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第58章

  ’OhnonsensemydearchildIcanneverhearofthat,’saidFlora,turningontheurninthemostrecklessmanner,andmakingherselfwinkbysplashinghotwaterintohereyesasshebentdowntolookintotheteapot。’YouarecominghereonthefootingofafriendandcompanionyouknowifyouwillletmetakethatlibertyandI
  shouldbeashamedofmyselfindeedifyoucouldcomehereuponanyother,besideswhichArthurClennamspokeinsuchterms——youaretiredmydear。’
  ’No,ma’am。’
  ’YouturnsopaleyouhavewalkedtoofarbeforebreakfastandI
  daresayliveagreatwayoffandoughttohavehadaride,’saidFlora,’deardearisthereanythingthatwoulddoyougood?’
  ’IndeedIamquitewell,ma’am。Ithankyouagainandagain,butIamquitewell。’
  ’ThentakeyourteaatonceIbeg,’saidFlora,’andthiswingoffowlandbitofham,don’tmindmeorwaitforme,becauseIalwayscarryinthistraymyselftoMrF。’sAuntwhobreakfastsinbedandacharmingoldladytooandveryclever,PortraitofMrF。behindthedoorandverylikethoughtoomuchforeheadandastoapillarwithamarblepavementandbalustradesandamountain,Ineversawhimnearitnornotlikelyinthewinetrade,excellentmanbutnotatallinthatway。’
  LittleDorritglancedattheportrait,veryimperfectlyfollowingthereferencestothatworkofart。
  ’MrF。wassodevotedtomethathenevercouldbearmeoutofhissight,’saidFlora,’thoughofcourseIamunabletosayhowlongthatmighthavelastedifhehadn’tbeencutshortwhileIwasanewbroom,worthymanbutnotpoeticalmanlyprosebutnotromance。’
  LittleDorritglancedattheportraitagain。Theartisthadgivenitaheadthatwouldhavebeen,inanintellectualpointofview,top-heavyforShakespeare。
  ’Romance,however,’Florawenton,busilyarrangingMrF。’sAunt’stoast,’asIopenlysaidtoMrF。whenheproposedtomeandyouwillbesurprisedtohearthatheproposedseventimesonceinahackney-coachonceinaboatonceinapewonceonadonkeyatTunbridgeWellsandtherestonhisknees,RomancewasfledwiththeearlydaysofArthurClennam,ourparentstoreusasunderwebecamemarbleandsternrealityusurpedthethrone,MrF。saidverymuchtohiscreditthathewasperfectlyawareofitandevenpreferredthatstateofthingsaccordinglythewordwasspokenthefiatwentforthandsuchislifeyouseemydearandyetwedonotbreakbutbend,praymakeagoodbreakfastwhileIgoinwiththetray。’
  Shedisappeared,leavingLittleDorrittoponderoverthemeaningofherscatteredwords。Shesooncamebackagain;andatlastbegantotakeherownbreakfast,talkingallthewhile。
  ’Yousee,mydear,’saidFlora,measuringoutaspoonfulortwoofsomebrownliquidthatsmeltlikebrandy,andputtingitintohertea,’IamobligedtobecarefultofollowthedirectionsofmymedicalmanthoughtheflavourisanythingbutagreeablebeingapoorcreatureanditmaybehaveneverrecoveredtheshockreceivedinyouthfromtoomuchgivingwaytocryinginthenextroomwhenseparatedfromArthur,haveyouknownhimlong?’
  AssoonasLittleDorritcomprehendedthatshehadbeenaskedthisquestion——forwhichtimewasnecessary,thegallopingpaceofhernewpatronesshavingleftherfarbehind——sheansweredthatshehadknownMrClennameversincehisreturn。
  ’Tobesureyoucouldn’thaveknownhimbeforeunlessyouhadbeeninChinaorhadcorrespondedneitherofwhichislikely,’returnedFlora,’fortravelling-peopleusuallygetmoreorlessmahoganyandyouarenotatallsoandastocorrespondingwhatabout?that’sverytrueunlesstea,soitwasathismother’swasitreallythatyouknewhimfirst,highlysensibleandfirmbutdreadfullysevere——oughttobethemotherofthemanintheironmask。“
  ’MrsClennamhasbeenkindtome,’saidLittleDorrit。
  ’Really?IamsureIamgladtohearitbecauseasArthur’smotherit’snaturallypleasanttomyfeelingstohaveabetteropinionofherthanIhadbefore,thoughwhatshethinksofmewhenIrunonasIamcertaintodoandshesitsgloweringatmelikeFateinago-cart——shockingcomparisonreally——invalidandnotherfault——I
  neverknoworcanimagine。’
  ’ShallIfindmyworkanywhere,ma’am?’askedLittleDorrit,lookingtimidlyabout;’canIgetit?’
