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第70章

  MrsFlintwinchgoesonDreamingThehouseinthecitypreserveditsheavydulnessthroughallthesetransactions,andtheinvalidwithinitturnedthesameunvaryingroundoflife。Morning,noon,andnight,morning,noon,andnight,eachrecurringwithitsaccompanyingmonotony,alwaysthesamereluctantreturnofthesamesequencesofmachinery,likeadraggingpieceofclockwork。
  Thewheeledchairhaditsassociatedremembrancesandreveries,onemaysuppose,aseveryplacethatismadethestationofahumanbeinghas。Picturesofdemolishedstreetsandalteredhouses,astheyformerlywerewhentheoccupantofthechairwasfamiliarwiththem,imagesofpeopleastheytoousedtobe,withlittleornoallowancemadeforthelapseoftimesincetheywereseen;ofthese,theremusthavebeenmanyinthelongroutineofgloomydays。Tostoptheclockofbusyexistenceatthehourwhenwewerepersonallysequesteredfromit,tosupposemankindstrickenmotionlesswhenwewerebroughttoastand-still,tobeunabletomeasurethechangesbeyondourviewbyanylargerstandardthantheshrunkenoneofourownuniformandcontractedexistence,istheinfirmityofmanyinvalids,andthementalunhealthinessofalmostallrecluses。
  Whatscenesandactorsthesternwomanmostreviewed,asshesatfromseasontoseasoninheronedarkroom,noneknewbutherself。
  MrFlintwinch,withhiswrypresencebroughttobearuponherdailylikesomeeccentricmechanicalforce,wouldperhapshavescreweditoutofher,iftherehadbeenlessresistanceinher;butshewastoostrongforhim。SofarasMistressAfferywasconcerned,toregardherliege-lordandherdisabledmistresswithafaceofblankwonder,togoaboutthehouseafterdarkwithherapronoverherhead,alwaystolistenforthestrangenoisesandsometimestohearthem,andnevertoemergefromherghostly,dreamy,sleep-
  wakingstate,wasoccupationenoughforher。
  Therewasafairstrokeofbusinessdoing,asMistressAfferymadeout,forherhusbandhadabundantoccupationinhislittleoffice,andsawmorepeoplethanhadbeenusedtocomethereforsomeyears。Thismighteasilybe,thehousehavingbeenlongdeserted;
  buthedidreceiveletters,andcomers,andkeepbooks,andcorrespond。Moreover,hewentabouttoothercounting-houses,andtowharves,anddocks,andtotheCustomHouse,’andtoGarraway’sCoffeeHouse,andtheJerusalemCoffeeHouse,andon’Change;sothathewasmuchinandout。Hebegan,too,sometimesofanevening,whenMrsClennamexpressednoparticularwishforhissociety,toresorttoatavernintheneighbourhoodtolookattheshippingnewsandclosingpricesintheeveningpaper,andeventoexchangeSmallsocialitieswithmercantileSeaCaptainswhofrequentedthatestablishment。Atsomeperiodofeveryday,heandMrsClennamheldacouncilonmattersofbusiness;anditappearedtoAffery,whowasalwaysgropingabout,listeningandwatching,thatthetwocleveronesweremakingmoney。
  ThestateofmindintowhichMrFlintwinch’sdazedladyhadfallen,hadnowbeguntobesoexpressedinallherlooksandactionsthatshewasheldinverylowaccountbythetwocleverones,asaperson,neverofstrongintellect,whowasbecomingfoolish。
  Perhapsbecauseherappearancewasnotofacommercialcast,orperhapsbecauseitoccurredtohimthathishavingtakenhertowifemightexposehisjudgmenttodoubtinthemindsofcustomers,MrFlintwinchlaidhiscommandsuponherthatsheshouldholdherpeaceonthesubjectofherconjugalrelations,andshouldnolongercallhimJeremiahoutofthedomestictrio。Herfrequentforgetfulnessofthisadmonitionintensifiedherstartledmanner,sinceMrFlintwinch’shabitofavenginghimselfonherremissnessbymakingspringsafterheronthestaircase,andshakingher,occasionedhertobealwaysnervouslyuncertainwhenshemightbethuswaylaidnext。
