Hefelt,fromthetoneinwhichshespoke,thatshewasglancingupathimwiththosepartedlips;thereforehelookedbeforehim,ratherthanmakeherheartbeatquickerstillbyembarrassingherafresh。
ThustheyemergedupontheIronBridge,whichwasasquietaftertheroaringstreetsasthoughithadbeenopencountry。Thewindblewroughly,thewetsquallscamerattlingpastthem,skimmingthepoolsontheroadandpavement,andrainingthemdownintotheriver。Thecloudsracedonfuriouslyinthelead-Colouredsky,thesmokeandmistracedafterthem,thedarktideranfierceandstronginthesamedirection。LittleDorritseemedtheleast,thequietest,andweakestofHeaven’screatures。
’Letmeputyouinacoach,’saidClennam,verynearlyadding’mypoorchild。’
Shehurriedlydeclined,sayingthatwetordrymadelittledifferencetoher;shewasusedtogoaboutinallweathers。Heknewittobeso,andwastouchedwithmorepity;thinkingoftheslightfigureathisside,makingitsnightlywaythroughthedampdarkboisterousstreetstosuchaplaceofrest。
’Youspokesofeelinglytomelastnight,sir,andIfoundafterwardsthatyouhadbeensogeneroustomyfather,thatIcouldnotresistyourmessage,ifitwasonlytothankyou;especiallyasIwishedverymuchtosaytoyou——’shehesitatedandtrembled,andtearsroseinhereyes,butdidnotfall。
’Tosaytome——?’
’ThatIhopeyouwillnotmisunderstandmyfather。Don’tjudgehim,sir,asyouwouldjudgeothersoutsidethegates。Hehasbeentheresolong!Ineversawhimoutside,butIcanunderstandthathemusthavegrowndifferentinsomethingssince。’
’Mythoughtswillneverbeunjustorharshtowardshim,believeme。’
’Not,’shesaid,withaprouderair,asthemisgivingevidentlycreptuponherthatshemightseemtobeabandoninghim,’notthathehasanythingtobeashamedofforhimself,orthatIhaveanythingtobeashamedofforhim。Heonlyrequirestobeunderstood。Ionlyaskforhimthathislifemaybefairlyremembered。Allthathesaidwasquitetrue。Itallhappenedjustasherelatedit。Heisverymuchrespected。Everybodywhocomesin,isgladtoknowhim。Heismorecourtedthananyoneelse。HeisfarmorethoughtofthantheMarshalis。’
Ifeverpridewereinnocent,itwasinnocentinLittleDorritwhenshegrewboastfulofherfather。
’Itisoftensaidthathismannersareatruegentleman’s,andquiteastudy。Iseenoneliketheminthatplace,butheisadmittedtobesuperiortoalltherest。Thisisquiteasmuchwhytheymakehimpresents,asbecausetheyknowhimtobeneedy。Heisnottobeblamedforbeinginneed,poorlove。Whocouldbeinprisonaquarterofacentury,andbeprosperous!’
Whataffectioninherwords,whatcompassioninherrepressedtears,whatagreatsouloffidelitywithinher,howtruethelightthatshedfalsebrightnessroundhim!
’IfIhavefounditbesttoconcealwheremyhomeis,itisnotbecauseIamashamedofhim。Godforbid!NoramIsomuchashamedoftheplaceitselfasmightbesupposed。Peoplearenotbadbecausetheycomethere。Ihaveknownnumbersofgood,persevering,honestpeoplecometherethroughmisfortune。Theyarealmostallkind-heartedtooneanother。Anditwouldbeungratefulindeedinme,toforgetthatIhavehadmanyquiet,comfortablehoursthere;thatIhadanexcellentfriendtherewhenIwasquiteababy,whowasveryveryfondofme;thatIhavebeentaughtthere,andhaveworkedthere,andhavesleptsoundlythere。I
thinkitwouldbealmostcowardlyandcruelnottohavesomelittleattachmentforit,afterallthis。’
Shehadrelievedthefaithfulfulnessofherheart,andmodestlysaid,raisinghereyesappealinglytohernewfriend’s,’Ididnotmeantosaysomuch,norhaveIeverbutoncespokenaboutthisbefore。Butitseemstosetitmorerightthanitwaslastnight。
IsaidIwishedyouhadnotfollowedme,sir。Idon’twishitsomuchnow,unlessyoushouldthink——indeedIdon’twishitatall,unlessIshouldhavespokensoconfusedly,that——thatyoucanscarcelyunderstandme,whichIamafraidmaybethecase。’
Hetoldherwithperfecttruththatitwasnotthecase;andputtinghimselfbetweenherandthesharpwindandrain,shelteredheraswellashecould。
’Ifeelpermittednow,’hesaid,’toaskyoualittlemoreconcerningyourfather。Hashemanycreditors?’
