Shesanglikealittlelarkaboutherwork,neverwastootiredforMarmeeandthegirls,anddayafterdaysaidhopefullytoherself,“IknowI’llgetmymusicsometime,ifI’mgood。“
TherearemanyBethsintheworld,shyandquiet,sittingincornerstillneeded,andlivingforotherssocheerfullythatnooneseesthesacrificestillthelittlecricketonthehearthstopschirping,andthesweet,sunshinypresencevanishes,leavingsilenceandshadowbehind。
IfanybodyhadaskedAmywhatthegreatesttrialofherlifewas,shewouldhaveansweredatonce,“Mynose。“Whenshewasababy,Johadaccidentlydroppedherintothecoalhod,andAmyinsistedthatthefallhadruinedhernoseforever。Itwasnotbignorred,likepoor`Petrea’s’,itwasonlyratherflat,andallthepinchingintheworldcouldnotgiveitanaristocraticpoint。Noonemindeditbutherself,anditwasdoingitsbesttogrow,butAmyfeltdeeplythewantofaGreciannose,anddrewwholesheetsofhandsomeonestoconsoleherself。
“LittleRaphael,“ashersisterscalledher,hadadecidedtalentfordrawing,andwasneversohappyaswhencopyingflowers,designingfairies,orillustratingstorieswithqueerspecimensofart。Herteacherscomplainedthatinsteadofdoinghersumsshecoveredherslatewithanimals,theblankpagesofheratlaswereusedtocopymapson,andcaricaturesofthemostludicrousdescriptioncameflutteringoutofallherbooksatunluckymoments。Shegotthroughherlessonsaswellasshecould,andmanagedtoescapereprimandsbybeingamodelofdeportment。Shewasagreatfavoritewithhermates,beinggood-temperedandpossessingthehappyartofpleasingwithouteffort。Herlittleairsandgracesweremuchadmired,sowereheraccomplishments,forbesidesherdrawing,shecouldplaytwelvetunes,crochet,andreadFrenchwithoutmispronouncingmorethantwo-thirdsofthewords。Shehadaplaintivewayofsaying,“WhenPapawasrichwedidso-and-so,“whichwasverytouching,andherlongwordswereconsidered`perfectlyelegant’bythegirls。
Amywasinafairwaytobespoiled,foreveryonepettedher,andhersmallvanitiesandselfishnessesweregrowingnicely。
Onething,however,ratherquenchedthevanities。Shehadtowearhercousin’sclothes。NowFlorence’smamahadn’taparticleoftaste,andAmysuffereddeeplyathavingtoweararedinsteadofabluebonnet,unbecominggowns,andfussyapronsthatdidnotfit。Everythingwasgood,wellmade,andlittleworn,butAmy’sartisticeyesweremuchafflicted,especiallythiswinter,whenherschooldresswasadullpurplewithyellowdotsandnotrimming。
“Myonlycomfort,“shesaidtoMeg,withtearsinhereyes,“isthatMotherdoesn’ttaketucksinmydresseswheneverI’mnaughty,asMariaParks’smotherdoes。Mydear,it’sreallydreadful,forsometimessheissobadherfrockisuptoherknees,andshecan’tcometoschool。WhenIthinkofthisdeggerredation,IfellthatIcanbearevenmyflatnoseandpurplegownwithyellowskyrocketsonit。“
MegwasAmy’sconfidanteandmonitor,andbysomestrangeattractionofoppositesJowasgentleBeth’s。ToJoalonedidtheshychildtellherthoughts,andoverherbigharum-scarumsisterBethunconsciouslyexercisedmoreinfluencethananyoneinthefamily。Thetwooldergirlswereagreatdealtooneanother,buteachtookoneoftheyoungersistersintoherkeepingandwatchedoverherinherownway,`playingmother’
theycalledit,andputtheirsistersintheplacesofdiscardeddollswiththematernalinstinctoflittewomen。
