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第60章

  Johnwouldhavepreferredhisownfiresideifithadnotbeensolonely,butasitwashegratefullytookthenextbestthingandenjoyedhisneighbor’ssociety。
  Megratherapprovedofthenewarrangementatfirst,andfounditarelieftoknowthatJohnwashavingagoodtimeinsteadofdozingintheparlor,ortrampingaboutthehouseandwakingthechildren。Butby-and-by,whentheteethingworrywasoverandtheidolswenttosleepatproperhours,leavingMammatimetorest,shebegantomissJohn,andfindherworkbasketdullcompany,whenhewasnotsittingoppositeinhisolddressinggown,comfortablyscorchinghisslippersonthefender。Shewouldnotaskhimtostayathome,butfeltinjuredbecausehedidnotknowthatshewantedhimwithoutbeingtold,entirelyforgettingthemanyeveningshehadwaitedforherinvain。Shewasnervousandwornoutwithwatchingandworry,andinthatunreasonableframeofmindwhichthebestofmothersoccasionallyexperiencewhendomesticcaresoppressthem。Wantofexerciserobsthemofcheerfulness,andtoomuchdevotiontothatidolofAmericanwomen,theteapot,makesthemfeelasiftheywereallnerveandnomuscle。
  “Yes,“shewouldsay,lookingintheglass,“I’mgettingoldandugly。Johndoesn’tfindmeinterestinganylonger,soheleaveshisfadedwifeandgoestoseehisprettyneighbor,whohasnoincumbrances。Well,thebabiesloveme,theydon’tcareifIamthinandpaleandhaven’ttimetocrimpmyhair,theyaremycomfort,andsomedayJohnwillseewhatI’vegladlysacrificedforthem,won’the,myprecious?“
  Towhichpatheticappealdaisywouldanswerwithacoo,orDemiwithacrow,andMegwouldputbyherlamentationsforamaternalrevel,whichsoothedhersolitudeforthetimebeing。
  ButthepainincreasedaspoliticsabsorbedJohn,whowasalwaysrunningovertodiscussinterestingpointswithScott,quiteunconsciousthatMegmissedhim。Notaworddidshesay,however,tillhermotherfoundherintearsoneday,andinsistedonknowingwhatthematterwas,forMeg’sdroopingspiritshadnotescapedherobservation。
  “Iwouldn’ttellanyoneexceptyou,Mother,butIreallydoneedadvice,forifJohngoesonmuchlongerImightaswellbewidowed,“repliedMrs。Brooke,dryinghertearsonDaisy’sbibwithaninjuredair。
  “Goesonhow,mydear?“askedhermotheranxiously。
  “He’sawayallday,andatnightwhenIwanttoseehim,heiscontinuallygoingovertotheScotts’。Itisn’tfairthatIshouldhavethehardestwork,andneveranyamusement。
  Menareveryselfish,eventhebestofthem。“
  “Soarewomen。Don’tblameJohntillyouseewhereyouarewrongyourself。“
  “Butitcan’tberightforhimtoneglectme。“
  “Don’tyouneglecthim?“
  “Why,Mother,Ithoughtyou’dtakemypart!“
  “SoIdo,asfarassympathizinggoes,butIthinkthefaultisyours,Meg。“
  “Idon’tseehow。“
  “Letmeshowyou。DidJohneverneglectyou,asyoucallit,whileyoumadeitapointtogivehimyoursocietyofanevening,hisonlyleisuretime?“
  “No,butIcan’tdoitnow,withtwobabiestotend。“
  “Ithinkyoucould,dear,andIthinkyouought。MayI
  speakquitefreely,andwillyourememberthatit’sMotherwhoblamesaswellasMotherwhosympathizes?“
  “IndeedIwill!SpeaktomeasifIwerelittleMegagain。
  IoftenfeelasifIneededteachingmorethaneversincethesebabieslooktomeforeverything。“
  Megdrewherlowchairbesidehermother’s,andwithalittleinterruptionineitherlap,thetwowomenrockedandtalkedlovinglytogether,feelingthatthetieofmotherhoodmadethemmoreonethanever。
  “Youhaveonlymadethemistakethatmostyoungwivesmake-forgottenyourdutytoyourhusbandinyourloveforyourchildren。
  Averynaturalandforgivablemistake,Meg,butonethathadbetterberemediedbeforeyoutaketodifferentways,forchildrenshoulddrawyounearerthanever,notseparateyou,asiftheywereallyours,andJohnhadnothingtodobutsupportthem。I’veseenitforsomeweeks,buthavenotspoken,feelingsureitwouldcomerightintime。“
  “I’mafraiditwon’t。IfIaskhimtostay,he’llthinkI’mjealous,andIwouldn’tinsulthimbysuchanidea。Hedoesn’tseethatIwanthim,andIdon’tknowhowtotellhimwithoutwords。“
  “Makeitsopleasanthewon’twanttogoaway。Mydear,he’slongingforhislittlehome,butitisn’thomewithoutyou,andyouarealwaysinthenursery。“
  “Oughtn’tItobethere?“
