ButhereagainshewasundeceivedbyanomalousandincongruousconductonthepartofMrPanckshimself。Shehadleftthetablehalfanhour,andwasatworkalone。Florahad’gonetoliedown’
inthenextroom,concurrentlywithwhichretirementasmellofsomethingtodrinkhadbrokenoutinthehouse。ThePatriarchwasfastasleep,withhisphilanthropicmouthopenunderayellowpocket-handkerchiefinthedining-room。Atthisquiettime,MrPanckssoftlyappearedbeforeher,urbanelynodding。
’Finditalittledull,MissDorrit?’inquiredPancksinalowvoice。
’No,thankyou,sir,’saidLittleDorrit。
’Busy,Isee,’observedMrPancks,stealingintotheroombyinches。’Whatarethosenow,MissDorrit?’
’Handkerchiefs。’
’Arethey,though!’saidPancks。’Ishouldn’thavethoughtit。’
Notintheleastlookingatthem,butlookingatLittleDorrit。
’PerhapsyouwonderwhoIam。ShallItellyou?Iamafortune-
teller。’
LittleDorritnowbegantothinkhewasmad。
’Ibelongbodyandsoultomyproprietor,’saidPancks;’yousawmyproprietorhavinghisdinnerbelow。ButIdoalittleintheotherway,sometimes;privately,veryprivately,MissDorrit。’
LittleDorritlookedathimdoubtfully,andnotwithoutalarm。
’Iwishyou’dshowmethepalmofyourhand,’saidPancks。’I
shouldliketohavealookatit。Don’tletmebetroublesome。’
Hewassofartroublesomethathewasnotatallwantedthere,butshelaidherworkinherlapforamoment,andheldoutherlefthandwithherthimbleonit。
’Yearsoftoil,eh?’saidPancks,softly,touchingitwithhisbluntforefinger。’Butwhatelsearewemadefor?Nothing。
Hallo!’lookingintothelines。’What’sthiswithbars?It’saCollege!Andwhat’sthiswithagreygownandablackvelvetcap?
it’safather!Andwhat’sthiswithaclarionet?It’sanuncle!
Andwhat’sthisindancing-shoes?It’sasister!Andwhat’sthisstragglingaboutinanidlesortofaway?It’sabrother!Andwhat’sthisthinkingfor’emall?Why,thisisyou,MissDorrit!’
Hereyesmethisasshelookedupwonderinglyintohisface,andshethoughtthatalthoughhisweresharpeyes,hewasabrighterandgentler-lookingmanthanshehadsupposedatdinner。Hiseyeswereonherhandagaindirectly,andheropportunityofconfirmingorcorrectingtheimpressionwasgone。
’Now,thedeuceisinit,’mutteredPancks,tracingoutalineinherhandwithhisclumsyfinger,’ifthisisn’tmeinthecornerhere!WhatdoIwanthere?What’sbehindme?’
Hecarriedhisfingerslowlydowntothewrist,androundthewrist,andaffectedtolookatthebackofthehandforwhatwasbehindhim。
’Isitanyharm?’askedLittleDorrit,smiling。
’Deuceabit!’saidPancks。’Whatdoyouthinkit’sworth?’
’Ioughttoaskyouthat。Iamnotthefortune-teller。’
’True,’saidPancks。’What’sitworth?Youshalllivetosee,MissDorrit。’
Releasingthehandbyslowdegrees,hedrewallhisfingersthroughhisprongsofhair,sothattheystoodupintheirmostportentousmanner;andrepeatedslowly,’RememberwhatIsay,MissDorrit。
Youshalllivetosee。’
Shecouldnothelpshowingthatshewasmuchsurprised,ifitwereonlybyhisknowingsomuchabouther。
’Ah!That’sit!’saidPancks,pointingather。’MissDorrit,notthat,ever!’
