HefoundthenthatthisnewsenseorGod-likepowerdetractedalittlefromtheexcitementsoftheMarketPlace,althoughtheflower-stallwasdazzlingwithflowers;therewasanewkindofpigthatlifteditstailandlowereditagainonthetoystall,andtheapple-womanwasasfataseverandhadthickclumpsofyellowbananashangingmostrichlyaroundherhead。TheyascendedtheHighStreetandreachedtheClose。Itwashalf-pastthree,andtheCathedralbellshadbeguntoringforevensong。AllthehousesintheClosewerepaintedwithapaleyellowlight;acrossthelonggreenCathedrallawnthinblackshadowslikethefingersofgiantspointedtotheCathedraldoor。Allwassosilentherethatthebellsdancedagainstthehousesandbackagain,theechoeslingeringinthehighelmsandminglingwiththeplacidcooingoftherooks。
“There’sMrs。Sampson,“saidJeremy。“AuntAmysaysshe’sawickedwoman。Doyouthinkshe’sawickedwoman,Nurse?“Hegazedatthestoutfigurewithinterest。IfheweretrulyGodhewouldturnherintoarabbit。Thisthoughtamusedhim,andhebegantolaugh。
“Younaughtyboy;nowcomealong,do,“saidtheJampot,whodistrustedlaughterinJerry。
“I’llringthebellswhenIgrowup,“hesaid,“andI’llringtheminthemiddleofthenight,sothateveryonewillhavetogotochurchwhentheydon’twantto。I’llbeabletodowhatIlikewhenIgrowup。“
“No,youwon’t,“saidHelen。“FatherandMothercan’tdowhattheylike。“
“Yestheycan,“saidJeremy。
“Notheycan’t,“answeredHelen,“ortheywould。“
“Sotheydo,“saidJeremy——“silly。“
“Sillyyourself,“saidHelenverycalmly,becausesheknewverywellthatshewasnotsilly。
“Now,children,stopit,do,“saidtheJampot。
Jeremy’ssenseofnewlyreceivedpowerreacheditsclimaxwhentheywalkedroundtheCloseandreachedthebackoftheCathedral。Iknowthatnow,bothforJeremyandme,thatprospecthasdwindledintoitspropergrown-upproportions,buthowcanaman,behecometothreescoreandtenandmore,everforgetthesize,thesplendour,thestupendousextravaganceofthatearlyvision?
Jeremysawthatdaytheoldfragmentofcastlewall,thegreenexpansefallinglikeasheetedwaterfallfromtheCathedralheights,thebluelineofriverflashingintheeveningsunbetweenthebare-
boughedtrees,thelongspacesofblackshadowspreadingslowlyoverthecolour,asthoughitwereallbeingrolledupandlaidawayforanotherday;thebrownfrostypathoftheRopeWalk,thefartherbankclimbingintofieldsandhedges,endingintheridgeofwood,blackagainstthegoldensky。Andallsostill!Asthechildrenstoodtheretheycouldcatchnestlings’faintcries,stirringsofdeadleavesandtwigs,asbirdsandbeastsmovedtotheirhomes;thecooingoftherooksabouttheblackbranchesseemedtopromisethatthisworldshouldbeforevertranquil,forevercloisteredandremoved;thesun,redandflamingabovethedarkwood,flungwhitemistshitherandthithertoveilitsdeparture。Thesilencedeepened,thelastlightflamedontheriveranddieduponthehill。
“Now,children,comealongdo,“saidtheJampotwhohadbeenheldinspiteofherself,andwouldpayforit,sheknew,inrheumatismto-
morrow。ItwasthenthatJeremy’sGod-flungsenseofpower,bornfromthatmomentearlyinthedaywhenhehadsatinthewickerchair,reacheditsclimax。Hestoodthere,hislegsapart,lookinguponthedarkeningworldandfeltthathecoulddoanything——