“Hasanybodygotanythingtotell?It’sbeensuchadismaldayI’mreallydyingforsomeamusement,“saidMeg,astheysatsewingtogetherthatevening。
“IhadaqueertimewithAunttoday,and,asIgotthebestofit,I’lltellyouaboutit,“beganJo,whodearlylovedtotellstories。“IwasreadingthateverlastingBelsham,anddroningawayasIalwaysdo,forAuntsoondropsoff,andthenItakeoutsomenicebook,andreadlikefurytillshewakesup。Iactuallymademyselfsleepy,andbeforeshebegantonod,IgavesuchagapethatsheaskedmewhatImeantbyopeningmymouthwideenoughtotakethewholebookinatonce。
“IwishIcould,andbedonewithit,“saidI,tryingnottobesaucy。
“Thenshegavemealonglectureonmysins,andtoldmetositandthinkthemoverwhileshejust`lost’herselfforamoment。
Sheneverfindsherselfverysoon,sotheminutehercapbegantoboblikeatop-heavydahlia,IwhippedtheVICAROFWAKEFIELDoutofmypocket,andreadaway,withoneeyeonhimandoneonAunt。
I’djustgottowheretheyalltumbledintothewaterwhenI
forgotandlaughedoutloud。Auntwokeupand,beingmoregood-naturedafterhernap,toldmetoreadabitandshowwhatfrivolousworkIpreferredtotheworthyandinstructiveBelsham。
Ididmyverybest,andshelikedit,thoughsheonlysaid……
“Idon’tunderstandwhatit’sallabout。Gobackandbeginit,child。“
“BackIwent,andmadethePrimrosesasinterestingaseverI
could。OnceIwaswickedenoughtostopinathrillingplace,andsaymeekly,“I’mafraidittiresyou,ma’am。Shan’tIstopnow?“
“Shecaughtupherknitting,whichhaddroppedoutofherhands,gavemeasharplookthroughherspecs,andsaid,inhershortway,`Finishthechapter,anddon’tbeimpertinent,miss’。“
“Didsheownshelikedit?“askedMeg。
“Oh,blessyou,no!ButsheletoldBelshamrest,andwhenI
ranbackaftermyglovesthisafternoon,thereshewas,sohardattheVicarthatshedidn’thearmelaughasIdancedajiginthehallbecauseofthegoodtimecoming。Whatapleasantlifeshemighthaveifonlyshechose!Idon’tenvyhermuch,inspiteofhermoney,forafterallrichpeoplehaveaboutasmanyworriesaspoorones,I
think,“addedJo。
“Thatremindsme,“saidMeg,“thatI’vegotsomethingtotell。
Itisn’tfunny,likeJo’sstory,butIthoughtaboutitagooddealasIcamehome。AttheKings’todayIfoundeverybodyinaflurry,andoneofthechildrensaidthatheroldestbrotherhaddonesomethingdreadful,andPapahadsenthimaway。IheardMrs。KingcryingandMr。Kingtalkingveryloud,andGraceandEllenturnedawaytheirfaceswhentheypassedme,soIshouldn’tseehowredandswollentheireyeswere。Ididn’taskanyquestions,ofcourse,butIfeltsosorryforthemandwasrathergladIhadn’tanywildbrotherstodowickedthingsanddisgracethefamily。“
“Ithinkbeingdisgracedinschoolisagreatdealtryingerthananythingbadboyscando,“saidAmy,shakingherhead,asifherexperienceoflifehadbeenadeepone。“SusiePerkinscametoschooltodaywithalovelyredcarnelianring。Iwanteditdreadfully,andwishedIwasherwithallmymight。Well,shedrewapictureofMr。Davis,withamonstrousnoseandahump,andthewords,`Youngladies,myeyeisuponyou!’comingoutofhismouthinaballoonthing。Wewerelaughingoveritwhenallofasuddenhiseyewasonus,andheorderedSusietobringupherslate。Shewasparrylizedwithfright,butshewent,andoh,whatdoyouthinkhedid?Hetookherbytheear——theear!
