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第32章

  “Areyouthenlonely?“
  “Howcanitbeotherwisewithanoutcast,Prince?“
  “No,itcannotbeotherwise。Iknowitwhoamalsoanoutcast。“
  “AtleastthereisherHighnessyourwife,whodoubtlesswillcometocomfortyou,“shesaid,lookingdown。
  “HerHighnesswillnotcome。IfyouhadseenAna,hewouldperhapshavetoldyouthatshehasswornnottolookuponmyfaceagain,unlessaboveitshinesacrown。“
  “Oh!howcanawomanbesocruel?Surely,Prince,suchastabmustcutyoutotheheart,“sheexclaimed,withalittlecryofpity。
  “HerHighnessisnotonlyawoman;sheisaPrincessofEgyptwhichisdifferent。Fortherestitdoescutmetotheheartthatmyroyalsistershouldhavedesertedme,forthatwhichshelovesbetter——powerandpomp。Butsoitis,unlessAnadreams。Itseemsthereforethatweareinthesamecase,bothoutcasts,youandI,isitnotso?“
  Shemadenoanswerbutcontinuedtolookupontheground,andhewentonveryslowly:
  “AthoughtcomesintomymindonwhichIwouldaskyourjudgment。Iftwowhoareforlorncametogethertheywouldbelessforlornbyhalf,wouldtheynot?“
  “Itwouldseemso,Prince——thatisiftheyremainedforlornatall。
  ButIdonotunderstandtheriddle。“
  “Yetyouhaveansweredit。IfyouarelonelyandIamlonelyapart,weshould,yousay,belesslonelytogether。“
  “Prince,“shemurmured,shrinkingawayfromhim,“Ispokenosuchwords。“
  “No,Ispokethemforyou。Hearkentome,Merapi。TheythinkmeastrangemaninEgyptbecauseIhaveheldnowomandear,neverhavingseenonewhomIcouldholddear。“Hereshelookedathimsearchingly,andhewenton,“Awhileago,beforeIvisitedyourlandofGoshen——
  Anacantellyouaboutthematter,forIthinkhewroteitdown——KiandoldBakenkhonsucametoseeme。Now,asyouknow,Kiiswithoutdoubtagreatmagician,thoughitwouldseemnotsogreatassomeofyourprophets。HetoldmethatheandothershadbeensearchingoutmyfutureandthatinGoshenIshouldfindawomanwhomitwasfatedI
  mustlove。Headdedthatthiswomanwouldbringmemuchjoy。“HereSetipaused,doubtlessrememberingthiswasnotallthatKihadsaid,orJabezeither。“Kitoldmealso,“hewentonslowly,“thatIhadalreadyknownthiswomanforthousandsofyears。“
  Shestartedandastrangelookcameintoherface。
  “Howcanthatbe,Prince?“
  “ThatiswhatIaskedhimandgotnogoodanswer。Stillhesaidit,notonlyofthewomanbutofmyfriendAnaaswell,whichindeedwouldexplainmuch,anditwouldappearthattheothermagicianssaiditalso。ThenIwenttothelandofGoshenandthereIsawawoman-“
  “Forthefirsttime,Prince?“
  “No,forthethirdtime。“
  Hereshesankuponthebenchandcoveredhereyeswithherhands。
  “-andlovedher,andfeltasthoughIhadlovedherfor’thousandsofyears。’“
  “Itisnottrue。Youmockme,itisnottrue!“shewhispered。
  “ItistrueforifIdidnotknowitthen,Iknewitafterwards,thoughneverperhapscompletelyuntilto-day,whenIlearnedthatUsertihaddesertedmeindeed。MoonofIsrael,youarethatwoman。I
  willnottellyou,“hewentonpassionately,“thatyouarefairerthanallotherwomen,orsweeter,ormorewise,thoughthesethingsyouseemtome。IwillonlytellyouthatIloveyou,yes,loveyou,whateveryoumaybe。IcannotofferyoutheThroneofEgypt,evenifthelawwouldsufferit,butIcanofferyouthethroneofthisheartofmine。Now,LadyMerapi,whathaveyoutosay?Beforeyouspeak,rememberthatalthoughyouseemtobemyprisonerhereatMemphis,youhavenaughttofearfromme。Whateveryoumayanswer,suchshelterandsuchfriendshipasIcangivewillbeyourswhileIlive,andnevershallIattempttoforcemyselfuponyou,howevermuchitmaypainmetopassyouby。Iknownotthefuture。ItmayhappenthatIshallgiveyougreatplaceandpower,itmayhappenthatIshallgiveyounothingbutpovertyandexile,orevenperhapsashareinmyowndeath,butwitheitherwillgotheworshipofmybodyandmyspirit。Now,speak。“
