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第152章

  Rigaudchinkedthemoney,weigheditinhishand,threwitupalittlewayandcaughtit,chinkeditagain。
  ’Thesoundofit,totheboldRigaudBlandois,islikethetasteoffreshmeattothetiger。Say,then,madame。Howmuch?’
  Heturneduponhersuddenlywithamenacinggestureoftheweightedhandthatclenchedthemoney,asifheweregoingtostrikeherwithit。
  ’Itellyouagain,asItoldyoubefore,thatwearenotrichhere,asyousupposeustobe,andthatyourdemandisexcessive。Ihavenotthepresentmeansofcomplyingwithsuchademand,ifIhadeversogreataninclination。’
  ’If!’criedRigaud。’HearthisladywithherIf!Willyousaythatyouhavenottheinclination?’
  ’Iwillsaywhatpresentsitselftome,andnotwhatpresentsitselftoyou。’
  ’Sayitthen。Astotheinclination。Quick!Cometotheinclination,andIknowwhattodo。’
  Shewasnoquicker,andnoslower,inherreply。’Itwouldseemthatyouhaveobtainedpossessionofapaper——orofpapers——whichIassuredlyhavetheinclinationtorecover。’
  Rigaud,withaloudlaugh,drummedhisheelsagainstthetable,andchinkedhismoney。’Ithinkso!Ibelieveyouthere!’
  ’Thepapermightbeworth,tome,asumofmoney。Icannotsayhowmuch,orhowlittle。’
  ’WhattheDevil!’heaskedsavagely。’Notafteraweek’sgracetoconsider?’
  ’No!Iwillnotoutofmyscantymeans——forItellyouagain,wearepoorhere,andnotrich——IwillnotofferanypriceforapowerthatIdonotknowtheworstandthefullestextentof。Thisisthethirdtimeofyourhintingandthreatening。Youmustspeakexplicitly,oryoumaygowhereyouwill,anddowhatyouwill。Itisbettertobetorntopiecesataspring,thantobeamouseatthecapriceofsuchacat。’
  Helookedathersohardwiththoseeyestooneartogetherthatthesinistersightofeach,crossingthatoftheother,seemedtomakethebridgeofhishookednosecrooked。Afteralongsurvey,hesaid,withthefurthersettingoffofhisinternalsmile:
  ’Youareaboldwoman!’
  ’Iamaresolvedwoman。’
  ’Youalwayswere。What?Shealwayswas;isitnotso,mylittleFlintwinch?’
  ’Flintwinch,saynothingtohim。Itisforhimtosay,hereandnow,allhecan;ortogohence,anddoallhecan。Youknowthistobeourdetermination。Leavehimtohisactiononit。’
  Shedidnotshrinkunderhisevilleer,oravoidit。Heturnedituponheragain,butsheremainedsteadyatthepointtowhichshehadfixedherself。Hegotoffthetable,placedachairnearthesofa,satdowninit,andleanedanarmuponthesofaclosetoherown,whichhetouchedwithhishand。Herfacewaseverfrowning,attentive,andsettled。
  ’Itisyourpleasurethen,madame,thatIshallrelateamorseloffamilyhistoryinthislittlefamilysociety,’saidRigaud,withawarningplayofhislithefingersonherarm。’Iamsomethingofadoctor。Letmetouchyourpulse。’
  Shesufferedhimtotakeherwristinhishand。Holdingit,heproceededtosay:
  ’Ahistoryofastrangemarriage,andastrangemother,andarevenge,andasuppression——Aye,aye,aye?thispulseisbeatingcuriously!ItappearstomethatitdoubleswhileItouchit。Arethesetheusualchangesofyourmalady,madame?’
  Therewasastruggleinhermaimedarmasshetwisteditaway,buttherewasnoneinherface。Onhisfacetherewashisownsmile。
  ’Ihavelivedanadventurouslife。Iamanadventurouscharacter。
  Ihaveknownmanyadventurers;interestingspirits——amiablesociety!TooneofthemIowemyknowledgeandmyproofs——Irepeatit,estimablelady——proofs——oftheravishinglittlefamilyhistoryIgotocommence。Youwillbecharmedwithit。But,bah!I
  forget。Oneshouldnameahistory。ShallInameitthehistoryofahouse?But,bah,again。Therearesomanyhouses。ShallInameitthehistoryofthishouse?’
