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  endearedhimtomesomuchthatIhaveneverfeltthepangsofpartingmorekeenlythanwhenitbecamenecessary,forthefinishingofhiseducation,thatheshouldgoabroad。
  ThreeyearshadpassedawaybeforeI
  sawhimagain。Duringtheinterval,however,Ihadfrequentlyheardfromhim,sothatabsencehadnotabatedthewarmthofourattachment。Whocouldtelloftherejoicingsthatmarkedtheeveningofhisreturn?Thehorseswereremovedfromthechaiseatthedistanceofamilefromthecastle,whileitanditscontentswerebornerapidlyonwardalmostbythepressureofthemultitude,likealoguponatorrent。Bonfiresblaredfarandnear——
  bagpipesroaredandfiddlessqueaked;and,amidthethunderingshoutsofthousands,thecarriagedrewupbeforethecastle。
  InaninstantyoungO’Connorwasupontheground,crying,’Thankyou,boys——
  thankyou,boys;’whileathousandhandswerestretchedoutfromallsidestograspevenafingerofhis。Still,amidshoutsof’Godblessyourhonour——longmayyoureign!’and’Makeroomthere,boys!cleartheroadforthemasther!’hereachedthethresholdofthecastle,wherestoodhismotherweepingforjoy。
  Oh!whocoulddescribethatembrace,ortheenthusiasmwithwhichitwaswitnessed?’Godblesshimtoyou,mylady——
  glorytoyeboth!’and’Oh,butheisafineyounggentleman,Godblesshim!’
  resoundedonallsides,whilehatsflewupinvolleysthatdarkenedthemoon;andwhenatlength,amidthebroaddelightedgrinsofthethrongingdomestics,whosesenseofdecorumprecludedanymoreboisterousevidenceofjoy,theyreachedtheparlour,thengivingwaytothefulnessofherjoythewidowedmotherkissedandblessedhimandweptinturn。WellmightanyparentbeproudtoclaimassonthehandsomestriplingwhonowrepresentedtheCastleConnorfamily;buttoherhisbeautyhadapeculiarcharm,foritboreastrikingresemblancetothatofherhusband,thelastO’Connor。
  Iknownotwhetherpartialityblindedme,orthatIdidnomorethanjusticetomyfriendinbelievingthatIhadneverseensohandsomeayoungman。Iaminclinedtothinkthelatter。Hewasrathertall,veryslightlyandelegantlymade;hisfacewasoval,andhisfeaturesdecidedlySpanishincastandcomplexion,butwithfarmorevivacityofexpressionthangenerallybelongstothebeautyofthatnation。
  Theextremedelicacyofhisfeaturesandthevariedanimationofhiscountenancemadehimappearevenyoungerthanhisyears——anillusionwhichthetotalabsenceofeverythingstudiedinhismannersseemedtoconfirm。Timehadwroughtnosmallchangeinme,alikeinmindandspirits;butinthecaseofO’Connoritseemedtohavelostitspowertoalter。
  Hisgaietywasundamped,hisgenerosityunchilled;andthoughthespacewhichhadintervenedbetweenourpartingandreunionwasbutbrief,yetattheperiodoflifeatwhichwewere,evenashorterintervalthanthatofthreeyearshasfrequentlyservedtoformorDEformacharacter。
  WeekshadpassedawaysincethereturnofO’Connor,andscarceadayhadelapsedwithoutmyseeinghim,whentheneighbourhoodwasthrownintoanunusualstateofexcitementbytheannouncementofarace-balltobecelebratedattheassembly-
  roomofthetownofT——,distantscarcelytwomilesfromCastleConnor。
  YoungO’Connor,asIhadexpected,determinedatoncetoattendit;andhavingdirectedinvainallthepowersofhisrhetorictopersuadehismothertoaccompanyhim,heturnedthewholebatteryofhislogicuponme,who,atthattime,feltareluctancestrongerthanthatofmereapathytomixinginanyofthesescenesofnoisypleasureforwhichformanyreasonsIfeltmyselfunfitted。Hewassourgentandpersevering,however,thatIcouldnotrefuse;andIfoundmyselfreluctantlyobligedtomakeupmymindtoattendhimupontheimportantnighttothespaciousbutill-finishedbuilding,whichthefashionandbeautyofthecountywerepleasedtotermanassembly-
  room。
