Johnwouldhavepreferredhisownfiresideifithadnotbeensolonely,butasitwashegratefullytookthenextbestthingandenjoyedhisneighbor’ssociety。
Megratherapprovedofthenewarrangementatfirst,andfounditarelieftoknowthatJohnwashavingagoodtimeinsteadofdozingintheparlor,ortrampingaboutthehouseandwakingthechildren。Butby-and-by,whentheteethingworrywasoverandtheidolswenttosleepatproperhours,leavingMammatimetorest,shebegantomissJohn,andfindherworkbasketdullcompany,whenhewasnotsittingoppositeinhisolddressinggown,comfortablyscorchinghisslippersonthefender。Shewouldnotaskhimtostayathome,butfeltinjuredbecausehedidnotknowthatshewantedhimwithoutbeingtold,entirelyforgettingthemanyeveningshehadwaitedforherinvain。Shewasnervousandwornoutwithwatchingandworry,andinthatunreasonableframeofmindwhichthebestofmothersoccasionallyexperiencewhendomesticcaresoppressthem。Wantofexerciserobsthemofcheerfulness,andtoomuchdevotiontothatidolofAmericanwomen,theteapot,makesthemfeelasiftheywereallnerveandnomuscle。
“Yes,“shewouldsay,lookingintheglass,“I’mgettingoldandugly。Johndoesn’tfindmeinterestinganylonger,soheleaveshisfadedwifeandgoestoseehisprettyneighbor,whohasnoincumbrances。Well,thebabiesloveme,theydon’tcareifIamthinandpaleandhaven’ttimetocrimpmyhair,theyaremycomfort,andsomedayJohnwillseewhatI’vegladlysacrificedforthem,won’the,myprecious?“
Towhichpatheticappealdaisywouldanswerwithacoo,orDemiwithacrow,andMegwouldputbyherlamentationsforamaternalrevel,whichsoothedhersolitudeforthetimebeing。
ButthepainincreasedaspoliticsabsorbedJohn,whowasalwaysrunningovertodiscussinterestingpointswithScott,quiteunconsciousthatMegmissedhim。Notaworddidshesay,however,tillhermotherfoundherintearsoneday,andinsistedonknowingwhatthematterwas,forMeg’sdroopingspiritshadnotescapedherobservation。
“Iwouldn’ttellanyoneexceptyou,Mother,butIreallydoneedadvice,forifJohngoesonmuchlongerImightaswellbewidowed,“repliedMrs。Brooke,dryinghertearsonDaisy’sbibwithaninjuredair。
“Goesonhow,mydear?“askedhermotheranxiously。
“He’sawayallday,andatnightwhenIwanttoseehim,heiscontinuallygoingovertotheScotts’。Itisn’tfairthatIshouldhavethehardestwork,andneveranyamusement。
Menareveryselfish,eventhebestofthem。“
“Soarewomen。Don’tblameJohntillyouseewhereyouarewrongyourself。“
“Butitcan’tberightforhimtoneglectme。“
“Don’tyouneglecthim?“
“Why,Mother,Ithoughtyou’dtakemypart!“
“SoIdo,asfarassympathizinggoes,butIthinkthefaultisyours,Meg。“
“Idon’tseehow。“
“Letmeshowyou。DidJohneverneglectyou,asyoucallit,whileyoumadeitapointtogivehimyoursocietyofanevening,hisonlyleisuretime?“
“No,butIcan’tdoitnow,withtwobabiestotend。“
“Ithinkyoucould,dear,andIthinkyouought。MayI
speakquitefreely,andwillyourememberthatit’sMotherwhoblamesaswellasMotherwhosympathizes?“
“IndeedIwill!SpeaktomeasifIwerelittleMegagain。
IoftenfeelasifIneededteachingmorethaneversincethesebabieslooktomeforeverything。“
Megdrewherlowchairbesidehermother’s,andwithalittleinterruptionineitherlap,thetwowomenrockedandtalkedlovinglytogether,feelingthatthetieofmotherhoodmadethemmoreonethanever。
“Youhaveonlymadethemistakethatmostyoungwivesmake-forgottenyourdutytoyourhusbandinyourloveforyourchildren。
Averynaturalandforgivablemistake,Meg,butonethathadbetterberemediedbeforeyoutaketodifferentways,forchildrenshoulddrawyounearerthanever,notseparateyou,asiftheywereallyours,andJohnhadnothingtodobutsupportthem。I’veseenitforsomeweeks,buthavenotspoken,feelingsureitwouldcomerightintime。“
“I’mafraiditwon’t。IfIaskhimtostay,he’llthinkI’mjealous,andIwouldn’tinsulthimbysuchanidea。Hedoesn’tseethatIwanthim,andIdon’tknowhowtotellhimwithoutwords。“
“Makeitsopleasanthewon’twanttogoaway。Mydear,he’slongingforhislittlehome,butitisn’thomewithoutyou,andyouarealwaysinthenursery。“
“Oughtn’tItobethere?“