  ’Youindustriouslittlefairy,’returnedFlora,taking,inanothercupoftea,anotherofthedosesprescribedbyhermedicalman,’there’snottheslightesthurryandit’sbetterthatweshouldbeginbybeingconfidentialaboutourmutualfriend——toocoldawordformeatleastIdon’tmeanthat,veryproperexpressionmutualfriend——thanbecomethroughmereformalitiesnotyoubutmeliketheSpartanboywiththefoxbitinghim,whichIhopeyou’llexcusemybringingupforofallthetiresomeboysthatwillgotumblingintoeverysortofcompanythatboy’sthetiresomest。’
  LittleDorrit,herfaceverypale,satdownagaintolisten。
  ’Hadn’tIbetterworkthewhile?’sheasked。’Icanworkandattendtoo。Iwouldrather,ifImay。’
  Herearnestnesswassoexpressiveofherbeinguneasywithoutherwork,thatFloraanswered,’Wellmydearwhateveryoulikebest,’
  andproducedabasketofwhitehandkerchiefs。LittleDorritgladlyputitbyherside,tookoutherlittlepocket-housewife,threadedtheneedle,andbegantohem。
  ’Whatnimblefingersyouhave,’saidFlora,’butareyousureyouarewell?’
  ’Ohyes,indeed!’
  Floraputherfeetuponthefender,andsettledherselfforathoroughgoodromanticdisclosure。Shestartedoffatscore,tossingherhead,sighinginthemostdemonstrativemanner,makingagreatdealofuseofhereyebrows,andoccasionally,butnotoften,glancingatthequietfacethatbentoverthework。
  ’Youmustknowmydear,’saidFlora,’butthatIhavenodoubtyouknowalreadynotonlybecauseIhavealreadythrownitoutinageneralwaybutbecauseIfeelIcarryitstampedinburningwhat’shisnamesuponmybrowthatbeforeIwasintroducedtothelateMrF。IhadbeenengagedtoArthurClennam——MrClennaminpublicwherereserveisnecessaryArthurhere——wewereallinalltooneanotheritwasthemorningoflifeitwasblissitwasfrenzyitwaseverythingelseofthatsortinthehighestdegree,whenrentasunderweturnedtostoneinwhichcapacityArthurwenttoChinaandIbecamethestatuebrideofthelateMrF。’
  Flora,utteringthesewordsinadeepvoice,enjoyedherselfimmensely。
  ’Topaint,’saidshe,’theemotionsofthatmorningwhenallwasmarblewithinandMrF。’sAuntfollowedinaglass-coachwhichitstandstoreasonmusthavebeeninshamefulrepairoritnevercouldhavebrokendowntwostreetsfromthehouseandMrF。’sAuntbroughthomelikethefifthofNovemberinarush-bottomedchairI
  willnotattempt,sufficeittosaythatthehollowformofbreakfasttookplaceinthedining-roomdownstairsthatpapapartakingtoofreelyofpickledsalmonwasillforweeksandthatMrF。andmyselfwentuponacontinentaltourtoCalaiswherethepeoplefoughtforusonthepieruntiltheyseparatedusthoughnotforeverthatwasnotyettobe。’
  Thestatuebride,hardlypausingforbreath,wenton,withthegreatestcomplacency,inaramblingmannersometimesincidentaltofleshandblood。
  ’Iwilldrawaveiloverthatdreamylife,MrF。wasingoodspiritshisappetitewasgoodhelikedthecookeryheconsideredthewineweakbutpalatableandallwaswell,wereturnedtotheimmediateneighbourhoodofNumberThirtyLittleGoslingStreetLondonDocksandsettleddown,erewehadyetfullydetectedthehousemaidinsellingthefeathersoutofthesparebedGoutflyingupwardssoaredwithMrF。toanothersphere。’
  Hisrelict,withaglanceathisportrait,shookherheadandwipedhereyes。
  ’IreverethememoryofMrF。asanestimablemanandmostindulgenthusband,onlynecessarytomentionAsparagusanditappearedortohintatanylittledelicatethingtodrinkanditcamelikemagicinapintbottleitwasnotecstasybutitwascomfort,Ireturnedtopapa’sroofandlivedsecludedifnothappyduringsomeyearsuntilonedaypapacamesmoothlyblunderinginandsaidthatArthurClennamawaitedmebelow,IwentbelowandfoundhimaskmenotwhatIfoundhimexceptthathewasstillunmarriedstillunchanged!’