Moresurprisedthanbefore,andalittlemorefrightened,shelookedtohimforanexplanationofhislastwords。
’Notthat,’saidPancks,making,withgreatseriousness,animitationofasurprisedlookandmannerthatappearedtobeunintentionallygrotesque。’Don’tdothat。Neveronseeingme,nomatterwhen,nomatterwhere。Iamnobody。Don’ttakeontomindme。Don’tmentionme。Takenonotice。Willyouagree,MissDorrit?’
’Ihardlyknowwhattosay,’returnedLittleDorrit,quiteastounded。’Why?’
’BecauseIamafortune-teller。Pancksthegipsy。Ihaven’ttoldyousomuchofyourfortuneyet,MissDorrit,astotellyouwhat’sbehindmeonthatlittlehand。Ihavetoldyouyoushalllivetosee。Isitagreed,MissDorrit?’
’AgreedthatI——am——to——’
’Totakenonoticeofmeawayfromhere,unlessItakeonfirst。
NottomindmewhenIcomeandgo。It’sveryeasy。Iamnoloss,Iamnothandsome,Iamnotgoodcompany,Iamonlymyproprietorsgrubber。Youneeddonomorethanthink,“Ah!Pancksthegipsyathisfortune-telling——he’lltelltherestofmyfortuneoneday——I
shalllivetoknowit。“Isitagreed,MissDorrit?’
’Ye-es,’falteredLittleDorrit,whomhegreatlyconfused,’I
supposeso,whileyoudonoharm。’
’Good!’MrPancksglancedatthewalloftheadjoiningroom,andstoopedforward。’Honestcreature,womanofcapitalpoints,butheedlessandaloosetalker,MissDorrit。’Withthatherubbedhishandsasiftheinterviewhadbeenverysatisfactorytohim,pantedawaytothedoor,andurbanelynoddedhimselfoutagain。
IfLittleDorritwerebeyondmeasureperplexedbythiscuriousconductonthepartofhernewacquaintance,andbyfindingherselfinvolvedinthissingulartreaty,herperplexitywasnotdiminishedbyensuingcircumstances。BesidesthatMrPanckstookeveryopportunityaffordedhiminMrCasby’shouseofsignificantlyglancingatherandsnortingather——whichwasnotmuch,afterwhathehaddonealready——hebegantopervadeherdailylife。Shesawhiminthestreet,constantly。WhenshewenttoMrCasby’s,hewasalwaysthere。WhenshewenttoMrsClennam’s,hecamethereonanypretence,asiftokeepherinhissight。Aweekhadnotgoneby,whenshefoundhimtoherastonishmentintheLodgeonenight,conversingwiththeturnkeyonduty,andtoallappearanceoneofhisfamiliarcompanions。Hernextsurprisewastofindhimequallyathiseasewithintheprison;tohearofhispresentinghimselfamongthevisitorsatherfather’sSundaylevee;toseehimarminarmwithaCollegiatefriendabouttheyard;tolearn,fromFame,thathehadgreatlydistinguishedhimselfoneeveningatthesocialclubthathelditsmeetingsintheSnuggery,byaddressingaspeechtothemembersoftheinstitution,singingasong,andtreatingthecompanytofivegallonsofale——reportmadlyaddedabushelofshrimps。TheeffectonMrPlornishofsuchofthesephenomenaashebecameaneye-witnessofinhisfaithfulvisits,madeanimpressiononLittleDorritonlysecondtothatproducedbythephenomenathemselves。Theyseemedtogagandbindhim。Hecouldonlystare,andsometimesweaklymutterthatitwouldn’tbebelieveddownBleedingHeartYardthatthiswasPancks;butheneversaidawordmore,ormadeasignmore,eventoLittleDorrit。
MrPanckscrownedhismysteriesbymakinghimselfacquaintedwithTipinsomeunknownmanner,andtakingaSundaysaunterintotheCollegeonthatgentleman’sarm。ThroughouthenevertookanynoticeofLittleDorrit,saveonceortwicewhenhehappenedtocomeclosetoherandtherewasnooneverynear;onwhichoccasions,hesaidinpassing,withafriendlylookandapuffofencouragement,’Pancksthegipsy——fortune-telling。’