  Leaningoverthesofa,poisedontwolegsofhischairandhisleftelbow;thathandoftentappingherarmtobeathiswordshome;hislegscrossed;hisrighthandsometimesarranginghishair,sometimessmoothinghismoustache,sometimesstrikinghisnose,alwaysthreateningherwhateveritdid;coarse,insolent,rapacious,cruel,andpowerful,hepursuedhisnarrativeathisease。
  ’Infine,then,Inameitthehistoryofthishouse。Icommenceit。Therelivehere,letussuppose,anuncleandnephew。Theuncle,arigidoldgentlemanofstrongforceofcharacter;thenephew,habituallytimid,repressed,andunderconstraint。’
  MistressAffery,fixedlyattentiveinthewindow-seat,bitingtherolledupendofherapron,andtremblingfromheadtofoot,herecriedout,’Jeremiah,keepofffromme!I’veheerd,inmydreams,ofArthur’sfatherandhisuncle。He’satalkingofthem。Itwasbeforemytimehere;butI’veheerdinmydreamsthatArthur’sfatherwasapoor,irresolute,frightenedchap,whohadhadeverythingbuthisorphanlifescaredoutofhimwhenhewasyoung,andthathehadnovoiceinthechoiceofhiswifeeven,buthisunclechoseher。Thereshesits!Iheerditinmydreams,andyousaidittoherownself。’
  AsMrFlintwinchshookhisfistather,andasMrsClennamgazeduponher,Rigaudkissedhishandtoher。
  ’Perfectlyright,dearMadameFlintwinch。Youhaveageniusfordreaming。’
  ’Idon’twantnoneofyourpraises,’returnedAffery。’Idon’twanttohavenothingatalltosaytoyou。ButJeremiahsaidtheywasdreams,andI’lltell’emassuch!’Heresheputheraproninhermouthagain,asifshewerestoppingsomebodyelse’smouth——
  perhapsjeremiah’s,whichwaschatteringwiththreatsasifheweregrimlycold。
  ’OurbelovedMadameFlintwinch,’saidRigaud,’developingallofasuddenafinesusceptibilityandspirituality,isrighttoamarvel。Yes。Sorunsthehistory。Monsieur,theuncle,commandsthenephewtomarry。Monsieursaystohimineffect,“Mynephew,Iintroducetoyoualadyofstrongforceofcharacter,likemyself——aresolvedlady,asternlady,aladywhohasawillthatcanbreaktheweaktopowder:aladywithoutpity,withoutlove,implacable,revengeful,coldasthestone,butragingasthefire。“
  Ah!whatfortitude!Ah,whatsuperiorityofintellectualstrength!Truly,aproudandnoblecharacterthatIdescribeinthesupposedwordsofMonsieur,theuncle。Ha,ha,ha!Deathofmysoul,Ilovethesweetlady!’
  MrsClennam’sfacehadchanged。Therewasaremarkabledarknessofcolouronit,andthebrowwasmorecontracted。’Madame,madame,’
  saidRigaud,tappingheronthearm,asifhiscruelhandweresoundingamusicalinstrument,’IperceiveIinterestyou。I
  perceiveIawakenyoursympathy。Letusgoon。’
  Thedroopingnoseandtheascendingmoustachehad,however,tobehiddenforamomentwiththewhitehand,beforehecouldgoon;heenjoyedtheeffecthemadesomuch。
  ’Thenephew,being,asthelucidMadameFlintwinchhasremarked,apoordevilwhohashadeverythingbuthisorphanlifefrightenedandfamishedoutofhim——thenephewabaseshishead,andmakesresponse:“Myuncle,itistoyoutocommand。Doasyouwill!“
  Monsieur,theuncle,doesashewill。Itiswhathealwaysdoes。
  Theauspiciousnuptialstakeplace;thenewlymarriedcomehometothischarmingmansion;theladyisreceived,letussuppose,byFlintwinch。Hey,oldintriguer?’