  ThedarkmysterywithwhichFloranowenshroudedherselfmighthavestoppedotherfingersthanthenimblefingersthatworkednearher。
  Theyworkedonwithoutpause,andthebusyheadbentoverthemwatchingthestitches。
  ’Askmenot,’saidFlora,’ifIlovehimstillorifhestilllovesmeorwhattheendistobeorwhen,wearesurroundedbywatchfuleyesanditmaybethatwearedestinedtopineasunderitmaybenevermoretobereunitednotawordnotabreathnotalooktobetrayusallmustbesecretasthetombwondernotthereforethatevenifIshouldseemcomparativelycoldtoArthurorArthurshouldseemcomparativelycoldtomewehavefatalreasonsitisenoughifweunderstandthemhush!’
  AllofwhichFlorasaidwithsomuchheadlongvehemenceasifshereallybelievedit。Thereisnotmuchdoubtthatwhensheworkedherselfintofullmermaidcondition,shedidactuallybelievewhatevershesaidinit。
  ’Hush!’repeatedFlora,’Ihavenowtoldyouall,confidenceisestablishedbetweenushush,forArthur’ssakeIwillalwaysbeafriendtoyoumydeargirlandinArthur’snameyoumayalwaysrelyuponme。’
  Thenimblefingerslaidasidethework,andthelittlefigureroseandkissedherhand。’Youareverycold,’saidFlora,changingtoherownnaturalkind-heartedmanner,andgaininggreatlybythechange。’Don’tworkto-day。IamsureyouarenotwellIamsureyouarenotstrong。’
  ’ItisonlythatIfeelalittleovercomebyyourkindness,andbyMrClennam’skindnessinconfidingmetoonehehasknownandlovedsolong。’
  ’Wellreallymydear,’saidFlora,whohadadecidedtendencytobealwayshonestwhenshegaveherselftimetothinkaboutit,’it’saswelltoleavethatalonenow,forIcouldn’tundertaketosayafterall,butitdoesn’tsignifyliedownalittle!’
  ’IhavealwaysbeenstrongenoughtodowhatIwanttodo,andI
  shallbequitewelldirectly,’returnedLittleDorrit,withafaintsmile。’Youhaveoverpoweredmewithgratitude,that’sall。IfI
  keepnearthewindowforamomentIshallbequitemyself。’
  Floraopenedawindow,satherinachairbyit,andconsideratelyretiredtoherformerplace。Itwasawindyday,andtheairstirringonLittleDorrit’sfacesoonbrightenedit。Inaveryfewminutesshereturnedtoherbasketofwork,andhernimblefingerswereasnimbleasever。
  Quietlypursuinghertask,sheaskedFloraifMrClennamhadtoldherwhereshelived?WhenFlorarepliedinthenegative,LittleDorritsaidthatsheunderstoodwhyhehadbeensodelicate,butthatshefeltsurehewouldapproveofherconfidinghersecrettoFlora,andthatshewouldthereforedosonowwithFlora’spermission。Receivinganencouraginganswer,shecondensedthenarrativeofherlifeintoafewscantywordsaboutherselfandaglowingeulogyuponherfather;andFloratookitallinwithanaturaltendernessthatquiteunderstoodit,andinwhichtherewasnoincoherence。
  Whendinner-timecame,Floradrewthearmofhernewchargethroughhers,andledherdown-stairs,andpresentedhertothePatriarchandMrPancks,whowerealreadyinthedining-roomwaitingtobegin。MrF。’sAuntwas,forthetime,laidupinordinaryinherchamber。Bythosegentlemenshewasreceivedaccordingtotheircharacters;thePatriarchappearingtodohersomeinestimableserviceinsayingthathewasgladtoseeher,gladtoseeher;andMrPancksblowingoffhisfavouritesoundasasalute。
  Inthatnewpresenceshewouldhavebeenbashfulenoughunderanycircumstances,andparticularlyunderFlora’sinsistingonherdrinkingaglassofwineandeatingofthebestthatwasthere;butherconstraintwasgreatlyincreasedbyMrPancks。Thedemeanourofthatgentlemanatfirstsuggestedtohermindthathemightbeatakeroflikenesses,sointentlydidhelookather,andsofrequentlydidheglanceatthelittlenote-bookbyhisside。
  Observingthathemadenosketch,however,andthathetalkedaboutbusinessonly,shebegantohavesuspicionsthatherepresentedsomecreditorofherfather’s,thebalanceduetowhomwasnotedinthatpocketvolume。RegardedfromthispointofviewMrPancks’spuffingsexpressedinjuryandimpatience,andeachofhisloudersnortsbecameademandforpayment。