首页 >出版文学> Miss Billie Married>第7章
  Liketwoloverstheyreadandwalkedandtalkedtogether,andliketwochildren,sometimes,theyrompedthroughthestatelyoldroomswithSpunkie,orwithTommyDunn,whowasafrequentguest。Spunkie,beitknown,wasrenewingherkittenhood,sopotentwastheinfluenceofthedanglingstringsandrollingballsthatsheencounteredeverywhere;andTommyDunn,withBilly’shelp,waslearningthatnotevenapairofcrutchesneedkeepalonelylittleladfromafrolic。EvenWilliam,rousedfromhisafter-
  dinnerdozebypealsoflaughter,wassometimesinveigledintoactivitiesthatlefthimbreathless,butcuriouslyaglow。WhilePete,polishingsilverinthedining-roomdown-stairs,smiledindulgentlyatthemerryclatterabove——andforgottheteasingpaininhisside。
  ButitwasnotallnonsensewithBilly,norgaylaughter。Moreoftenitwasatenderglowintheeyes,asoftnessinthevoice,aradiantsomethinglikeanauraofjoyallabouther,thattoldhowhappyindeedwerethesedaysforher。Therewasproofbywordofmouth,too——longtalkswithBertraminthedancingfirelightwhentheylaiddearplansforthefuture,andwhenshetriedsohardtomakeherhusbandunderstandwhatagood,goodwifesheintendedtobe,andhowshemeantnevertoletanythingcomebetweenthem。
  ItwassoearnestandseriousaBillybythistimethatBertramwouldturnstartled,dismayedeyesonhisyoungwife;whereupon,withaveryBilly-likechangeofmood,shewouldgivehimoneofherrarecaresses,andperhapssigh:
  Goosey——it’sonlybecauseI’msohappy,happy,happy!Why,Bertram,ifitweren’tforthatOverflowAnnexIbelieveI——Ijustcouldn’tlive!
  ItwasBertramwhosighedthen,andwhoprayedferventlyinhisheartthatnevermightheseearealshadowcloudthatdearface。
  Thusfar,certainly,thecaresofmatrimonyhadrestedanythingbutheavilyupontheshapelyyoungshouldersofthenewwife。DomesticaffairsattheStratamovedlikeapieceofwell-oiledmachinery。DongLing,tobesure,wasnotthere;
  butinhisplacereignedPete’sgrandniece,afresh-
  faced,capableyoungwomanwhoBertramdeclaredcookedlikeanangelandmindedherownbusinesslikeaman。Pete,asofyore,hadfullchargeofthehouse;andacasualeyewouldseefewchanges。Eventhebrothersthemselvessawfew,forthatmatter。
  True,attheveryfirst,Billyhaddonnedaruffledapronandabewitchingdust-cap,andhadtraversedthehousefromcellartogarretwithaprettilyimportantairofmanagingthings,’asshesuggestedchangesrightandleft。ShehadsummonedPete,too,forthreemorningsinsuccession,andwithgreatdignityhadorderedthemealsfortheday。ButwhenBertramwasdiscoveredoneeveningtuggingbackhisfavoritechair,andwhenWilliamhadaskedifBillywerethroughusinghispipe-tray,theyoungwifehadconcludedtoletthingsremainaboutastheywere。AndwhenWilliamatenobreakfastonemorning,andBertramaggrievedlyrefuseddessertthatnightatdinner,Billy——learningthroughanapologeticPetethatMasterWilliamalwayshadtohaveeggsforbreakfastnomatterwhatelsetherewas,andthatMasterBertramneverateboiledrice——gaveupplanningthemeals。True,forthreemoremorningsshesummonedPetefororders,’buttheorderswerenothingmorenorlessthanablitheWell,Pete,whatarewegoingtohavefordinnerto-day?’Bytheendofaweekeventhisceremonywasgivenup,andbeforeamonthhadpassed,Billywaslittlemorethanaguestinherownhome,sofarasresponsibilitywasconcerned。
  Billywasnotidle,however;farfromit。First,therewerethedelightfulhourswithBertram。
  Thentherewashermusic:Billywaswritinganewsong——thebestshehadeverwritten,Billydeclared。
  Why,Bertram,itcan’thelpbeingthat,’shesaidtoherhusband,oneday。Thewordsjustsangthemselvestomerightoutofmyheart;
  andthemelodyjustdroppeddownfromthesky。
  Andnow,everywhere,I’mhearingthemostwonderfulharmonies。Thewholeuniverseissingingtome。IfonlynowIcanputitonpaperwhatIhear!ThenIcanmakethewholeuniversesingtosomeoneelse!’
