“She’sa-crying,“saidhe。
Iwithheldfromquestions,andashekeptalongbymysidehesaid:“I’msorry。Doyouthinkshe’smadwithLinforwhathe’stoldher?Shejustsat,andwhenshestartedcryinghemademegoaway。“
“Idon’tbelieveshe’smad,“ItoldBilly;andIsatdownonmyblanket,hebesideme,talkingwhilethemoongrewsmallasitroseovertheplain,andthelightsteadilyshoneinJessamine’swindow。SoonyoungBillyfellasleep,andIlookedathim,thinkinghowinawayitwashewhohadbroughtthistroubleonthemanwhohadsavedhimandlovedhim。
Butthatmanhadnosuchuntenderthoughts。Oncemorethedooropened,anditwashewhocamethistime,alonealso。Shedidnotfollowhimandstandtowatchhimfromthethreshold,thoughheforgottoclosethedoor,and,comingovertome,stoodlookingdown。
“What?“Isaidatlength。
Idon’tknowthatheheardme。HestoopedoverBillyandshookhimgently。“Wake,son,“saidhe。“YouandImustgettoourcampnow。“
“Now?“saidBilly。“Can’twewaittillmorning?“
“No,son。Wecan’twaithereanymore。Goandgetthehorsesandputthesaddleson。“AsBillyobeyed,Linlookedatthelightedwindow。“Sheisinthere,“hesaid。“She’sinthere。Sonear。“Helooked,andturnedtothehotel,fromwhichhebroughthischapsandspursandputthemon。“I
understandherwords,“hecontinued。“Herwords,themeaningofthem。Butnotwhatshemeans,Iguess。Itwilltakestudyin’over。Why,shedon’tblameme!“hesuddenlysaid,speakingtomeinsteadoftohimself。
“Lin,“Ianswered,“shehasonlyjustheardthis,yousee。Waitawhile。“
“That’snotthetrouble。SheknowswhatkindofmanIhavebeen,andsheforgivesthatjustthewayshedidherbrother。AndsheknowshowI
didn’tintentionallyconcealanything。Billyhasn’tbeenaround,andsheneverrealizedabouthismotherandme。We’vetalkedawfulopen,butthatwasnotpleasanttospeakof,andthewholecountryknewitsolong——andIneverthought!Shedon’tblameme。Shesayssheunderstands;butshesaysIhaveawifelivin’。“
“Thatisnonsense,“Ideclared。
“Yu’mustn’tsaythat,“saidhe。“Shedon’tclaimshe’sawife,either。
ShejustshakesherheadwhenIaskedherwhyshefeelsso。Itmustbedifferenttoyouandmefromthewayitseemstoher。Idon’tseeherview;maybeInevercanseeit;butshe’smademefeelshehasit,andthatshe’shonest,andlovesmetrue——“Hisvoicebrokeforamoment。
“Shesaidshe’dwait。“
“Youcan’thaveamarriagebrokenthatwasnevertied,“Isaid。“ButperhapsGovernorBarkerorJudgeHenry——“
“No,“saidthecow-puncher。“Lawcouldn’tfoolher。She’sthinkingofsomethingbackoflaw。Shesaidshe’dwait——always。AndwhenItookitinthatthiswasalloveranddone,andwhenIthoughtofmyranchandthechickens——well,Icouldn’tthinkofthingsatall,andIcameandwakedBillytoclearoutandquit。“
“Whatdidyoutellher?“Iasked。
“Tellher?Nothin’,Iguess。Idon’tremembergettingoutoftheroom。
Why,here’sactuallyherpistol,andshe’sgotmine!“
“Man,man!“saidI,“gobackandtellhertokeepit,andthatyou’llwaittoo——always!“
“Wouldyu’?“
“Look!“IpointedtoJessaminestandinginthedoor。
Isawhisfaceasheturnedtoher,andIwalkedtowardBillyandthehorses。PresentlyIheardstepsonthewoodenstation,andfromitsblack,briefshadowthetwocamewalking,Linandhissweetheart,intothemoonlight。Theywerenotspeaking,butmerelywalkedtogetherintheclearradiance,handinhand,liketwochildren。Isawthatshewasweeping,andthatbeneaththetyrannyofherresolutionherwholeloving,amplenaturewaswrung。Butthestrange,narrowfibreinherwouldnotyield!Isawthemgotothehorses,andJessaminestoodwhileBillyandLinmounted。Thenquicklythecow-punchersprangdownagainandfoldedherinhisarms。
“Lin,dearLin!dearneighbor!“shesobbed。Shecouldnotwithholdthislastgood-bye。
Idonotthinkhespoke。Inamomentthehorsesstartedandweregone,flying,rushingawayintothegreatplain,untilsightandsoundofthemwerelost,andonlythesage-brushwasthere,bathedinthehigh,brightmoon。ThelastthingIrememberasIlayinmyblanketswasJessamine’swindowstilllighted,andthewater-tank,clear-linedandblack,standingoverSepar。
