Threeo’clock,andhalf-pastthree,andtheyhadpassedoverLondonBridge。Theyhadheardtherushofthetideagainstobstacles;andlookeddown,awed,throughthedarkvapourontheriver;hadseenlittlespotsoflightedwaterwherethebridgelampswerereflected,shininglikedemoneyes,withaterriblefascinationinthemforguiltandmisery。Theyhadshrunkpasthomelesspeople,lyingcoiledupinnooks。Theyhadrunfromdrunkards。Theyhadstartedfromslinkingmen,whistlingandsigningtooneanotheratbyecorners,orrunningawayatfullspeed。Thougheverywheretheleaderandtheguide,LittleDorrit,happyforonceinheryouthfulappearance,feignedtoclingtoandrelyuponMaggy。Andmorethanoncesomevoice,fromamongaknotofbrawlingorprowlingfiguresintheirpath,hadcalledouttotherestto’letthewomanandthechildgoby!’
So,thewomanandthechildhadgoneby,andgoneon,andfivehadsoundedfromthesteeples。Theywerewalkingslowlytowardstheeast,alreadylookingforthefirstpalestreakofday,whenawomancameafterthem。
’Whatareyoudoingwiththechild?’shesaidtoMaggy。
Shewasyoung——fartooyoungtobethere,Heavenknows!——andneitheruglynorwicked-looking。Shespokecoarsely,butwithnonaturallycoarsevoice;therewasevensomethingmusicalinitssound。
’Whatareyoudoingwithyourself?’retortedMaggy,forwantOfabetteranswer。
’Can’tyousee,withoutmytellingyou?’
’Idon’tknowasIcan,’saidMaggy。
’Killingmyself!NowIhaveansweredyou,answerme。Whatareyoudoingwiththechild?’
Thesupposedchildkeptherheaddroopeddown,andkeptherformcloseatMaggy’sside。
’Poorthing!’saidthewoman。’Haveyounofeeling,thatyoukeepheroutinthecruelstreetsatsuchatimeasthis?Haveyounoeyes,thatyoudon’tseehowdelicateandslendersheis?Haveyounosenseyoudon’tlookasifyouhadmuchthatyoudon’ttakemorepityonthiscoldandtremblinglittlehand?’
Shehadsteppedacrosstothatside,andheldthehandbetweenherowntwo,chafingit。’Kissapoorlostcreature,dear,’shesaid,bendingherface,’andtellmewhere’sshetakingyou。’
LittleDorritturnedtowardsher。
’Why,myGod!’shesaid,recoiling,’you’reawoman!’
’Don’tmindthat!’saidLittleDorrit,claspingoneofherhandsthathadsuddenlyreleasedhers。’Iamnotafraidofyou。’
’Thenyouhadbetterbe,’sheanswered。’Haveyounomother?’
’No。’
’Nofather?’
’Yes,averydearone。’
’Gohometohim,andbeafraidofme。Letmego。Goodnight!’
’Imustthankyoufirst;letmespeaktoyouasifIreallywereachild。’
’Youcan’tdoit,’saidthewoman。’Youarekindandinnocent;butyoucan’tlookatmeoutofachild’seyes。Inevershouldhavetouchedyou,butIthoughtthatyouwereachild。’Andwithastrange,wildcry,shewentaway。
Nodayyetinthesky,buttherewasdayintheresoundingstonesofthestreets;inthewaggons,carts,andcoaches;intheworkersgoingtovariousoccupations;intheopeningofearlyshops;inthetrafficatmarkets;inthestiroftheriverside。Therewascomingdayintheflaringlights,withafeeblercolourinthemthantheywouldhavehadatanothertime;comingdayintheincreasedsharpnessoftheair,andtheghastlydyingofthenight。
Theywentbackagaintothegate,intendingtowaittherenowuntilitshouldbeopened;buttheairwassorawandcoldthatLittleDorrit,leadingMaggyaboutinhersleep,keptinmotion。GoingroundbytheChurch,shesawlightsthere,andthedooropen;andwentupthestepsandlookedin。
’Who’sthat?’criedastoutoldman,whowasputtingonanightcapasifheweregoingtobedinavault。
’It’snooneparticular,sir,’saidLittleDorrit。
’Stop!’criedtheman。’Let’shavealookatyou!’
Thiscausedhertoturnbackagainintheactofgoingout,andtopresentherselfandherchargebeforehim。
’Ithoughtso!’saidhe。’IknowYOU。’
’Wehaveoftenseeneachother,’saidLittleDorrit,recognisingthesexton,orthebeadle,ortheverger,orwhateverhewas,’whenIhavebeenatchurchhere。’
’Morethanthat,we’vegotyourbirthinourRegister,youknow;
you’reoneofourcuriosities。’
’Indeed!’saidLittleDorrit。
’Tobesure。Asthechildofthe——by-the-bye,howdidyougetoutsoearly?’
