首页 >出版文学> LITTLE DORRIT>第21章

第21章

  Hefelt,fromthetoneinwhichshespoke,thatshewasglancingupathimwiththosepartedlips;thereforehelookedbeforehim,ratherthanmakeherheartbeatquickerstillbyembarrassingherafresh。
  ThustheyemergedupontheIronBridge,whichwasasquietaftertheroaringstreetsasthoughithadbeenopencountry。Thewindblewroughly,thewetsquallscamerattlingpastthem,skimmingthepoolsontheroadandpavement,andrainingthemdownintotheriver。Thecloudsracedonfuriouslyinthelead-Colouredsky,thesmokeandmistracedafterthem,thedarktideranfierceandstronginthesamedirection。LittleDorritseemedtheleast,thequietest,andweakestofHeaven’screatures。
  ’Letmeputyouinacoach,’saidClennam,verynearlyadding’mypoorchild。’
  Shehurriedlydeclined,sayingthatwetordrymadelittledifferencetoher;shewasusedtogoaboutinallweathers。Heknewittobeso,andwastouchedwithmorepity;thinkingoftheslightfigureathisside,makingitsnightlywaythroughthedampdarkboisterousstreetstosuchaplaceofrest。
  ’Youspokesofeelinglytomelastnight,sir,andIfoundafterwardsthatyouhadbeensogeneroustomyfather,thatIcouldnotresistyourmessage,ifitwasonlytothankyou;especiallyasIwishedverymuchtosaytoyou——’shehesitatedandtrembled,andtearsroseinhereyes,butdidnotfall。
  ’Tosaytome——?’
  ’ThatIhopeyouwillnotmisunderstandmyfather。Don’tjudgehim,sir,asyouwouldjudgeothersoutsidethegates。Hehasbeentheresolong!Ineversawhimoutside,butIcanunderstandthathemusthavegrowndifferentinsomethingssince。’
  ’Mythoughtswillneverbeunjustorharshtowardshim,believeme。’
  ’Not,’shesaid,withaprouderair,asthemisgivingevidentlycreptuponherthatshemightseemtobeabandoninghim,’notthathehasanythingtobeashamedofforhimself,orthatIhaveanythingtobeashamedofforhim。Heonlyrequirestobeunderstood。Ionlyaskforhimthathislifemaybefairlyremembered。Allthathesaidwasquitetrue。Itallhappenedjustasherelatedit。Heisverymuchrespected。Everybodywhocomesin,isgladtoknowhim。Heismorecourtedthananyoneelse。HeisfarmorethoughtofthantheMarshalis。’
  Ifeverpridewereinnocent,itwasinnocentinLittleDorritwhenshegrewboastfulofherfather。
  ’Itisoftensaidthathismannersareatruegentleman’s,andquiteastudy。Iseenoneliketheminthatplace,butheisadmittedtobesuperiortoalltherest。Thisisquiteasmuchwhytheymakehimpresents,asbecausetheyknowhimtobeneedy。Heisnottobeblamedforbeinginneed,poorlove。Whocouldbeinprisonaquarterofacentury,andbeprosperous!’
  Whataffectioninherwords,whatcompassioninherrepressedtears,whatagreatsouloffidelitywithinher,howtruethelightthatshedfalsebrightnessroundhim!
  ’IfIhavefounditbesttoconcealwheremyhomeis,itisnotbecauseIamashamedofhim。Godforbid!NoramIsomuchashamedoftheplaceitselfasmightbesupposed。Peoplearenotbadbecausetheycomethere。Ihaveknownnumbersofgood,persevering,honestpeoplecometherethroughmisfortune。Theyarealmostallkind-heartedtooneanother。Anditwouldbeungratefulindeedinme,toforgetthatIhavehadmanyquiet,comfortablehoursthere;thatIhadanexcellentfriendtherewhenIwasquiteababy,whowasveryveryfondofme;thatIhavebeentaughtthere,andhaveworkedthere,andhavesleptsoundlythere。I
  thinkitwouldbealmostcowardlyandcruelnottohavesomelittleattachmentforit,afterallthis。’
  Shehadrelievedthefaithfulfulnessofherheart,andmodestlysaid,raisinghereyesappealinglytohernewfriend’s,’Ididnotmeantosaysomuch,norhaveIeverbutoncespokenaboutthisbefore。Butitseemstosetitmorerightthanitwaslastnight。
  IsaidIwishedyouhadnotfollowedme,sir。Idon’twishitsomuchnow,unlessyoushouldthink——indeedIdon’twishitatall,unlessIshouldhavespokensoconfusedly,that——thatyoucanscarcelyunderstandme,whichIamafraidmaybethecase。’
  Hetoldherwithperfecttruththatitwasnotthecase;andputtinghimselfbetweenherandthesharpwindandrain,shelteredheraswellashecould。
  ’Ifeelpermittednow,’hesaid,’toaskyoualittlemoreconcerningyourfather。Hashemanycreditors?’
