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第19章

  allthesethingstheCaptainbrushedasideasthoughtheynolongerinterestedhimintheleast。He,ontheotherhand,wantednowtoknowexactlywhereJeremylived,whatthehousewaslike,wherethebackdoorswere,howthewindowsopened,whereJeremyslept,andsoon。Jeremy,pleasedatthisinterestinhisdailylife,toldhimasmanythingsashecould,hopingtopassonafterwardstomoreexcitingtopics;how,forinstance,thekitchenwindowswerefastenedalwayslastthingatnight,butyoucouldundothemfromthegardenifyoulikedwithyourknife,andJeremyknewthisbecauseUncleSamuelhaddoneitonceonaSundayafternoonwhenthemaidswerealloutandhe’dforgottenhisdoorkey。HewouldhavetoldtheCaptainallabouttheschoolroomandthetoyvillageandtheJampotandthefuntheyhadhadteasingMissJoneshadnot,theCaptainfiercelytoldhimthatthesethingsdidnotinteresthim,andthathehadbetterjustanswerthequestionsthatwereputtohim。Itwasindeedstrangetoseehow,witheveryinterview,theCaptaingrewfiercerandfiercerandsharperandsharper。Hemadenoallusionsnowto“’islittlenipper,“saidnothingaboutthatholysoulhismother,andnevermentionedhislikingforJeremy。Therewasevidentlysomethingonhismind,andifhehadseemedmysteriousattheirfirstmeetingitwasnothingtothesecrecythathepractisednow。
  Andyet,inspiteofallthis,hisholdoverJeremygrewandgrew。
  ThatdreamofthebendingwhiteroadwasalwayswithJeremy。HecouldthinkofnothingbuttheCaptain,andwhilehewascertainlyafraidandwouldjumpattheslightestsound,hewasalsocertainlyexcitedbeyondallearlierexperience。Helonged,ashelayawakeatnight,toseetheCaptain。Heseemedtohavealwaysinfrontofhiseyesthegreatwallofachestwiththeblueshiponit,andthebolsterlegs,andthegigantichands。Strangestofallwasthesenseofevilthatcamewiththeattraction。
  Helongedtobeintheman’scompanyashelongedtodosomethingthathehadbeenalwaystoldnottodo,andwhenhecaughtsightofhimasudden,hot,chokinghandwaspresseduponhisheart,andhewasterrified,delighted,frightened,ashamed,allinone。TheCaptainalwaysalludedtothethingsthathewouldtellhim,wouldshowhimoneday——“WhenyoucometomylittleplaceI’llteachyerathingortwo“——andJeremywouldwonderforhourswhatthislittleplacewouldbelikeandwhattheCaptainwouldteachhim。Meanwhile,hesawhimeverywhere,evenwhenhewasnotthere——behindlamp-
  posts,atstreetcorners,behindtheoldwoman’sumbrellainthemarket-place,peeringroundthestatuesintheCathedral,jerkinguphisheadfrombehindchimneypots,lookingthroughthenurserywindowsjustwhenduskwascomingon,inthepassages,understairs,outinthedarkgarden——andalwaysbehindhimthathorriddreamofthedead-whiteroadandtheshinglyCove……Yes,poorJeremywastrulyhaunted。
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  ThatMissJonessuspectednothingofthesemeetingsmustbeattributedpartlytothatlady’shabitofwrappingherselfinherownthoughtsonherwalksabroad,andpartlytohernaturalshort-
  sightedness。OnceMarysaidthatshehadnoticed“ahorridmanwitharedface“staringatthem;butMissJones,althoughshewasnotavainwoman,thoughtitneverthelessquitenaturalthatmenshouldstare,andfanciedmorefrequentlythattheydidsothanwasstrictlythetruth。
  Jeremy,meanwhile,wasoccupiednowwiththethoughtastowhathewoulddodidtheCaptainreallywanthimtogoawaywithhim。Hediscusseditwithhimself,buthedidnotdoubtwhathewoulddo;hewouldgo。Andhewouldgo,heknew,withfearanddread,andwithalongingtostay,andbewarmintheschoolroom,andhavejamfortea,andhalfanhourbeforebedtimedownstairs,andYorkshirepuddingonSundays。ButtheCaptaincouldmakehimdoanything……
  Yes,theCaptaincouldmakehimdoanything……
  Hisafternoonwalksnowwereprolongedagonies。Hewouldturnhisheadateverymoment,wouldstareintodarkcorners,wouldstartatthesoundofsteps。Hissleepnowwasbrokenwithhorriddreams,andhewouldjumpupandcryout;andonenightheactuallydreamtofhisdead-whiteroadandthesoundsthatcameupfrombelowthehill,thebellandthesea,andthedistantrattleofthelittlecarts。
  ThentheCaptaindrewneartotheveryhouseitself。HehauntedOrangeStreet,couldbeseenloungingagainstalamp-postoppositetheHighSchool,lookedonceintotheverygardenoftheColes,Jeremywatchinghimwithbeatingheartfromtheschoolroomwindow。