“Notallthetime,toomuchconfinementmakesyounervous,andthenyouareunfittedforeverything。Besides,youowesomethingtoJohnaswellastothebabies。Don’tneglecthusbandforchildren,don’tshuthimoutofthenursery,butteachhimhowtohelpinit。Hisplaceisthereaswellasyours,andthechildrenneedhim。Lethimfeelthathehasaparttodo,andhewilldoitgladlyandfaithfully,anditwillbebetterforyouall。“
“Youreallythinkso,Mother?“
“Iknowit,Meg,forI’vetriedit,andIseldomgiveadviceunlessI’veproveditspracticability。WhenyouandJowerelittle,Iwentonjustasyouare,feelingasifIdidn’tdomydutyunlessIdevotedmyselfwhollytoyou。PoorFathertooktohisbooks,afterIhadrefusedalloffersofhelp,andleftmetotrymyexperimentalone。IstruggledalongaswellasIcould,butJowastoomuchforme。Inearlyspoiledherbyindulgence。Youwerepoorly,andIworriedaboutyoutillIfellsickmyself。ThenFathercametotherescue,quietlymanagedeverything,andmadehimselfsohelpfulthatIsawmymistake,andneverhavebeenabletogotonwithouthimsince。Thatisthesecretofourhomehappiness。
Hedoesnotletbusinessweanhimfromthelittlecaresanddutiesthataffectusall,andItrynottoletdomesticworriesdestroymyinterestinhispursuits。Eachdoourpartaloneinmanythings,butathomeweworktogether,always。“
“Itisso,Mother,andmygreatwishistobetomyhusbandandchildrenwhatyouhavebeentoyours。Showmehow,I’lldoanythingyousay。“
“Youwerealwaysmydociledaughter。Well,dear,ifIwereyou,I’dletJohnhavemoretodowiththemanagementofDemi,fortheboyneedstraining,andit’snonetoosoontobegin。
ThenI’ddowhatIhaveoftenproposed,letHannahcomeandhelpyou。Sheisacapitalnurse,andyoumaytrustthepreciousbabiestoherwhileyoudomorehousework。Youneedtheexercise,Hannahwouldenjoytherest,andJohnwouldfindhiswifeagain。
Gooutmore,keepcheerfulaswellasbusy,foryouarethesunshine-makerofthefamily,andifyougetdismalthereisnofairweather。ThenI’dtrytotakeaninterestinwhateverJohnlikes——talkwithhim,lethimreadtoyou,exchangeideas,andhelpeachotherinthatway。Don’tshutyourselfupinabandboxbecauseyouareawoman,butunderstandwhatisgoingon,andeducateyourselftotakeyourpartintheworld’swork,foritallaffectsyouandyours。“
“Johnissosensible,I’mafraidhewillthinkI’mstupidifIaskquestionsaboutpoliticsandthings。“
“Idon’tbelievehewould。Lovecoversamultitudeofsins,andofwhomcouldyouaskmorefreelythanofhim?Tryit,andseeifhedoesn’tfindyoursocietyfarmoreagreeablethanMrs。
Scott’ssuppers。“
“Iwill。PoorJohn!I’mafraidIhaveneglectedhimsadly,butIthoughtIwasright,andheneversaidanything。“
“Hetriednottobeselfish,buthehasfeltratherforlorn,Ifancy。Thisisjustthetime,Meg,whenyoungmarriedpeopleareapttogrowapart,andtheverytimewhentheyoughttobemosttogether,forthefirsttendernesssoonwearsoff,unlesscareistakentopreserveit。Andnotimeissobeautifulandprecioustoparentsasthefirstyearsofthelittlelivesgiventothemtotrain。Don’tletJohnbeastrangertothebabies,fortheywilldomoretokeephimsafeandhappyinthisworldoftrialandtemptationthananythingelse,andthroughthemyouwilllearntoknowandloveoneanotherasyoushould。Now,dear,good-by。ThinkoverMother’spreachment,actuponitifitseemsgood,andGodblessyouall。“
Megdidthinkitover,founditgood,andacteduponit,thoughthefirstattemptwasnotmadeexactlyassheplannedtohaveit。Ofcoursethechildrentyrannizedoverher,andruledthehouseassoonastheyfoundoutthatkickingandsquallingbroughtthemwhatevertheywanted。Mammawasanabjectslavetotheircaprices,butPapawasnotsoeasilysubjugated,andoccasionallyafflictedhistenderspousebyanattemptatpaternaldisciplinewithhisobstreperousson。
ForDemiinheritedatrifleofhissire’sfirmnessofcharacter,wewon’tcallitobstinacy,andwhenhemadeuphislittletohaveortodoanything,alltheking’shorsesandalltheking’smencouldnotchangethatpertinaciouslittlemind。Mammathoughtthedeartooyoungtobetaughttoconquerhisprejudices,butPapabelievedthatitneverwastoosoontolearnobedience。SoMasterDemiearlydiscoveredthatwhenheundertookto`wrastle’with`Parpar’,healwaysgottheworstofit,yetliketheEnglishman,babyrespectedthemanwhoconqueredhim,andlovedthefatherwhosegrave“No,no,“wasmoreimpressivethanallMamma’slovepats。