DESTINYATDRYBONE
PARTI
Childrenhavemanyspecialendowments,andofthesethechiefestistoaskquestionsthattheireldersmustskirmishtoevade。Marriedpeopleandauntsandunclescommonlydiscoverthis,butmereinstinctdoesnotguideonetoit。Amaidenoftwenty-threewillnotnecessarilydivineit。
Nowexceptinoneunhappyhourofstressandsurprise,MissJessamineBucknerhadbeenmorethanequaltolifethusfar。Butneveryethadshebeenshutupawholedayinoneroomwithaboyofnine。Hadthisexperiencebeenhers,perhapsshewouldnothavewrittentoMr。McLeanthefriendlyandsingularletterinwhichshehopedhewaswell,andsaidthatshewasverywell,andhowwasdearlittleBilly?ShewasgladMr。
McLeanhadstayedaway。Thatwasjustlikehishonorablenature,andwhatsheexpectedofhim。AndshewasperfectlyhappyatSepar,and“yourssincerelyandalways,’Neighbor。’“Postscript。TalkingofBillyLusk——ifLinwasbusywithgatheringthecattle,whynotsendBillydowntostopquietlywithher。Shewouldmakehimabedintheticket-office,andthereshewouldbetoseeafterhimallthetime。SheknewLindidnotlikehisadoptedchildtobetoomuchincow-campwiththemen。Shewouldadopthim,too,forjustaslongasconvenienttoLin——untiltheschoolopenedonBearCreek,ifLinsowished。JessaminewroteagooddealabouthowmuchbettercareanywomancantakeofaboyofBilly’sagethananymanknows。Thestage-coachbroughttheanswertothisremarkablysoon——
youngBillywithatrunkandaletteroftwelvepagesinpencilandink——
theonlywritingofthislengtheverdonebyMr。McLean。
“IcanwritealotquickerthanLin,“saidBilly,uponarriving。“Hewasfussingatthatawaylatebythefireincamp,an’wakedmeupcrawlinginourbed。An’thenhehadtofinishitnextnightwhenhewentovertothecabinformyclothes。“
“Youdon’tsay!“saidJessamine。AndBillysufferedhertokisshimagain。
WhennototherwiseoccupiedJessaminetooktheletteroutofitslockedboxandreadit,orlookedatit。ThusthefirstdayshadgonefinelyatSepar,theweatherbeingbeautifulandBillymuchout-of-doors。ButsometimestheweatherchangesinWyoming;andnowitwasthatMissJessaminelearnedthetalentsofchildhood。
SoonafterbreakfastthisstormymorningBillyobservedthetwelvepagesbeingtakenoutoftheirbox,andspokefromhissuddenbrain。“HoneyWigginsaysLin’slosinghisgripaboutgirls,“heremarked。“Hesaysyoucouldn’t’a’downedhimonced。You’d’a’hadtomarryhim。HoneysaysLinain’tworkeditlikehedoneinoldtimes。“
“NowIshouldn’twonderifhewasright,“saidJessamine,buoyantly。“Andthatbeingthecase,I’mgoingtosettoworkatyourthingstillitclears,andthenwe’llgoforourride。“
“Yes,“saidBilly。Whendoesamangettoooldtomarry?“
“I’monlyagirl,yousee。Idon’tknow。“
“Yes。Honeysaidhewouldn’t’a’thoughtLinwasthatold。ButIguesshemustbethirty。“
“Old!“exclaimedJessamine。Andshelookedataphotographuponhertable。
“ButLinain’tbeenmarriedverymuch,“pursuedBilly。“Mother’stheonlyonetheyspeakof。Youdon’thavetostaymarriedalways,doyou?“
“It’sbetterto,“saidJessamine。
“Ah,Idon’tthinkso,“saidBilly,withdisparagement。“Yououghttoseemotherandfather。IwishyouwouldleaveLinmarryyou,though,“saidtheboy,comingtoherwithanimpulseofaffection。“Whywon’tyouifhedon’tmind?“
Shecontinuedtoparryhim,butthiswasnotaverysmoothstartforeightinthemorning。Momentsoflulltherewere,whenthetelegraphcalledhertothefrontroom,andBilly’syoungmindshiftedtoinquiriesaboutthecipheralphabet。Andshegainedatleastanhourteachinghimtoreadvariouswordsbythesound。Atdinner,too,hewasrefreshinglysilent。Butsuchsilencesareunsafe,andtheweatherwasstillbad。Fouro’clockfoundthemmuchwheretheyhadbeenateight。