  ItwasincredibletoJeremythatnooneelseofthehouseperceivedhim;butnooneevermentionedhim,andthismadeitappearallthemoreadream,asthoughtheCaptainwereinvisibletoeveryonesavehimself。Hebegantohatehimevenmorethanhefearedhim,andyetwiththathatredthepleasureandexcitementremained。Irememberhow,yearsagoinPolchester,whenIcouldnothavebeenmorethansixyearsold,Imyselfwashauntedwithexactlythatsamemixtureofpleasureandhorrorbythefigureofahunch-backedpedlarwhousedtocometoourtown。ManyyearsafterIheardthathehadbeenhungforthemurderofsomewretchedwomanwhohadaccompaniedhimonsomeofhisjourneys。Iwasnotsurprised;butwhenIheardthestoryIfeltthenagaintheoldthrillofmingledpleasureandfear。
  Onewindyafternoon,neardusk,whentheywerereturningfromtheirwalk,Jeremysuddenlyheardthevoiceinhisear:
  “Imaybecomingtovisityeroneo’thesenights。KeepyereyesopenandyertonguequietifIdo。“
  JeremysawthefiguresofMissJonesandhissisterspassroundthecorneroftheroad。
  “Whatfor?“hegasped。
  TheCaptain’sfigureseemedtoswellgiganticagainstthewhitelightofthefadingsky。Thewindwhistledabouttheirears。
  “Justtovisityer,that’sall。’CauseI’vetakenafancytoyer。“
  TheCaptainchuckledandhadvanished……
  Jeremyflungoneglanceatthegreydesolateroadbehindhim,thenranforhislifetojointheothers。
  What,afterthat,didheexpect?Hedidnotknow。OnlytheCaptainwasdrawingcloser,andcloser,andcloser。
  Hecouldfeelnowalwayshishotbreathuponhisear。Twodaysafterthewhispereddialogueintheroad,thatfirstpromiseofspringbrokedownintoatempestofwindandrain。TheColes’houseinOrangeStreet,althoughitlooked,withitsstout,whitestone,strongenough,wasoldandshaky。Now,inthestorm,itshookandwheezedandrattledineveryoneofitsjoints。Jeremy,atordinarytimes,lovedthesoundofthewindaboutthehouse,whenhehimselfwassafeandwarmandcosy;butthiswasnowanotheraffair。Lyinginhisbedhecouldhearthescreamsdownthechimney,thenthetugathiswindow-pane,therattlingclutchuponthewood,thenthesweepunderthebedandtherushupthewallpaper,untilatlast,frombehindsomebadlydefendedspotwherethepaperwasthin,therewouldcomeawailing,whistlingscreechasthoughsomeonewerebeingmurderedinthenextroom。OnotherdaysJeremy,whenheheardthisscreech,shiveredwithacosy,creepingthrill;butnowheputhisheadunderthebedclothes,shuthiseyesverytight,andtriednottoseetheCaptainwithhisuglynoseandtinygimleteyes。
  Hewouldbehalfasleep。
  “Come,“saidtheCaptainfromthewindow,“theboatiswaiting!Youpromised,youknow。Comejustasyouare——notimetodress,“andpoorJeremywouldfeelthegreat,heavyhanduponhisshoulderandwakeshiveringandshakingfromheadtofoot。
  OnthethirddayfollowinghislastinterviewwiththeCaptainhewenttobedalittlereassuredandcomforted。PerhapstheCaptainhadgoneaway。Forthreedayshehadseenandheardnothingofhimatall。
  Thatwasanightofrain——rainthatslashedandwhippedthehouseasthoughitwouldbatterittotheground。Therainwouldcomewithawildfuryuponthepanes,tremblingwithitsexcitedanger,wouldcrashagainsttheglass,thenfallbackandhangwaitingforafurtherattack;nexttheresultsofthefirstattackwouldslipandslidelikethecrawlingofathousandsnakes,thenfallanddropslowlyandheavilyasthougheverydropwereforetellingsomeawfulperil。Jeremylayandlistened;butheresolvedthatto-nighthewouldnotbefrightened,wouldnotthinkoftheCaptain。
  HesaidtheLord’sPrayerfivetimes,thencountedsheepjumpingoverthegate,asafesolutionforsleeplesshours。Hesawthesheep——firstoneaveryfatone,thenoneaverythinone;butthegatestoodatthebottomofalittlehill,sothatitwasverydifficultforthepoorcreatures,whojumpedandslippedbackontheincline。Thenalotofsheepinsistedonjumpingtogether,andhecouldhardlycountthem——forty-five,forty-six,forty-seven,forty-
  eight……Hewasasleep。
  Afteralong,longtimeofsoundlessness,oflyinguponaseathatwaslikeabedofdown,andlookingup,happilyintoclearbluelight,hewasoncemoreconsciousoftherain。Yes,thereitwaswithitssweepingrush,itssmashuponthepane,itswithdrawal,itstricklingpatterandheavydropsasthoughitwerestrikingtime。
  Yes,thatwastherainandthat——Whatwasthat?
