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第8章

  Shesanglikealittlelarkaboutherwork,neverwastootiredforMarmeeandthegirls,anddayafterdaysaidhopefullytoherself,“IknowI’llgetmymusicsometime,ifI’mgood。“
  TherearemanyBethsintheworld,shyandquiet,sittingincornerstillneeded,andlivingforotherssocheerfullythatnooneseesthesacrificestillthelittlecricketonthehearthstopschirping,andthesweet,sunshinypresencevanishes,leavingsilenceandshadowbehind。
  IfanybodyhadaskedAmywhatthegreatesttrialofherlifewas,shewouldhaveansweredatonce,“Mynose。“Whenshewasababy,Johadaccidentlydroppedherintothecoalhod,andAmyinsistedthatthefallhadruinedhernoseforever。Itwasnotbignorred,likepoor`Petrea’s’,itwasonlyratherflat,andallthepinchingintheworldcouldnotgiveitanaristocraticpoint。Noonemindeditbutherself,anditwasdoingitsbesttogrow,butAmyfeltdeeplythewantofaGreciannose,anddrewwholesheetsofhandsomeonestoconsoleherself。
  “LittleRaphael,“ashersisterscalledher,hadadecidedtalentfordrawing,andwasneversohappyaswhencopyingflowers,designingfairies,orillustratingstorieswithqueerspecimensofart。Herteacherscomplainedthatinsteadofdoinghersumsshecoveredherslatewithanimals,theblankpagesofheratlaswereusedtocopymapson,andcaricaturesofthemostludicrousdescriptioncameflutteringoutofallherbooksatunluckymoments。Shegotthroughherlessonsaswellasshecould,andmanagedtoescapereprimandsbybeingamodelofdeportment。Shewasagreatfavoritewithhermates,beinggood-temperedandpossessingthehappyartofpleasingwithouteffort。Herlittleairsandgracesweremuchadmired,sowereheraccomplishments,forbesidesherdrawing,shecouldplaytwelvetunes,crochet,andreadFrenchwithoutmispronouncingmorethantwo-thirdsofthewords。Shehadaplaintivewayofsaying,“WhenPapawasrichwedidso-and-so,“whichwasverytouching,andherlongwordswereconsidered`perfectlyelegant’bythegirls。
  Amywasinafairwaytobespoiled,foreveryonepettedher,andhersmallvanitiesandselfishnessesweregrowingnicely。
  Onething,however,ratherquenchedthevanities。Shehadtowearhercousin’sclothes。NowFlorence’smamahadn’taparticleoftaste,andAmysuffereddeeplyathavingtoweararedinsteadofabluebonnet,unbecominggowns,andfussyapronsthatdidnotfit。Everythingwasgood,wellmade,andlittleworn,butAmy’sartisticeyesweremuchafflicted,especiallythiswinter,whenherschooldresswasadullpurplewithyellowdotsandnotrimming。
  “Myonlycomfort,“shesaidtoMeg,withtearsinhereyes,“isthatMotherdoesn’ttaketucksinmydresseswheneverI’mnaughty,asMariaParks’smotherdoes。Mydear,it’sreallydreadful,forsometimessheissobadherfrockisuptoherknees,andshecan’tcometoschool。WhenIthinkofthisdeggerredation,IfellthatIcanbearevenmyflatnoseandpurplegownwithyellowskyrocketsonit。“
  MegwasAmy’sconfidanteandmonitor,andbysomestrangeattractionofoppositesJowasgentleBeth’s。ToJoalonedidtheshychildtellherthoughts,andoverherbigharum-scarumsisterBethunconsciouslyexercisedmoreinfluencethananyoneinthefamily。Thetwooldergirlswereagreatdealtooneanother,buteachtookoneoftheyoungersistersintoherkeepingandwatchedoverherinherownway,`playingmother’
