Rigaudchinkedthemoney,weigheditinhishand,threwitupalittlewayandcaughtit,chinkeditagain。
’Thesoundofit,totheboldRigaudBlandois,islikethetasteoffreshmeattothetiger。Say,then,madame。Howmuch?’
Heturneduponhersuddenlywithamenacinggestureoftheweightedhandthatclenchedthemoney,asifheweregoingtostrikeherwithit。
’Itellyouagain,asItoldyoubefore,thatwearenotrichhere,asyousupposeustobe,andthatyourdemandisexcessive。Ihavenotthepresentmeansofcomplyingwithsuchademand,ifIhadeversogreataninclination。’
’If!’criedRigaud。’HearthisladywithherIf!Willyousaythatyouhavenottheinclination?’
’Iwillsaywhatpresentsitselftome,andnotwhatpresentsitselftoyou。’
’Sayitthen。Astotheinclination。Quick!Cometotheinclination,andIknowwhattodo。’
Shewasnoquicker,andnoslower,inherreply。’Itwouldseemthatyouhaveobtainedpossessionofapaper——orofpapers——whichIassuredlyhavetheinclinationtorecover。’
Rigaud,withaloudlaugh,drummedhisheelsagainstthetable,andchinkedhismoney。’Ithinkso!Ibelieveyouthere!’
’Thepapermightbeworth,tome,asumofmoney。Icannotsayhowmuch,orhowlittle。’
’WhattheDevil!’heaskedsavagely。’Notafteraweek’sgracetoconsider?’
’No!Iwillnotoutofmyscantymeans——forItellyouagain,wearepoorhere,andnotrich——IwillnotofferanypriceforapowerthatIdonotknowtheworstandthefullestextentof。Thisisthethirdtimeofyourhintingandthreatening。Youmustspeakexplicitly,oryoumaygowhereyouwill,anddowhatyouwill。Itisbettertobetorntopiecesataspring,thantobeamouseatthecapriceofsuchacat。’
Helookedathersohardwiththoseeyestooneartogetherthatthesinistersightofeach,crossingthatoftheother,seemedtomakethebridgeofhishookednosecrooked。Afteralongsurvey,hesaid,withthefurthersettingoffofhisinternalsmile:
’Youareaboldwoman!’
’Iamaresolvedwoman。’
’Youalwayswere。What?Shealwayswas;isitnotso,mylittleFlintwinch?’
’Flintwinch,saynothingtohim。Itisforhimtosay,hereandnow,allhecan;ortogohence,anddoallhecan。Youknowthistobeourdetermination。Leavehimtohisactiononit。’
Shedidnotshrinkunderhisevilleer,oravoidit。Heturnedituponheragain,butsheremainedsteadyatthepointtowhichshehadfixedherself。Hegotoffthetable,placedachairnearthesofa,satdowninit,andleanedanarmuponthesofaclosetoherown,whichhetouchedwithhishand。Herfacewaseverfrowning,attentive,andsettled。
’Itisyourpleasurethen,madame,thatIshallrelateamorseloffamilyhistoryinthislittlefamilysociety,’saidRigaud,withawarningplayofhislithefingersonherarm。’Iamsomethingofadoctor。Letmetouchyourpulse。’
Shesufferedhimtotakeherwristinhishand。Holdingit,heproceededtosay:
’Ahistoryofastrangemarriage,andastrangemother,andarevenge,andasuppression——Aye,aye,aye?thispulseisbeatingcuriously!ItappearstomethatitdoubleswhileItouchit。Arethesetheusualchangesofyourmalady,madame?’
Therewasastruggleinhermaimedarmasshetwisteditaway,buttherewasnoneinherface。Onhisfacetherewashisownsmile。
’Ihavelivedanadventurouslife。Iamanadventurouscharacter。
Ihaveknownmanyadventurers;interestingspirits——amiablesociety!TooneofthemIowemyknowledgeandmyproofs——Irepeatit,estimablelady——proofs——oftheravishinglittlefamilyhistoryIgotocommence。Youwillbecharmedwithit。But,bah!I
forget。Oneshouldnameahistory。ShallInameitthehistoryofahouse?But,bah,again。Therearesomanyhouses。ShallInameitthehistoryofthishouse?’