Justfancyhowhorrid!——andledhertotherecitationplatform,andmadeherstandtherehalfandhour,holdingtheslatesoeveryonecouldsee。“
“Didn’tthegirlslaughatthepicture?“askedJo,whorelishedthescrape。
“Laugh?Notone!Theysatstillasmice,andSusiecriedquarts,Iknowshedid。Ididn’tenvyherthen,forIfeltthatmillionsofcarnelianringswouldn’thavemademehappyafterthat。
Inever,nevershouldhavegotoversuchaagonizingmortification。“
AndAmywentonwithherwork,intheproudconsciousnessofvirtueandthesuccessfulutteranceoftwolongwordsinabreath。
“IsawsomethingIlikedthismorning,andImeanttotellitatdinner,butIforgot,“saidBeth,puttingJo’stopsy-turvybasketinorderasshetalked。“WhenIwenttogetsomeoystersforHannah,Mr。Laurencewasinthefishshop,buthedidn’tseeme,forIkeptbehindthefishbarrel,andhewasbusywithMr。Cutterthefishman。
Apoorwomancameinwithapailamop,andaskedMr。Cutterifhewouldletherdosomescrubbingforabitoffish,becauseshehadn’tanydinnerforherchildren,andhadbeendisappointedofaday’swork。Mr。Cutterwasinahurryandsaid`No’,rathercrossly,soshewasgoingaway,lookinghungryandsorry,whenMr。
Laurencehookedupabigfishwiththecrookedendofhiscaneandhelditouttoher。Shewassogladandsurprisedshetookitrightintoherarms,andthankedhimoverandover。Hetoldherto`goalongandcookit’,andshehurriedoff,sohappy!Wasn’titgoodofhim?Oh,shedidlooksofunny,huggingthebig,slipperyfish,andhopingMr。Laurence’sbedinheavenwouldbe`aisy’。“
WhentheyhadlaughedatBeth’sstory,theyaskedtheirmotherforone,andafteramomentsthought,shesaidsoberly,“AsIsatcuttingoutblueflanneljacketstodayattherooms,IfeltveryanxiousaboutFather,andthoughthowlonelyandhelplessweshouldbe,ifanythinghappenedtohim。Itwasnotawisethingtodo,butIkeptonworryingtillanoldmancameinwithanorderforsomeclothes。Hesatdownnearme,andIbegantotalktohim,forhelookedpoorandtiredandanxious。
“`Haveyousonsinthearmy?’Iasked,forthenotehebroughtwasnottome。
“Yes,ma’am。Ihadfour,buttwowerekilled,oneisaprisoner,andI’mgoingtotheother,whoisverysickinaWashingtonhospital。’
heansweredquietly。
“`Youhavedoneagreatdealforyourcountry,sir,’Isaid,feelingrespectnow,insteadofpity。
“`NotamitemorethanIought,ma’am。I’dgomyself,ifIwasanyuse。AsIain’t,Igivemyboys,andgive’emfree。’
“Hespokesocheerfully,lookedsosincere,andseemedsogladtogivehisall,thatIwasashamedofmyself。I’dgivenonemanandthoughtittoomuch,whilehegavefourwithoutgrudgingthem。
Ihadallmygirlstocomfortmeathome,andhislastsonwaswaiting,milesaway,tosaygood-bytohim,perhaps!Ifeltsorich,sohappythinkingofmyblessings,thatImadehimanicebundle,gavehimsomemoney,andthankedhimheartilyforthelessonhehadtaughtme。“
“Tellanotherstory,Mother,onewithamoraltoit,likethis。
Iliketothinkaboutthemafterward,iftheyarerealandnottoopreachy,“saidJo,afteraminute’ssilence。
Mrs。Marchsmiledandbeganatonce,forshehadtoldstoriestothislittleaudienceformanyyears,andknewhowtopleasethem。
“Onceuponatime,therewerefourgirls,whohadenoughtoeatanddrinkandwear,agoodmanycomfortsandpleasures,kindfriendsandparentswholovedthemdearly,andyettheywerenotcontented。“
Herethelistenersstoleslylooksatoneanother,andbegantosewdiligently。“Thesegirlswereanxioustobegoodandmademanyexcellentresolutions,buttheydidnotkeepthemverywell,andwereconstantlysaying,`Ifonlywehadthis,’or`Ifwecouldonlydothat,’quiteforgettinghowmuchtheyalreadyhad,andhowmanythingstheyactuallycoulddo。Sotheyaskedanoldwomanwhatspelltheycouldusetomakethemhappy,andshesaid,`Whenyoufeeldiscontented,thinkoveryourblessings,andbegrateful。’“HereJolookedupquickly,asifabouttospeak,butchangedhermind,seeingthatthestorywasnotdoneyet。
“Beingsensiblegirls,theydecidedtotryheradvice,andsoonweresurprisedtoseehowwellofftheywere。Onediscoveredthatmoneycouldn’tkeepshameandsorrowoutofrichpeople’shouses,anotherthat,thoughshewaspoor,shewasagreatdealhappier,withheryouth,health,andgoodspirits,thanacertainfretful,feebleoldladywhocouldn’tenjoyhercomforts,athirdthat,disagreeableasitwastohelpgetdinner,itwasharderstilltogobeggingforitandthefourth,thatevencarnelianringswerenotsovaluableasgoodbehavior。Sotheyagreedtostopcomplaining,toenjoytheblessingsalreadypossessed,andtrytodeservethem,lesttheyshouldbetakenawayentirely,insteadofincreased,andIbelievetheywereneverdisappointedorsorrythattheytooktheoldwoman’sadvice。“
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