  Evenmusic,however,hadtosteponesidefortheweddingcallswhichwerebeginningtobereceived,andwhichmustbereturned,inspiteoftheoccasionalrebellionoftheyounghusband。
  Therewerethemoreintimatefriendstobeseen,also,andCyrilandMarietobevisited。AndalwaystherewastheAnnex。
  TheAnnexwasinfinerunningordernow,andwasasourceofinfinitesatisfactiontoitsfounderandgreathappinesstoitsbeneficiaries。TommyDunnwasthere,learningwonderfulthingsfrombooksandstillmorewonderfulthingsfromthepianointheliving-room。AliceGreggoryandhermotherwerethere,too——theresultofmuchpersuasion。Indeed,accordingtoBertram,BillyhadbeenabletofilltheAnnexonlybytellingeachprospectiveresidentthatheorshewasabsolutelynecessarytothewelfareandhappinessofeveryotherresident。Notthatthehousewasfull,either。Therewerestilltwounoccupiedrooms。
  Butthen,I’mgladthereare,’Billyhaddeclared,forthere’ssuretobesomeonethatI’llwanttosendthere。’
  Some_one_,didyousay?’Bertramhadretorted,meaningly;buthiswifehaddisdainedtoanswerthis。
  BillyherselfwasfrequentlyattheAnnex。
  ShetoldAuntHannahthatshehadtocomeoftentobringthehappiness——itaccumulatedsofast。
  Certainlyshealwaysfoundplentytodothere,whenevershecame。TherewasAuntHannahtobereadto,Mrs。Greggorytobesungto,andTommyDunntobelistenedto;forTommyDunnwasalwaysquiveringwitheagernesstoplayherhislatestpiece。’
  BillyknewthatsomedayattheAnnexshewouldmeetMr。M。J。Arkwright;andshetoldherselfthatshehopedsheshould。
  BillyhadnotseenArkwrightexceptonthestageoftheBostonOperaHousesincethedayhehadleftherpresenceinwhite-faced,stony-
  eyedmiseryafterdeclaringhisloveforher,andlearningofherengagementtoBertram。Sincethen,sheknew,hehadbeenmuchwithhisoldfriend,AliceGreggory。Shedidnotbelieve,shouldsheseehimnow,thathewouldbeeitherwhite-faced,orstony-eyed。Hisheart,shewassure,hadgonewhereitoughttoha(丁香书院小说)vegoneinthefirstplace——toAlice。Suchbeing,inheropinion,thecase,shelongedtogettheembarrassmentofafirstmeetingbetweenthemselvesoverwith,for,afterthat,shewassure,theiroldfriendshipcouldberenewed,andshewouldbeinapositiontofurtherthisprettyloveaffairbetweenhimandAlice。Verydecidedly,therefore,BillywishedtomeetArkwright。Verypleased,consequently,wasshewhen,oneday,comingintotheliving-roomattheAnnex,shefoundthemansittingbythefire。
  Arkwrightwasonhisfeetatonce。
  Miss——Mrs。H——Henshaw,’hestammeredOh,Mr。Arkwright,’shecried,withjustashadeofnervousnessinhervoiceassheadvanced,herhandoutstretched。I’mgladtoseeyou。’
  Thankyou。IwantedtoseeMissGreggory,’
  hemurmured。Then,astheunconsciousrudenessofhisreplydawnedonhim,hemademattersinfinitelyworsebyanattemptedapology。Thatis,Imean——Ididn’tmean——’hebegantostammermiserably。
  Somegirlsmighthavetossedtheflounderingmanastrawintheshapeofalightlaughintendedtoturnasideallembarrassment——butnotBilly。
  Billyheldoutafranklyhelpinghandthatwasmeanttosetthemansquarelyonhisfeetatherside。
  Mr。Arkwright,don’t,please,’shebeggedearnestly。YouandIdon’tneedtobeataboutthebush。I_am_gladtoseeyou,andIhopeyou’regladtoseeme。We’regoingtobethebestoffriendsfromnowon,I’msure;andsomeday,soon,you’regoingtobringAlicetoseeme,andwe’llhavesomemusic。Ileftherup-stairs。She’llbedownatonce,Idaresay——ImetRosagoingupwithyourcard。Good-by,’shefinishedwithabrightsmile,assheturnedandwalkedrapidlyfromtheroom。
  Outside,onthesteps,Billydrewalongbreath。
  There,’shewhispered;that’sover——andwellover!’Thenextminuteshefrownedvexedly。
  Shehadmissedherglove。Nevermind!
