HetoldmethatBaconwasafavouriteauthourwithhim;buthehadneverreadhisworkstillhewascompilingtheEnglishDictionary,inwhich,hesaid,ImightseeBaconveryoftenquoted。Mr。Sewardrecollectshishavingmentioned,thataDictionaryoftheEnglishLanguagemightbecompiledfromBacon’swritingsalone,andthathehadonceanintentionofgivinganeditionofBacon,atleastofhisEnglishworks,andwritingtheLifeofthatgreatman。Hadheexecutedthisintention,therecanbenodoubtthathewouldhavedoneitinamostmasterlymanner。
WishingtobesatisfiedwhatdegreeoftruththerewasinastorywhichafriendofJohnson’sandminehadtoldmetohisdisadvantage,Imentionedittohimindirectterms;anditwastothiseffect:thatagentlemanwhohadlivedingreatintimacywithhim,shewnhimmuchkindness,andevenrelievedhimfromaspunging-house,havingafterwardsfallenintobadcircumstances,wasoneday,whenJohnsonwasatdinnerwithhim,seizedfordebt,andcarriedtoprison;thatJohnsonsatstillundisturbed,andwentoneatinganddrinking;uponwhichthegentleman’ssister,whowaspresent,couldnotsuppressherindignation:’What,Sir,saidshe,areyousounfeeling,asnoteventooffertogotomybrotherinhisdistress;youwhohavebeensomuchobligedtohim?’
AndthatJohnsonanswered,’Madam,Iowehimnoobligation;whathedidformehewouldhavedoneforadog。’
Johnsonassuredme,thatthestorywasabsolutelyfalse:butlikeamanconsciousofbeingintheright,anddesirousofcompletelyvindicatinghimselffromsuchacharge,hedidnotarrogantlyrestonameredenial,andonhisgeneralcharacter,butproceededthus:——’Sir,Iwasveryintimatewiththatgentleman,andwasoncerelievedbyhimfromanarrest;butIneverwaspresentwhenhewasarrested,neverknewthathewasarrested,andIbelieveheneverwasindifficultiesafterthetimewhenherelievedme。Ilovedhimmuch;yet,intalkingofhisgeneralcharacter,Imayhavesaid,thoughIdonotrememberthatIeverdidsayso,thatashisgenerosityproceededfromnoprinciple,butwasapartofhisprofusion,hewoulddoforadogwhathewoulddoforafriend:butIneverappliedthisremarktoanyparticularinstance,andcertainlynottohiskindnesstome。Ifaprofuseman,whodoesnotvaluehismoney,andgivesalargesumtoawhore,giveshalfasmuch,oranequallylargesumtorelieveafriend,itcannotbeesteemedasvirtue。ThiswasallthatIcouldsayofthatgentleman;and,ifsaidatall,itmusthavebeensaidafterhisdeath。Sir,Iwouldhavegonetotheworld’sendtorelievehim。
Theremarkaboutthedog,ifmadebyme,wassuchasallyasmightescapeonewhenpaintingamanhighly。’
OnTuesday,September23,Johnsonwasremarkablycordialtome。ItbeingnecessaryformetoreturntoScotlandsoon,Ihadfixedonthenextdayformysettingout,andIfeltatenderconcernatthethoughtofpartingwithhim。Hehad,atthistime,franklycommunicatedtomemanyparticulars,whichareinsertedinthisworkintheirproperplaces;andonce,whenIhappenedtomentionthattheexpenceofmyjauntwouldcometomuchmorethanIhadcomputed,hesaid,’Why,Sir,iftheexpenceweretobeaninconvenience,youwouldhavereasontoregretit:but,ifyouhavehadthemoneytospend,Iknownotthatyoucouldhavepurchasedasmuchpleasurewithitinanyotherway。’
Iperceivedthathepronouncedthewordheard,asifspeltwithadoublee,heerd,insteadofsoundingitherd,asismostusuallydone。Hesaid,hisreasonwas,thatifitwaspronouncedherd,therewouldbeasingleexceptionfromtheEnglishpronunciationofthesyllableear,andhethoughtitbetternottohavethatexception。