  theycalledit,andputtheirsistersintheplacesofdiscardeddollswiththematernalinstinctoflittewomen。
  “Hasanybodygotanythingtotell?It’sbeensuchadismaldayI’mreallydyingforsomeamusement,“saidMeg,astheysatsewingtogetherthatevening。
  “IhadaqueertimewithAunttoday,and,asIgotthebestofit,I’lltellyouaboutit,“beganJo,whodearlylovedtotellstories。“IwasreadingthateverlastingBelsham,anddroningawayasIalwaysdo,forAuntsoondropsoff,andthenItakeoutsomenicebook,andreadlikefurytillshewakesup。Iactuallymademyselfsleepy,andbeforeshebegantonod,IgavesuchagapethatsheaskedmewhatImeantbyopeningmymouthwideenoughtotakethewholebookinatonce。
  “IwishIcould,andbedonewithit,“saidI,tryingnottobesaucy。
  “Thenshegavemealonglectureonmysins,andtoldmetositandthinkthemoverwhileshejust`lost’herselfforamoment。
  Sheneverfindsherselfverysoon,sotheminutehercapbegantoboblikeatop-heavydahlia,IwhippedtheVICAROFWAKEFIELDoutofmypocket,andreadaway,withoneeyeonhimandoneonAunt。
  I’djustgottowheretheyalltumbledintothewaterwhenI
  forgotandlaughedoutloud。Auntwokeupand,beingmoregood-naturedafterhernap,toldmetoreadabitandshowwhatfrivolousworkIpreferredtotheworthyandinstructiveBelsham。
  Ididmyverybest,andshelikedit,thoughsheonlysaid……
  “Idon’tunderstandwhatit’sallabout。Gobackandbeginit,child。“
  “BackIwent,andmadethePrimrosesasinterestingaseverI
  could。OnceIwaswickedenoughtostopinathrillingplace,andsaymeekly,“I’mafraidittiresyou,ma’am。Shan’tIstopnow?“
  “Shecaughtupherknitting,whichhaddroppedoutofherhands,gavemeasharplookthroughherspecs,andsaid,inhershortway,`Finishthechapter,anddon’tbeimpertinent,miss’。“
  “Didsheownshelikedit?“askedMeg。
  “Oh,blessyou,no!ButsheletoldBelshamrest,andwhenI
  ranbackaftermyglovesthisafternoon,thereshewas,sohardattheVicarthatshedidn’thearmelaughasIdancedajiginthehallbecauseofthegoodtimecoming。Whatapleasantlifeshemighthaveifonlyshechose!Idon’tenvyhermuch,inspiteofhermoney,forafterallrichpeoplehaveaboutasmanyworriesaspoorones,I
  think,“addedJo。
  “Thatremindsme,“saidMeg,“thatI’vegotsomethingtotell。
  Itisn’tfunny,likeJo’sstory,butIthoughtaboutitagooddealasIcamehome。AttheKings’todayIfoundeverybodyinaflurry,andoneofthechildrensaidthatheroldestbrotherhaddonesomethingdreadful,andPapahadsenthimaway。IheardMrs。KingcryingandMr。Kingtalkingveryloud,andGraceandEllenturnedawaytheirfaceswhentheypassedme,soIshouldn’tseehowredandswollentheireyeswere。Ididn’taskanyquestions,ofcourse,butIfeltsosorryforthemandwasrathergladIhadn’tanywildbrotherstodowickedthingsanddisgracethefamily。“
  “Ithinkbeingdisgracedinschoolisagreatdealtryingerthananythingbadboyscando,“saidAmy,shakingherhead,asifherexperienceoflifehadbeenadeepone。“SusiePerkinscametoschooltodaywithalovelyredcarnelianring。Iwanteditdreadfully,andwishedIwasherwithallmymight。Well,shedrewapictureofMr。Davis,withamonstrousnoseandahump,andthewords,`Youngladies,myeyeisuponyou!’comingoutofhismouthinaballoonthing。Wewerelaughingoveritwhenallofasuddenhiseyewasonus,andheorderedSusietobringupherslate。Shewasparrylizedwithfright,butshewent,andoh,whatdoyouthinkhedid?Hetookherbytheear——theear!