  Isha’n’tgobackinthereforitnow,anyway,’
  shedecided。
  Intheliving-room,fiveminuteslater,AliceGreggoryfoundonlyahastilyscrawlednotewaitingforher。
  Ifyou’llforgivetheunforgivable,’shereadyou’llforgivemefornotbeingherewhenyoucomedown。`CircumstancesoverwhichIhavenocontrolhavecalledmeaway。’Mayweletitgoatthat?。
  AsAliceGreggory’samazed,questioningeyesleftthenotetheyfelluponthelongwhitegloveonthefloorbythedoor。Halfmechanicallyshecrossedtheroomandpickeditup;butalmostatonceshedroppeditwithalowcry。
  Billy!He——saw——Billy!’Thenafloodofunderstandingdyedherfacescarletassheturnedandfledtotheblessedlyunseeingwallsofherownroom。
  NottenminuteslaterRosatappedatherdoorwithanote。
  It’sfromMr。Arkwright,Miss。He’sdownstairs。’
  Rosa’seyeswerepuzzled,andabitstartled。
  Mr。Arkwright!’
  Yes,Miss。He’scomeagain。Thatis,I
  didn’tknowhe’dwent——buthemusthave,forhe’scomeagainnow。Hewrotesomethinginalittlebook;thenhetoreitoutandgaveittome。
  Hesaidhe’dwait,please,forananswer。’
  Oh,verywell,Rosa。’
  MissGreggorytookthenoteandspokewithanelaborateairofindifferencethatwasmeanttoexpressacalmignoringofthepuzzledquestioningintheother’seyes。ThenextmomentshereadthisinArkwright’speculiarscrawl:
  Ifyou’vealreadyforgiventheunforgivable,you’lldoitagain,Iknow,andcomedown-stairs。
  Won’tyou,please?Iwanttoseeyou。’
  MissGreggoryliftedherheadwithajerk。
  Herfacewasapainfulred。
  TellMr。ArkwrightIcan’tpossibly——’Shecametoanabruptpause。HereyeshadencounteredRosa’s,andinRosa’seyesthepuzzledquestioningwasplainlyfastbecomingashrewdsuspicion。
  Therewasthebriefestofhesitations;then,lightly,MissGreggorytossedthenoteaside。
  TellMr。ArkwrightI’llbedownatonce,please,’shedirectedcarelessly,assheturnedbackintotheroom。
  Butshewasnotdownatonce。Shewasnotdownuntilshehadtakentimetobatheherredeyes,powderhertelltalenose,smootheherruffledhair,andwhipherselfintothecalm,steady-eyed,self-controlledyoungwomanthatArkwrightfinallyrosetomeetwhenshecameintotheroom。
  Ithoughtitwasonlywomenwhowereprivilegedtochangetheirmind,’shebeganbrightly;
  butArkwrightignoredherattempttoconventionalizethesituation。
  Thankyouforcomingdown,’hesaid,withawearinessthatinstantlydrovetheforcedsmilefromthegirl’slips。I——Iwantedto——totalktoyou。’
  Yes?’Sheseatedherselfandmotionedhimtoachairnearher。Hetooktheseat,andthenfellsilent,hiseyesoutthewindow。
  Ithoughtyousaidyou——youwantedtotalk,sheremindedhimnervously,afteraminute。
  Idid。’Heturnedwithdisconcertingabruptness。
  Alice,I’mgoingtotellyouastory。’
  Ishallbegladtolisten。Peoplealwayslikestories,don’tthey?’
  Dothey?’ThesomberpaininArkwright’seyesdeepened。AliceGreggorydidnotknowit,buthewasthinkingofanotherstoryhehadoncetoldinthatsameroom。Billywashislistenerthen,whilenow——Alittleprecipitatelyhebegantospeak。
  WhenIwasaverysmallboyIwenttovisitmyuncle,who,inhisyoungdays,hadbeenquiteahunter。Beforethefireplaceinhislibrarywasahugetigerskinwithaparticularlylifelikehead。
  ThefirsttimeIsawitIscreamed,andranandhid。Irefusedtheneventogointotheroomagain。Mycousinsurged,scolded,pleaded,andlaughedatmebyturns,butIwasobdurate。I
  wouldnotgowhereIcouldseethefearsomethingagain,eventhoughitwas,astheysaid,`nothingbutadeadoldrug!’
  Finally,oneday,myuncletookahandinthematter。Bysheerwill-powerheforcedmetogowithhimstraightuptothedreadedcreature,andstandbyitsside。Helaidoneofmyshrinkinghandsonthebeast’ssmoothhead,andthrusttheotheronequiteintotheopenredmouthwithitsgleamingteeth。
  `Yousee,’hesaid,`there’sabsolutelynothingtofear。Hecan’tpossiblyhurtyou。Justasifyouweren’tbiggerandfinerandstrongerineverywaythanthatdeadthingonthefloor!’
