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第118章

  ’PoorEdward!’sighedLittleDorrit,withthewholefamilyhistoryinthesigh。
  ’Yes。Andpooryouandme,too,’returnedFanny,rathersharply。
  ’Verytrue!Then,mydear,wehavenomother,andwehaveaMrsGeneral。AndItellyouagain,darling,thatMrsGeneral,ifImayreverseacommonproverbandadaptittoher,isacatingloveswhoWILLcatchmice。Thatwoman,Iamquitesureandconfident,willbeourmother-in-law。’
  ’Icanhardlythink,Fanny-’Fannystoppedher。
  ’Now,don’targuewithmeaboutit,Amy,’saidshe,’becauseIknowbetter。’Feelingthatshehadbeensharpagain,shedabbedhersister’sforeheadagain,andblewuponitagain。’Toresumeoncemore,mydear。ItthenbecomesaquestionwithmeIamproudandspirited,Amy,asyouverywellknow:toomuchso,Idaresay
  whetherIshallmakeupmymindtotakeituponmyselftocarrythefamilythrough。’
  ’How?’askedhersister,anxiously。
  ’Iwillnot,’saidFanny,withoutansweringthequestion,’submittobemother-in-lawedbyMrsGeneral;andIwillnotsubmittobe,inanyrespectwhatever,eitherpatronisedortormentedbyMrsMerdle。’
  LittleDorritlaidherhanduponthehandthatheldthebottleofsweetwater,withastillmoreanxiouslook。Fanny,quitepunishingherownforeheadwiththevehementdabsshenowbegantogiveit,fitfullywenton。
  ’Thathehassomehoworother,andhowisofnoconsequence,attainedaverygoodposition,noonecandeny。Thatitisaverygoodconnection,noonecandeny。Andastothequestionofcleverornotclever,Idoubtverymuchwhetheracleverhusbandwouldbesuitabletome。Icannotsubmit。Ishouldnotbeabletodefertohimenough。’
  ’O,mydearFanny!’expostulatedLittleDorrit,uponwhomakindofterrorhadbeenstealingassheperceivedwhathersistermeant。
  ’Ifyoulovedanyone,allthisfeelingwouldchange。Ifyoulovedanyone,youwouldnomorebeyourself,butyouwouldquiteloseandforgetyourselfinyourdevotiontohim。Ifyoulovedhim,Fanny——’Fannyhadstoppedthedabbinghand,andwaslookingatherfixedly。
  ’O,indeed!’criedFanny。’Really?Blessme,howmuchsomepeopleknowofsomesubjects!Theysayeveryonehasasubject,andI
  certainlyseemtohavehituponyours,Amy。There,youlittlething,Iwasonlyinfun,’dabbinghersister’sforehead;’butdon’tyoubeasillypuss,anddon’tyouthinkflightilyandeloquentlyaboutdegenerateimpossibilities。There!Now,I’llgobacktomyself。’
  ’DearFanny,letmesayfirst,thatIwouldfarratherweworkedforascantylivingagainthanIwouldseeyourichandmarriedtoMrSparkler。’
  ’Letyousay,mydear?’retortedFanny。’Why,ofcourse,Iwillletyousayanything。Thereisnoconstraintuponyou,Ihope。Wearetogethertotalkitover。AndastomarryingMrSparkler,I
  havenottheslightestintentionofdoingsoto-night,mydear,orto-morrowmorningeither。’
  ’Butatsometime?’
  ’Atnotime,foranythingIknowatpresent,’answeredFanny,withindifference。Then,suddenlychangingherindifferenceintoaburningrestlessness,sheadded,’Youtalkabouttheclevermen,youlittlething!It’sallveryfineandeasytotalkabouttheclevermen;butwherearethey?Idon’tseethemanywherenearme!’
