MrsFlintwinchgoesonDreamingThehouseinthecitypreserveditsheavydulnessthroughallthesetransactions,andtheinvalidwithinitturnedthesameunvaryingroundoflife。Morning,noon,andnight,morning,noon,andnight,eachrecurringwithitsaccompanyingmonotony,alwaysthesamereluctantreturnofthesamesequencesofmachinery,likeadraggingpieceofclockwork。
Thewheeledchairhaditsassociatedremembrancesandreveries,onemaysuppose,aseveryplacethatismadethestationofahumanbeinghas。Picturesofdemolishedstreetsandalteredhouses,astheyformerlywerewhentheoccupantofthechairwasfamiliarwiththem,imagesofpeopleastheytoousedtobe,withlittleornoallowancemadeforthelapseoftimesincetheywereseen;ofthese,theremusthavebeenmanyinthelongroutineofgloomydays。Tostoptheclockofbusyexistenceatthehourwhenwewerepersonallysequesteredfromit,tosupposemankindstrickenmotionlesswhenwewerebroughttoastand-still,tobeunabletomeasurethechangesbeyondourviewbyanylargerstandardthantheshrunkenoneofourownuniformandcontractedexistence,istheinfirmityofmanyinvalids,andthementalunhealthinessofalmostallrecluses。
Whatscenesandactorsthesternwomanmostreviewed,asshesatfromseasontoseasoninheronedarkroom,noneknewbutherself。
MrFlintwinch,withhiswrypresencebroughttobearuponherdailylikesomeeccentricmechanicalforce,wouldperhapshavescreweditoutofher,iftherehadbeenlessresistanceinher;butshewastoostrongforhim。SofarasMistressAfferywasconcerned,toregardherliege-lordandherdisabledmistresswithafaceofblankwonder,togoaboutthehouseafterdarkwithherapronoverherhead,alwaystolistenforthestrangenoisesandsometimestohearthem,andnevertoemergefromherghostly,dreamy,sleep-
wakingstate,wasoccupationenoughforher。
Therewasafairstrokeofbusinessdoing,asMistressAfferymadeout,forherhusbandhadabundantoccupationinhislittleoffice,andsawmorepeoplethanhadbeenusedtocomethereforsomeyears。Thismighteasilybe,thehousehavingbeenlongdeserted;
buthedidreceiveletters,andcomers,andkeepbooks,andcorrespond。Moreover,hewentabouttoothercounting-houses,andtowharves,anddocks,andtotheCustomHouse,’andtoGarraway’sCoffeeHouse,andtheJerusalemCoffeeHouse,andon’Change;sothathewasmuchinandout。Hebegan,too,sometimesofanevening,whenMrsClennamexpressednoparticularwishforhissociety,toresorttoatavernintheneighbourhoodtolookattheshippingnewsandclosingpricesintheeveningpaper,andeventoexchangeSmallsocialitieswithmercantileSeaCaptainswhofrequentedthatestablishment。Atsomeperiodofeveryday,heandMrsClennamheldacouncilonmattersofbusiness;anditappearedtoAffery,whowasalwaysgropingabout,listeningandwatching,thatthetwocleveronesweremakingmoney。
ThestateofmindintowhichMrFlintwinch’sdazedladyhadfallen,hadnowbeguntobesoexpressedinallherlooksandactionsthatshewasheldinverylowaccountbythetwocleverones,asaperson,neverofstrongintellect,whowasbecomingfoolish。
Perhapsbecauseherappearancewasnotofacommercialcast,orperhapsbecauseitoccurredtohimthathishavingtakenhertowifemightexposehisjudgmenttodoubtinthemindsofcustomers,MrFlintwinchlaidhiscommandsuponherthatsheshouldholdherpeaceonthesubjectofherconjugalrelations,andshouldnolongercallhimJeremiahoutofthedomestictrio。Herfrequentforgetfulnessofthisadmonitionintensifiedherstartledmanner,sinceMrFlintwinch’shabitofavenginghimselfonherremissnessbymakingspringsafterheronthestaircase,andshakingher,occasionedhertobealwaysnervouslyuncertainwhenshemightbethuswaylaidnext。
