Shepausedforaninstantinherworktolookathim,andherlookrevivedthatformerpaininherfather’sbreast;inhispoorweakbreast,sofullofcontradictions,vacillations,inconsistencies,thelittlepeevishperplexitiesofthisignorantlife,mistswhichthemorningwithoutanightonlycanclearaway。
’Ihavebeenfreerwithyou,yousee,mydove,’saidtheoldman,’sincewehavebeenalone。Isay,alone,forIdon’tcountMrsGeneral;Idon’tcareforher;shehasnothingtodowithme。ButIknowFannywasimpatientofme。AndIdon’twonderatit,orcomplainofit,forIamsensiblethatImustbeintheway,thoughItrytokeepoutofitaswellasIcan。IknowIamnotfitcompanyforourcompany。MybrotherWilliam,’saidtheoldmanadmiringly,’isfitcompanyformonarchs;butnotsoyouruncle,mydear。FrederickDorritisnocredittoWilliamDorrit,andheknowsitquitewell。Ah!Why,here’syourfather,Amy!MydearWilliam,welcomeback!Mybelovedbrother,Iamrejoicedtoseeyou!’
Turninghisheadinspeaking,hehadcaughtsightofhimashestoodinthedoorway。
LittleDorritwithacryofpleasureputherarmsaboutherfather’sneck,andkissedhimagainandagain。Herfatherwasalittleimpatient,andalittlequerulous。’Iamgladtofindyouatlast,Amy,’hesaid。’Ha。ReallyIamgladtofind——hum——anyonetoreceivemeatlast。Iappeartohavebeen——ha——solittleexpected,thatuponmywordIbegan——hahum——tothinkitmightberighttoofferanapologyfor——ha——takingthelibertyofcomingbackatall。’
’Itwassolate,mydearWilliam,’saidhisbrother,’thatwehadgivenyouupforto-night。’
’Iamstrongerthanyou,dearFrederick,’returnedhisbrotherwithanelaborationoffraternityinwhichtherewasseverity;’andI
hopeIcantravelwithoutdetrimentat——ha——anyhourIchoose。’
’Surely,surely,’returnedtheother,withamisgivingthathehadgivenoffence。’Surely,William。’
’Thankyou,Amy,’pursuedMrDorrit,asshehelpedhimtoputoffhiswrappers。’Icandoitwithoutassistance。I——ha——neednottroubleyou,Amy。CouldIhaveamorselofbreadandaglassofwine,or——hum——woulditcausetoomuchinconvenience?’
’Dearfather,youshallhavesupperinaveryfewminutes。’
’Thankyou,mylove,’saidMrDorrit,withareproachfulfrostuponhim;’I——ha——amafraidIamcausinginconvenience。Hum。MrsGeneralprettywell?’
’MrsGeneralcomplainedofaheadache,andofbeingfatigued;andso,whenwegaveyouup,shewenttobed,dear。’
PerhapsMrDorritthoughtthatMrsGeneralhaddonewellinbeingovercomebythedisappointmentofhisnotarriving。Atanyrate,hisfacerelaxed,andhesaidwithobvioussatisfaction,’ExtremelysorrytohearthatMrsGeneralisnotwell。’
Duringthisshortdialogue,hisdaughterhadbeenobservantofhim,withsomethingmorethanherusualinterest。Itwouldseemasthoughhehadachangedorwornappearanceinhereyes,andheperceivedandresentedit;forhesaidwithrenewedpeevishness,whenhehaddivestedhimselfofhistravelling-cloak,andhadcometothefire:
’Amy,whatareyoulookingat?Whatdoyouseeinmethatcausesyouto——ha——concentrateyoursolicitudeonmeinthat——hum——veryparticularmanner?’
