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第67章

  Jowasaloneinthetwilight,lyingontheoldsofa,lookingatthefire,andthinking。Itwasherfavoritewayofspendingthehourofdusk。Noonedisturbedher,andsheusedtoliethereonBeth’slittleredpillow,planningstories,dreamingdreams,orthinkingtenderthoughtsofthesisterwhoneverseemedfaraway。Herfacelookedtired,grave,andrathersad,fortomorrowwasherbirthday,andshewasthinkinghowfasttheyearswentby,howoldshewasgetting,andhowlittlesheseemedtohaveaccomplished。Almosttwenty-five,andnothingtoshowforit。Jowasmistakeninthat。Therewasagooddealtoshow,andby-and-byshesaw,andwasgratefulforit。
  “Anoldmaid,that’swhatI’mtobe。Aliteraryspinster,withapenforaspouse,afamilyofstoriesforchildren,andtwentyyearshenceamorseloffame,perhaps,when,likepoorJohnson,I’moldandcan’tenjoyit,solitary,andcan’tshareit,independent,anddon’tneedit。Well,Ineedn’tbeasoursaintnoraselfishsinner,and,Idaresay,oldmaidsareverycomfortablewhentheygetusedtoit,but……“AndthereJosighed,asiftheprospectwasnotinviting。
  Itseldomis,atfirst,andthirtyseemstheendofallthingstofive-and-twenty。Butit’snotasbadasitlooks,andonecangetonquitehappilyifonehassomethinginone’sselftofallbackupon。Attwenty-five,girlsbegintotalkaboutbeingoldmaids,butsecretlyresolvethattheyneverwillbe。Atthirtytheysaynothingaboutit,butquietlyacceptthefact,andifsensible,consolethemselvesbyrememberingthattheyhavetwentymoreuseful,happyyears,inwhichtheymaybelearningtogrowoldgracefully。Don’tlaughatthespinsters,deargirls,foroftenverytender,tragicromancesarehiddenawayintheheartsthatbeatsoquietlyunderthesobergowns,andmanysilentsacrificesofyouth,health,ambition,loveitself,makethefadedfacesbeautifulinGod’ssight。Eventhesad,soursistersshouldbekindlydealtwith,becausetheyhavemissedthesweetestpartoflife,iffornootherreason。Andlookingatthemwithcompassion,notcontempt,girlsintheirbloomshouldrememberthattheytoomaymisstheblossomtime。Thatrosycheeksdon’tlastforever,thatsilverthreadswillcomeinthebonniebrownhair,andthat,by-and-by,kindnessandrespectwillbeassweetasloveandadmirationnow。
  Gentlemen,whichmeansboys,becourteoustotheoldmaids,nomatterhowpoorandplainandprim,fortheonlychivalryworthhavingisthatwhichisthereadiesttopaydeferencetotheold,protectthefeeble,andservewomankind,regardlessofrank,age,orcolor。Justrecollectthegoodauntswhohavenotonlylecturedandfussed,butnursedandpetted,toooftenwithoutthanks,thescrapestheyhavehelpedyououtof,thetipstheyhavegivenyoufromtheirsmallstore,thestitchesthepatientoldfingershavesetforyou,thestepsthewillingoldfeethavetaken,andgratefullypaythedearoldladiesthelittleattentionsthatwomenlovetoreceiveaslongastheylive。Thebright-eyedgirlsarequicktoseesuchtraits,andwilllikeyouallthebetterforthem,andifdeath,almosttheonlypowerthatcanpartmotherandson,shouldrobyouofyours,youwillbesuretofindatenderwelcomeandmaternalcherishingfromsomeAuntPriscilla,whohaskeptthewarmestcornerofherlonelyoldheartfor`thebestnevvyintheworld’。
  JomusthavefallenasleepasIdaresaymyreaderhasduringthislittlehomily,forsuddenlyLaurie’sghostseemedtostandbeforeher,asubstantial,lifelikeghost,leaningoverherwiththeverylookheusedtowearwhenhefeltagooddealanddidn’tliketoshowit。But,likeJennyintheballad……