  Jeremiah,withhiseyesuponhismistress,madenoreply。Rigaudlookedfromonetotheother,struckhisuglynose,andmadeacluckingwithhistongue。
  ’Soontheladymakesasingularandexcitingdiscovery。Thereupon,fullofanger,fullofjealousy,fullofvengeance,sheforms——seeyou,madame!——aschemeofretribution,theweightofwhichsheingeniouslyforceshercrushedhusbandtobearhimself,aswellasexecuteuponherenemy。Whatsuperiorintelligence!’
  ’Keepoff,Jeremiah!’criedthepalpitatingAffery,takingherapronfromhermouthagain。’Butitwasoneofmydreams,thatyoutoldher,whenyouquarrelledwithheronewintereveningatdusk——
  thereshesitsandyoulookingather——thatsheoughtn’ttohaveletArthurwhenhecomehome,suspecthisfatheronly;thatshehadalwayshadthestrengthandthepower;andthatsheoughttohavestoodupmoretoArthur,forhisfather。Itwasinthesamedreamwhereyousaidtoherthatshewasnot——notsomething,butIdon’tknowwhat,forsheburstouttremendousandstoppedyou。YouknowthedreamaswellasIdo。Whenyoucomedown-stairsintothekitchenwiththecandleinyourhand,andhitchedmyapronoffmyhead。WhenyoutoldmeIhadbeendreaming。Whenyouwouldn’tbelievethenoises。’AfterthisexplosionAfferyputherapronintohermouthagain;alwayskeepingherhandonthewindow-sillandherkneeonthewindow-seat,readytocryoutorjumpoutifherlordandmasterapproached。
  Rigaudhadnotlostawordofthis。
  ’Haha!’hecried,liftinghiseyebrows,foldinghisarms,andleaningbackinhischair。’Assuredly,MadameFlintwinchisanoracle!Howshallweinterprettheoracle,youandIandtheoldintriguer?Hesaidthatyouwerenot——?Andyouburstoutandstoppedhim!Whatwasityouwerenot?Whatisityouarenot?
  Saythen,madame!’
  Underthisferociousbanter,shesatbreathingharder,andhermouthwasdisturbed。Herlipsquiveredandopened,inspiteofherutmosteffortstokeepthemstill。
  ’Comethen,madame!Speak,then!Ouroldintriguersaidthatyouwerenot——andyoustoppedhim。Hewasgoingtosaythatyouwerenot——what?Iknowalready,butIwantalittleconfidencefromyou。How,then?Youarenotwhat?’
  Shetriedagaintorepressherself,butbrokeoutvehemently,’NotArthur’smother!’
  ’Good,’saidRigaud。’Youareamenable。’
  Withthesetexpressionofherfacealltornawaybytheexplosionofherpassion,andwithabursting,fromeveryrentfeature,ofthesmoulderingfiresolongpentup,shecriedout:’Iwilltellitmyself!Iwillnothearitfromyourlips,andwiththetaintofyourwickednessuponit。Sinceitmustbeseen,IwillhaveitseenbythelightIstoodin。Notanotherword。Hearme!’
  ’UnlessyouareamoreobstinateandmorepersistingwomanthanevenIknowyoutobe,’MrFlintwinchinterposed,’youhadbetterleaveMrRigaud,MrBlandois,MrBeelzebub,totellitinhisownway。Whatdoesitsignifywhenheknowsallaboutit?’