’Ididnotknowit,father;Ibegyourpardon。Itgladdensmyeyestoseeyouagain;that’sall。’
’Don’tsaythat’sall,because——ha——that’snotall。You——hum——youthink,’saidMrDorrit,withanaccusatoryemphasis,’thatIamnotlookingwell。’
’Ithoughtyoulookedalittletired,love。’
’Thenyouaremistaken,’saidMrDorrit。’Ha,Iamnottired。Ha,hum。IamverymuchfresherthanIwaswhenIwentaway。’
Hewassoinclinedtobeangrythatshesaidnothingmoreinherjustification,butremainedquietlybesidehimembracinghisarm。
Ashestoodthus,withhisbrotherontheotherside,hefellintoaheavydoze,ofnotaminute’sduration,andawokewithastart。
’Frederick,’hesaid,turningtohisbrother:’Irecommendyoutogotobedimmediately。’
’No,William。I’llwaitandseeyousup。’
’Frederick,’heretorted,’Ibegyoutogotobed。I——ha——makeitapersonalrequestthatyougotobed。Yououghttohavebeeninbedlongago。Youareveryfeeble。’
’Hah!’saidtheoldman,whohadnowishbuttopleasehim。’Well,well,well!IdaresayIam。’
’MydearFrederick,’returnedMrDorrit,withanastonishingsuperioritytohisbrother’sfailingpowers,’therecanbenodoubtofit。Itispainfultometoseeyousoweak。Ha。Itdistressesme。Hum。Idon’tfindyoulookingatallwell。Youarenotfitforthissortofthing。Youshouldbemorecareful,youshouldbeverycareful。’
’ShallIgotobed?’askedFrederick。
’DearFrederick,’saidMrDorrit,’do,Iadjureyou!Goodnight,brother。Ihopeyouwillbestrongerto-morrow。Iamnotatallpleasedwithyourlooks。Goodnight,dearfellow。’Afterdismissinghisbrotherinthisgraciousway,hefellintoadozeagainbeforetheoldmanwaswelloutoftheroom:andhewouldhavestumbledforwarduponthelogs,butforhisdaughter’srestraininghold。
’Yourunclewandersverymuch,Amy,’hesaid,whenhewasthusroused。’Heisless——ha——coherent,andhisconversationismore——
hum——broken,thanIhave——ha,hum——everknown。HashehadanyillnesssinceIhavebeengone?’
’No,father。’
’You——ha——seeagreatchangeinhim,Amy?’
’Ihavenotobservedit,dear。’
’Greatlybroken,’saidMrDorrit。’Greatlybroken。Mypoor,affectionate,failingFrederick!Ha。Eventakingintoaccountwhathewasbefore,heis——hum——sadlybroken!’
Hissupper,whichwasbroughttohimthere,andspreaduponthelittletablewherehehadseenherworking,divertedhisattention。
Shesatathissideasinthedaysthatweregone,forthefirsttimesincethosedaysended。Theywerealone,andshehelpedhimtohismeatandpouredouthisdrinkforhim,asshehadbeenusedtodointheprison。Allthishappenednow,forthefirsttimesincetheiraccessiontowealth。Shewasafraidtolookathimmuch,aftertheoffencehehadtaken;butshenoticedtwooccasionsinthecourseofhismeal,whenheallofasuddenlookedather,andlookedabouthim,asiftheassociationweresostrongthatheneededassurancefromhissenseofsightthattheywerenotintheoldprison-room。Bothtimes,heputhishandtohisheadasifhemissedhisoldblackcap——thoughithadbeenignominiouslygivenawayintheMarshalsea,andhadnevergotfreetothathour,butstillhoveredabouttheyardsontheheadofhissuccessor。
Hetookverylittlesupper,butwasalongtimeoverit,andoftenrevertedtohisbrother’sdecliningstate。Thoughheexpressedthegreatestpityforhim,hewasalmostbitteruponhim。HesaidthatpoorFrederick——hahum——drivelled。Therewasnootherwordtoexpressit;drivelled。Poorfellow!ItwasmelancholytoreflectwhatAmymusthaveundergonefromtheexcessivetediousnessofhisSociety——wanderingandbabblingon,poordearestimablecreature,wanderingandbabblingon——ifithadnotbeenforthereliefshehadhadinMrsGeneral。Extremelysorry,hethenrepeatedwithhisformersatisfaction,thatthat——ha——superiorwomanwaspoorly。
