“Areyouthenlonely?“
“Howcanitbeotherwisewithanoutcast,Prince?“
“No,itcannotbeotherwise。Iknowitwhoamalsoanoutcast。“
“AtleastthereisherHighnessyourwife,whodoubtlesswillcometocomfortyou,“shesaid,lookingdown。
“HerHighnesswillnotcome。IfyouhadseenAna,hewouldperhapshavetoldyouthatshehasswornnottolookuponmyfaceagain,unlessaboveitshinesacrown。“
“Oh!howcanawomanbesocruel?Surely,Prince,suchastabmustcutyoutotheheart,“sheexclaimed,withalittlecryofpity。
“HerHighnessisnotonlyawoman;sheisaPrincessofEgyptwhichisdifferent。Fortherestitdoescutmetotheheartthatmyroyalsistershouldhavedesertedme,forthatwhichshelovesbetter——powerandpomp。Butsoitis,unlessAnadreams。Itseemsthereforethatweareinthesamecase,bothoutcasts,youandI,isitnotso?“
Shemadenoanswerbutcontinuedtolookupontheground,andhewentonveryslowly:
“AthoughtcomesintomymindonwhichIwouldaskyourjudgment。Iftwowhoareforlorncametogethertheywouldbelessforlornbyhalf,wouldtheynot?“
“Itwouldseemso,Prince——thatisiftheyremainedforlornatall。
ButIdonotunderstandtheriddle。“
“Yetyouhaveansweredit。IfyouarelonelyandIamlonelyapart,weshould,yousay,belesslonelytogether。“
“Prince,“shemurmured,shrinkingawayfromhim,“Ispokenosuchwords。“
“No,Ispokethemforyou。Hearkentome,Merapi。TheythinkmeastrangemaninEgyptbecauseIhaveheldnowomandear,neverhavingseenonewhomIcouldholddear。“Hereshelookedathimsearchingly,andhewenton,“Awhileago,beforeIvisitedyourlandofGoshen——
Anacantellyouaboutthematter,forIthinkhewroteitdown——KiandoldBakenkhonsucametoseeme。Now,asyouknow,Kiiswithoutdoubtagreatmagician,thoughitwouldseemnotsogreatassomeofyourprophets。HetoldmethatheandothershadbeensearchingoutmyfutureandthatinGoshenIshouldfindawomanwhomitwasfatedI
mustlove。Headdedthatthiswomanwouldbringmemuchjoy。“HereSetipaused,doubtlessrememberingthiswasnotallthatKihadsaid,orJabezeither。“Kitoldmealso,“hewentonslowly,“thatIhadalreadyknownthiswomanforthousandsofyears。“
Shestartedandastrangelookcameintoherface。
“Howcanthatbe,Prince?“
“ThatiswhatIaskedhimandgotnogoodanswer。Stillhesaidit,notonlyofthewomanbutofmyfriendAnaaswell,whichindeedwouldexplainmuch,anditwouldappearthattheothermagicianssaiditalso。ThenIwenttothelandofGoshenandthereIsawawoman-“
“Forthefirsttime,Prince?“
“No,forthethirdtime。“
Hereshesankuponthebenchandcoveredhereyeswithherhands。
“-andlovedher,andfeltasthoughIhadlovedherfor’thousandsofyears。’“
“Itisnottrue。Youmockme,itisnottrue!“shewhispered。
“ItistrueforifIdidnotknowitthen,Iknewitafterwards,thoughneverperhapscompletelyuntilto-day,whenIlearnedthatUsertihaddesertedmeindeed。MoonofIsrael,youarethatwoman。I
willnottellyou,“hewentonpassionately,“thatyouarefairerthanallotherwomen,orsweeter,ormorewise,thoughthesethingsyouseemtome。IwillonlytellyouthatIloveyou,yes,loveyou,whateveryoumaybe。IcannotofferyoutheThroneofEgypt,evenifthelawwouldsufferit,butIcanofferyouthethroneofthisheartofmine。Now,LadyMerapi,whathaveyoutosay?Beforeyouspeak,rememberthatalthoughyouseemtobemyprisonerhereatMemphis,youhavenaughttofearfromme。Whateveryoumayanswer,suchshelterandsuchfriendshipasIcangivewillbeyourswhileIlive,andnevershallIattempttoforcemyselfuponyou,howevermuchitmaypainmetopassyouby。Iknownotthefuture。ItmayhappenthatIshallgiveyougreatplaceandpower,itmayhappenthatIshallgiveyounothingbutpovertyandexile,orevenperhapsashareinmyowndeath,butwitheitherwillgotheworshipofmybodyandmyspirit。Now,speak。“
