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第25章

  “She’sa-crying,“saidhe。
  Iwithheldfromquestions,andashekeptalongbymysidehesaid:“I’msorry。Doyouthinkshe’smadwithLinforwhathe’stoldher?Shejustsat,andwhenshestartedcryinghemademegoaway。“
  “Idon’tbelieveshe’smad,“ItoldBilly;andIsatdownonmyblanket,hebesideme,talkingwhilethemoongrewsmallasitroseovertheplain,andthelightsteadilyshoneinJessamine’swindow。SoonyoungBillyfellasleep,andIlookedathim,thinkinghowinawayitwashewhohadbroughtthistroubleonthemanwhohadsavedhimandlovedhim。
  Butthatmanhadnosuchuntenderthoughts。Oncemorethedooropened,anditwashewhocamethistime,alonealso。Shedidnotfollowhimandstandtowatchhimfromthethreshold,thoughheforgottoclosethedoor,and,comingovertome,stoodlookingdown。
  “What?“Isaidatlength。
  Idon’tknowthatheheardme。HestoopedoverBillyandshookhimgently。“Wake,son,“saidhe。“YouandImustgettoourcampnow。“
  “Now?“saidBilly。“Can’twewaittillmorning?“
  “No,son。Wecan’twaithereanymore。Goandgetthehorsesandputthesaddleson。“AsBillyobeyed,Linlookedatthelightedwindow。“Sheisinthere,“hesaid。“She’sinthere。Sonear。“Helooked,andturnedtothehotel,fromwhichhebroughthischapsandspursandputthemon。“I
  understandherwords,“hecontinued。“Herwords,themeaningofthem。Butnotwhatshemeans,Iguess。Itwilltakestudyin’over。Why,shedon’tblameme!“hesuddenlysaid,speakingtomeinsteadoftohimself。
  “Lin,“Ianswered,“shehasonlyjustheardthis,yousee。Waitawhile。“
  “That’snotthetrouble。SheknowswhatkindofmanIhavebeen,andsheforgivesthatjustthewayshedidherbrother。AndsheknowshowI
  didn’tintentionallyconcealanything。Billyhasn’tbeenaround,andsheneverrealizedabouthismotherandme。We’vetalkedawfulopen,butthatwasnotpleasanttospeakof,andthewholecountryknewitsolong——andIneverthought!Shedon’tblameme。Shesayssheunderstands;butshesaysIhaveawifelivin’。“
  “Thatisnonsense,“Ideclared。
  “Yu’mustn’tsaythat,“saidhe。“Shedon’tclaimshe’sawife,either。
  ShejustshakesherheadwhenIaskedherwhyshefeelsso。Itmustbedifferenttoyouandmefromthewayitseemstoher。Idon’tseeherview;maybeInevercanseeit;butshe’smademefeelshehasit,andthatshe’shonest,andlovesmetrue——“Hisvoicebrokeforamoment。
  “Shesaidshe’dwait。“
  “Youcan’thaveamarriagebrokenthatwasnevertied,“Isaid。“ButperhapsGovernorBarkerorJudgeHenry——“
  “No,“saidthecow-puncher。“Lawcouldn’tfoolher。She’sthinkingofsomethingbackoflaw。Shesaidshe’dwait——always。AndwhenItookitinthatthiswasalloveranddone,andwhenIthoughtofmyranchandthechickens——well,Icouldn’tthinkofthingsatall,andIcameandwakedBillytoclearoutandquit。“
  “Whatdidyoutellher?“Iasked。
  “Tellher?Nothin’,Iguess。Idon’tremembergettingoutoftheroom。
  Why,here’sactuallyherpistol,andshe’sgotmine!“
  “Man,man!“saidI,“gobackandtellhertokeepit,andthatyou’llwaittoo——always!“
  “Wouldyu’?“
  “Look!“IpointedtoJessaminestandinginthedoor。
  Isawhisfaceasheturnedtoher,andIwalkedtowardBillyandthehorses。PresentlyIheardstepsonthewoodenstation,andfromitsblack,briefshadowthetwocamewalking,Linandhissweetheart,intothemoonlight。Theywerenotspeaking,butmerelywalkedtogetherintheclearradiance,handinhand,liketwochildren。Isawthatshewasweeping,andthatbeneaththetyrannyofherresolutionherwholeloving,amplenaturewaswrung。Butthestrange,narrowfibreinherwouldnotyield!Isawthemgotothehorses,andJessaminestoodwhileBillyandLinmounted。Thenquicklythecow-punchersprangdownagainandfoldedherinhisarms。
  “Lin,dearLin!dearneighbor!“shesobbed。Shecouldnotwithholdthislastgood-bye。