  “Notallthetime,toomuchconfinementmakesyounervous,andthenyouareunfittedforeverything。Besides,youowesomethingtoJohnaswellastothebabies。Don’tneglecthusbandforchildren,don’tshuthimoutofthenursery,butteachhimhowtohelpinit。Hisplaceisthereaswellasyours,andthechildrenneedhim。Lethimfeelthathehasaparttodo,andhewilldoitgladlyandfaithfully,anditwillbebetterforyouall。“
  “Youreallythinkso,Mother?“
  “Iknowit,Meg,forI’vetriedit,andIseldomgiveadviceunlessI’veproveditspracticability。WhenyouandJowerelittle,Iwentonjustasyouare,feelingasifIdidn’tdomydutyunlessIdevotedmyselfwhollytoyou。PoorFathertooktohisbooks,afterIhadrefusedalloffersofhelp,andleftmetotrymyexperimentalone。IstruggledalongaswellasIcould,butJowastoomuchforme。Inearlyspoiledherbyindulgence。Youwerepoorly,andIworriedaboutyoutillIfellsickmyself。ThenFathercametotherescue,quietlymanagedeverything,andmadehimselfsohelpfulthatIsawmymistake,andneverhavebeenabletogotonwithouthimsince。Thatisthesecretofourhomehappiness。
  Hedoesnotletbusinessweanhimfromthelittlecaresanddutiesthataffectusall,andItrynottoletdomesticworriesdestroymyinterestinhispursuits。Eachdoourpartaloneinmanythings,butathomeweworktogether,always。“
  “Itisso,Mother,andmygreatwishistobetomyhusbandandchildrenwhatyouhavebeentoyours。Showmehow,I’lldoanythingyousay。“
  “Youwerealwaysmydociledaughter。Well,dear,ifIwereyou,I’dletJohnhavemoretodowiththemanagementofDemi,fortheboyneedstraining,andit’snonetoosoontobegin。
  ThenI’ddowhatIhaveoftenproposed,letHannahcomeandhelpyou。Sheisacapitalnurse,andyoumaytrustthepreciousbabiestoherwhileyoudomorehousework。Youneedtheexercise,Hannahwouldenjoytherest,andJohnwouldfindhiswifeagain。
  Gooutmore,keepcheerfulaswellasbusy,foryouarethesunshine-makerofthefamily,andifyougetdismalthereisnofairweather。ThenI’dtrytotakeaninterestinwhateverJohnlikes——talkwithhim,lethimreadtoyou,exchangeideas,andhelpeachotherinthatway。Don’tshutyourselfupinabandboxbecauseyouareawoman,butunderstandwhatisgoingon,andeducateyourselftotakeyourpartintheworld’swork,foritallaffectsyouandyours。“
  “Johnissosensible,I’mafraidhewillthinkI’mstupidifIaskquestionsaboutpoliticsandthings。“
  “Idon’tbelievehewould。Lovecoversamultitudeofsins,andofwhomcouldyouaskmorefreelythanofhim?Tryit,andseeifhedoesn’tfindyoursocietyfarmoreagreeablethanMrs。
  Scott’ssuppers。“
  “Iwill。PoorJohn!I’mafraidIhaveneglectedhimsadly,butIthoughtIwasright,andheneversaidanything。“
  “Hetriednottobeselfish,buthehasfeltratherforlorn,Ifancy。Thisisjustthetime,Meg,whenyoungmarriedpeopleareapttogrowapart,andtheverytimewhentheyoughttobemosttogether,forthefirsttendernesssoonwearsoff,unlesscareistakentopreserveit。Andnotimeissobeautifulandprecioustoparentsasthefirstyearsofthelittlelivesgiventothemtotrain。Don’tletJohnbeastrangertothebabies,fortheywilldomoretokeephimsafeandhappyinthisworldoftrialandtemptationthananythingelse,andthroughthemyouwilllearntoknowandloveoneanotherasyoushould。Now,dear,good-by。ThinkoverMother’spreachment,actuponitifitseemsgood,andGodblessyouall。“
  Megdidthinkitover,founditgood,andacteduponit,thoughthefirstattemptwasnotmadeexactlyassheplannedtohaveit。Ofcoursethechildrentyrannizedoverher,andruledthehouseassoonastheyfoundoutthatkickingandsquallingbroughtthemwhatevertheywanted。Mammawasanabjectslavetotheircaprices,butPapawasnotsoeasilysubjugated,andoccasionallyafflictedhistenderspousebyanattemptatpaternaldisciplinewithhisobstreperousson。
  ForDemiinheritedatrifleofhissire’sfirmnessofcharacter,wewon’tcallitobstinacy,andwhenhemadeuphislittletohaveortodoanything,alltheking’shorsesandalltheking’smencouldnotchangethatpertinaciouslittlemind。Mammathoughtthedeartooyoungtobetaughttoconquerhisprejudices,butPapabelievedthatitneverwastoosoontolearnobedience。SoMasterDemiearlydiscoveredthatwhenheundertookto`wrastle’with`Parpar’,healwaysgottheworstofit,yetliketheEnglishman,babyrespectedthemanwhoconqueredhim,andlovedthefatherwhosegrave“No,no,“wasmoreimpressivethanallMamma’slovepats。