  ’Oh!agreatnumber。’
  ’Imeandetainingcreditors,whokeephimwhereheis?’
  ’Ohyes!agreatnumber。’
  ’Canyoutellme——Icangettheinformation,nodoubt,elsewhere,ifyoucannot——whoisthemostinfluentialofthem?’
  LittleDorritsaid,afterconsideringalittle,thatsheusedtohearlongagoofMrTiteBarnacleasamanofgreatpower。Hewasacommissioner,oraboard,oratrustee,’orsomething。’HelivedinGrosvenorSquare,shethought,orverynearit。HewasunderGovernment——highintheCircumlocutionOffice。Sheappearedtohaveacquired,inherinfancy,someawfulimpressionofthemightofthisformidableMrTiteBarnacleofGrosvenorSquare,orverynearit,andtheCircumlocutionOffice,whichquitecrushedherwhenshementionedhim。
  ’Itcandonoharm,’thoughtArthur,’ifIseethisMrTiteBarnacle。’
  Thethoughtdidnotpresentitselfsoquietlybutthatherquicknessinterceptedit。’Ah!’saidLittleDorrit,shakingherheadwiththemilddespairofalifetime。’Manypeopleusedtothinkonceofgettingmypoorfatherout,butyoudon’tknowhowhopelessitis。’
  Sheforgottobeshyatthemoment,inhonestlywarninghimawayfromthesunkenwreckhehadadreamofraising;andlookedathimwitheyeswhichassuredly,inassociationwithherpatientface,herfragilefigure,hersparedress,andthewindandrain,didnotturnhimfromhispurposeofhelpingher。
  ’Evenifitcouldbedone,’saidshe——’anditnevercanbedonenow——wherecouldfatherlive,orhowcouldhelive?Ihaveoftenthoughtthatifsuchachangecouldcome,itmightbeanythingbutaservicetohimnow。Peoplemightnotthinksowellofhimoutsideastheydothere。Hemightnotbesogentlydealtwithoutsideasheisthere。Hemightnotbesofithimselfforthelifeoutsideasheisforthat。’
  Hereforthefirsttimeshecouldnotrestrainhertearsfromfalling;andthelittlethinhandshehadwatchedwhentheyweresobusy,trembledastheyclaspedeachother。
  ’ItwouldbeanewdistresstohimeventoknowthatIearnalittlemoney,andthatFannyearnsalittlemoney。Heissoanxiousaboutus,yousee,feelinghelplesslyshutupthere。Suchagood,goodfather!’
  Heletthelittleburstoffeelinggobybeforehespoke。Itwassoongone。Shewasnotaccustomedtothinkofherself,ortotroubleanyonewithheremotions。Hehadbutglancedawayatthepilesofcityroofsandchimneysamongwhichthesmokewasrollingheavily,andatthewildernessofmastsontheriver,andthewildernessofsteeplesontheshore,indistinctlymixedtogetherinthestormyhaze,whenshewasagainasquietasifshehadbeenplyingherneedleinhismother’sroom。
  ’Youwouldbegladtohaveyourbrothersetatliberty?’
  ’Ohvery,veryglad,sir!’
  ’Well,wewillhopeforhimatleast。Youtoldmelastnightofafriendyouhad?’
  HisnamewasPlornish,LittleDorritsaid。
  AndwheredidPlornishlive?PlornishlivedinBleedingHeartYard。Hewas’onlyaplasterer,’LittleDorritsaid,asacautiontohimnottoformhighsocialexpectationsofPlornish。HelivedatthelasthouseinBleedingHeartYard,andhisnamewasoveralittlegateway。
  Arthurtookdowntheaddressandgaveherhis。Hehadnowdoneallhesoughttodoforthepresent,exceptthathewishedtoleaveherwitharelianceuponhim,andtohavesomethinglikeapromisefromherthatshewouldcherishit。
  ’Thereisonefriend!’hesaid,puttinguphispocketbook。’AsI
  takeyouback——youaregoingback?’
