Idon’tknow,MissJones,“shesaid。Theyhadleftthewoodandthefarm,andtherewasnothingtobeseenbutthelongwhiteribbonofroadhemmedinbythehighhedges。
  “Perhapshestayedbehindatthefarm,“saidMissJones。
  ThenMarytoldherworstlie。
  “Oh,no,MissJones。Heranpastusjustnow。Didn’tyouseehim?“
  “No,Ididn’t。He’sgoneonahead,Isuppose。Herunshomesometimes。Naughtydog!Weshallcatchhimup。“
  Butofcoursetheydidnot。TheypassedthroughthegatesofCowFarmandstillnothingofHamletwastobeseen。
  “Ohdear!Ohdear!“saidMissJones。“Idohopethathe’sarrived。
  WhateverwillJeremysayifanythinghasgonewrong?“
  Marywasbreathinghardnow,asthoughshehadbeenrunningadesperaterace。Shewouldatthismomenthavegivenallthatshepossessed,orallthatshewaseverlikelytopossess,torecallherdeed。IfshecouldhaveseenHamletrushingdowntheroadtowardshershewouldhavecriedwithrelief;thereseemednowtobesuddenlyremovedfromherthatoutsideagencythathadforcedhertodothisthing;now,havingcompelledher,ithadwithdrawnandlefthertocarrytheconsequences。StrangelyconfusedinhersentimentalsoulwasherterrorofJeremy’swrathandherownpictureofthewretchedHamletbarkinghisheartout,frightened,thirsty,andlonely。Herteethbegantochatter;sheclenchedherhandstogether。
  MissJoneswentacrossthecourtyard,calling:
  “Hamlet!Hamlet!“
  Thefamilywascollected,havingjustsatdowntotea,sothattheannouncementreceiveditsfullmeasureofexcitement。
  “HasHamletcomeback?Wethoughthewasaheadofus。“
  Achairhadtumbledover。JeremyhadrunroundthetabletoMissJones。
  “What’sthat?Hamlet?Whereishe?“
  “Wethoughthemustbeaheadofus。Heranpastusdowntheroad,andwethought——“
  Theythought!Sillywomen!Jeremy,asthoughhewerechallengingagod,stoodupagainstMissJones,hurlingquestionsather。Wherehadtheybeen?Whatroadhadtheytaken?Hadtheygoneintothewood?Whereaboutshadherunpastthem?
  “Idon’tknow,“saidMissJonestothislast。“Ididn’tseehim。
  Marydid。“
  JeremyturneduponMary。“Wherewasityousawhim?“
  Shecouldn’tspeak。Hertonguewouldn’tmove,herlipswouldn’topen;shecouldbutwaggleherheadlikeanidiot。Shesawnothingbuthisface。Itwasadesperateface。SheknewsomuchbetterthanalltheotherswhatthethoughtoflosingHamletwastohim。Itwaspartoftheharshnessofherfatethatsheshouldunderstandhimsomuchbetterthantheothersdid。