endearedhimtomesomuchthatIhaveneverfeltthepangsofpartingmorekeenlythanwhenitbecamenecessary,forthefinishingofhiseducation,thatheshouldgoabroad。
ThreeyearshadpassedawaybeforeI
sawhimagain。Duringtheinterval,however,Ihadfrequentlyheardfromhim,sothatabsencehadnotabatedthewarmthofourattachment。Whocouldtelloftherejoicingsthatmarkedtheeveningofhisreturn?Thehorseswereremovedfromthechaiseatthedistanceofamilefromthecastle,whileitanditscontentswerebornerapidlyonwardalmostbythepressureofthemultitude,likealoguponatorrent。Bonfiresblaredfarandnear——
bagpipesroaredandfiddlessqueaked;and,amidthethunderingshoutsofthousands,thecarriagedrewupbeforethecastle。
InaninstantyoungO’Connorwasupontheground,crying,’Thankyou,boys——
thankyou,boys;’whileathousandhandswerestretchedoutfromallsidestograspevenafingerofhis。Still,amidshoutsof’Godblessyourhonour——longmayyoureign!’and’Makeroomthere,boys!cleartheroadforthemasther!’hereachedthethresholdofthecastle,wherestoodhismotherweepingforjoy。
Oh!whocoulddescribethatembrace,ortheenthusiasmwithwhichitwaswitnessed?’Godblesshimtoyou,mylady——
glorytoyeboth!’and’Oh,butheisafineyounggentleman,Godblesshim!’
resoundedonallsides,whilehatsflewupinvolleysthatdarkenedthemoon;andwhenatlength,amidthebroaddelightedgrinsofthethrongingdomestics,whosesenseofdecorumprecludedanymoreboisterousevidenceofjoy,theyreachedtheparlour,thengivingwaytothefulnessofherjoythewidowedmotherkissedandblessedhimandweptinturn。WellmightanyparentbeproudtoclaimassonthehandsomestriplingwhonowrepresentedtheCastleConnorfamily;buttoherhisbeautyhadapeculiarcharm,foritboreastrikingresemblancetothatofherhusband,thelastO’Connor。
Iknownotwhetherpartialityblindedme,orthatIdidnomorethanjusticetomyfriendinbelievingthatIhadneverseensohandsomeayoungman。Iaminclinedtothinkthelatter。Hewasrathertall,veryslightlyandelegantlymade;hisfacewasoval,andhisfeaturesdecidedlySpanishincastandcomplexion,butwithfarmorevivacityofexpressionthangenerallybelongstothebeautyofthatnation。
Theextremedelicacyofhisfeaturesandthevariedanimationofhiscountenancemadehimappearevenyoungerthanhisyears——anillusionwhichthetotalabsenceofeverythingstudiedinhismannersseemedtoconfirm。Timehadwroughtnosmallchangeinme,alikeinmindandspirits;butinthecaseofO’Connoritseemedtohavelostitspowertoalter。
Hisgaietywasundamped,hisgenerosityunchilled;andthoughthespacewhichhadintervenedbetweenourpartingandreunionwasbutbrief,yetattheperiodoflifeatwhichwewere,evenashorterintervalthanthatofthreeyearshasfrequentlyservedtoformorDEformacharacter。
WeekshadpassedawaysincethereturnofO’Connor,andscarceadayhadelapsedwithoutmyseeinghim,whentheneighbourhoodwasthrownintoanunusualstateofexcitementbytheannouncementofarace-balltobecelebratedattheassembly-
roomofthetownofT——,distantscarcelytwomilesfromCastleConnor。
YoungO’Connor,asIhadexpected,determinedatoncetoattendit;andhavingdirectedinvainallthepowersofhisrhetorictopersuadehismothertoaccompanyhim,heturnedthewholebatteryofhislogicuponme,who,atthattime,feltareluctancestrongerthanthatofmereapathytomixinginanyofthesescenesofnoisypleasureforwhichformanyreasonsIfeltmyselfunfitted。Hewassourgentandpersevering,however,thatIcouldnotrefuse;andIfoundmyselfreluctantlyobligedtomakeupmymindtoattendhimupontheimportantnighttothespaciousbutill-finishedbuilding,whichthefashionandbeautyofthecountywerepleasedtotermanassembly-
room。
Whenweenteredtheapartment,wefoundaselectfew,surroundedbyacrowdofspectators,busilyperformingaminuet,withallthecongeesandflourisheswhichbelongedtothatcourtlydance;andmycompanion,infectedbythecontagionofexample,wassoon,asIhadanticipated,wavinghischapeaubras,andgracefullybowingbeforeoneoftheprettiestgirlsintheroom。Ihadneitherskillnorspiritstoqualifymetofollowhisexample;andasthefulnessoftheroomrenderediteasytodosowithoutitsappearingsingular,I
determinedtobemerelyaspectatorofthescenewhichsurroundedme,withouttakinganactivepartinitsamusements。
