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第137章

  ’Mother,shallIdonothingtoassistyou?’
  ’Nothing。’
  ’Willyouentrustmewithnoconfidence,nocharge,noexplanation?
  Willyoutakenocounselwithme?Willyounotletmecomenearyou?’
  ’Howcanyouaskme?Youseparatedyourselffrommyaffairs。Itwasnotmyact;itwasyours。Howcanyouconsistentlyaskmesuchaquestion?YouknowthatyouleftmetoFlintwinch,andthatheoccupiesyourplace。’
  GlancingatJeremiah,Clennamsawinhisverygaitersthathisattentionwascloselydirectedtothem,thoughhestoodleaningagainstthewallscrapinghisjaw,andpretendedtolistentoFloraassheheldforthinamostdistractingmanneronachaosofsubjects,inwhichmackerel,andMrF。’sAuntinaswing,hadbecomeentangledwithcockchafersandthewinetrade。
  ’Aprisoner,inaFrenchgaol,onanaccusationofmurder,’
  repeatedMrsClennam,steadilygoingoverwhathersonhadsaid。
  ’Thatisallyouknowofhimfromthefellow-prisoner?’
  ’Insubstance,all。’
  ’Andwasthefellow-prisonerhisaccompliceandamurderer,too?
  But,ofcourse,hegivesabetteraccountofhimselfthanofhisfriend;itisneedlesstoask。Thiswillsupplytherestofthemherewithsomethingnewtotalkabout。Casby,Arthurtellsme——’
  ’Stay,mother!Stay,stay!’Heinterruptedherhastily,forithadnotenteredhisimaginationthatshewouldopenlyproclaimwhathehadtoldher。
  ’Whatnow?’shesaidwithdispleasure。’Whatmore?’
  ’Ibegyoutoexcuseme,MrCasby——andyou,too,MrsFinching——foroneothermomentwithmymother——’
  Hehadlaidhishanduponherchair,orshewouldotherwisehavewheeleditroundwiththetouchofherfootupontheground。Theywerestillfacetoface。Shelookedathim,asheranoverthepossibilitiesofsomeresulthehadnotintended,andcouldnotforesee,beinginfluencedbyCavalletto’sdisclosurebecomingamatterofnotoriety,andhurriedlyarrivedattheconclusionthatithadbestnotbetalkedabout;thoughperhapshewasguidedbynomoredistinctreasonthanthathehadtakenitforgrantedthathismotherwouldreserveittoherselfandherpartner。
  ’Whatnow?’shesaidagain,impatiently。’Whatisit?’
  ’Ididnotmean,mother,thatyoushouldrepeatwhatIhavecommunicated。Ithinkyouhadbetternotrepeatit。’
  ’Doyoumakethataconditionwithme?’
  ’Well!Yes。’
  ’Observe,then!Itisyouwhomakethisasecret,’saidshe,holdingupherhand,’andnotI。Itisyou,Arthur,whobringheredoubtsandsuspicionsandentreatiesforexplanations,anditisyou,Arthur,whobringsecretshere。Whatisittome,doyouthink,wherethemanhasbeen,orwhathehasbeen?Whatcanitbetome?Thewholeworldmayknowit,iftheycaretoknowit;itisnothingtome。Now,letmego。’
  Heyieldedtoherimperiousbutelatedlook,andturnedherchairbacktotheplacefromwhichhehadwheeledit。IndoingsohesawelationinthefaceofMrFlintwinch,whichmostassuredlywasnotinspiredbyFlora。thisturningofhisintelligenceandofhiswholeattemptanddesignagainsthimself,didevenmorethanhismother’sfixednessandfirmnesstoconvincehimthathiseffortswithherwereidle。NothingremainedbuttheappealtohisoldfriendAffery。
  Buteventogettheverydoubtfulandpreliminarystageofmakingtheappeal,seemedoneoftheleastpromisingofhumanundertakings。Shewassocompletelyunderthethrallofthetwocleverones,wassosystematicallykeptinsightbyoneorotherofthem,andwassoafraidtogoaboutthehousebesides,thateveryopportunityofspeakingtoheraloneappearedtobeforestalled。
  Overandabovethat,MistressAffery,bysomemeansitwasnotverydifficulttoguess,throughthesharpargumentsofherliegelord,hadacquiredsuchalivelyconvictionofthehazardofsayinganythingunderanycircumstances,thatshehadremainedallthistimeinacornerguardingherselffromapproachwiththatsymbolicalinstrumentofhers;sothat,whenawordortwohadbeenaddressedtoherbyFlora,orevenbythebottle-greenpatriarchhimself,shehadwardedoffconversationwiththetoasting-forklikeadumbwoman。
  AfterseveralabortiveattemptstogetAfferytolookathimwhilesheclearedthetableandwashedthetea-service,ArthurthoughtofanexpedientwhichFloramightoriginate。Towhomhethereforewhispered,’Couldyousayyouwouldliketogothroughthehouse?’