  ’Ohyes!goingstraighthome。’
  ’AsItakeyouback,’thewordhomejarreduponhim,’letmeaskyoutopersuadeyourselfthatyouhaveanotherfriend。Imakenoprofessions,andsaynomore。’
  ’Youaretrulykindtome,sir。IamsureIneednomore。’
  Theywalkedbackthroughthemiserablemuddystreets,andamongthepoor,meanshops,andwerejostledbythecrowdsofdirtyhuckstersusualtoapoorneighbourhood。Therewasnothing,bytheshortway,thatwaspleasanttoanyofthefivesenses。Yetitwasnotacommonpassagethroughcommonrain,andmire,andnoise,toClennam,havingthislittle,slender,carefulcreatureonhisarm。
  Howyoungsheseemedtohim,orhowoldhetoher;orwhatasecreteithertotheother,inthatbeginningofthedestinedinterweavingoftheirstories,mattersnothere。Hethoughtofherhavingbeenbornandbredamongthesescenes,andshrinkingthroughthemnow,familiaryetmisplaced;hethoughtofherlongacquaintancewiththesqualidneedsoflife,andofherinnocence;ofhersolicitudeforothers,andherfewyears,andherchildishaspect。
  TheywerecomeintotheHighStreet,wheretheprisonstood,whenavoicecried,’Littlemother,littlemother!’LittleDorritstoppingandlookingback,anexcitedfigureofastrangekindbouncedagainstthemstillcrying’littlemother’,felldown,andscatteredthecontentsofalargebasket,filledwithpotatoes,inthemud。
  ’Oh,Maggy,’saidLittleDorrit,’whataclumsychildyouare!’
  Maggywasnothurt,butpickedherselfupimmediately,andthenbegantopickupthepotatoes,inwhichbothLittleDorritandArthurClennamhelped。Maggypickedupveryfewpotatoesandagreatquantityofmud;buttheywereallrecovered,anddepositedinthebasket。Maggythensmearedhermuddyfacewithhershawl,andpresentingittoMrClennamasatypeofpurity,enabledhimtoseewhatshewaslike。
  Shewasabouteight-and-twenty,withlargebones,largefeatures,largefeetandhands,largeeyesandnohair。Herlargeeyeswerelimpidandalmostcolourless;theyseemedtobeverylittleaffectedbylight,andtostandunnaturallystill。Therewasalsothatattentivelisteningexpressioninherface,whichisseeninthefacesoftheblind;butshewasnotblind,havingonetolerablyserviceableeye。Herfacewasnotexceedinglyugly,thoughitwasonlyredeemedfrombeingsobyasmile;agood-humouredsmile,andpleasantinitself,butrenderedpitiablebybeingconstantlythere。Agreatwhitecap,withaquantityofopaquefrillingthatwasalwaysflappingabout,apologisedforMaggy’sbaldness,andmadeitsoverydifficultforheroldblackbonnettoretainitsplaceuponherhead,thatitheldonroundhernecklikeagipsy’sbaby。Acommissionofhaberdasherscouldalonehavereportedwhattherestofherpoordresswasmadeof,butithadastronggeneralresemblancetoseaweed,withhereandthereagigantictea-leaf。
  Hershawllookedparticularlylikeatea-leafafterlonginfusion。
  ArthurClennamlookedatLittleDorritwiththeexpressionofonesaying,’MayIaskwhothisis?’LittleDorrit,whosehandthisMaggy,stillcallingherlittlemother,hadbeguntofondle,answeredinwordstheywereunderagatewayintowhichthemajorityofthepotatoeshadrolled。
  ’ThisisMaggy,sir。’
  ’Maggy,sir,’echoedthepersonagepresented。’Littlemother!’
  ’Sheisthegrand-daughter——’saidLittleDorrit。
  ’Grand-daughter,’echoedMaggy。
  ’Ofmyoldnurse,whohasbeendeadalongtime。Maggy,howoldareyou?’
  ’Ten,mother,’saidMaggy。