  Then,whenhehadgotmetothepointwhereofmyownfreewillIwouldwalkupandtouchthething,hedrewalessonforme。
  `Nowremember,’hechargedme。`Neverrunandhideagain。Onlycowardsdothat。
  Walkstraightupandfacethething。Tentooneyou’llfindit’snothingbutadeadskinmasqueradingastherealthing。Evenifitisn’tifit’salive——faceit。Findaweaponandfightit。
  Knowthatyouaregoingtoconqueritandyou’llconquer。Neverrun。Beaman。Mendon’trun,myboy!’’
  Arkwrightpaused,anddrewalongbreath。Hedidnotlookatthegirlintheoppositechair。Ifhehadlookedhewouldhaveseenafacetransfigured。
  Well,’heresumed,Ineverforgotthattigerskin,norwhatitstoodfor,afterthatdaywhenUncleBenthrustmyhandintoitshideous,butharmless,redmouth。EvenasakidIbegan,then,totry——nottorun。I’vetriedeversinceButto-day——Ididrun。’
  Arkwright’svoicehadbeengettinglowerandlower。ThelastthreewordswouldhavebeenalmostinaudibletoearslesssensitivelyalertthanwereAliceGreggory’s。Foramomentafterthewordswereuttered,onlytheclock’stickingbrokethesilence;then,withanobviouseffort,themanrousedhimself,asifbreakingawayfromsomebenumbingforcethatheldhim。
  Alice,Idon’tneedtotellyou,afterwhatI
  saidtheothernight,thatIlovedBillyNeilson。
  Thatwasbadenough,forIfoundshewaspledgedtoanotherman。Butto-dayIdiscoveredsomethingworse:IdiscoveredthatIlovedBilly_Henshaw_——
  anotherman’swife。And——Iran。ButI’vecomeback。I’mgoingtofacethething。Oh,I’mnotdeceivingmyself!Thisloveofmineisnodeadtigerskin。It’sabeast,aliveandalert——Godpityme!——todestroymyverysoul。ButI’mgoingtofightit;and——Iwantyoutohelpme。’
  Thegirlgaveahalf-smotheredcry。Themanturned,buthecouldnotseeherfacedistinctly。
  Twilighthadcome,andtheroomwasfullofshadows。Hehesitated,thenwenton,alittlemorequietly。
  That’swhyI’vetoldyouallthis——soyouwouldhelpme。Andyouwill,won’tyou?’
  Therewasnoanswer。Onceagainhetriedtoseeherface,butitwasturnednowquiteawayfromhim。
  You’vebeenabighelpalready,littlegirl。
  Yourfriendship,yourcomradeship——they’vebeeneverythingtome。You’renotgoingtomakemedowithoutthem——now?’
  No——oh,no!’Theanswerwaslowandalittlebreathless;butheheardit。
  Thankyou。Iknewyouwouldn’t。’Hepaused,thenrosetohisfeet。Whenhespokeagainhisvoicecarriedanoteofwhimsicallightnessthatwasalittleforced。ButImustgo——
  elseyou_will_takethemfromme,andwithgoodreason。Andpleasedon’tletyourkindheartgrievetoomuch——overme。I’mnodeep-dyedvillaininamelodrama,norwickedloverinaten-
  pennynovel,youknow。I’mjustaneverydaymaninreallife;andwe’regoingtofightthisthingoutineverydayliving。That’swhereyourhelpiscomingin。We’llgotogethertoseeMrs。BertramHenshaw。She’saskedusto,andyou’lldoit,Iknow。We’llhavemusicandeverydaytalk。
  We’llseeMrs。BertramHenshawinherownhomewithherhusband,whereshebelongs;and——I’mnotgoingtorunagain。But——I’mcountingonyourhelp,youknow,’hesmiledalittlewistfully,asheheldouthishandingood-by。
  OneminutelaterAliceGreggory,alone,washurryingup-stairs。
  Ican’t——Ican’t——IknowIcan’t,’shewaswhisperingwildly。Then,inherownroom,shefacedherselfinthemirror。Yes——you——can,AliceGreggory,’sheasserted,withswiftchangeofvoiceandmanner。Thisis_your_tigerskin,andyou’regoingtofightit。Doyouunderstand?——
  fightit!Andyou’regoingtowin,too。Doyouwantthatmantoknowyou——_care_?’