Intheeveningourgentleman-farmer,andtwoothers,entertainedthemselvesandthecompanywithagreatnumberoftunesonthefiddle。Johnsondesiredtohave’Letambitionfirethymind,’
playedoveragain,andappearedtogiveapatientattentiontoit;
thoughheownedtomethathewasveryinsensibletothepowerofmusick。Itoldhim,thatitaffectedmetosuchadegree,asoftentoagitatemynervespainfully,producinginmymindalternatesensationsofpathetickdejection,sothatIwasreadytoshedtears;andofdaringresolution,sothatIwasinclinedtorushintothethickestpartofthebattle。’Sir,saidhe,Ishouldneverhearit,ifitmademesuchafool。’
Thisevening,whilesomeofthetunesofordinarycompositionwereplayedwithnogreatskill,myframewasagitated,andIwasconsciousofagenerousattachmenttoDr。Johnson,asmypreceptorandfriend,mixedwithanaffectionateregretthathewasanoldman,whomIshouldprobablyloseinashorttime。IthoughtI
coulddefendhimatthepointofmysword。Myreverenceandaffectionforhimwereinfullglow。Isaidtohim,’MydearSir,wemustmeeteveryyear,ifyoudon’tquarrelwithme。’JOHNSON。
’Nay,Sir,youaremorelikelytoquarrelwithme,thanIwithyou。
MyregardforyouisgreateralmostthanIhavewordstoexpress;
butIdonotchoosetobealwaysrepeatingit;writeitdowninthefirstleafofyourpocket-book,andneverdoubtofitagain。’
Italkedtohimofmiserybeing’thedoomofman’inthislife,asdisplayedinhisVanityofHumanWishes。YetIobservedthatthingsweredoneuponthesuppositionofhappiness;grandhouseswerebuilt,finegardensweremade,splendidplacesofpublickamusementwerecontrived,andcrowdedwithcompany。JOHNSON。
’Alas,Sir,theseareallonlystrugglesforhappiness。WhenI
firstenteredRanelagh,itgaveanexpansionandgaysensationtomymind,suchasIneverexperiencedanywhereelse。But,asXerxesweptwhenheviewedhisimmensearmy,andconsideredthatnotoneofthatgreatmultitudewouldbealiveahundredyearsafterwards,soitwenttomyhearttoconsiderthattherewasnotoneinallthatbrilliantcircle,thatwasnotafraidtogohomeandthink;butthatthethoughtsofeachindividualthere,wouldbedistressingwhenalone。’
Isuggested,thatbeinginlove,andflatteredwithhopesofsuccess;orhavingsomefavouriteschemeinviewforthenextday,mightpreventthatwretchednessofwhichwehadbeentalking。
JOHNSON。’Why,Sir,itmaysometimesbesoasyousuppose;butmyconclusionisingeneralbuttootrue。’
WhileJohnsonandIstoodincalmconferencebyourselvesinDr。
Taylor’sgarden,ataprettylatehourinasereneautumnnight,lookinguptotheheavens,Idirectedthediscoursetothesubjectofafuturestate。Myfriendwasinaplacidandmostbenignantframe。’Sir,saidhe,Idonotimaginethatallthingswillbemadecleartousimmediatelyafterdeath,butthatthewaysofProvidencewillbeexplainedtousverygradually。’Hetalkedtomeuponthisawefulanddelicatequestioninagentletone,andasifafraidtobedecisive。
AftersupperIaccompaniedhimtohisapartment,andatmyrequesthedictatedtomeanargumentinfavourofthenegrowhowasthenclaiminghisliberty,inanactionintheCourtofSessioninScotland。Hehadalwaysbeenveryzealousagainstslaveryineveryform,inwhichI,withalldeference,thoughtthathediscovered’azealwithoutknowledge。’Upononeoccasion,whenincompanywithsomeverygravemenatOxford,histoastwas,’Here’stothenextinsurrectionofthenegroesintheWestIndies。’HisviolentprejudiceagainstourWestIndianandAmericansettlersappearedwhenevertherewasanopportunity。TowardstheconclusionofhisTaxationnoTyranny,hesays,’howisitthatweheartheloudestYELPSforlibertyamongthedriversofnegroes?’