  Idonotthinkhespoke。Inamomentthehorsesstartedandweregone,flying,rushingawayintothegreatplain,untilsightandsoundofthemwerelost,andonlythesage-brushwasthere,bathedinthehigh,brightmoon。ThelastthingIrememberasIlayinmyblanketswasJessamine’swindowstilllighted,andthewater-tank,clear-linedandblack,standingoverSepar。
  DESTINYATDRYBONE
  PARTI
  Childrenhavemanyspecialendowments,andofthesethechiefestistoaskquestionsthattheireldersmustskirmishtoevade。Marriedpeopleandauntsandunclescommonlydiscoverthis,butmereinstinctdoesnotguideonetoit。Amaidenoftwenty-threewillnotnecessarilydivineit。
  Nowexceptinoneunhappyhourofstressandsurprise,MissJessamineBucknerhadbeenmorethanequaltolifethusfar。Butneveryethadshebeenshutupawholedayinoneroomwithaboyofnine。Hadthisexperiencebeenhers,perhapsshewouldnothavewrittentoMr。McLeanthefriendlyandsingularletterinwhichshehopedhewaswell,andsaidthatshewasverywell,andhowwasdearlittleBilly?ShewasgladMr。
  McLeanhadstayedaway。Thatwasjustlikehishonorablenature,andwhatsheexpectedofhim。AndshewasperfectlyhappyatSepar,and“yourssincerelyandalways,’Neighbor。’“Postscript。TalkingofBillyLusk——ifLinwasbusywithgatheringthecattle,whynotsendBillydowntostopquietlywithher。Shewouldmakehimabedintheticket-office,andthereshewouldbetoseeafterhimallthetime。SheknewLindidnotlikehisadoptedchildtobetoomuchincow-campwiththemen。Shewouldadopthim,too,forjustaslongasconvenienttoLin——untiltheschoolopenedonBearCreek,ifLinsowished。JessaminewroteagooddealabouthowmuchbettercareanywomancantakeofaboyofBilly’sagethananymanknows。Thestage-coachbroughttheanswertothisremarkablysoon——
  youngBillywithatrunkandaletteroftwelvepagesinpencilandink——
  theonlywritingofthislengtheverdonebyMr。McLean。
  “IcanwritealotquickerthanLin,“saidBilly,uponarriving。“Hewasfussingatthatawaylatebythefireincamp,an’wakedmeupcrawlinginourbed。An’thenhehadtofinishitnextnightwhenhewentovertothecabinformyclothes。“
  “Youdon’tsay!“saidJessamine。AndBillysufferedhertokisshimagain。
  WhennototherwiseoccupiedJessaminetooktheletteroutofitslockedboxandreadit,orlookedatit。ThusthefirstdayshadgonefinelyatSepar,theweatherbeingbeautifulandBillymuchout-of-doors。ButsometimestheweatherchangesinWyoming;andnowitwasthatMissJessaminelearnedthetalentsofchildhood。
  SoonafterbreakfastthisstormymorningBillyobservedthetwelvepagesbeingtakenoutoftheirbox,andspokefromhissuddenbrain。“HoneyWigginsaysLin’slosinghisgripaboutgirls,“heremarked。“Hesaysyoucouldn’t’a’downedhimonced。You’d’a’hadtomarryhim。HoneysaysLinain’tworkeditlikehedoneinoldtimes。“
  “NowIshouldn’twonderifhewasright,“saidJessamine,buoyantly。“Andthatbeingthecase,I’mgoingtosettoworkatyourthingstillitclears,andthenwe’llgoforourride。“
  “Yes,“saidBilly。Whendoesamangettoooldtomarry?“
  “I’monlyagirl,yousee。Idon’tknow。“
  “Yes。Honeysaidhewouldn’t’a’thoughtLinwasthatold。ButIguesshemustbethirty。“
  “Old!“exclaimedJessamine。Andshelookedataphotographuponhertable。
  “ButLinain’tbeenmarriedverymuch,“pursuedBilly。“Mother’stheonlyonetheyspeakof。Youdon’thavetostaymarriedalways,doyou?“
  “It’sbetterto,“saidJessamine。
  “Ah,Idon’tthinkso,“saidBilly,withdisparagement。“Yououghttoseemotherandfather。IwishyouwouldleaveLinmarryyou,though,“saidtheboy,comingtoherwithanimpulseofaffection。“Whywon’tyouifhedon’tmind?“
  Shecontinuedtoparryhim,butthiswasnotaverysmoothstartforeightinthemorning。Momentsoflulltherewere,whenthetelegraphcalledhertothefrontroom,andBilly’syoungmindshiftedtoinquiriesaboutthecipheralphabet。Andshegainedatleastanhourteachinghimtoreadvariouswordsbythesound。Atdinner,too,hewasrefreshinglysilent。Butsuchsilencesareunsafe,andtheweatherwasstillbad。Fouro’clockfoundthemmuchwheretheyhadbeenateight。