Theroomwasindeedverymuchcrowded,sothatitsvariousgroups,formedasdesignoraccidenthadthrownthepartiestogether,affordednosmallfundofentertainmenttothecontemplativeobserver。Therewerethedancers,allgaietyandgood-humour;alittlefurtheroffwerethetablesatwhichsatthecard-
players,someplyingtheirvocationwithdeepandsilentanxiety——forinthosedaysgamingoftenranveryhighinsuchplaces——andothersdisputingwithallthevociferouspertinacityofundisguisedill-
temper。There,again,werethesallow,blue-nosed,grey-eyeddealersinwhisperedscandal;and,inshort,thereisscarcelyagrouporcombinationtobemetwithinthecourtofkingswhichmightnothavefoundahumbleparallelintheassembly-
roomofT。
Iwasallowedtoindulgeinundisturbedcontemplation,forIsupposeIwasnotknowntomorethanfiveorsixintheroom。Ithushadleisurenotonlytoobservethedifferentclassesintowhichthecompanyhaddivideditself,buttoamusemyselfbyspeculatingastotherankandcharacterofmanyoftheindividualactorsinthedrama。
Amongmanywhohavelongsincepassedfrommymemory,onepersonforsometimeengagedmyattention,andthatperson,formanyreasons,Ishallnotsoonforget。Hewasatall,square-shoulderedman,whostoodinacarelessattitude,leaningwithhisbacktothewall;heseemedtohavesecludedhimselffromthebusymultitudeswhichmovednoisilyandgailyaroundhim,andnobodyseemedtoobserveortoconversewithhim。Hewasfashionablydressed,butperhapsratherextravagantly;hisfacewasfullandheavy,expressiveofsullennessandstupidity,andmarkedwiththelinesofstrongvulgarity;hisagemightbesomewherebetweenfortyandfifty。SuchasI
haveendeavouredtodescribehim,heremainedmotionless,hisarmsdoggedlyfoldedacrosshisbroadchest,andturninghissulleneyesfromcornertocorneroftheroom,asifeagertodetectsomeobjectonwhichtoventhisill-humour。
Itisstrange,andyetitistrue,thatonesometimesfindseveninthemostcommonplacecountenanceanundefinablesomething,whichfascinatestheattention,andforcesittorecuragainandagain,whileitisimpossibletotellwhetherthepeculiaritywhichthusattractsusliesinfeatureorinexpression。orinbothcombined,andwhyitisthatourobservationshouldbeengrossedbyanobjectwhich,whenanalysed,seemstopossessnoclaimtointerestoreventonotice。ThisunaccountablefeelingIhaveoftenexperienced,andIbelieveIamnotsingular。butneverinsoremarkableadegreeasuponthisoccasion。MyfriendO’Connor,havingdisposedofhisfairpartner,wascrossingtheroomforthepurposeofjoiningme,indoingwhichIwassurprisedtoseehimexchangeafamiliar,almostacordial,greetingwiththeobjectofmycuriosity。
IsayIwassurprised,forindependentofhisveryquestionableappearance,itstruckmeasstrangethatthoughsoconstantlyassociatedwithO’Connor,and,asI
thought,personallyacquaintedwithallhisintimates,Ihadneverbeforeevenseenthisindividual。Ididnotfailimmediatelytoaskhimwhothisgentlemanwas。Ithoughtheseemedslightlyembarrassed,butafteramoment’spausehelaughinglysaidthathisfriendoverthewaywastoomysteriousapersonagetohavehisnameannouncedinsogiddyasceneasthepresent;butthatonthemorrowhewouldfurnishmewithalltheinformationwhichIcoulddesire。Therewas,Ithought,inhisaffectedjocularityarealawkwardnesswhichappearedtomeunaccountable,andconsequentlyincreasedmycuriosity;itsgratification,however,I
wasobligedtodefer。Atlength,weariedwithwitnessingamusementsinwhichI
couldnotsympathise,Ilefttheroom,anddidnotseeO’Connoruntillateinthenextday。
IhadriddendowntowardsthecastleforthepurposeofvisitingtheO’Connors,andhadnearlyreachedtheavenueleadingtothemansion,whenImetmyfriend。
Hewasalsomounted;andhavingansweredmyinquiriesrespectinghismother,heeasilypersuadedmetoaccompanyhiminhisramble。Wehadchattedasusualforsometime,when,afterapause,O’Connorsaid:
’Bytheway,Purcell,youexpressedsomecuriosityrespectingthetall,handsomefellowtowhomIspokelastnight。’
’IcertainlydidquestionyouaboutaTALLgentleman,butwasnotawareofhisclaimstobeauty,’repliedI。
’Well,thatisasitmaybe,’saidhe;
’theladiesthinkhimhandsome,andtheiropinionuponthatscoreismorevaluablethanyoursormine。Doyouknow,’hecontinued,’IsometimesfeelhalfsorrythatIevermadethefellow’sacquaintance:
heisquiteamarkedmanhere,andtheytellstoriesofhimthatareanythingbutreputable,thoughIamsurewithoutfoundation。IthinkIknowenoughabouthimtowarrantmeinsayingso。’
’MayIaskhisname?’inquiredI。
’Oh!didnotItellyouhisname?’