  Shecouldnotthinkithe,andlaystaringupathiminstartledsilence,tillhestoopedandkissedher。Thensheknewhim,andflewup,cryingjoyfully……
  “OhmyTeddy!OhmyTeddy!“
  “DearJo,youaregladtoseeme,then?“
  “Glad!Myblessedboy,wordscan’texpressmygladness。
  Where’sAmy?“
  “YourmotherhasgotherdownatMeg’s。Westoppedtherebytheway,andtherewasnogettingmywifeoutoftheirclutches。“
  “Yourwhat?“criedJo,forLaurieutteredthosetwowordswithanunconsciousprideandsatisfactionwhichbetrayedhim。
  “Oh,thedickens!NowI’vedoneit。“AndhelookedsoguiltythatJowasdownonhimlikeaflash。
  “You’vegoneandgotmarried!“
  “Yes,please,butIneverwillagain。“Andhewentdownuponhisknees,withapenitentclaspingofhands,andafacefullofmischief,mirth,andtriumph。
  “Actuallymarried?“
  “Verymuchso,thankyou。“
  “Mercyonus。Whatdreadfulthingwillyoudonext?“AndJofellintoherseatwithagasp。
  “Acharacteristic,butnotexactlycomplimentary,congratulation,“
  returnedLaurie,stillinanabjectattitude,butbeamingwithsatisfaction。
  “Whatcanyouexpect,whenyoutakeone’sbreathaway,creepinginlikeaburglar,andlettingcatsoutofbagslikethat?Getup,youridiculousboy,andtellmeallaboutit。“
  “Notaword,unlessyouletmecomeinmyoldplace,andpromisenottobarricade。“
  Jolaughedatthatasshehadnotdoneformanyalongday,andpattedthesofainvitingly,asshesaidinacordialtone,“Theoldpillowisupgarret,andwedon’tneeditnow。So,comeandfess,Teddy。“
  “Howgooditsoundstohearyousay`Teddy’!Nooneevercallsmethatbutyou。“AndLauriesatdownwithanairofgreatcontent。
  “WhatdoesAmycallyou?“
  “Mylord。“
  “That’slikeher。Well,youlookit。“AndJo’seyeplainlybetrayedthatshefoundherboycomelierthanever。
  Thepillowwasgone,buttherewasabarricade,nevertheless,anaturalone,raisedbytimeabsence,andchangeofheart。Bothfeltit,andforaminutelookedatoneanotherasifthatinvisiblebarriercastalittleshadowoverthem。Itwasgonedirectlyhowever,forLauriesaid,withavainattemptatdignity……
  “Don’tIlooklikeamarriedmanandtheheadofafamily?“
  “Notabit,andyouneverwill。You’vegrownbiggerandbonnier,butyouarethesamescapegraceasever。“
  “Nowreally,Jo,yououghttotreatmewithmorerespect,“
  beganLaurie,whoenjoyeditallimmensely。
  “HowcanI,whenthemereideaofyou,marriedandsettled,issoirresistiblyfunnythatIcan’tkeepsober!“answeredJo,smilingalloverherface,soinfectiouslythattheyhadanotherlaugh,andthensettleddownforagoodtalk,quiteinthepleasantoldfashion。
  “It’snouseyourgoingoutinthecoldtogetAmy,fortheyareallcominguppresently。Icouldn’twait。Iwantedtobetheonetotellyouthegrandsurprise,andhave`firstskim’
  asweusedtosaywhenwesquabbledaboutthecream。“
  “Ofcourseyoudid,andspoiledyourstorybybeginningatthewrongend。Now,startright,andtellmehowitallhappened。
  I’mpiningtoknow。“
  “Well,IdidittopleaseAmy,“beganLaurie,withatwinklethatmadeJoexclaim……
  “Fibnumberone。Amydidittopleaseyou。Goon,andtellthetruth,ifyoucan,sir。“
  “Nowshe’sbeginningtomarmit。Isn’titjollytohearher?“
  saidLaurietothefire,andthefireglowedandsparkledasifitquiteagreed。“It’sallthesame,youknow,sheandIbeingone。