  Shedroppedherhandsfromherface,lookingupathim,andthereweretearsshininginherbeautifuleyes。
  “Itcannotbe,Prince,“shemurmured。
  “Youmeanyoudonotwishittobe?“
  “Isaidthatitcannotbe。SuchtiesbetweenanEgyptianandanIsraelitearenotlawful。“
  “Someinthiscityandelsewhereseemtofindthemso。“
  “AndIammarried,ImeanperhapsIammarried——atleastinname。“
  “AndItooammarried,Imean-“
  “Thatisdifferent。Alsothereisanotherreason,thegreatestofall,Iamunderacurse,andshouldbringyou,notjoyasKisaid,butsorrow,or,attheleast,sorrowwiththejoy。“
  Helookedathersearchingly。
  “HasAna-“hebegan,thencontinued,“ifsowhatliveshaveyouknownthatarenotcompoundedofmingledjoyandsorrow?“
  “None。ButthewoeIshouldbringwouldoutweighthejoy——toyou。ThecurseofmyGodrestsuponmeandIcannotlearntoworshipyours。Thecurseofmypeoplerestsuponme,thelawofmypeopledividesmefromyouaswithasword,andshouldIdrawclosetoyouthesewillbeincreaseduponmyhead,whichmattersnot,butalsouponyours,“andshebegantosob。
  “Tellme,“hesaid,takingherbythehand,“butonething,andiftheanswerisNo,Iwilltroubleyounomore。Isyourheartmine?“
  “Itis,“shesighed,“andhasbeeneversincemyeyesfelluponyouyonderinthestreetsofTanis。Oh!thenachangecameintomeandI
  hatedLaban,whombeforeIhadonlymisliked。Moreover,ItoofeltthatofwhichKispoke,asthoughIhadknownyouforthousandsofyears。Myheartisyours,myloveisyours;allthatmakesmewomanisyours,andnever,nevercanturnfromyoutoanyotherman。Butstillwemuststayapart,foryoursake,myPrince,foryoursake。“
  “Then,wereitnotforme,youwouldbereadytorunthesehazards?“
  “Surely!AmInotawomanwholoves?“
  “Ifthatbeso,“hesaidwithalittlelaugh,“beingoffullageandofanunderstandingwhichsomehavethoughtgood,byyourleaveI
  thinkIwillrunthemalso。Oh!foolishwoman,doyounotunderstandthatthereisbutonegoodthingintheworld,onethinginwhichselfanditsmiseriescanbeforgot,andthatthingislove?Mayhaptroubleswillcome。Well,letthemcome,forwhatdotheymatterifonlytheloveoritsmemoryremains,ifoncewehavepickedthatbeauteousflowerandforanhourwornitonourbreasts。Youtalkofthedifferencebetweenthegodsweworshipandmaybeitexists,butallgodssendtheirgiftsofloveupontheearth,withoutwhichitwouldceasetobe。Moreover,myfaithteachesmemoreclearlyperhapsthanyours,thatlifedoesnotendwithdeathandthereforethatlove,beinglife’ssoul,mustendurewhileitendures。Lastofall,Ithink,asyouthink,thatinsomedimwaythereistruthinwhatthemagicianssaid,andthatlongagointhepastwehavebeenwhatoncemoreweareabouttobe,andthatthestrengthofthisinvisibletiehasdrawnustogetheroutofthewholeworldandwillbindustogetherlongaftertheworldisdead。Itisnotamatterofwhatwewishtodo,Merapi,itisamatterofwhatFatehasdecreedweshalldo。Now,answeragain。“
  Butshemadenoanswer,andwhenIlookedupafteralittlemomentshewasinhisarmsandherlipswereuponhislips。
  ThusdidPrinceSetiofEnglandandMerapi,MoonofIsrael,cometogetheratMemphisinEgypt。
  OnthemorrowofthisnightIfoundthePrincealoneforalittlewhile,andputhiminmindofcertainancientmanuscriptsthathewishedtoread,whichcouldonlybeconsultedatThebeswhereImightcopythem;alsoofothersthatweresaidtobeforsalethere。Heansweredthattheycouldwait,butIrepliedthatthelattermightfindsomeotherpurchaserifIdidnotgoatonce。
  “Youareoverfondoflongjourneysuponmybusiness,Ana,“hesaid。
  Thenheconsideredmecuriouslyforawhile,andsincehecouldreadmymind,asindeedIcouldhis,sawthatIknewall,andaddedinagentlevoice:
  “YoushouldhavedoneasItoldyou,andspokenfirst。Ifso,whoknows-“
  “Youdo,Prince,“Ianswered,“youandanother。“