  Afewdaysafterthetalkwithhermother,MegresolvedtotryasocialeveningwithJohn,sosheorderedanicesupper,settheparlorinorder,dressedherselfprettily,andputthechildrentobedearly,thatnothingshouldinterferewithherexperiment。ButunfortunatelyDemi’smostunconquerableprejudicewasagainstgoingtobed,andthatnighthedecidedtogoonarampage。SopoorMegsangandrocked,toldstoriesandtriedeverysleep-prevokingwileshecoulddevise,butallinvain,thebigeyeswouldn’tshut,andlongafterDaisyhadgonetobyelow,likethechubbylittlebunchofgoodnatureshewas,naughtyDemilaystaringatthelight,withthemostdiscouraginglywide-awakeexpressionofcountenance。
  “WillDemiliestilllikeagoodboy,whileMammarunsdownandgivespoorPapahistea?“askedMeg,asthehalldoorsoftlyclosed,andthewell-knownstepwenttip-toeingintothediningroom。
  “Mehastea!“saidDemi,preparingtojoinintherevel。
  “No,butI’llsaveyousomelittlecakiesforbreakfast,ifyou’llgobye-bylikeDaisy。Willyou,lovey?“
  “Iss!“andDemishuthiseyestight,asiftocatchsleepandhurrythedesiredday。
  Takingadvantageofthepropitiousmoment,Megslippedawayandrandowntogreetherhusbandwithasmilingfaceandthelittlebluebowinherhairwhichwashisespecialadmiration。Hesawitatonceandsaidwithpleasedsurprise,“Why,littlemother,howgaywearetonight。Doyouexpectcompany?“
  “Onlyyou,dear。“
  “No,I’mtiredofbeingdowdy,soIdressedupasachange。Youalwaysmakeyourselfnicefortable,nomatterhowtiredyouare,sowhyshouldn’tIwhenIhavethetime?’
  “Idoitoutofrespectforyou,mydear,“saidold-fashionedJohn。
  “Ditto,ditto,Mr。Brooke,“laughedMeg,lookingyoungandprettyagain,asshenoddedtohimovertheteapot。
  “Well,it’saltogetherdelightful,andlikeoldtimes。Thistastesright。Idrinkyourhealth,dear。“AndJohnsippedhisteawithanairofreposefulrapture,whichwasofveryshortdurationhowever,forasheputdownhiscup,thedoorhandlerattledmysteriously,andalittlevoicewasheard,sayingimpatiently……
  “Opydoy。Me’stummin!“
  “It’sthatnaughtyboy。Itoldhimtogotosleepalone,andhereheis,downstairs,gettinghisdeatha-coldpatteringoverthatcanvas,“saidMeg,answeringthecall。
  “Mornin’now,“announcedDemiinjoyfultoneasheentered,withhislongnightgowngracefullyfestoonedoverhisarmandeverycurlbobbinggaylyasheprancedaboutthetable,eyeingthe`cakies’withlovingglances。
  “No,itisn’tmorningyet。Youmustgotobed,andnottroublepoorMamma。Thenyoucanhavethelittlecakewithsugaronit。“
  “MelovesParpar,“saidtheartfulone,preparingtoclimbthepaternalkneeandrevelinforbiddenjoys。ButJohnshookhishead,andsaidtoMeg……
  “Ifyoutoldhimtostayupthere,andgotosleepalone,makehimdoit,orhewillneverlearntomindyou。“
  “Yes,ofcourse。Come,Demi。“AndMegledhersonaway,feelingastrongdesiretospankthelittlemarplotwhohoppedbesideher,laboringunderthedelusionthatthebribewastobeadministeredassoonastheyreachedthenursery。
  Norwashedisappointed,forthatshortsightedwomanactuallygavehimalumpofsugar,tuckedhimintohisbed,andforbadeanymorepromenadestillmorning。
  “Iss!“saidDemitheperjured,blissfullysuckinghissugar,andregardinghisfirstattemptaseminentlysuccessful。
  Megreturnedtoherplace,andsupperwasprogressingpleasantly,whenthelittleghostwalkedagainandexposedthematernaldelinquenciesbyboldlydemanding,“Moresudar,Marmar。“
  “Nowthiswon’tdo,“saidJohn,hardeninghisheartagainsttheengaginglittlesinner。“Weshallneverknowanypeacetillthatchildlearnstogotobedproperly。Youhavemadeaslaveofyourselflongenough。Givehimonelesson,andthentherewillbeanendofit。Puthiminhisbedandleavehim,Meg。“
  “Hewon’tstaythere,heneverdoesunlessIsitbyhim。“
  “I’llmanagehim。Demi,goupstairs,andgetintoyourbed,asMammabidsyou。“
  “S’ant!“repliedtheyoungrebel,helpinghimselftothecoveted`cakie’,andbeginningtoeatthesamewithcalmaudacity。
  “YoumustneversaythattoPapa。Ishallcarryyouifyoudon’tgoyourself。“
  “Go’way,medon’tloveParpar。“AndDemiretiredtohismother’sskirtsforprotection。