  Now,poorFlora,beingalwaysinfluctuatingexpectationofthetimewhenClennamwouldrenewhisboyhoodandbemadlyinlovewithheragain,receivedthewhisperwiththeutmostdelight;notonlyasrenderedpreciousbyitsmysteriouscharacter,butaspreparingthewayforatenderinterviewinwhichhewoulddeclarethestateofhisaffections。Sheimmediatelybegantoworkoutthehint。
  ’Ahdearmethepooroldroom,’saidFlora,glancinground,’looksjustaseverMrsClennamIamtouchedtoseeexceptforbeingsmokierwhichwastobeexpectedwithtimeandwhichwemustallexpectandreconcileourselvestobeingwhetherwelikeitornotasIamsureIhavehadtodomyselfifnotexactlysmokierdreadfullystouterwhichisthesameorworse,tothinkofthedayswhenpapausedtobringmeheretheleastofgirlsaperfectmassofchilblainstobestuckuponachairwithmyfeetontherailsandstareatArthur——prayexcuseme——MrClennam——theleastofboysinthefrightfullestoffrillsandjacketsereyetMrF。appearedamistyshadowonthehorizonpayingattentionslikethewell-knownspectreofsomeplaceinGermanybeginningwithaBisamorallessoninculcatingthatallthepathsinlifearesimilartothepathsdownintheNorthofEnglandwheretheygetthecoalsandmaketheironandthingsgravelledwithashes!’
  Havingpaidthetributeofasightotheinstabilityofhumanexistence,Florahurriedonwithherpurpose。
  ’Notthatatanytime,’sheproceeded,’itsworstenemycouldhavesaiditwasacheerfulhouseforthatitwasnevermadetobebutalwayshighlyimpressive,fondmemoryrecallsanoccasioninyouthereyetthejudgmentwasmaturewhenArthur——confirmedhabit——MrClennam——tookmedownintoanunusedkitcheneminentformouldinessandproposedtosecretemethereforlifeandfeedmeonwhathecouldhidefromhismealswhenhewasnotathomefortheholidaysandondrybreadindisgracewhichatthathalcyonperiodtoofrequentlyoccurred,woulditbeinconvenientoraskingtoomuchtobegtobepermittedtorevivethosescenesandwalkthroughthehouse?’
  MrsClennam,whorespondedwithaconstrainedgracetoMrsFinching’sgoodnatureinbeingthereatall,thoughhervisitbeforeArthur’sunexpectedarrivalwasundoubtedlyanactofpuregoodnatureandnoself-gratification,intimatedthatallthehousewasopentoher。FloraroseandlookedtoArthurforhisescort。
  ’Certainly,’saidhe,aloud;’andAfferywilllightus,Idaresay。’
  Afferywasexcusingherselfwith’Don’tasknothingofme,Arthur!’
  whenMrFlintwinchstoppedherwith’Whynot?Affery,what’sthematterwithyou,woman?Whynot,jade!’Thusexpostulatedwith,shecameunwillinglyoutofhercorner,resignedthetoasting-forkintooneofherhusband’shands,andtookthecandlestickheofferedfromtheother。
  ’Gobefore,youfool!’saidJeremiah。’Areyougoingup,ordown,MrsFinching?’