anything……
Atanyrate,therewasonethingthathecoulddo,disobeytheJampot。
“I’mnotcoming,“hesaid,“tillIchoose。“
“Youwickedboy!“shecried,hertemperrisingwiththeeveningchills,herdesireforacupofhottea,andanachinglongingforacomfortablechair。“Wheneveryone’sbeensogoodtoyouto-dayandthethingsyou’vebeengivenandall——why,it’sawickedshame。“
TheJampot,whowasawomanhappilywithoutimagination,sawanaughtysmallboyspoiledandneedingtheslipper。
Arook,takingalastlookattheworldbeforeretiringtorest,watchingfromhisleaflessbough,sawamortalspiritdefyingtheuniverse,andsympathisedwithit。
“Ishalltellyourmother,“saidtheJampot。“Nowcome,MasterJeremy,beagoodboy。“
“Oh,don’tbother,Nurse,“heansweredimpatiently。“You’resuchafuss。“
Sherealisedinthatmomentthathewassuddenlybeyondherpower,thathewouldneverbewithinitagain。Shehadnursedhimforeightyears,shehadlovedhiminherownway;she,dullperhapsinthewaysoftheworld,butwiseinthewaysofnurses,waysthatarebuiltupofsurrenderandsurrender,gavehim,thenandthere,tothelargerlife……
“Youmaybehaveasyoulike,MasterJeremy,“shesaid。“Itwon’tbeforlongthatI’llhavethedealingwithyou,praisebe。You’llbegoingtoschoolnextSeptember,andthenwe’llseewhat’llhappentoyourwickedpride。“
“School!“heturneduponher,hiseyeswideandstaring。
“School!“hestaredatthemall。
Theworldtumbledfromhim。Inhissoulwasaconfusionoftriumphanddismay,ofexcitementandloneliness,ofthesuddenfallingfromhimofalloldstandards,oldhorizons,ofprideandhumility……
HowlittlenowwastheVillagetohim。Helookedatthemtoseewhethertheycouldunderstand。Theycouldnot。
Veryquietlyhefollowedthemhome。Hisbirthdayhadachieveditsclimax……
CHAPTERII
THEFAMILYDOG
I
ThatwinterofJeremy’seighthbirthdaywasfamousforitssnow。
GlebeshirehasneveryieldedtothewishesofitschildreninthematterofsnowyChristmases,andPolchesterhasthereputationofmuggywarmthandfoggymists,butherewasayearwhentraditionswerefulfilledinthemostrecklessmanner,andallthe1892babiesweretreatedtoapresentofsnowonsofineascalethatcertainlyfortherestoftheirdaystheywillgoaboutsaying:“Ah,youshouldseethewintersweusedtohavewhenwewerechildren……“
ThesnowbeganontheverydayafterJeremy’sbirthday,comingdowndoubtfully,slowly,littlegreyflakesagainstagreysky,thensparklingwhite,thenvanishingflashesofmoistureonawet,unsympatheticsoil。Thatdaythesnowdidnotlie;andforaweekitdidnotcomeagain;thenwithawhirlitseizedtheland,andfortwodaysandnightsdidnotloosenitsgrip。Fromthenurserywindowsthechildrenwatchedit,theirnosesmakinglittleringsonthewindow-pane,theirdelightedeyessnatchingfascinatingglimpsesoffigurestossedthroughthestorm,cabsbeatingtheirway,therabbit-skinman,themilkman,thepostman,braveadventurersall,fighting,asitseemed,fortheirverylives。
Fortwodaysthechildrendidnotleavethehouse,andthenaturalresultofthatwasthatonthesecondafternoontemperswere,likesomanydogs,straining,tugging,pullingattheirchains。