rejoinedhe。’Youshouldhaveheardthatfirst;heandhisnameareequallywellknown。YouwillrecognisetheindividualatoncewhenItellyouthathisnameis——Fitzgerald。’
’Fitzgerald!’Irepeated。’Fitzgerald!——
canitbeFitzgeraldtheduellist?’
’Uponmywordyouhavehitit,’repliedhe,laughing;’butyouhaveaccompaniedthediscoverywithalookofhorrormoretragicthanappropriate。Heisnotthemonsteryoutakehimfor——hehasagooddealofoldIrishpride;histemperishasty,andhehasbeenunfortunatelythrowninthewayofmenwhohavenotmadeallowanceforthesethings。IamconvincedthatineverycaseinwhichFitzgeraldhasfought,ifthetruthcouldbediscovered,hewouldbefoundtohaveactedthroughoutuponthedefensive。Nomanismadenoughtoriskhisownlife,exceptwhenthedoingsoisanalternativetosubmittingtamelytowhatheconsidersaninsult。Iamcertainthatnomaneverengagedinaduelundertheconsciousnessthathehadactedanintentionallyaggressivepart。’
’Whendidyoumakehisacquaintance?’
saidI。
’Abouttwoyearsago,’hereplied。’I
methiminFrance,andyouknowwhenoneisabroaditisanungracioustasktorejecttheadvancesofone’scountryman,otherwiseIthinkIshouldhaveavoidedhissociety——lessuponmyownaccountthanbecauseIamsuretheacquaintancewouldbeasourceofcontinualthoughgroundlessuneasinesstomymother。Iknow,therefore,thatyouwillnotunnecessarilymentionitsexistencetoher。’
Igavehimthedesiredassurance,andadded:
’MayIaskyou。O’Connor,if,indeed,itbeafairquestion,whetherthisFitzgeraldatanytimeattemptedtoengageyouinanythinglikegaming?’
ThisquestionwassuggestedbymyhavingfrequentlyheardFitzgeraldmentionedasanotedgambler,andsometimesevenasablackleg。O’Connorseemed,I
thought,slightlyembarrassed。Heanswered:
’No,no——Icannotsaythatheeverattemptedanythingofthekind。I
certainlyhaveplayedwithhim,butneverlosttoanyseriousamount;norcanI
recollectthatheeversolicitedme——indeedheknowsthatIhaveastrongobjectiontodeepplay。YOUmustbeawarethatmyfinancescouldnotbearmuchpruningdown。Ineverlostmoretohimatasittingthanaboutfivepounds,whichyouknowisnothing。No,youwronghimifyouimaginethatheattachedhimselftomemerelyforthesakeofsuchcontemptiblewinningsasthosewhichabroken-downIrishgentlemancouldaffordhim。Come,Purcell,youaretooharduponhim——youjudgeonlybyreport;youmustseehim,anddecideforyourself——Supposewecalluponhimnow;heisattheinn,intheHighStreet,notamileoff。’
Ideclinedtheproposaldrily。
’Yourcautionistooeasilyalarmed,’
saidhe。’Idonotwishyoutomakethismanyourbosomfriend:Imerelydesirethatyoushouldseeandspeaktohim,andifyouformanyacquaintancewithhim,itmustbeofthatslightnaturewhichcanbedroppedorcontinuedatpleasure。’
FromthetimethatO’ConnorhadannouncedthefactthathisfriendwasnootherthanthenotoriousFitzgerald,aforebodingofsomethingcalamitoushadcomeuponme,anditnowoccurredtomethatifanyunpleasantnessweretobefearedaslikelytoresulttoO’Connorfromtheirconnection,Imightfindmyattemptstoextricatehimmuchfacilitatedbymybeingacquainted,howeverslightly,withFitzgerald。Iknownotwhethertheideawasreasonable——itwascertainlynatural;