  Whenweenteredtheapartment,wefoundaselectfew,surroundedbyacrowdofspectators,busilyperformingaminuet,withallthecongeesandflourisheswhichbelongedtothatcourtlydance;andmycompanion,infectedbythecontagionofexample,wassoon,asIhadanticipated,wavinghischapeaubras,andgracefullybowingbeforeoneoftheprettiestgirlsintheroom。Ihadneitherskillnorspiritstoqualifymetofollowhisexample;andasthefulnessoftheroomrenderediteasytodosowithoutitsappearingsingular,I
  determinedtobemerelyaspectatorofthescenewhichsurroundedme,withouttakinganactivepartinitsamusements。
  Theroomwasindeedverymuchcrowded,sothatitsvariousgroups,formedasdesignoraccidenthadthrownthepartiestogether,affordednosmallfundofentertainmenttothecontemplativeobserver。Therewerethedancers,allgaietyandgood-humour;alittlefurtheroffwerethetablesatwhichsatthecard-
  players,someplyingtheirvocationwithdeepandsilentanxiety——forinthosedaysgamingoftenranveryhighinsuchplaces——andothersdisputingwithallthevociferouspertinacityofundisguisedill-
  temper。There,again,werethesallow,blue-nosed,grey-eyeddealersinwhisperedscandal;and,inshort,thereisscarcelyagrouporcombinationtobemetwithinthecourtofkingswhichmightnothavefoundahumbleparallelintheassembly-
  roomofT。
  Iwasallowedtoindulgeinundisturbedcontemplation,forIsupposeIwasnotknowntomorethanfiveorsixintheroom。Ithushadleisurenotonlytoobservethedifferentclassesintowhichthecompanyhaddivideditself,buttoamusemyselfbyspeculatingastotherankandcharacterofmanyoftheindividualactorsinthedrama。
  Amongmanywhohavelongsincepassedfrommymemory,onepersonforsometimeengagedmyattention,andthatperson,formanyreasons,Ishallnotsoonforget。Hewasatall,square-shoulderedman,whostoodinacarelessattitude,leaningwithhisbacktothewall;heseemedtohavesecludedhimselffromthebusymultitudeswhichmovednoisilyandgailyaroundhim,andnobodyseemedtoobserveortoconversewithhim。Hewasfashionablydressed,butperhapsratherextravagantly;hisfacewasfullandheavy,expressiveofsullennessandstupidity,andmarkedwiththelinesofstrongvulgarity;hisagemightbesomewherebetweenfortyandfifty。SuchasI
  haveendeavouredtodescribehim,heremainedmotionless,hisarmsdoggedlyfoldedacrosshisbroadchest,andturninghissulleneyesfromcornertocorneroftheroom,asifeagertodetectsomeobjectonwhichtoventhisill-humour。
  Itisstrange,andyetitistrue,thatonesometimesfindseveninthemostcommonplacecountenanceanundefinablesomething,whichfascinatestheattention,andforcesittorecuragainandagain,whileitisimpossibletotellwhetherthepeculiaritywhichthusattractsusliesinfeatureorinexpression。orinbothcombined,andwhyitisthatourobservationshouldbeengrossedbyanobjectwhich,whenanalysed,seemstopossessnoclaimtointerestoreventonotice。ThisunaccountablefeelingIhaveoftenexperienced,andIbelieveIamnotsingular。butneverinsoremarkableadegreeasuponthisoccasion。MyfriendO’Connor,havingdisposedofhisfairpartner,wascrossingtheroomforthepurposeofjoiningme,indoingwhichIwassurprisedtoseehimexchangeafamiliar,almostacordial,greetingwiththeobjectofmycuriosity。
  IsayIwassurprised,forindependentofhisveryquestionableappearance,itstruckmeasstrangethatthoughsoconstantlyassociatedwithO’Connor,and,asI
  thought,personallyacquaintedwithallhisintimates,Ihadneverbeforeevenseenthisindividual。Ididnotfailimmediatelytoaskhimwhothisgentlemanwas。Ithoughtheseemedslightlyembarrassed,butafteramoment’spausehelaughinglysaidthathisfriendoverthewaywastoomysteriousapersonagetohavehisnameannouncedinsogiddyasceneasthepresent;butthatonthemorrowhewouldfurnishmewithalltheinformationwhichIcoulddesire。Therewas,Ithought,inhisaffectedjocularityarealawkwardnesswhichappearedtomeunaccountable,andconsequentlyincreasedmycuriosity;itsgratification,however,I