  ’MydearFanny,soshortatime——’
  ’Shorttimeorlongtime,’interruptedFanny。’Iamimpatientofoursituation。Idon’tlikeoursituation,andverylittlewouldinducemetochangeit。Othergirls,differentlyrearedanddifferentlycircumstancedaltogether,mightwonderatwhatIsayormaydo。Letthem。Theyaredrivenbytheirlivesandcharacters;
  Iamdrivenbymine。’
  ’Fanny,mydearFanny,youknowthatyouhavequalitiestomakeyouthewifeofoneverysuperiortoMrSparkler。’
  ’Amy,mydearAmy,’retortedFanny,parodyingherwords,’IknowthatIwishtohaveamoredefinedanddistinctposition,inwhichIcanassertmyselfwithgreatereffectagainstthatinsolentwoman。’
  ’Wouldyoutherefore——forgivemyasking,Fanny——thereforemarryherson?’
  ’Why,perhaps,’saidFanny,withatriumphantsmile。’Theremaybemanylesspromisingwaysofarrivingatanendthanthat,MYdear。
  Thatpieceofinsolencemaythink,now,thatitwouldbeagreatsuccesstogethersonoffuponme,andshelveme。But,perhaps,shelittlethinkshowIwouldretortuponherifImarriedherson。
  Iwouldopposeherineverything,andcompetewithher。Iwouldmakeitthebusinessofmylife。’
  Fannysetdownthebottlewhenshecametothis,andwalkedabouttheroom;alwaysstoppingandstandingstillwhileshespoke。
  ’OnethingIcouldcertainlydo,mychild:Icouldmakeherolder。
  AndIwould!’
  Thiswasfollowedbyanotherwalk。
  ’Iwouldtalkofherasanoldwoman。Iwouldpretendtoknow——ifIdidn’t,butIshouldfromherson——allaboutherage。Andsheshouldhearmesay,Amy:affectionately,quitedutifullyandaffectionately:howwellshelooked,consideringhertimeoflife。
  Icouldmakeherseemolderatonce,bybeingmyselfsomuchyounger。Imaynotbeashandsomeassheis;Iamnotafairjudgeofthatquestion,Isuppose;butIknowIamhandsomeenoughtobeathorninherside。AndIwouldbe!’
  ’Mydearsister,wouldyoucondemnyourselftoanunhappylifeforthis?’
  ’Itwouldn’tbeanunhappylife,Amy。ItwouldbethelifeIamfittedfor。Whetherbydisposition,orwhetherbycircumstances,isnomatter;Iambetterfittedforsuchalifethanforalmostanyother。’
  Therewassomethingofadesolatetoneinthosewords;but,withashortproudlaughshetookanotherwalk,andafterpassingagreatlooking-glasscametoanotherstop。
  ’Figure!Figure,Amy!Well。Thewomanhasagoodfigure。Iwillgiveherherdue,andnotdenyit。Butisitsofarbeyondallothersthatitisaltogetherunapproachable?Uponmyword,Iamnotsosureofit。Givesomemuchyoungerwomanthelatitudeastodressthatshehas,beingmarried;andwewouldseeaboutthat,mydear!’
  Somethinginthethoughtthatwasagreeableandflattering,broughtherbacktoherseatinagayertemper。Shetookhersister’shandsinhers,andclappedallfourhandsaboveherheadasshelookedinhersister’sfacelaughing:
  ’Andthedancer,Amy,thatshehasquiteforgotten——thedancerwhoborenosortofresemblancetome,andofwhomIneverremindher,ohdearno!——shoulddancethroughherlife,anddanceinherway,tosuchatuneaswoulddisturbherinsolentplacidityalittle。
  justalittle,mydearAmy,justalittle!’