’Oh!agreatnumber。’
’Imeandetainingcreditors,whokeephimwhereheis?’
’Ohyes!agreatnumber。’
’Canyoutellme——Icangettheinformation,nodoubt,elsewhere,ifyoucannot——whoisthemostinfluentialofthem?’
LittleDorritsaid,afterconsideringalittle,thatsheusedtohearlongagoofMrTiteBarnacleasamanofgreatpower。Hewasacommissioner,oraboard,oratrustee,’orsomething。’HelivedinGrosvenorSquare,shethought,orverynearit。HewasunderGovernment——highintheCircumlocutionOffice。Sheappearedtohaveacquired,inherinfancy,someawfulimpressionofthemightofthisformidableMrTiteBarnacleofGrosvenorSquare,orverynearit,andtheCircumlocutionOffice,whichquitecrushedherwhenshementionedhim。
’Itcandonoharm,’thoughtArthur,’ifIseethisMrTiteBarnacle。’
Thethoughtdidnotpresentitselfsoquietlybutthatherquicknessinterceptedit。’Ah!’saidLittleDorrit,shakingherheadwiththemilddespairofalifetime。’Manypeopleusedtothinkonceofgettingmypoorfatherout,butyoudon’tknowhowhopelessitis。’
Sheforgottobeshyatthemoment,inhonestlywarninghimawayfromthesunkenwreckhehadadreamofraising;andlookedathimwitheyeswhichassuredly,inassociationwithherpatientface,herfragilefigure,hersparedress,andthewindandrain,didnotturnhimfromhispurposeofhelpingher。
’Evenifitcouldbedone,’saidshe——’anditnevercanbedonenow——wherecouldfatherlive,orhowcouldhelive?Ihaveoftenthoughtthatifsuchachangecouldcome,itmightbeanythingbutaservicetohimnow。Peoplemightnotthinksowellofhimoutsideastheydothere。Hemightnotbesogentlydealtwithoutsideasheisthere。Hemightnotbesofithimselfforthelifeoutsideasheisforthat。’
Hereforthefirsttimeshecouldnotrestrainhertearsfromfalling;andthelittlethinhandshehadwatchedwhentheyweresobusy,trembledastheyclaspedeachother。
’ItwouldbeanewdistresstohimeventoknowthatIearnalittlemoney,andthatFannyearnsalittlemoney。Heissoanxiousaboutus,yousee,feelinghelplesslyshutupthere。Suchagood,goodfather!’
Heletthelittleburstoffeelinggobybeforehespoke。Itwassoongone。Shewasnotaccustomedtothinkofherself,ortotroubleanyonewithheremotions。Hehadbutglancedawayatthepilesofcityroofsandchimneysamongwhichthesmokewasrollingheavily,andatthewildernessofmastsontheriver,andthewildernessofsteeplesontheshore,indistinctlymixedtogetherinthestormyhaze,whenshewasagainasquietasifshehadbeenplyingherneedleinhismother’sroom。
’Youwouldbegladtohaveyourbrothersetatliberty?’
’Ohvery,veryglad,sir!’
’Well,wewillhopeforhimatleast。Youtoldmelastnightofafriendyouhad?’
HisnamewasPlornish,LittleDorritsaid。
AndwheredidPlornishlive?PlornishlivedinBleedingHeartYard。Hewas’onlyaplasterer,’LittleDorritsaid,asacautiontohimnottoformhighsocialexpectationsofPlornish。HelivedatthelasthouseinBleedingHeartYard,andhisnamewasoveralittlegateway。
Arthurtookdowntheaddressandgaveherhis。Hehadnowdoneallhesoughttodoforthepresent,exceptthathewishedtoleaveherwitharelianceuponhim,andtohavesomethinglikeapromisefromherthatshewouldcherishit。
’Thereisonefriend!’hesaid,puttinguphispocketbook。’AsI
takeyouback——youaregoingback?’