WhenIsaidnowtoJohnson,thatIwasafraidIkepthimtoolateup。’No,Sir,saidhe,Idon’tcarethoughIsitallnightwithyou。’Thiswasananimatedspeechfromamaninhissixty-ninthyear。
HadIbeenasattentivenottodispleasehimasIoughttohavebeen,Iknownotbutthisvigilmighthavebeenfulfilled;butI
unluckilyentereduponthecontroversyconcerningtherightofGreat-BritaintotaxAmerica,andattemptedtoargueinfavourofourfellow-subjectsontheothersideoftheAtlantick。IinsistedthatAmericamightbeverywellgoverned,andmadetoyieldsufficientrevenuebythemeansofINFLUENCE,asexemplifiedinIreland,whilethepeoplemightbepleasedwiththeimaginationoftheirparticipatingoftheBritishconstitution,byhavingabodyofrepresentatives,withoutwhoseconsentmoneycouldnotbeexactedfromthem。Johnsoncouldnotbearmythusopposinghisavowedopinion,whichhehadexertedhimselfwithanextremedegreeofheattoenforce;andtheviolentagitationintowhichhewasthrown,whileanswering,orratherreprimandingme,alarmedmeso,thatIheartilyrepentedofmyhavingunthinkinglyintroducedthesubject。Imyself,however,grewwarm,andthechangewasgreat,fromthecalmstateofphilosophicaldiscussioninwhichwehadalittlebeforebeenpleasinglyemployed。
Wewerefatiguedbythecontest,whichwasproducedbymywantofcaution;andhewasnottheninthehumourtoslideintoeasyandcheerfultalk。Itthereforesohappened,thatwewereafteranhourortwoverywillingtoseparateandgotobed。
OnWednesday,September24,IwentintoDr。Johnson’sroombeforehegotup,andfindingthatthestormoftheprecedingnightwasquitelaid,Isatdownuponhisbed-side,andhetalkedwithasmuchreadinessandgood-humourasever。HerecommendedtometoplantaconsiderablepartofalargemoorishfarmwhichIhadpurchased,andhemadeseveralcalculationsoftheexpenceandprofit:forhedelightedinexercisinghismindonthescienceofnumbers。Hepresseduponmetheimportanceofplantingatthefirstinaverysufficientmanner,quotingthesaying’Inbellononlicetbiserrare:’andadding,’thisisequallytrueinplanting。’
IspokewithgratitudeofDr。Taylor’shospitality;and,asevidencethatitwasnotonaccountofhisgoodtablealonethatJohnsonvisitedhimoften,Imentionedalittleanecdotewhichhadescapedmyfriend’srecollection,andathearingwhichrepeated,hesmiled。Oneevening,whenIwassittingwithhim,Frankdeliveredthismessage:’Sir,Dr。Taylorsendshiscomplimentstoyou,andbegsyouwilldinewithhimto-morrow。Hehasgotahare。’——’MycomplimentssaidJohnson,andI’lldinewithhim——hareorrabbit。’
AfterbreakfastIdeparted,andpursuedmyjourneynorthwards。I
tookmypost-chaisefromtheGreenMan,averygoodinnatAshbourne,themistressofwhich,amightycivilgentlewoman,courtseyingverylow,presentedmewithanengravingofthesignofherhouse;towhichshehadsubjoined,inherownhand-writing,anaddressinsuchsingularsimplicityofstyle,thatIhavepreserveditpastedupononeoftheboardsofmyoriginalJournalatthistime,andshallhereinsertitfortheamusementofmyreaders:——
’M。KILLINGLEY’sdutywaitsuponMr。Boswell,isexceedinglyobligedtohimforthisfavour;wheneverhecomesthisway,hopesforacontinuanceofthesame。WouldMr。Boswellnamethehousetohisextensiveacquaintance,itwouldbeasingularfavourconferr’dononewhohasitnotinherpowertomakeanyotherreturnbuthermostgratefulthanks,andsincerestprayersforhishappinessintime,andinablessedeternity——Tuesdaymorn。’
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