LittleDorritworkedandstroveasusual,wonderingatallthis,butkeepingherwonder,asshehadfromherearliestyearskeptmanyheavierloads,inherownbreast。Achangehadstolen,andwasstealingyet,overthepatientheart。Everydayfoundhersomethingmoreretiringthanthedaybefore。Topassinandoutoftheprisonunnoticed,andelsewheretobeoverlookedandforgotten,were,forherself,herchiefdesires。
Toherownroomtoo,strangelyassortedroomforherdelicateyouthandcharacter,shewasgladtoretreatasoftenasshecouldwithoutdesertionofanyduty。Therewereafternoontimeswhenshewasunemployed,whenvisitorsdroppedintoplayahandatcardswithherfather,whenshecouldbesparedandwasbetteraway。
Thenshewouldflitalongtheyard,climbthescoresofstairsthatledtoherroom,andtakeherseatatthewindow。Manycombinationsdidthosespikesuponthewallassume,manylightshapesdidthestrongironweaveitselfinto,manygoldentouchesfellupontherust,whileLittleDorritsattheremusing。Newzig-
zagssprungintothecruelpatternsometimes,whenshesawitthroughaburstoftears;butbeautifiedorhardenedstill,alwaysoveritandunderitandthroughit,shewasfaintolookinhersolitude,seeingeverythingwiththatineffaceablebrand。
Agarret,andaMarshalseagarretwithoutcompromise,wasLittleDorrit’sroom。Beautifullykept,itwasuglyinitself,andhadlittlebutcleanlinessandairtosetitoff;forwhatembellishmentshehadeverbeenabletobuy,hadgonetoherfather’sroom。Howbeit,forthispoorplacesheshowedanincreasinglove;andtositinitalonebecameherfavouriterest。
Insomuch,thatonacertainafternoonduringthePancksmysteries,whenshewasseatedatherwindow,andheardMaggy’swell-knownstepcomingupthestairs,shewasverymuchdisturbedbytheapprehensionofbeingsummonedaway。AsMaggy’sstepcamehigherupandnearer,shetrembledandfaltered;anditwasasmuchasshecoulddotospeak,whenMaggyatlengthappeared。
’Please,LittleMother,’saidMaggy,pantingforbreath,’youmustcomedownandseehim。He’shere。’
’Who,Maggy?’
’Who,o’courseMrClennam。He’sinyourfather’sroom,andhesaystome,Maggy,willyoubesokindandgoandsayit’sonlyme。’
’Iamnotverywell,Maggy。Ihadbetternotgo。Iamgoingtoliedown。See!Iliedownnow,toeasemyhead。Say,withmygratefulregard,thatyouleftmeso,orIwouldhavecome。’
’Well,itan’tverypolitethough,LittleMother,’saidthestaringMaggy,’toturnyourfaceaway,neither!’
Maggywasverysusceptibletopersonalslights,andveryingeniousininventingthem。’Puttingbothyourhandsaforeyourfacetoo!’
shewenton。’Ifyoucan’tbearthelooksofapoorthing,itwouldbebettertotellhersoatonce,andnotgoandshutheroutlikethat,hurtingherfeelingsandbreakingherheartattenyearold,poorthing!’
’It’stoeasemyhead,Maggy。’
’Well,andifyoucrytoeaseyourhead,LittleMother,letmecrytoo。Don’tgoandhaveallthecryingtoyourself,’expostulatedMaggy,’thatan’tnotbeinggreedy。’Andimmediatelybegantoblubber。
Itwaswithsomedifficultythatshecouldbeinducedtogobackwiththeexcuse;butthepromiseofbeingtoldastory——ofoldhergreatdelight——onconditionthatsheconcentratedherfacultiesupontheerrandandleftherlittlemistresstoherselfforanhourlonger,combinedwithamisgivingonMaggy’spartthatshehadlefthergoodtemperatthebottomofthestaircase,prevailed。Soawayshewent,mutteringhermessageallthewaytokeepitinhermind,and,attheappointedtime,cameback。
第59章