  LittleDorrithadfinishedalongday’sworkinMrsClennam’sroom,andwasneatlygatheringuphershredsandoddsandendsbeforegoinghome。MrPancks,whomAfferyhadjustshownin,wasaddressinganinquirytoMrsClennamonthesubjectofherhealth,coupledwiththeremarkthat,’happeningtofindhimselfinthatdirection,’hehadlookedintoinquire,onbehalfofhisproprietor,howshefoundherself。MrsClennam,withadeepcontractionofherbrows,waslookingathim。
  ’MrCasbyknows,’saidshe,’thatIamnotsubjecttochanges。ThechangethatIawaithereisthegreatchange。’
  ’Indeed,ma’am?’returnedMrPancks,withawanderingeyetowardsthefigureofthelittleseamstressonherkneepickingthreadsandfrayingofherworkfromthecarpet。’Youlooknicely,ma’am。’
  ’IbearwhatIhavetobear,’sheanswered。’Doyouwhatyouhavetodo。’
  ’Thankyou,ma’am,’saidMrPancks,’suchismyendeavour。’
  ’Youareofteninthisdirection,areyounot?’askedMrsClennam。
  ’Why,yes,ma’am,’saidPancks,’rathersolately;Ihavelatelybeenroundthiswayagooddeal,owingtoonethingandanother。’
  ’BegMrCasbyandhisdaughternottotroublethemselves,bydeputy,aboutme。Whentheywishtoseeme,theyknowIamheretoseethem。Theyhavenoneedtotroublethemselvestosend。Youhavenoneedtotroubleyourselftocome。’
  ’Nottheleasttrouble,ma’am,’saidMrPancks。’Youreallyarelookinguncommonlynicely,ma’am。’
  ’Thankyou。Goodevening。’
  Thedismissal,anditsaccompanyingfingerpointedstraightatthedoor,wassocurtanddirectthatMrPancksdidnotseehiswaytoprolonghisvisit。Hestirreduphishairwithhissprightliestexpression,glancedatthelittlefigureagain,said’Goodevening,ma’am;don’tcomedown,MrsAffery,Iknowtheroadtothedoor,’
  andsteamedout。MrsClennam,herchinrestingonherhand,followedhimwithattentiveanddarklydistrustfuleyes;andAfferystoodlookingatherasifshewerespell-bound。
  Slowlyandthoughtfully,MrsClennam’seyesturnedfromthedoorbywhichPanckshadgoneout,toLittleDorrit,risingfromthecarpet。Withherchindroopingmoreheavilyonherhand,andhereyesvigilantandlowering,thesickwomansatlookingatheruntilsheattractedherattention。LittleDorritcolouredundersuchagaze,andlookeddown。MrsClennamstillsatintent。
  ’LittleDorrit,’shesaid,whensheatlastbrokesilence,’whatdoyouknowofthatman?’
  ’Idon’tknowanythingofhim,ma’am,exceptthatIhaveseenhimabout,andthathehasspokentome。’
  ’Whathashesaidtoyou?’
  ’Idon’tunderstandwhathehassaid,heissostrange。Butnothingroughordisagreeable。’
  ’Whydoeshecomeheretoseeyou?’
  ’Idon’tknow,ma’am,’saidLittleDorrit,withperfectfrankness。
  ’Youknowthathedoescomeheretoseeyou?’
  ’Ihavefanciedso,’saidLittleDorrit。’Butwhyheshouldcomehereoranywhereforthat,ma’am,Ican’tthink。’
  MrsClennamcasthereyestowardstheground,andwithherstrong,setface,asintentuponasubjectinhermindasithadlatelybeenupontheformthatseemedtopassoutofherview,satabsorbed。Someminuteselapsedbeforeshecameoutofthisthoughtfulness,andresumedherhardcomposure。
  LittleDorritinthemeanwhilehadbeenwaitingtogo,butafraidtodisturbherbymoving。Shenowventuredtoleavethespotwhereshehadbeenstandingsinceshehadrisen,andtopassgentlyroundbythewheeledchair。Shestoppedatitssidetosay’Goodnight,ma’am。’
  MrsClennamputoutherhand,andlaiditonherarm。LittleDorrit,confusedunderthetouch,stoodfaltering。PerhapssomemomentaryrecollectionofthestoryofthePrincessmayhavebeeninhermind。
  ’Tellme,LittleDorrit,’saidMrsClennam,’haveyoumanyfriendsnow?’