  ’Hedoesnotknowallaboutit。’
  ’Heknowsallhecaresaboutit,’MrFlintwinchtestilyurged。
  ’Hedoesnotknowme。’
  ’Whatdoyousupposehecaresforyou,youconceitedwoman?’saidMrFlintwinch。
  ’Itellyou,Flintwinch,Iwillspeak。Itellyouwhenithascometothis,Iwilltellitwithmyownlips,andwillexpressmyselfthroughoutit。What!HaveIsufferednothinginthisroom,nodeprivation,noimprisonment,thatIshouldcondescendatlasttocontemplatemyselfinsuchaglassasthat。Canyouseehim?Canyouhearhim?Ifyourwifewereahundredtimestheingratethatsheis,andifIwereathousandtimesmorehopelessthanIamofinducinghertobesilentifthismanissilenced,Iwouldtellitmyself,beforeIwouldbearthetormentofthehearingitfromhim。’
  Rigaudpushedhischairalittleback;pushedhislegsoutstraightbeforehim;andsatwithhisarmsfoldedoveragainsther。
  ’Youdonotknowwhatitis,’shewentonaddressinghim,’tobebroughtupstrictlyandstraitly。Iwassobroughtup。Minewasnolightyouthofsinfulgaietyandpleasure。Mineweredaysofwholesomerepression,punishment,andfear。Thecorruptionofourhearts,theevilofourways,thecursethatisuponus,theterrorsthatsurroundus——thesewerethethemesofmychildhood。
  Theyformedmycharacter,andfilledmewithanabhorrenceofevil-
  doers。WhenoldMrGilbertClennamproposedhisorphannephewtomyfatherformyhusband,myfatherimpresseduponmethathisbringing-uphadbeen,likemine,oneofsevererestraint。Hetoldme,thatbesidesthedisciplinehisspirithadundergone,hehadlivedinastarvedhouse,whereriotingandgaietywereunknown,andwhereeverydaywasadayoftoilandtriallikethelast。Hetoldmethathehadbeenamaninyearslongbeforehisunclehadacknowledgedhimasone;andthatfromhisschool-daystothathour,hisuncle’sroofhasbeenasanctuarytohimfromthecontagionoftheirreligiousanddissolute。When,withinatwelvemonthofourmarriage,Ifoundmyhusband,atthattimewhenmyfatherspokeofhim,tohavesinnedagainsttheLordandoutragedmebyholdingaguiltycreatureinmyplace,wasItodoubtthatithadbeenappointedtometomakethediscovery,andthatitwasappointedtometolaythehandofpunishmentuponthatcreatureofperdition?WasItodismissinamoment——notmyownwrongs——whatwasI!butalltherejectionofsin,andallthewaragainstit,inwhichIhadbeenbred?’Shelaidherwrathfulhanduponthewatchonthetable。
  ’No!“Donotforget。“Theinitialsofthosewordsarewithinherenow,andwerewithinherethen。Iwasappointedtofindtheoldletterthatreferredtothem,andthattoldmewhattheymeant,andwhoseworktheywere,andwhytheywereworked,lyingwiththiswatchinhissecretdrawer。Butforthatappointmenttherewouldhavebeennodiscovery。“Donotforget。“Itspoketomelikeavoicefromanangrycloud。Donotforgetthedeadlysin,donotforgettheappointeddiscovery,donotforgettheappointedsuffering。Ididnotforget。WasitmyownwrongIremembered?
  Mine!Iwasbutaservantandaminister。WhatpowercouldIhaveoverthem,butthattheywereboundinthebondsoftheirsin,anddeliveredtome!’
  Morethanfortyyearshadpassedoverthegreyheadofthisdeterminedwoman,sincethetimesherecalled。Morethanfortyyearsofstrifeandstrugglewiththewhisperthat,bywhatevernameshecalledhervindictiveprideandrage,nothingthroughalleternitycouldchangetheirnature。Yet,gonethosemorethanfortyyears,andcomethisNemesisnowlookingherintheface,shestillabidedbyheroldimpiety——stillreversedtheorderofCreation,andbreathedherownbreathintoaclayimageofherCreator。Verily,verily,travellershaveseenmanymonstrousidolsinmanycountries;butnohumaneyeshaveeverseenmoredaring,gross,andshockingimagesoftheDivinenaturethanwecreaturesofthedustmakeinourownlikenesses,ofourownbadpassions。
  ’WhenIforcedhimtogiveheruptome,byhernameandplaceofabode,’shewentoninhertorrentofindignationanddefence;
  ’whenIaccusedher,andshefellhidingherfaceatmyfeet,wasitmyinjurythatIasserted,weretheymyreproachesthatIpoureduponher?Thosewhowereappointedofoldtogotowickedkingsandaccusethem——weretheynotministersandservants?AndhadnotI,unworthyandfar-removedfromthem,sintodenounce?Whenshepleadedtomeheryouth,andhiswretchedandhardlifethatwasherphraseforthevirtuoustraininghehadbelied,andthe