ItcouldnotbedeniedthatJeremyhadbeentiresometoeveryonesincetheafternoonwhenhehadheardthenewsofhisgoingtoschoolnextSeptember。Ithadseemedtohimatremendousevent,theBeginningoftheEnd。Totheothers,wholivedintheimmediatepresent,itwasacrisissoremoteasscarcelytocountatall。Marywouldhavelikedtobesentimentalaboutit,butfromthisshewassternlyprevented。Therewasthennothingmoretobesaid……
Jeremywassuddenlyisolatedfromthemall。Hisdestinywaspeculiar。Theyweregirls,hewasaboy。Theyunderstoodneitherhisfearsnorhisambitions;heneededterriblyacompanion。Thesnow,shuttingthemin,laughedattheirstrugglesagainstmonotony。Thenurseryclockstruckthreeandtheyrealisedthattwowholehoursmustpassbeforethenextmeal。Mary,hernoseredfrompressingonthewindow-pane,hereyesgazingthroughherhugespectacleswistfullyatJeremy,longedtosuggestthatsheshouldreadaloudtohim。Sheknewthathehatedit;shepretendedtoherselfthatshedidnotknow。
JeremystareddesperatelyatHelenwhowassitting,dignifiedandcollected,inthewickerchairhemmingaminutehandkerchief。
“WemightplayPirates,“Jeremysaidwithalittlecough,thebettertosecureherattention。Therewasnoanswer。
“Orthere’sthehutinthewood——ifanyonelikesitbetter,“headdedpolitely。Hedidnotknowwhatwasthematter。HadtheJampotnottoldhimaboutschoolhewouldatthisverymomentbeplayingmosthappilywithhisvillage。Itspreadouttherebeforehimonthenurseryfloor,theNoahfamilyengageduponteaintheorchard,thebutcherstaringwithfixedgazefromthedoorofhisshop,threecowsandasheepabsorbedinthearchitectureofthechurch。
Hesighed,thensaidagain:“PerhapsPirateswouldbebetter。“
StillHelendidnotreply。Heabandonedtheattemptedcontrolofhispassions。
“It’sveryrude,“hesaid,“nottoanswerwhengentlemenspeaktoyou。“
“Idon’tseeanygentlemen,“answeredHelenquietly,withoutraisinghereyes,whichwas,assheknew,aprovokinghabit。
“Yes,youdo,“almostscreamedJeremy。“I’mone。“
“You’renot,“continuedHelen;“you’reonlyeight。GentlemenmustbeovertwentylikeFatherorMr。Jellybrand。“
“IhateMr。JellybrandandIhateyou,“repliedJeremy。
“Idon’tcare,“saidHelen。
“Yes,youdo,“saidJeremy,thensuddenly,asthoughevenagoodquarrelwerenotworthwhileonthisheavilyburdenedafternoon,hesaidgently:“YoumightplayPirates,Helen。YoucanbeSirRoger。“
“I’vegotthistofinish。“
“It’sadirtyoldthing,“continuedJeremy,pursuinganargument,“andit’llbedirtiersoon,andtheJampotsaysyoudoallthestitcheswrong。IwishIwasatschool。“
“Iwishyouwere,“saidHelen。
Therewasapauseafterthis。Jeremywentsadlybacktohiswindow-
seat。Maryfeltthathermomenthadarrived。Sniffing,aswasherhabitwhenshewantedsomethingverybadly,shesaidinavoicethatwaslittlemorethanawhisper:
“Itwouldbefun,wouldn’tit,perhapsifIreadsomething,Jeremy?“
Jeremywasagentleman,althoughhewasonlyeight。Helookedatherandsawbehindthespectacleseyesbeseechinghispermission。
“Well,itwouldn’tbemuchfun,“hesaid,“butit’sallbeastlythisafternoon,anyway。“
“CanIsitonthewindowtoo?“askedMary。
“Nottooclose,becauseitticklesmyear,butyoucanifyoulike。“
Shehurriedacrosstothebookshelf。“There’s’Stumps’and’RagsandTatters,’and’EngeltheFearless,’and’HerrBaby’and’Alice’and-
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