’Wewereshutoutlastnight,andarewaitingtogetin。’
’Youdon’tmeanit?Andthere’sanotherhourgoodyet!Comeintothevestry。You’llfindafireinthevestry,onaccountofthepainters。I’mwaitingforthepainters,orIshouldn’tbehere,youmaydependuponit。Oneofourcuriositiesmustn’tbecoldwhenwehaveitinourpowertowarmherupcomfortable。Comealong。’
Hewasaverygoodoldfellow,inhisfamiliarway;andhavingstirredthevestryfire,helookedroundtheshelvesofregistersforaparticularvolume。’Hereyouare,yousee,’hesaid,takingitdownandturningtheleaves。’Hereyou’llfindyourself,aslargeaslife。Amy,daughterofWilliamandFannyDorrit。Born,MarshalseaPrison,ParishofStGeorge。Andwetellpeoplethatyouhavelivedthere,withoutsomuchasaday’soranight’sabsence,eversince。Isittrue?’
’Quitetrue,tilllastnight。’
’Lord!’ButhissurveyingherwithanadmiringgazesuggestedSomethingelsetohim,towit:’Iamsorrytosee,though,thatyouarefaintandtired。Stayabit。I’llgetsomecushionsoutofthechurch,andyouandyourfriendshallliedownbeforethefire。
Don’tbeafraidofnotgoingintojoinyourfatherwhenthegateopens。I’llcallyou。’
Hesoonbroughtinthecushions,andstrewedthemontheground。
’Thereyouare,yousee。Againaslargeaslife。Oh,nevermindthanking。I’vedaughtersofmyown。Andthoughtheyweren’tbornintheMarshalseaPrison,theymighthavebeen,ifIhadbeen,inmywaysofcarryingon,ofyourfather’sbreed。Stopabit。I
mustputsomethingunderthecushionforyourhead。Here’saburialvolume。justthething!WehavegotMrsBanghaminthisbook。Butwhatmakesthesebooksinterestingtomostpeopleis——
notwho’sin’em,butwhoisn’t——who’scoming,youknow,andwhen。
That’stheinterestingquestion。’
Commendinglylookingbackatthepillowhehadimprovised,heleftthemtotheirhour’srepose。Maggywassnoringalready,andLittleDorritwassoonfastasleepwithherheadrestingonthatsealedbookofFate,untroubledbyitsmysteriousblankleaves。
ThiswasLittleDorrit’sparty。Theshame,desertion,wretchedness,andexposureofthegreatcapital;thewet,thecold,theslowhours,andtheswiftcloudsofthedismalnight。ThiswasthepartyfromwhichLittleDorritwenthome,jaded,inthefirstgreymistofarainymorning。
MrsFlintwinchhasanotherDreamThedebilitatedoldhouseinthecity,wrappedinitsmantleofsoot,andleaningheavilyonthecrutchesthathadpartakenofitsdecayandwornoutwithit,neverknewahealthyoracheerfulinterval,letwhatwouldbetide。Ifthesunevertouchedit,itwasbutwitharay,andthatwasgoneinhalfanhour;ifthemoonlighteverfelluponit,itwasonlytoputafewpatchesonitsdolefulcloak,andmakeitlookmorewretched。Thestars,tobesure,coldlywatcheditwhenthenightsandthesmokewereclearenough;andallbadweatherstoodbyitwithararefidelity。Youshouldalikefindrain,hail,frost,andthawlingeringinthatdismalenclosurewhentheyhadvanishedfromotherplaces;andastosnow,youshouldseeitthereforweeks,longafterithadchangedfromyellowtoblack,slowlyweepingawayitsgrimylife。
Theplacehadnootheradherents。Astostreetnoises,therumblingofwheelsinthelanemerelyrushedinatthegatewayingoingpast,andrushedoutagain:makingthelisteningMistressAfferyfeelasifsheweredeaf,andrecoveredthesenseofhearingbyinstantaneousflashes。Sowithwhistling,singing,talking,laughing,andallpleasanthumansounds。Theyleapedthegapinamoment,andwentupontheirway。
ThevaryinglightoffireandcandleinMrsClennam’sroommadethegreatestchangethateverbrokethedeadmonotonyofthespot。Inhertwolongnarrowwindows,thefireshonesullenlyallday,andsullenlyallnight。Onrareoccasionsitflasheduppassionately,asshedid;butforthemostpartitwassuppressed,likeher,andpreyeduponitselfevenlyandslowly。Duringmanyhoursoftheshortwinterdays,however,whenitwasduskthereearlyintheafternoon,changingdistortionsofherselfinherwheeledchair,ofMrFlintwinchwithhiswryneck,ofMistressAfferycomingandgoing,wouldbethrownuponthehousewallthatwasoverthegateway,andwouldhovertherelikeshadowsfromagreatmagiclantern。Astheroom-riddeninvalidsettledforthenight,thesewouldgraduallydisappear:MistressAffery’smagnifiedshadowalwaysflittingabout,last,untilitfinallyglidedawayintotheair,asthoughshewereoffuponawitchexcursion。Thenthesolitarylightwouldburnunchangingly,untilitburnedpalebeforethedawn,andatlastdiedunderthebreathofMrsAffery,ashershadowdescendedonitfromthewitch-regionofsleep。
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