’Ohyes!goingstraighthome。’
’AsItakeyouback,’thewordhomejarreduponhim,’letmeaskyoutopersuadeyourselfthatyouhaveanotherfriend。Imakenoprofessions,andsaynomore。’
’Youaretrulykindtome,sir。IamsureIneednomore。’
Theywalkedbackthroughthemiserablemuddystreets,andamongthepoor,meanshops,andwerejostledbythecrowdsofdirtyhuckstersusualtoapoorneighbourhood。Therewasnothing,bytheshortway,thatwaspleasanttoanyofthefivesenses。Yetitwasnotacommonpassagethroughcommonrain,andmire,andnoise,toClennam,havingthislittle,slender,carefulcreatureonhisarm。
Howyoungsheseemedtohim,orhowoldhetoher;orwhatasecreteithertotheother,inthatbeginningofthedestinedinterweavingoftheirstories,mattersnothere。Hethoughtofherhavingbeenbornandbredamongthesescenes,andshrinkingthroughthemnow,familiaryetmisplaced;hethoughtofherlongacquaintancewiththesqualidneedsoflife,andofherinnocence;ofhersolicitudeforothers,andherfewyears,andherchildishaspect。
TheywerecomeintotheHighStreet,wheretheprisonstood,whenavoicecried,’Littlemother,littlemother!’LittleDorritstoppingandlookingback,anexcitedfigureofastrangekindbouncedagainstthemstillcrying’littlemother’,felldown,andscatteredthecontentsofalargebasket,filledwithpotatoes,inthemud。
’Oh,Maggy,’saidLittleDorrit,’whataclumsychildyouare!’
Maggywasnothurt,butpickedherselfupimmediately,andthenbegantopickupthepotatoes,inwhichbothLittleDorritandArthurClennamhelped。Maggypickedupveryfewpotatoesandagreatquantityofmud;buttheywereallrecovered,anddepositedinthebasket。Maggythensmearedhermuddyfacewithhershawl,andpresentingittoMrClennamasatypeofpurity,enabledhimtoseewhatshewaslike。
Shewasabouteight-and-twenty,withlargebones,largefeatures,largefeetandhands,largeeyesandnohair。Herlargeeyeswerelimpidandalmostcolourless;theyseemedtobeverylittleaffectedbylight,andtostandunnaturallystill。Therewasalsothatattentivelisteningexpressioninherface,whichisseeninthefacesoftheblind;butshewasnotblind,havingonetolerablyserviceableeye。Herfacewasnotexceedinglyugly,thoughitwasonlyredeemedfrombeingsobyasmile;agood-humouredsmile,andpleasantinitself,butrenderedpitiablebybeingconstantlythere。Agreatwhitecap,withaquantityofopaquefrillingthatwasalwaysflappingabout,apologisedforMaggy’sbaldness,andmadeitsoverydifficultforheroldblackbonnettoretainitsplaceuponherhead,thatitheldonroundhernecklikeagipsy’sbaby。Acommissionofhaberdasherscouldalonehavereportedwhattherestofherpoordresswasmadeof,butithadastronggeneralresemblancetoseaweed,withhereandthereagigantictea-leaf。
Hershawllookedparticularlylikeatea-leafafterlonginfusion。
ArthurClennamlookedatLittleDorritwiththeexpressionofonesaying,’MayIaskwhothisis?’LittleDorrit,whosehandthisMaggy,stillcallingherlittlemother,hadbeguntofondle,answeredinwordstheywereunderagatewayintowhichthemajorityofthepotatoeshadrolled。
’ThisisMaggy,sir。’
’Maggy,sir,’echoedthepersonagepresented。’Littlemother!’
’Sheisthegrand-daughter——’saidLittleDorrit。
’Grand-daughter,’echoedMaggy。
’Ofmyoldnurse,whohasbeendeadalongtime。Maggy,howoldareyou?’
’Ten,mother,’saidMaggy。
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