Leaningoverthesofa,poisedontwolegsofhischairandhisleftelbow;thathandoftentappingherarmtobeathiswordshome;hislegscrossed;hisrighthandsometimesarranginghishair,sometimessmoothinghismoustache,sometimesstrikinghisnose,alwaysthreateningherwhateveritdid;coarse,insolent,rapacious,cruel,andpowerful,hepursuedhisnarrativeathisease。
’Infine,then,Inameitthehistoryofthishouse。Icommenceit。Therelivehere,letussuppose,anuncleandnephew。Theuncle,arigidoldgentlemanofstrongforceofcharacter;thenephew,habituallytimid,repressed,andunderconstraint。’
MistressAffery,fixedlyattentiveinthewindow-seat,bitingtherolledupendofherapron,andtremblingfromheadtofoot,herecriedout,’Jeremiah,keepofffromme!I’veheerd,inmydreams,ofArthur’sfatherandhisuncle。He’satalkingofthem。Itwasbeforemytimehere;butI’veheerdinmydreamsthatArthur’sfatherwasapoor,irresolute,frightenedchap,whohadhadeverythingbuthisorphanlifescaredoutofhimwhenhewasyoung,andthathehadnovoiceinthechoiceofhiswifeeven,buthisunclechoseher。Thereshesits!Iheerditinmydreams,andyousaidittoherownself。’
AsMrFlintwinchshookhisfistather,andasMrsClennamgazeduponher,Rigaudkissedhishandtoher。
’Perfectlyright,dearMadameFlintwinch。Youhaveageniusfordreaming。’
’Idon’twantnoneofyourpraises,’returnedAffery。’Idon’twanttohavenothingatalltosaytoyou。ButJeremiahsaidtheywasdreams,andI’lltell’emassuch!’Heresheputheraproninhermouthagain,asifshewerestoppingsomebodyelse’smouth——
perhapsjeremiah’s,whichwaschatteringwiththreatsasifheweregrimlycold。
’OurbelovedMadameFlintwinch,’saidRigaud,’developingallofasuddenafinesusceptibilityandspirituality,isrighttoamarvel。Yes。Sorunsthehistory。Monsieur,theuncle,commandsthenephewtomarry。Monsieursaystohimineffect,“Mynephew,Iintroducetoyoualadyofstrongforceofcharacter,likemyself——aresolvedlady,asternlady,aladywhohasawillthatcanbreaktheweaktopowder:aladywithoutpity,withoutlove,implacable,revengeful,coldasthestone,butragingasthefire。“
Ah!whatfortitude!Ah,whatsuperiorityofintellectualstrength!Truly,aproudandnoblecharacterthatIdescribeinthesupposedwordsofMonsieur,theuncle。Ha,ha,ha!Deathofmysoul,Ilovethesweetlady!’
MrsClennam’sfacehadchanged。Therewasaremarkabledarknessofcolouronit,andthebrowwasmorecontracted。’Madame,madame,’
saidRigaud,tappingheronthearm,asifhiscruelhandweresoundingamusicalinstrument,’IperceiveIinterestyou。I
perceiveIawakenyoursympathy。Letusgoon。’
Thedroopingnoseandtheascendingmoustachehad,however,tobehiddenforamomentwiththewhitehand,beforehecouldgoon;heenjoyedtheeffecthemadesomuch。
’Thenephew,being,asthelucidMadameFlintwinchhasremarked,apoordevilwhohashadeverythingbuthisorphanlifefrightenedandfamishedoutofhim——thenephewabaseshishead,andmakesresponse:“Myuncle,itistoyoutocommand。Doasyouwill!“
Monsieur,theuncle,doesashewill。Itiswhathealwaysdoes。
Theauspiciousnuptialstakeplace;thenewlymarriedcomehometothischarmingmansion;theladyisreceived,letussuppose,byFlintwinch。Hey,oldintriguer?’