  ’Veryfew,ma’am。Besidesyou,onlyMissFloraand——onemore。’
  ’Meaning,’saidMrsClennam,withherunbentfingeragainpointingtothedoor,’thatman?’
  ’Ohno,ma’am!’
  ’Somefriendofhis,perhaps?’
  ’Noma’am。’LittleDorritearnestlyshookherhead。’Ohno!Nooneatalllikehim,orbelongingtohim。’
  ’Well!’saidMrsClennam,almostsmiling。’Itisnoaffairofmine。Iask,becauseItakeaninterestinyou;andbecauseI
  believeIwasyourfriendwhenyouhadnootherwhocouldserveyou。Isthatso?’
  ’Yes,ma’am;indeeditis。Ihavebeenheremanyatimewhen,butforyouandtheworkyougaveme,weshouldhavewantedeverything。’
  ’We,’repeatedMrsClennam,lookingtowardsthewatch,onceherdeadhusband’s,whichalwayslayuponhertable。’Aretheremanyofyou?’
  ’OnlyfatherandI,now。Imean,onlyfatherandItokeepregularlyoutofwhatweget。’
  ’Haveyouundergonemanyprivations?Youandyourfatherandwhoelsetheremaybeofyou?’askedMrsClennam,speakingdeliberately,andmeditativelyturningthewatchoverandover。
  ’Sometimesithasbeenratherhardtolive,’saidLittleDorrit,inhersoftvoice,andtimiduncomplainingway;’butIthinknotharder——astothat——thanmanypeoplefindit。’
  ’That’swellsaid!’MrsClennamquicklyreturned。’That’sthetruth!Youareagood,thoughtfulgirl。Youareagratefulgirltoo,orImuchmistakeyou。’
  ’Itisonlynaturaltobethat。Thereisnomeritinbeingthat,’
  saidLittleDorrit。’Iamindeed。’
  MrsClennam,withagentlenessofwhichthedreamingAfferyhadneverdreamedhertobecapable,drewdownthefaceofherlittleseamstress,andkissedherontheforehead。’Nowgo,LittleDorrit,’saidshe,’oryouwillbelate,poorchild!’
  InallthedreamsMistressAfferyhadbeenpilingupsinceshefirstbecamedevotedtothepursuit,shehaddreamednothingmoreastonishingthanthis。HerheadachedwiththeideathatshewouldfindtheothercleveronekissingLittleDorritnext,andthenthetwocleveronesembracingeachotheranddissolvingintotearsoftendernessforallmankind。Theideaquitestunnedher,assheattendedthelightfootstepsdownthestairs,thatthehousedoormightbesafelyshut。
  OnopeningittoletLittleDorritout,shefoundMrPancks,insteadofhavinggonehisway,asinanylesswonderfulplaceandamonglesswonderfulphenomenahemighthavebeenreasonablyexpectedtodo,flutteringupanddownthecourtoutsidethehouse。
  ThemomenthesawLittleDorrit,hepassedherbriskly,saidwithhisfingertohisnoseasMrsAfferydistinctlyheard,’Pancksthegipsy,fortune-telling,’andwentaway。’Lordsaveus,here’sagipsyandafortune-tellerinitnow!’criedMistressAffery。
  ’Whatnext!Shestoodattheopendoor,staggeringherselfwiththisenigma,onarainy,thunderyevening。Thecloudswereflyingfast,andthewindwascomingupingusts,bangingsomeneighbouringshuttersthathadbrokenloose,twirlingtherustychimney-cowlsandweather-cocks,andrushingroundandroundaconfinedadjacentchurchyardasifithadamindtoblowthedeadcitizensoutoftheirgraves。Thelowthunder,mutteringinallquartersoftheskyatonce,seemedtothreatenvengeanceforthisattempteddesecration,andtomutter,’Letthemrest!Letthemrest!’