LittleDorrit,inherwatchfullove,wouldhaverememberedthelightestthinghesaidordidthatnight,thoughshehadhadnosubsequentreasontorecallthatnight。Shealwaysrememberedthat,whenhelookedabouthimunderthestronginfluenceoftheoldassociation,hetriedtokeepitoutofhermind,andperhapsoutofhisowntoo,byimmediatelyexpatiatingonthegreatrichesandgreatcompanythathadencompassedhiminhisabsence,andontheloftypositionheandhisfamilyhadtosustain。Nordidshefailtorecallthatthereweretwounder-currents,sidebyside,pervadingallhisdiscourseandallhismanner;oneshowingherhowwellhehadgotonwithouther,andhowindependenthewasofher;
theother,inafitfulandunintelligiblewayalmostcomplainingofher,asifithadbeenpossiblethatshehadneglectedhimwhilehewasaway。
HistellingherofthegloriousstatethatMrMerdlekept,andofthecourtthatbowedbeforehim,naturallybroughthimtoMrsMerdle。Sonaturallyindeed,thatalthoughtherewasanunusualwantofsequenceinthegreaterpartofhisremarks,hepassedtoheratonce,andaskedhowshewas。
’Sheisverywell。Sheisgoingawaynextweek。’
’Home?’askedMrDorrit。
’Afterafewweeks’stayupontheroad。’
’Shewillbeavastlosshere,’saidMrDorrit。’Avast——ha——
acquisitionathome。ToFanny,andto——hum——therestofthe——ha——
greatworld。’
LittleDorritthoughtofthecompetitionthatwastobeenteredupon,andassentedverysoftly。
’MrsMerdleisgoingtohaveagreatfarewellAssembly,dear,andadinnerbeforeit。Shehasbeenexpressingheranxietythatyoushouldreturnintime。Shehasinvitedbothyouandmetoherdinner。’
’Sheis——ha——verykind。Whenistheday?’
’Thedayafterto-morrow。’
’Writeroundinthemorning,andsaythatIhavereturned,andshall——hum——bedelighted。’
’MayIwalkwithyouupthestairstoyourroom,dear?’
’No!’heanswered,lookingangrilyround;forhewasmovingaway,asifforgetfulofleave-taking。’Youmaynot,Amy。Iwantnohelp。Iamyourfather,notyourinfirmuncle!’Hecheckedhimself,asabruptlyashehadbrokenintothisreply,andsaid,’Youhavenotkissedme,Amy。Goodnight,mydear!Wemustmarry——ha——wemustmarryYOU,now。’Withthathewent,moreslowlyandmoretired,upthestaircasetohisrooms,and,almostassoonashegotthere,dismissedhisvalet。HisnextcarewastolookabouthimforhisParispurchases,and,afteropeningtheircasesandcarefullysurveyingthem,toputthemawayunderlockandkey。
Afterthat,whatwithdozingandwhatwithcastle-building,helosthimselfforalongtime,sothattherewasatouchofmorningontheeastwardrimofthedesolateCampagnawhenhecrepttobed。
MrsGeneralsentuphercomplimentsingoodtimenextday,andhopedhehadrestedwellafterthisfatiguingjourney。Hesentdownhiscompliments,andbeggedtoinformMrsGeneralthathehadrestedverywellindeed,andwasinhighcondition。Nevertheless,hedidnotcomeforthfromhisownroomsuntillateintheafternoon;and,althoughhethencausedhimselftobemagnificentlyarrayedforadrivewithMrsGeneralandhisdaughter,hisappearancewasscarcelyuptohisdescriptionofhimself。
Asthefamilyhadnovisitorsthatday,itsfourmembersdinedalonetogether。HeconductedMrsGeneraltotheseatathisrighthandwithimmenseceremony;andLittleDorritcouldnotbutnoticeasshefollowedwithheruncle,boththathewasagainelaboratelydressed,andthathismannertowardsMrsGeneralwasveryparticular。Theperfectformationofthataccomplishedlady’ssurfacerendereditdifficulttodisplaceanatomofitsgenteelglaze,butLittleDorritthoughtshedescriedaslightthawoftriumphinacornerofherfrostyeye。
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