  Floraanswered,’Down。’
  ’Thengobefore,anddown,youAffery,’saidJeremiah。’Anddoitproperly,orI’llcomerollingdownthebanisters,andtumblingoveryou!’
  Afferyheadedtheexploringparty;Jeremiahclosedit。Hehadnointentionofleavingthem。Clennamlookingback,andseeinghimfollowingthreestairsbehind,inthecoolestandmostmethodicalmannerexclaimedinalowvoice,’Istherenogettingridofhim!’
  Florareassuredhismindbyreplyingpromptly,’WhythoughnotexactlyproperArthurandathingIcouldn’tthinkofbeforeayoungermanorastrangerstillIdon’tmindhimifyousoparticularlywishitandprovidedyou’llhavethegoodnessnottotakemetootight。’
  Wantingthehearttoexplainthatthiswasnotatallwhathemeant,ArthurextendedhissupportingarmroundFlora’sfigure。
  ’Ohmygoodnessme,’saidshe。’Youareveryobedientindeedreallyandit’sextremelyhonourableandgentlemanlyinyouIamsurebutstillatthesametimeifyouwouldliketobealittletighterthanthatIshouldn’tconsideritintruding。’
  Inthispreposterousattitude,unspeakablyatvariancewithhisanxiousmind,Clennamdescendedtothebasementofthehouse;
  findingthatwhereveritbecamedarkerthanelsewhere,Florabecameheavier,andthatwhenthehousewaslightestshewastoo。
  Returningfromthedismalkitchenregions,whichwereasdrearyastheycouldbe,MistressAfferypassedwiththelightintohisfather’soldroom,andthenintotheolddining-room;alwayspassingonbeforelikeaphantomthatwasnottobeovertaken,andneitherturningnoransweringwhenhewhispered,’Affery!Iwanttospeaktoyou!’
  Inthedining-room,asentimentaldesirecameoverFloratolookintothedragonclosetwhichhadsooftenswallowedArthurinthedaysofhisboyhood——notimprobablybecause,asaverydarkcloset,itwasalikelyplacetobeheavyin。Arthur,fastsubsidingintodespair,hadopenedit,whenaknockwasheardattheouterdoor。
  MistressAffery,withasuppressedcry,threwherapronoverherhead。
  ’What?Youwantanotherdose!’saidMrFlintwinch。’Youshallhaveit,mywoman,youshallhaveagoodone!Oh!Youshallhaveasneezer,youshallhaveateaser!’
  ’Inthemeantimeisanybodygoingtothedoor?’saidArthur。
  ’Inthemeantime,Iamgoingtothedoor,sir,’returnedtheoldmansosavagely,astorenderitclearthatinachoiceofdifficultieshefelthemustgo,thoughhewouldhavepreferrednottogo。’Stayherethewhile,all!Affery,mywoman,moveaninch,orspeakawordinyourfoolishness,andI’lltrebleyourdose!’
  Themomenthewasgone,ArthurreleasedMrsFinching:withsomedifficulty,byreasonofthatladymisunderstandinghisintentions,andmakingarrangementswithaviewtotighteninginsteadofslackening。
  ’Affery,speaktomenow!’
  ’Don’ttouchme,Arthur!’shecried,shrinkingfromhim。’Don’tcomenearme。He’llseeyou。Jeremiahwill。Don’t。’
  ’Hecan’tseeme,’returnedArthur,suitingtheactiontotheword,’ifIblowthecandleout。’
  ’He’llhearyou,’criedAffery。
  ’Hecan’thearme,’returnedArthur,suitingtheactiontothewordsagain,’ifIdrawyouintothisblackcloset,andspeakhere。
  Whydoyouhideyourface?’
  ’BecauseIamafraidofseeingsomething。’
  ’Youcan’tbeafraidofseeinganythinginthisdarkness,Affery。’
  ’YesIam。Muchmorethanifitwaslight。’
  ’Whyareyouafraid?’