LittleDorrithadfinishedalongday’sworkinMrsClennam’sroom,andwasneatlygatheringuphershredsandoddsandendsbeforegoinghome。MrPancks,whomAfferyhadjustshownin,wasaddressinganinquirytoMrsClennamonthesubjectofherhealth,coupledwiththeremarkthat,’happeningtofindhimselfinthatdirection,’hehadlookedintoinquire,onbehalfofhisproprietor,howshefoundherself。MrsClennam,withadeepcontractionofherbrows,waslookingathim。
’MrCasbyknows,’saidshe,’thatIamnotsubjecttochanges。ThechangethatIawaithereisthegreatchange。’
’Indeed,ma’am?’returnedMrPancks,withawanderingeyetowardsthefigureofthelittleseamstressonherkneepickingthreadsandfrayingofherworkfromthecarpet。’Youlooknicely,ma’am。’
’IbearwhatIhavetobear,’sheanswered。’Doyouwhatyouhavetodo。’
’Thankyou,ma’am,’saidMrPancks,’suchismyendeavour。’
’Youareofteninthisdirection,areyounot?’askedMrsClennam。
’Why,yes,ma’am,’saidPancks,’rathersolately;Ihavelatelybeenroundthiswayagooddeal,owingtoonethingandanother。’
’BegMrCasbyandhisdaughternottotroublethemselves,bydeputy,aboutme。Whentheywishtoseeme,theyknowIamheretoseethem。Theyhavenoneedtotroublethemselvestosend。Youhavenoneedtotroubleyourselftocome。’
’Nottheleasttrouble,ma’am,’saidMrPancks。’Youreallyarelookinguncommonlynicely,ma’am。’
’Thankyou。Goodevening。’
Thedismissal,anditsaccompanyingfingerpointedstraightatthedoor,wassocurtanddirectthatMrPancksdidnotseehiswaytoprolonghisvisit。Hestirreduphishairwithhissprightliestexpression,glancedatthelittlefigureagain,said’Goodevening,ma’am;don’tcomedown,MrsAffery,Iknowtheroadtothedoor,’
andsteamedout。MrsClennam,herchinrestingonherhand,followedhimwithattentiveanddarklydistrustfuleyes;andAfferystoodlookingatherasifshewerespell-bound。
Slowlyandthoughtfully,MrsClennam’seyesturnedfromthedoorbywhichPanckshadgoneout,toLittleDorrit,risingfromthecarpet。Withherchindroopingmoreheavilyonherhand,andhereyesvigilantandlowering,thesickwomansatlookingatheruntilsheattractedherattention。LittleDorritcolouredundersuchagaze,andlookeddown。MrsClennamstillsatintent。
’LittleDorrit,’shesaid,whensheatlastbrokesilence,’whatdoyouknowofthatman?’
’Idon’tknowanythingofhim,ma’am,exceptthatIhaveseenhimabout,andthathehasspokentome。’
’Whathashesaidtoyou?’
’Idon’tunderstandwhathehassaid,heissostrange。Butnothingroughordisagreeable。’
’Whydoeshecomeheretoseeyou?’
’Idon’tknow,ma’am,’saidLittleDorrit,withperfectfrankness。
’Youknowthathedoescomeheretoseeyou?’
’Ihavefanciedso,’saidLittleDorrit。’Butwhyheshouldcomehereoranywhereforthat,ma’am,Ican’tthink。’
MrsClennamcasthereyestowardstheground,andwithherstrong,setface,asintentuponasubjectinhermindasithadlatelybeenupontheformthatseemedtopassoutofherview,satabsorbed。Someminuteselapsedbeforeshecameoutofthisthoughtfulness,andresumedherhardcomposure。
LittleDorritinthemeanwhilehadbeenwaitingtogo,butafraidtodisturbherbymoving。Shenowventuredtoleavethespotwhereshehadbeenstandingsinceshehadrisen,andtopassgentlyroundbythewheeledchair。Shestoppedatitssidetosay’Goodnight,ma’am。’
MrsClennamputoutherhand,andlaiditonherarm。LittleDorrit,confusedunderthetouch,stoodfaltering。PerhapssomemomentaryrecollectionofthestoryofthePrincessmayhavebeeninhermind。
’Tellme,LittleDorrit,’saidMrsClennam,’haveyoumanyfriendsnow?’