Afewdaysafterthetalkwithhermother,MegresolvedtotryasocialeveningwithJohn,sosheorderedanicesupper,settheparlorinorder,dressedherselfprettily,andputthechildrentobedearly,thatnothingshouldinterferewithherexperiment。ButunfortunatelyDemi’smostunconquerableprejudicewasagainstgoingtobed,andthatnighthedecidedtogoonarampage。SopoorMegsangandrocked,toldstoriesandtriedeverysleep-prevokingwileshecoulddevise,butallinvain,thebigeyeswouldn’tshut,andlongafterDaisyhadgonetobyelow,likethechubbylittlebunchofgoodnatureshewas,naughtyDemilaystaringatthelight,withthemostdiscouraginglywide-awakeexpressionofcountenance。
“WillDemiliestilllikeagoodboy,whileMammarunsdownandgivespoorPapahistea?“askedMeg,asthehalldoorsoftlyclosed,andthewell-knownstepwenttip-toeingintothediningroom。
“Mehastea!“saidDemi,preparingtojoinintherevel。
“No,butI’llsaveyousomelittlecakiesforbreakfast,ifyou’llgobye-bylikeDaisy。Willyou,lovey?“
“Iss!“andDemishuthiseyestight,asiftocatchsleepandhurrythedesiredday。
Takingadvantageofthepropitiousmoment,Megslippedawayandrandowntogreetherhusbandwithasmilingfaceandthelittlebluebowinherhairwhichwashisespecialadmiration。Hesawitatonceandsaidwithpleasedsurprise,“Why,littlemother,howgaywearetonight。Doyouexpectcompany?“
“Onlyyou,dear。“
“No,I’mtiredofbeingdowdy,soIdressedupasachange。Youalwaysmakeyourselfnicefortable,nomatterhowtiredyouare,sowhyshouldn’tIwhenIhavethetime?’
“Idoitoutofrespectforyou,mydear,“saidold-fashionedJohn。
“Ditto,ditto,Mr。Brooke,“laughedMeg,lookingyoungandprettyagain,asshenoddedtohimovertheteapot。
“Well,it’saltogetherdelightful,andlikeoldtimes。Thistastesright。Idrinkyourhealth,dear。“AndJohnsippedhisteawithanairofreposefulrapture,whichwasofveryshortdurationhowever,forasheputdownhiscup,thedoorhandlerattledmysteriously,andalittlevoicewasheard,sayingimpatiently……
“Opydoy。Me’stummin!“
“It’sthatnaughtyboy。Itoldhimtogotosleepalone,andhereheis,downstairs,gettinghisdeatha-coldpatteringoverthatcanvas,“saidMeg,answeringthecall。
“Mornin’now,“announcedDemiinjoyfultoneasheentered,withhislongnightgowngracefullyfestoonedoverhisarmandeverycurlbobbinggaylyasheprancedaboutthetable,eyeingthe`cakies’withlovingglances。
“No,itisn’tmorningyet。Youmustgotobed,andnottroublepoorMamma。Thenyoucanhavethelittlecakewithsugaronit。“
“MelovesParpar,“saidtheartfulone,preparingtoclimbthepaternalkneeandrevelinforbiddenjoys。ButJohnshookhishead,andsaidtoMeg……
“Ifyoutoldhimtostayupthere,andgotosleepalone,makehimdoit,orhewillneverlearntomindyou。“
“Yes,ofcourse。Come,Demi。“AndMegledhersonaway,feelingastrongdesiretospankthelittlemarplotwhohoppedbesideher,laboringunderthedelusionthatthebribewastobeadministeredassoonastheyreachedthenursery。
Norwashedisappointed,forthatshortsightedwomanactuallygavehimalumpofsugar,tuckedhimintohisbed,andforbadeanymorepromenadestillmorning。
“Iss!“saidDemitheperjured,blissfullysuckinghissugar,andregardinghisfirstattemptaseminentlysuccessful。
Megreturnedtoherplace,andsupperwasprogressingpleasantly,whenthelittleghostwalkedagainandexposedthematernaldelinquenciesbyboldlydemanding,“Moresudar,Marmar。“
“Nowthiswon’tdo,“saidJohn,hardeninghisheartagainsttheengaginglittlesinner。“Weshallneverknowanypeacetillthatchildlearnstogotobedproperly。Youhavemadeaslaveofyourselflongenough。Givehimonelesson,andthentherewillbeanendofit。Puthiminhisbedandleavehim,Meg。“
“Hewon’tstaythere,heneverdoesunlessIsitbyhim。“
“I’llmanagehim。Demi,goupstairs,andgetintoyourbed,asMammabidsyou。“
“S’ant!“repliedtheyoungrebel,helpinghimselftothecoveted`cakie’,andbeginningtoeatthesamewithcalmaudacity。
“YoumustneversaythattoPapa。Ishallcarryyouifyoudon’tgoyourself。“
“Go’way,medon’tloveParpar。“AndDemiretiredtohismother’sskirtsforprotection。
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