“Pleasetellmewhyyouwon’tleaveLinmarryyou。“Hewasatthewindow,kickingthewall。
“That’sninetimessincedinner,“shereplied,withtirelessgoodhumor。
“Nowifyouaskmetwelve——“
“You’lltell?“saidtheboy,swiftly。
Shebrokeintoalaugh。“No。I’llgoridingandyou’llstayathome。WhenIwaslittleandwouldaskthingsbeyondme,theyonlygavemethreetimes。“
“I’vegottwomore,anyway。Ha-ha!“
“Bettersave’emup,though。“
“Whatdidtheydotoyou?Ah,Idon’twanttogoa-riding。It’snastyallover。“HestaredoutatthedayagainstwhichSepar’sdoorshadbeentightclosedsincemorning。Eighthoursoffuriouswindhadraisedthedustlikeasea。“Iwishtheoldtrainwouldcome,“observedBilly,continuingtokickthewall。“IwishIwasgoingsomewheres。“Smoky,level,andhot,thesouthwindleaptintoSeparacrossfivehundredunbrokenmiles。Theplainwasblanketedinatawnyeclipse。Eachminutethenearbuildingsbecameinvisibleinaturbulentherdofclouds。Abovethistravellingblurofthesoilthetopofthewater-tankalonerosebulgingintotheclearsun。Thesandspiralswouldlicklikeflamesalongthebulkoftheloftytub,andsoarskyward。Itwasnotshippingseason。
Thefreight-carsstoodidleinalongline。Nocattlehuddledinthecorrals。Nostrangersmovedintown。Nocow-poniesdozedinfrontofthesaloon。Theirridersweredistantinranchandcamp。HumannoisewasextinctinSepar。Beneaththethunderofthesultryblaststheplacelaydeadinitsflappingshroudofdust。“Whywon’tyoutellme?“dronedBilly。Forsometimehehadbeenreturning,likeamosquitobrushedaway。
“That’stentimes,“saidJessamine,promptly。
“Oh,goodness!PrettysoonI’llnotbegladIcame。I’mabouttwicedaslessgladnow。“
“Well,“saidJessamine,“there’samancomingto-daytomendthegovernmenttelegraph-linebetweenDryboneandMcKinney。MaybehewouldtakeyoubackasfarasBoxElder,ifyouwanttogoverymuch。ShallI
askhim?“
Billywasdisappointedatthiscordialsecondingofhismood。Hedidnotmakeadirectrejoinder。“IguessI’llgooutsidenow,“saidhe,withathreatinhistone。
Shecontinuedmendinghisstockings。Finishedoneslayrolledatonesideofherchair,andupontheotherweremorewaitingherattention。
“AndI’mgoingtoturnbackhand-springsontopofallthefreight-cars,“
hestated,moreloudly。
Sheindulgedagaininmerriment,laughingsweetlyathim,andwithoutrestraint。
“AndI’msickofwhatyouallkeepa-sayingtome!“heshouted。“JustasifIwasababy。“
“Why,Billy,whoeversaidyouwereababy?“
“Allofyoudo。Honey,andLin,andyou,now,andeverybody。Whatmakesyousay’that’sninetimes,Billy;oh,Billy,that’stentimes,’ifyoudon’tmeanI’mababy?Andyoulaughmeoff,justliketheydo,andjustlikeIwasaregularbaby。Youwon’ttellme——“
“Billy,listen。Didnobodyeveraskyousomethingyoudidnotwanttotellthem?“
“That’snotabitthesame,because——because——becauseItreat’emsquareandbecauseit’snottheirbusiness。ButeverytimeIaskanybody’mostanything,theysayI’mnotoldenoughtounderstand;andI’llbetensoon。Anditismybusinesswhenit’saboutthekindofamotherI’magoingtohave。SupposeIquitactingsquare,an’told’em,whentheybotheredme,theyweren’tyoungenoughtounderstand!WishIhad。GuessI
will,too,andwatch’emsteparound。“Foramomenthisminddweltuponthis,andhewhistledarevengefulstrain。
“Goodness,Billy!“saidJessamine,atthesightofthenextstocking。
“Thewholeheelisscorchedoff。“
Heeyedtheruinwithindifference。“Ah,thatwaslastmonthwhenIandLinshotthebearintheswampwillows。Hemademedryoffmylegs。Chuckitaway。“
“Andspoilthepair?No,indeed!“
“Motheralwayschucked’em,an’father’dbuynewonestillIskippedfromhome。Linkindo’mends’em。“
“Doeshe?“saidJessamine,softly。Andshelookedatthephotograph。
“Yes。Whatmadeyouwritehimfortoletmecomeandbringmystockin’sandthings?“
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