  MeetinganearnestandimploringlookinAmy’sface,shebroughtthefourhandsdown,andlaidonlyoneonAmy’slips。
  ’Now,don’targuewithme,child,’shesaidinasternerway,’becauseitisofnouse。Iunderstandthesesubjectsmuchbetterthanyoudo。Ihavenotnearlymadeupmymind,butitmaybe。
  Nowwehavetalkedthisovercomfortably,andmaygotobed。Youbestanddearestlittlemouse,Goodnight!’WiththosewordsFannyweighedherAnchor,and——havingtakensomuchadvice——leftoffbeingadvisedforthatoccasion。
  Thenceforward,AmyobservedMrSparkler’streatmentbyhisenslaver,withnewreasonsforattachingimportancetoallthatpassedbetweenthem。ThereweretimeswhenFannyappearedquiteunabletoendurehismentalfeebleness,andwhenshebecamesosharplyimpatientofitthatshewouldallbutdismisshimforgood。Therewereothertimeswhenshegotonmuchbetterwithhim;
  whenheamusedher,andwhenhersenseofsuperiorityseemedtocounterbalancethatoppositesideofthescale。IfMrSparklerhadbeenotherthanthefaithfullestandmostsubmissiveofswains,hewassufficientlyhardpressedtohavefledfromthesceneofhistrials,andhavesetatleastthewholedistancefromRometoLondonbetweenhimselfandhisenchantress。Buthehadnogreaterwillofhisownthanaboathaswhenitistowedbyasteam-ship;
  andhefollowedhiscruelmistressthroughroughandsmooth,onequallystrongcompulsion。
  MrsMerdle,duringthesepassages,saidlittletoFanny,butsaidmoreabouther。Shewas,asitwere,forcedtolookatherthroughhereye-glass,andingeneralconversationtoallowcommendationsofherbeautytobewrungfromherbyitsirresistibledemands。
  ThedefiantcharacteritassumedwhenFannyheardtheseextollingsasitgenerallyhappenedthatshedid,wasnotexpressiveofconcessionstotheimpartialbosom;buttheutmostrevengethebosomtookwas,tosayaudibly,’Aspoiltbeauty——butwiththatfaceandshape,whocouldwonder?’
  Itmighthavebeenaboutamonthorsixweeksafterthenightofthenewadvice,whenLittleDorritbegantothinkshedetectedsomenewunderstandingbetweenMrSparklerandFanny。MrSparkler,asifinattendancetosomecompact,scarcelyeverspokewithoutfirstlookingtowardsFannyforleave。Thatyoungladywastoodiscreetevertolookbackagain;but,ifMrSparklerhadpermissiontospeak,sheremainedsilent;ifhehadnot,sheherselfspoke。
  Moreover,itbecameplainwheneverHenryGowanattemptedtoperformthefriendlyofficeofdrawinghimout,thathewasnottobedrawn。Andnotonlythat,butFannywouldpresently,withoutanypointedapplicationintheworld,chancetosaysomethingwithsuchastinginitthatGowanwoulddrawbackasifhehadputhishandintoabee-hive。
  TherewasyetanothercircumstancewhichwentalongwaytoconfirmLittleDorritinherfears,thoughitwasnotagreatcircumstanceinitself。MrSparkler’sdemeanourtowardsherselfchanged。Itbecamefraternal。Sometimes,whenshewasintheoutercircleofassemblies——attheirownresidence,atMrsMerdle’s,orelsewhere——
  shewouldfindherselfstealthilysupportedroundthewaistbyMrSparkler’sarm。MrSparklerneverofferedtheslightestexplanationofthisattention;butmerelysmiledwithanairofblundering,contented,good-naturedproprietorship,which,insoheavyagentleman,wasominouslyexpressive。
  LittleDorritwasathomeoneday,thinkingaboutFannywithaheavyheart。Theyhadaroomatoneendoftheirdrawing-roomsuite,nearlyallirregularbay-window,projectingoverthestreet,andcommandingallthepicturesquelifeandvarietyoftheCorso,bothupanddown。Atthreeorfouro’clockintheafternoon,Englishtime,theviewfromthiswindowwasverybrightandpeculiar;andLittleDorritusedtositandmusehere,muchasshehadbeenusedtowhileawaythetimeinherbalconyatVenice。
  Seatedthusoneday,shewassoftlytouchedontheshoulder,andFannysaid,’Well,Amydear,’andtookherseatatherside。Theirseatwasapartofthewindow;whentherewasanythinginthewayofaprocessiongoingon,theyusedtohavebrightdraperieshungoutofthewindow,andusedtokneelorsitonthisseat,andlookoutatit,leaningonthebrilliantcolour。Buttherewasnoprocessionthatday,andLittleDorritwasrathersurprisedbyFanny’sbeingathomeatthathour,asshewasgenerallyoutonhorsebackthen。
  ’Well,Amy,’saidFanny,’whatareyouthinkingof,littleone?’
  ’Iwasthinkingofyou,Fanny。’
  ’No?Whatacoincidence!Ideclarehere’ssomeoneelse。Youwerenotthinkingofthissomeoneelsetoo;wereyou,Amy?’