  WeplannedtocomehomewiththeCarrols,amonthormoreago,buttheysuddenlychangedtheirminds,anddecidedtopassanotherwinterinParis。ButGrandpawantedtocomehome。Hewenttopleaseme,andIcouldn’tlethimgoalong,neithercouldIleaveAmy,andMrs。CarrolhadgotEnglishnotionsaboutchaperonsandsuchnonsense,andwouldn’tletAmycomewithus。SoIjustsettledthedifficultybysaying,`Let’sbemarried,andthenwecandoaswelike’。“
  “Ofcourseyoudid。Youalwayshavethingstosuityou。“
  “Notalways。“AndsomethinginLaurie’svoicemadeJosayhastily……
  “HowdidyouevergetAunttoagree?“
  “Itwashardwork,butbetweenus,wetalkedherover,forwehadheapsofgoodreasonsonourside。Therewasn’ttimetowriteandaskleave,butyoualllikedit,hadconsentedtoitby-and-by,anditwasonly`takingtimebythefetlock’,asmywifesays。“
  “Aren’tweproudofthosetwoword,anddon’tweliketosaythem?“interruptedJo,addressingthefireinherturn,andwatchingwithdelightthehappylightitseemedtokindleintheeyesthathadbeensotragicallygloomywhenshesawthemlast。
  “Atrifle,perhaps,she’ssuchacaptivatinglittlewomanI
  can’thelpbeingproudofher。Well,thenUncleandAuntweretheretoplaypropriety。Weweresoabsorbedinoneanotherwewereofnomortaluseapart,andthatcharmingarrangementwouldmakeeverythingeasyallround,sowedidit。“
  “When,where,how?“askedJo,inafeveroffeminineinterestandcuriosity,forshecouldnotrealizeitaparticle。
  “Sixweeksago,attheAmericanconsul’s,inParis,averyquietweddingofcourse,foreveninourhappinesswedidn’tforgetdearlittleBeth。“
  Joputherhandinhisashesaidthat,andLauriegentlysmoothedthelittleredpillow,whichherememberedwell。
  “Whydidn’tyouletusknowafterward?“askedJo,inaquietertone,whentheyhadsatquitestillaminute。
  “Wewantedtosurpriseyou。Wethoughtwewerecomingdirectlyhome,atfirst,butthedearoldgentleman,assoonasweweremarried,foundhecouldn’tbereadyunderamonth,atleast,andsentusofftospendourhoneymoonwhereverweliked。
  AmyhadoncecalledValrosaaregularhoneymoonhome,sowewentthere,andwereashappyaspeoplearebutonceintheirlives。
  Myfaith!Wasn’titloveamongtheroses!“
  LaurieseemedtoforgetJoforaminute,andJowasgladofit,forthefactthathetoldherthesethingssofreelyandsonaturallyassuredherthathehadquiteforgivenandforgotten。
  Shetriedtodrawawayherhand,butasifheguessedthethoughtthatpromptedthehalf-involuntaryimpulse,Lauriehelditfast,andsaid,withamanlygravityshehadneverseeninhimbefore……
  “Jo,dear,Iwanttosayonething,andthenwe’llputitbyforever。AsItoldyouinmyletterwhenIwrotethatAmyhadbeensokindtome,Inevershallstoplovingyou,buttheloveisaltered,andIhavelearnedtoseethatitisbetterasitis。
  Amyandyouchangedplacesinmyheart,that’sall。Ithinkitwasmeanttobeso,andwouldhavecomeaboutnaturally,ifIhadwaited,asyoutriedtomakeme,butInevercouldbepatient,andsoIgotaheartache。Iwasaboythen,headstrongandviolent,andittookahardlessontoshowmemymistake。Foritwasone,Jo,asyousaid,andIfounditout,aftermakingafoolofmyself。
  Uponmyword,Iwassotumbledupinmymind,atonetime,thatI
  didn’tknowwhichIlovedbest,youorAmy,andtriedtoloveyoubothalike。ButIcouldn’t,andwhenIsawherinSwitzerland,everythingseemedtoclearupallatonce。Youbothgotintoyourrightplaces,andIfeltsurethatitwaswelloffwiththeoldlovebeforeitwasonwiththenew,thatIcouldhonestlysharemyheartbetweensisterJoandwifeAmy,andlovethemdearly。
  Willyoubelieveit,andgobacktothehappyoldtimeswhenwefirstknewoneanother?“