  “Pleasetellmewhyyouwon’tleaveLinmarryyou。“Hewasatthewindow,kickingthewall。
  “That’sninetimessincedinner,“shereplied,withtirelessgoodhumor。
  “Nowifyouaskmetwelve——“
  “You’lltell?“saidtheboy,swiftly。
  Shebrokeintoalaugh。“No。I’llgoridingandyou’llstayathome。WhenIwaslittleandwouldaskthingsbeyondme,theyonlygavemethreetimes。“
  “I’vegottwomore,anyway。Ha-ha!“
  “Bettersave’emup,though。“
  “Whatdidtheydotoyou?Ah,Idon’twanttogoa-riding。It’snastyallover。“HestaredoutatthedayagainstwhichSepar’sdoorshadbeentightclosedsincemorning。Eighthoursoffuriouswindhadraisedthedustlikeasea。“Iwishtheoldtrainwouldcome,“observedBilly,continuingtokickthewall。“IwishIwasgoingsomewheres。“Smoky,level,andhot,thesouthwindleaptintoSeparacrossfivehundredunbrokenmiles。Theplainwasblanketedinatawnyeclipse。Eachminutethenearbuildingsbecameinvisibleinaturbulentherdofclouds。Abovethistravellingblurofthesoilthetopofthewater-tankalonerosebulgingintotheclearsun。Thesandspiralswouldlicklikeflamesalongthebulkoftheloftytub,andsoarskyward。Itwasnotshippingseason。
  Thefreight-carsstoodidleinalongline。Nocattlehuddledinthecorrals。Nostrangersmovedintown。Nocow-poniesdozedinfrontofthesaloon。Theirridersweredistantinranchandcamp。HumannoisewasextinctinSepar。Beneaththethunderofthesultryblaststheplacelaydeadinitsflappingshroudofdust。“Whywon’tyoutellme?“dronedBilly。Forsometimehehadbeenreturning,likeamosquitobrushedaway。
  “That’stentimes,“saidJessamine,promptly。
  “Oh,goodness!PrettysoonI’llnotbegladIcame。I’mabouttwicedaslessgladnow。“
  “Well,“saidJessamine,“there’samancomingto-daytomendthegovernmenttelegraph-linebetweenDryboneandMcKinney。MaybehewouldtakeyoubackasfarasBoxElder,ifyouwanttogoverymuch。ShallI
  askhim?“
  Billywasdisappointedatthiscordialsecondingofhismood。Hedidnotmakeadirectrejoinder。“IguessI’llgooutsidenow,“saidhe,withathreatinhistone。
  Shecontinuedmendinghisstockings。Finishedoneslayrolledatonesideofherchair,andupontheotherweremorewaitingherattention。
  “AndI’mgoingtoturnbackhand-springsontopofallthefreight-cars,“
  hestated,moreloudly。
  Sheindulgedagaininmerriment,laughingsweetlyathim,andwithoutrestraint。
  “AndI’msickofwhatyouallkeepa-sayingtome!“heshouted。“JustasifIwasababy。“
  “Why,Billy,whoeversaidyouwereababy?“
  “Allofyoudo。Honey,andLin,andyou,now,andeverybody。Whatmakesyousay’that’sninetimes,Billy;oh,Billy,that’stentimes,’ifyoudon’tmeanI’mababy?Andyoulaughmeoff,justliketheydo,andjustlikeIwasaregularbaby。Youwon’ttellme——“
  “Billy,listen。Didnobodyeveraskyousomethingyoudidnotwanttotellthem?“
  “That’snotabitthesame,because——because——becauseItreat’emsquareandbecauseit’snottheirbusiness。ButeverytimeIaskanybody’mostanything,theysayI’mnotoldenoughtounderstand;andI’llbetensoon。Anditismybusinesswhenit’saboutthekindofamotherI’magoingtohave。SupposeIquitactingsquare,an’told’em,whentheybotheredme,theyweren’tyoungenoughtounderstand!WishIhad。GuessI
  will,too,andwatch’emsteparound。“Foramomenthisminddweltuponthis,andhewhistledarevengefulstrain。
  “Goodness,Billy!“saidJessamine,atthesightofthenextstocking。
  “Thewholeheelisscorchedoff。“
  Heeyedtheruinwithindifference。“Ah,thatwaslastmonthwhenIandLinshotthebearintheswampwillows。Hemademedryoffmylegs。Chuckitaway。“
  “Andspoilthepair?No,indeed!“
  “Motheralwayschucked’em,an’father’dbuynewonestillIskippedfromhome。Linkindo’mends’em。“
  “Doeshe?“saidJessamine,softly。Andshelookedatthephotograph。
  “Yes。Whatmadeyouwritehimfortoletmecomeandbringmystockin’sandthings?“