  Hewaswideawake,lyingbackagainsthispillow,buthiseyesstaringinfrontofthemtilltheyburnt。Thehousewasabsolutelydark,absolutelysilent,butbetweentheattacksoftheraintherewasawound,somethingthathadnottodowiththehousenorwiththeweather。Hestrainedwithhisears,sittingupinbed,hishandsclutchingthebedclothes。Hehearditquiteclearlynow。Someonewasmovinginthenursery。
  Withthatthewholeofhisbrainwasawakeandheknewquiteclearly,beyondashadowofanydoubt,whathadhappened;theCaptainhadcometofetchhim。Withthatknowledgeanicydespairgrippedhim。Hedidnotwanttogo。Oh,hedidnotwanttogo!Hewastremblingfromheadtofootsothatthebedshookbeneathhim,hisbreathcameinlittlehotgaspingpants,andhiseyeswerewidewithterror。Hewashelpless。TheCaptainwouldonlysay“Come,“andgohemust,leavehiswarmhouseandhisparentswhomhelovedandMaryandHelenandHamlet,yes,andevenMissJones。Hewouldbedraggeddownthelongwhiteroad,throughthelightedvillage,outontotheshinybeach,inaboatouttothedarkship——andthenhewouldbealonewiththeCaptain,aloneinthedarkship,withtheCaptain’sheavyhanduponhisshoulder,hismouthsmiling,hisgreatlegsdrawinghiminasaspiderdrawsaflyintoitsweb,andeveryoneasleep,onlythestarsandthedarkwater。HetriedtosaytheLord’sPrayeragain,butthewordswouldnotcome。Thesweatbegantotrickledownhisnose……
  Thenheheardinthenextroomsomemovementagainstapieceoffurnitureandavoicemuttering。Thatdecidedhim:bettertogoandfaceitthantowaitthere,soasthoughheweremovinginhissleep,hegotoutofbed,crossedthefloorandenteredtheschoolroom。
  Thefirstsoundthatheheardwasthetickingoftheoldnurseryclock,astrangefamiliarvoiceinthisawfulworld,thensuddenly,althoughtheroomwasinblackdarkness,hehimselfwasstaringintoblazinglight。
  Hestartedbackandutteredalittlecry,butevenashedidsothatwell-rememberedhandwasuponhisshoulderandthewell-knownvoiceinhisear:
  “Moveaninch,utterasound,andIblowyerbrainsout,yer——“thevoice,verylow,fadedinto,thedark。Hewasstaringintoalantern,andabovethelanternwasthedarkbodyoftheCaptain。
  Thenashelookeduphewasindeednearhislastmoment,forhadhenotbeenabraveboy,oldforhisyears,anddetermined,hewouldhavecriedoutwithascreamthatwouldhaveraisedthehouse。
  TheCaptainhadnoface……TheCaptainhadnoface……Onlyoutofadeepdarknessthoselittleeyesglitteredlikecandle-points。
  Jeremyutterednosound。ThencatchingtheCaptain’scoatbecausehetrembledso,hesaid:“I’mcomingatonce——butdon’twakeMaryandHelen。They’dbefrightened。MayIgetacoat,becauseitraining?“
  “Coming!“whisperedtheCaptain,hisvoicecomingfromthatspaceintheairwherewerehiseyes。“Youmoveoneinchfrom’ereorutteronesoundandIdoyerin,yer——I’mwatchin’yer,mind!“
  Thelanternlightsuddenlyvanished。Theroomwasblack。Therewasnosoundbutthetickingoftheclock,andnowtherain,whichhadseemedtostopduringthisterribledialogue,beatwithfriendlycomfortoncemoreuponthepane。Jeremystoodthere,hisbodyheldtogetherasthoughinanironcase,scarcelybreathing。Therewasnomoresoundatall。QuiteclearlynowMary’ssnorescouldbeheardcomingfromherroom。
  Jeremyhadonlyonethought——onlyonethoughtinalltheworld。TheCaptaindidnotwanthim。TheCaptainhadgoneandnottakenhimwithhim。Hewassafe;hewasfreed;theterrorwasoverandhewasatliberty。
  Atlasthemovedbacktohisroom。Hegotintobedagain。Hewasterriblycold,andlittlespasmsofshiversseizedhim,buthedidnotcare。TheCaptainwasgone,andhehadnottakenhimwithhim