  “I’llbelieveit,withallmyheart,but,Teddy,wenevercanbeboyandgirlagain。Thehappyoldtimescan’tcomeback,andwemustn’texpectit。Wearemanandwomannow,withsoberworktodo,forplaytimeisover,andwemustgiveupfrolicking。I’msureyoufeelthis。Iseethechangeinyou,andyou’llfinditinme。
  I
  shallmissmyboy,butIshalllovethemanasmuch,andadmirehimmore,becausehemeanstobewhatIhopedhewould。Wecan’tbelittleplaymatesanylonger,butwewillbebrotherandsister,toloveandhelponeanotherallourlives,won’twe,Laurie?“
  Hedidnotsayaword,buttookthehandsheofferedhim,andlaidhisfacedownonitforaminute,feelingthatoutofthegraveofaboyishpassion,therehadrisenabeautiful,strongfriendshiptoblessthemboth。PresentlyJosaidcheerfully,forshedidn’tthecominghometobeasadone,“Ican’tmakeittruethatyouchildrenarereallymarriedandgoingtosetuphousekeeping。
  Why,itseemsonlyyesterdaythatIwasbuttoningAmy’spinafore,andpullingyourhairwhenyouteased。Mercyme,howtimedoesfly!“
  “Asoneofthechildrenisolderthanyourself,youneedn’ttalksolikeagrandma。IflattermyselfI’ma`gentlemangrowed’
  asPeggottysaidofDavid,andwhenyouseeAmy,you’llfindherratheraprecociousinfant,“saidLaurie,lookingamusedathermaternalair。
  “Youmaybealittleolderinyears,butI’meversomucholderinfeeling,Teddy。Womenalwaysare,andthislastyearhasbeensuchahardonethatIfeelforty。“
  “PoorJo!Weleftyoutobearitalone,whilewewentpleasuring。
  Youareolder。Here’saline,andthere’sanother。Unlessyousmile,youreyeslooksad,andwhenItouchedthecushion,justnow,Ifoundatearonit。You’vehadagreatdealtobear,andhadtobearitallalone。WhataselfishbeastI’vebeen!“
  AndLauriepulledhisownhair,witharemorsefullook。
  ButJoonlyturnedoverthetraitorouspillow,andanswered,inatonewhichshetriedtomakemorecheerful,“No,IhadFatherandMothertohelpme,andthedearbabiestocomfortme,andthethoughtthatyouandAmyweresafeandhappy,tomakethetroubleshereeasiertobear。Iamlonely,sometimes,butIdaresayit’sgoodforme,and……“
  “Younevershallbeagain,“brokeinLaurie,puttinghisarmabouther,asiftofenceouteveryhumanill。“AmyandIcan’tgetonwithoutyou,soyoumustcomeandteach`thechildren’tokeephouse,andgohalvesineverything,justasweusedtodo,andletuspetyou,andallbeblissfullyhappyandfriendlytogether。“
  “IfIshouldn’tbeintheway,itwouldbeverypleasant。I
  begintofeelquiteyoungalready,forsomehowallmytroublesseemedtoflyawaywhenyoucame。Youalwayswereacomfort,Teddy。“
  AndJoleanedherheadonhisshoulder,justasshedidyearsago,whenBethlayillandLaurietoldhertoholdontohim。
  Helookeddownather,wonderingifsherememberedthetime,butJowassmilingtoherself,asifintruthhertroubleshadallvanishedathiscoming。
  “YouarethesameJostill,droppingtearsaboutoneminute,andlaughingthenext。Youlookalittlewickednow。Whatisit,Grandma?“
  “IwaswonderinghowyouandAmygetontogether。“
  “Likeangels!“
  “Yes,ofcourse,butwhichrules?“
  “Idon’tmindtellingyouthatshedoesnow,atleastIletherthinkso,itpleasesher,youknow。By-and-byweshalltaketurns,formarriage,theysay,halvesone’srightsanddoublesone’sduties。“
  “You’llgoonasyoubegin,andAmywillruleyouallthedaysofyourlife。“
  “Well,shedoesitsoimperceptiblythatIdon’tthinkIshallmindmuch。Sheisthesortofwomanwhoknowshowtorulewell。
  Infact,Iratherlikeit,forshewindsoneroundherfingerassoftlyandprettilyasaskeinofsilk,andmakesyoufeelasifshewasdoingyouafavorallthewhile。“