Shedroppedherhandsfromherface,lookingupathim,andthereweretearsshininginherbeautifuleyes。
“Itcannotbe,Prince,“shemurmured。
“Youmeanyoudonotwishittobe?“
“Isaidthatitcannotbe。SuchtiesbetweenanEgyptianandanIsraelitearenotlawful。“
“Someinthiscityandelsewhereseemtofindthemso。“
“AndIammarried,ImeanperhapsIammarried——atleastinname。“
“AndItooammarried,Imean-“
“Thatisdifferent。Alsothereisanotherreason,thegreatestofall,Iamunderacurse,andshouldbringyou,notjoyasKisaid,butsorrow,or,attheleast,sorrowwiththejoy。“
Helookedathersearchingly。
“HasAna-“hebegan,thencontinued,“ifsowhatliveshaveyouknownthatarenotcompoundedofmingledjoyandsorrow?“
“None。ButthewoeIshouldbringwouldoutweighthejoy——toyou。ThecurseofmyGodrestsuponmeandIcannotlearntoworshipyours。Thecurseofmypeoplerestsuponme,thelawofmypeopledividesmefromyouaswithasword,andshouldIdrawclosetoyouthesewillbeincreaseduponmyhead,whichmattersnot,butalsouponyours,“andshebegantosob。
“Tellme,“hesaid,takingherbythehand,“butonething,andiftheanswerisNo,Iwilltroubleyounomore。Isyourheartmine?“
“Itis,“shesighed,“andhasbeeneversincemyeyesfelluponyouyonderinthestreetsofTanis。Oh!thenachangecameintomeandI
hatedLaban,whombeforeIhadonlymisliked。Moreover,ItoofeltthatofwhichKispoke,asthoughIhadknownyouforthousandsofyears。Myheartisyours,myloveisyours;allthatmakesmewomanisyours,andnever,nevercanturnfromyoutoanyotherman。Butstillwemuststayapart,foryoursake,myPrince,foryoursake。“
“Then,wereitnotforme,youwouldbereadytorunthesehazards?“
“Surely!AmInotawomanwholoves?“
“Ifthatbeso,“hesaidwithalittlelaugh,“beingoffullageandofanunderstandingwhichsomehavethoughtgood,byyourleaveI
thinkIwillrunthemalso。Oh!foolishwoman,doyounotunderstandthatthereisbutonegoodthingintheworld,onethinginwhichselfanditsmiseriescanbeforgot,andthatthingislove?Mayhaptroubleswillcome。Well,letthemcome,forwhatdotheymatterifonlytheloveoritsmemoryremains,ifoncewehavepickedthatbeauteousflowerandforanhourwornitonourbreasts。Youtalkofthedifferencebetweenthegodsweworshipandmaybeitexists,butallgodssendtheirgiftsofloveupontheearth,withoutwhichitwouldceasetobe。Moreover,myfaithteachesmemoreclearlyperhapsthanyours,thatlifedoesnotendwithdeathandthereforethatlove,beinglife’ssoul,mustendurewhileitendures。Lastofall,Ithink,asyouthink,thatinsomedimwaythereistruthinwhatthemagicianssaid,andthatlongagointhepastwehavebeenwhatoncemoreweareabouttobe,andthatthestrengthofthisinvisibletiehasdrawnustogetheroutofthewholeworldandwillbindustogetherlongaftertheworldisdead。Itisnotamatterofwhatwewishtodo,Merapi,itisamatterofwhatFatehasdecreedweshalldo。Now,answeragain。“
Butshemadenoanswer,andwhenIlookedupafteralittlemomentshewasinhisarmsandherlipswereuponhislips。
ThusdidPrinceSetiofEnglandandMerapi,MoonofIsrael,cometogetheratMemphisinEgypt。
OnthemorrowofthisnightIfoundthePrincealoneforalittlewhile,andputhiminmindofcertainancientmanuscriptsthathewishedtoread,whichcouldonlybeconsultedatThebeswhereImightcopythem;alsoofothersthatweresaidtobeforsalethere。Heansweredthattheycouldwait,butIrepliedthatthelattermightfindsomeotherpurchaserifIdidnotgoatonce。
“Youareoverfondoflongjourneysuponmybusiness,Ana,“hesaid。
Thenheconsideredmecuriouslyforawhile,andsincehecouldreadmymind,asindeedIcouldhis,sawthatIknewall,andaddedinagentlevoice:
“YoushouldhavedoneasItoldyou,andspokenfirst。Ifso,whoknows-“
“Youdo,Prince,“Ianswered,“youandanother。“
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