’Veryfew,ma’am。Besidesyou,onlyMissFloraand——onemore。’
’Meaning,’saidMrsClennam,withherunbentfingeragainpointingtothedoor,’thatman?’
’Ohno,ma’am!’
’Somefriendofhis,perhaps?’
’Noma’am。’LittleDorritearnestlyshookherhead。’Ohno!Nooneatalllikehim,orbelongingtohim。’
’Well!’saidMrsClennam,almostsmiling。’Itisnoaffairofmine。Iask,becauseItakeaninterestinyou;andbecauseI
believeIwasyourfriendwhenyouhadnootherwhocouldserveyou。Isthatso?’
’Yes,ma’am;indeeditis。Ihavebeenheremanyatimewhen,butforyouandtheworkyougaveme,weshouldhavewantedeverything。’
’We,’repeatedMrsClennam,lookingtowardsthewatch,onceherdeadhusband’s,whichalwayslayuponhertable。’Aretheremanyofyou?’
’OnlyfatherandI,now。Imean,onlyfatherandItokeepregularlyoutofwhatweget。’
’Haveyouundergonemanyprivations?Youandyourfatherandwhoelsetheremaybeofyou?’askedMrsClennam,speakingdeliberately,andmeditativelyturningthewatchoverandover。
’Sometimesithasbeenratherhardtolive,’saidLittleDorrit,inhersoftvoice,andtimiduncomplainingway;’butIthinknotharder——astothat——thanmanypeoplefindit。’
’That’swellsaid!’MrsClennamquicklyreturned。’That’sthetruth!Youareagood,thoughtfulgirl。Youareagratefulgirltoo,orImuchmistakeyou。’
’Itisonlynaturaltobethat。Thereisnomeritinbeingthat,’
saidLittleDorrit。’Iamindeed。’
MrsClennam,withagentlenessofwhichthedreamingAfferyhadneverdreamedhertobecapable,drewdownthefaceofherlittleseamstress,andkissedherontheforehead。’Nowgo,LittleDorrit,’saidshe,’oryouwillbelate,poorchild!’
InallthedreamsMistressAfferyhadbeenpilingupsinceshefirstbecamedevotedtothepursuit,shehaddreamednothingmoreastonishingthanthis。HerheadachedwiththeideathatshewouldfindtheothercleveronekissingLittleDorritnext,andthenthetwocleveronesembracingeachotheranddissolvingintotearsoftendernessforallmankind。Theideaquitestunnedher,assheattendedthelightfootstepsdownthestairs,thatthehousedoormightbesafelyshut。
OnopeningittoletLittleDorritout,shefoundMrPancks,insteadofhavinggonehisway,asinanylesswonderfulplaceandamonglesswonderfulphenomenahemighthavebeenreasonablyexpectedtodo,flutteringupanddownthecourtoutsidethehouse。
ThemomenthesawLittleDorrit,hepassedherbriskly,saidwithhisfingertohisnoseasMrsAfferydistinctlyheard,’Pancksthegipsy,fortune-telling,’andwentaway。’Lordsaveus,here’sagipsyandafortune-tellerinitnow!’criedMistressAffery。
’Whatnext!Shestoodattheopendoor,staggeringherselfwiththisenigma,onarainy,thunderyevening。Thecloudswereflyingfast,andthewindwascomingupingusts,bangingsomeneighbouringshuttersthathadbrokenloose,twirlingtherustychimney-cowlsandweather-cocks,andrushingroundandroundaconfinedadjacentchurchyardasifithadamindtoblowthedeadcitizensoutoftheirgraves。Thelowthunder,mutteringinallquartersoftheskyatonce,seemedtothreatenvengeanceforthisattempteddesecration,andtomutter,’Letthemrest!Letthemrest!’
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