  Justfancyhowhorrid!——andledhertotherecitationplatform,andmadeherstandtherehalfandhour,holdingtheslatesoeveryonecouldsee。“
  “Didn’tthegirlslaughatthepicture?“askedJo,whorelishedthescrape。
  “Laugh?Notone!Theysatstillasmice,andSusiecriedquarts,Iknowshedid。Ididn’tenvyherthen,forIfeltthatmillionsofcarnelianringswouldn’thavemademehappyafterthat。
  Inever,nevershouldhavegotoversuchaagonizingmortification。“
  AndAmywentonwithherwork,intheproudconsciousnessofvirtueandthesuccessfulutteranceoftwolongwordsinabreath。
  “IsawsomethingIlikedthismorning,andImeanttotellitatdinner,butIforgot,“saidBeth,puttingJo’stopsy-turvybasketinorderasshetalked。“WhenIwenttogetsomeoystersforHannah,Mr。Laurencewasinthefishshop,buthedidn’tseeme,forIkeptbehindthefishbarrel,andhewasbusywithMr。Cutterthefishman。
  Apoorwomancameinwithapailamop,andaskedMr。Cutterifhewouldletherdosomescrubbingforabitoffish,becauseshehadn’tanydinnerforherchildren,andhadbeendisappointedofaday’swork。Mr。Cutterwasinahurryandsaid`No’,rathercrossly,soshewasgoingaway,lookinghungryandsorry,whenMr。
  Laurencehookedupabigfishwiththecrookedendofhiscaneandhelditouttoher。Shewassogladandsurprisedshetookitrightintoherarms,andthankedhimoverandover。Hetoldherto`goalongandcookit’,andshehurriedoff,sohappy!Wasn’titgoodofhim?Oh,shedidlooksofunny,huggingthebig,slipperyfish,andhopingMr。Laurence’sbedinheavenwouldbe`aisy’。“
  WhentheyhadlaughedatBeth’sstory,theyaskedtheirmotherforone,andafteramomentsthought,shesaidsoberly,“AsIsatcuttingoutblueflanneljacketstodayattherooms,IfeltveryanxiousaboutFather,andthoughthowlonelyandhelplessweshouldbe,ifanythinghappenedtohim。Itwasnotawisethingtodo,butIkeptonworryingtillanoldmancameinwithanorderforsomeclothes。Hesatdownnearme,andIbegantotalktohim,forhelookedpoorandtiredandanxious。
  “`Haveyousonsinthearmy?’Iasked,forthenotehebroughtwasnottome。
  “Yes,ma’am。Ihadfour,buttwowerekilled,oneisaprisoner,andI’mgoingtotheother,whoisverysickinaWashingtonhospital。’
  heansweredquietly。
  “`Youhavedoneagreatdealforyourcountry,sir,’Isaid,feelingrespectnow,insteadofpity。
  “`NotamitemorethanIought,ma’am。I’dgomyself,ifIwasanyuse。AsIain’t,Igivemyboys,andgive’emfree。’
  “Hespokesocheerfully,lookedsosincere,andseemedsogladtogivehisall,thatIwasashamedofmyself。I’dgivenonemanandthoughtittoomuch,whilehegavefourwithoutgrudgingthem。
  Ihadallmygirlstocomfortmeathome,andhislastsonwaswaiting,milesaway,tosaygood-bytohim,perhaps!Ifeltsorich,sohappythinkingofmyblessings,thatImadehimanicebundle,gavehimsomemoney,andthankedhimheartilyforthelessonhehadtaughtme。“
  “Tellanotherstory,Mother,onewithamoraltoit,likethis。
  Iliketothinkaboutthemafterward,iftheyarerealandnottoopreachy,“saidJo,afteraminute’ssilence。
  Mrs。Marchsmiledandbeganatonce,forshehadtoldstoriestothislittleaudienceformanyyears,andknewhowtopleasethem。
  “Onceuponatime,therewerefourgirls,whohadenoughtoeatanddrinkandwear,agoodmanycomfortsandpleasures,kindfriendsandparentswholovedthemdearly,andyettheywerenotcontented。“
  Herethelistenersstoleslylooksatoneanother,andbegantosewdiligently。“Thesegirlswereanxioustobegoodandmademanyexcellentresolutions,buttheydidnotkeepthemverywell,andwereconstantlysaying,`Ifonlywehadthis,’or`Ifwecouldonlydothat,’quiteforgettinghowmuchtheyalreadyhad,andhowmanythingstheyactuallycoulddo。Sotheyaskedanoldwomanwhatspelltheycouldusetomakethemhappy,andshesaid,`Whenyoufeeldiscontented,thinkoveryourblessings,andbegrateful。’“HereJolookedupquickly,asifabouttospeak,butchangedhermind,seeingthatthestorywasnotdoneyet。
  “Beingsensiblegirls,theydecidedtotryheradvice,andsoonweresurprisedtoseehowwellofftheywere。Onediscoveredthatmoneycouldn’tkeepshameandsorrowoutofrichpeople’shouses,anotherthat,thoughshewaspoor,shewasagreatdealhappier,withheryouth,health,andgoodspirits,thanacertainfretful,feebleoldladywhocouldn’tenjoyhercomforts,athirdthat,disagreeableasitwastohelpgetdinner,itwasharderstilltogobeggingforitandthefourth,thatevencarnelianringswerenotsovaluableasgoodbehavior。Sotheyagreedtostopcomplaining,toenjoytheblessingsalreadypossessed,andtrytodeservethem,lesttheyshouldbetakenawayentirely,insteadofincreased,andIbelievetheywereneverdisappointedorsorrythattheytooktheoldwoman’sadvice。“