Jeremiah,withhiseyesuponhismistress,madenoreply。Rigaudlookedfromonetotheother,struckhisuglynose,andmadeacluckingwithhistongue。
’Soontheladymakesasingularandexcitingdiscovery。Thereupon,fullofanger,fullofjealousy,fullofvengeance,sheforms——seeyou,madame!——aschemeofretribution,theweightofwhichsheingeniouslyforceshercrushedhusbandtobearhimself,aswellasexecuteuponherenemy。Whatsuperiorintelligence!’
’Keepoff,Jeremiah!’criedthepalpitatingAffery,takingherapronfromhermouthagain。’Butitwasoneofmydreams,thatyoutoldher,whenyouquarrelledwithheronewintereveningatdusk——
thereshesitsandyoulookingather——thatsheoughtn’ttohaveletArthurwhenhecomehome,suspecthisfatheronly;thatshehadalwayshadthestrengthandthepower;andthatsheoughttohavestoodupmoretoArthur,forhisfather。Itwasinthesamedreamwhereyousaidtoherthatshewasnot——notsomething,butIdon’tknowwhat,forsheburstouttremendousandstoppedyou。YouknowthedreamaswellasIdo。Whenyoucomedown-stairsintothekitchenwiththecandleinyourhand,andhitchedmyapronoffmyhead。WhenyoutoldmeIhadbeendreaming。Whenyouwouldn’tbelievethenoises。’AfterthisexplosionAfferyputherapronintohermouthagain;alwayskeepingherhandonthewindow-sillandherkneeonthewindow-seat,readytocryoutorjumpoutifherlordandmasterapproached。
Rigaudhadnotlostawordofthis。
’Haha!’hecried,liftinghiseyebrows,foldinghisarms,andleaningbackinhischair。’Assuredly,MadameFlintwinchisanoracle!Howshallweinterprettheoracle,youandIandtheoldintriguer?Hesaidthatyouwerenot——?Andyouburstoutandstoppedhim!Whatwasityouwerenot?Whatisityouarenot?
Saythen,madame!’
Underthisferociousbanter,shesatbreathingharder,andhermouthwasdisturbed。Herlipsquiveredandopened,inspiteofherutmosteffortstokeepthemstill。
’Comethen,madame!Speak,then!Ouroldintriguersaidthatyouwerenot——andyoustoppedhim。Hewasgoingtosaythatyouwerenot——what?Iknowalready,butIwantalittleconfidencefromyou。How,then?Youarenotwhat?’
Shetriedagaintorepressherself,butbrokeoutvehemently,’NotArthur’smother!’
’Good,’saidRigaud。’Youareamenable。’
Withthesetexpressionofherfacealltornawaybytheexplosionofherpassion,andwithabursting,fromeveryrentfeature,ofthesmoulderingfiresolongpentup,shecriedout:’Iwilltellitmyself!Iwillnothearitfromyourlips,andwiththetaintofyourwickednessuponit。Sinceitmustbeseen,IwillhaveitseenbythelightIstoodin。Notanotherword。Hearme!’
’UnlessyouareamoreobstinateandmorepersistingwomanthanevenIknowyoutobe,’MrFlintwinchinterposed,’youhadbetterleaveMrRigaud,MrBlandois,MrBeelzebub,totellitinhisownway。Whatdoesitsignifywhenheknowsallaboutit?’
’Hedoesnotknowallaboutit。’
’Heknowsallhecaresaboutit,’MrFlintwinchtestilyurged。
’Hedoesnotknowme。’
’Whatdoyousupposehecaresforyou,youconceitedwoman?’saidMrFlintwinch。
’Itellyou,Flintwinch,Iwillspeak。Itellyouwhenithascometothis,Iwilltellitwithmyownlips,andwillexpressmyselfthroughoutit。What!HaveIsufferednothinginthisroom,nodeprivation,noimprisonment,thatIshouldcondescendatlasttocontemplatemyselfinsuchaglassasthat。Canyouseehim?Canyouhearhim?Ifyourwifewereahundredtimestheingratethatsheis,andifIwereathousandtimesmorehopelessthanIamofinducinghertobesilentifthismanissilenced,Iwouldtellitmyself,beforeIwouldbearthetormentofthehearingitfromhim。’
Rigaudpushedhischairalittleback;pushedhislegsoutstraightbeforehim;andsatwithhisarmsfoldedoveragainsther。
’Youdonotknowwhatitis,’shewentonaddressinghim,’tobebroughtupstrictlyandstraitly。Iwassobroughtup。Minewasnolightyouthofsinfulgaietyandpleasure。Mineweredaysofwholesomerepression,punishment,andfear。Thecorruptionofourhearts,theevilofourways,thecursethatisuponus,theterrorsthatsurroundus——thesewerethethemesofmychildhood。
Theyformedmycharacter,andfilledmewithanabhorrenceofevil-
doers。WhenoldMrGilbertClennamproposedhisorphannephewtomyfatherformyhusband,myfatherimpresseduponmethathisbringing-uphadbeen,likemine,oneofsevererestraint。Hetoldme,thatbesidesthedisciplinehisspirithadundergone,hehadlivedinastarvedhouse,whereriotingandgaietywereunknown,andwhereeverydaywasadayoftoilandtriallikethelast。Hetoldmethathehadbeenamaninyearslongbeforehisunclehadacknowledgedhimasone;andthatfromhisschool-daystothathour,hisuncle’sroofhasbeenasanctuarytohimfromthecontagionoftheirreligiousanddissolute。When,withinatwelvemonthofourmarriage,Ifoundmyhusband,atthattimewhenmyfatherspokeofhim,tohavesinnedagainsttheLordandoutragedmebyholdingaguiltycreatureinmyplace,wasItodoubtthatithadbeenappointedtometomakethediscovery,andthatitwasappointedtometolaythehandofpunishmentuponthatcreatureofperdition?WasItodismissinamoment——notmyownwrongs——whatwasI!butalltherejectionofsin,andallthewaragainstit,inwhichIhadbeenbred?’Shelaidherwrathfulhanduponthewatchonthetable。
’No!“Donotforget。“Theinitialsofthosewordsarewithinherenow,andwerewithinherethen。Iwasappointedtofindtheoldletterthatreferredtothem,andthattoldmewhattheymeant,andwhoseworktheywere,andwhytheywereworked,lyingwiththiswatchinhissecretdrawer。Butforthatappointmenttherewouldhavebeennodiscovery。“Donotforget。“Itspoketomelikeavoicefromanangrycloud。Donotforgetthedeadlysin,donotforgettheappointeddiscovery,donotforgettheappointedsuffering。Ididnotforget。WasitmyownwrongIremembered?
Mine!Iwasbutaservantandaminister。WhatpowercouldIhaveoverthem,butthattheywereboundinthebondsoftheirsin,anddeliveredtome!’
Morethanfortyyearshadpassedoverthegreyheadofthisdeterminedwoman,sincethetimesherecalled。Morethanfortyyearsofstrifeandstrugglewiththewhisperthat,bywhatevernameshecalledhervindictiveprideandrage,nothingthroughalleternitycouldchangetheirnature。Yet,gonethosemorethanfortyyears,andcomethisNemesisnowlookingherintheface,shestillabidedbyheroldimpiety——stillreversedtheorderofCreation,andbreathedherownbreathintoaclayimageofherCreator。Verily,verily,travellershaveseenmanymonstrousidolsinmanycountries;butnohumaneyeshaveeverseenmoredaring,gross,andshockingimagesoftheDivinenaturethanwecreaturesofthedustmakeinourownlikenesses,ofourownbadpassions。
’WhenIforcedhimtogiveheruptome,byhernameandplaceofabode,’shewentoninhertorrentofindignationanddefence;
’whenIaccusedher,andshefellhidingherfaceatmyfeet,wasitmyinjurythatIasserted,weretheymyreproachesthatIpoureduponher?Thosewhowereappointedofoldtogotowickedkingsandaccusethem——weretheynotministersandservants?AndhadnotI,unworthyandfar-removedfromthem,sintodenounce?Whenshepleadedtomeheryouth,andhiswretchedandhardlifethatwasherphraseforthevirtuoustraininghehadbelied,andthe
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