  wasobligedtodefer。Atlength,weariedwithwitnessingamusementsinwhichI
  couldnotsympathise,Ilefttheroom,anddidnotseeO’Connoruntillateinthenextday。
  IhadriddendowntowardsthecastleforthepurposeofvisitingtheO’Connors,andhadnearlyreachedtheavenueleadingtothemansion,whenImetmyfriend。
  Hewasalsomounted;andhavingansweredmyinquiriesrespectinghismother,heeasilypersuadedmetoaccompanyhiminhisramble。Wehadchattedasusualforsometime,when,afterapause,O’Connorsaid:
  ’Bytheway,Purcell,youexpressedsomecuriosityrespectingthetall,handsomefellowtowhomIspokelastnight。’
  ’IcertainlydidquestionyouaboutaTALLgentleman,butwasnotawareofhisclaimstobeauty,’repliedI。
  ’Well,thatisasitmaybe,’saidhe;
  ’theladiesthinkhimhandsome,andtheiropinionuponthatscoreismorevaluablethanyoursormine。Doyouknow,’hecontinued,’IsometimesfeelhalfsorrythatIevermadethefellow’sacquaintance:
  heisquiteamarkedmanhere,andtheytellstoriesofhimthatareanythingbutreputable,thoughIamsurewithoutfoundation。IthinkIknowenoughabouthimtowarrantmeinsayingso。’
  ’MayIaskhisname?’inquiredI。
  ’Oh!didnotItellyouhisname?’
  rejoinedhe。’Youshouldhaveheardthatfirst;heandhisnameareequallywellknown。YouwillrecognisetheindividualatoncewhenItellyouthathisnameis——Fitzgerald。’
  ’Fitzgerald!’Irepeated。’Fitzgerald!——
  canitbeFitzgeraldtheduellist?’
  ’Uponmywordyouhavehitit,’repliedhe,laughing;’butyouhaveaccompaniedthediscoverywithalookofhorrormoretragicthanappropriate。Heisnotthemonsteryoutakehimfor——hehasagooddealofoldIrishpride;histemperishasty,andhehasbeenunfortunatelythrowninthewayofmenwhohavenotmadeallowanceforthesethings。IamconvincedthatineverycaseinwhichFitzgeraldhasfought,ifthetruthcouldbediscovered,hewouldbefoundtohaveactedthroughoutuponthedefensive。Nomanismadenoughtoriskhisownlife,exceptwhenthedoingsoisanalternativetosubmittingtamelytowhatheconsidersaninsult。Iamcertainthatnomaneverengagedinaduelundertheconsciousnessthathehadactedanintentionallyaggressivepart。’
  ’Whendidyoumakehisacquaintance?’
  saidI。
  ’Abouttwoyearsago,’hereplied。’I
  methiminFrance,andyouknowwhenoneisabroaditisanungracioustasktorejecttheadvancesofone’scountryman,otherwiseIthinkIshouldhaveavoidedhissociety——lessuponmyownaccountthanbecauseIamsuretheacquaintancewouldbeasourceofcontinualthoughgroundlessuneasinesstomymother。Iknow,therefore,thatyouwillnotunnecessarilymentionitsexistencetoher。’
  Igavehimthedesiredassurance,andadded:
  ’MayIaskyou。O’Connor,if,indeed,itbeafairquestion,whetherthisFitzgeraldatanytimeattemptedtoengageyouinanythinglikegaming?’
  ThisquestionwassuggestedbymyhavingfrequentlyheardFitzgeraldmentionedasanotedgambler,andsometimesevenasablackleg。O’Connorseemed,I
  thought,slightlyembarrassed。Heanswered:
  ’No,no——Icannotsaythatheeverattemptedanythingofthekind。I
  certainlyhaveplayedwithhim,butneverlosttoanyseriousamount;norcanI
  recollectthatheeversolicitedme——indeedheknowsthatIhaveastrongobjectiontodeepplay。YOUmustbeawarethatmyfinancescouldnotbearmuchpruningdown。Ineverlostmoretohimatasittingthanaboutfivepounds,whichyouknowisnothing。No,youwronghimifyouimaginethatheattachedhimselftomemerelyforthesakeofsuchcontemptiblewinningsasthosewhichabroken-downIrishgentlemancouldaffordhim。Come,Purcell,youaretooharduponhim——youjudgeonlybyreport;youmustseehim,anddecideforyourself——Supposewecalluponhimnow;heisattheinn,intheHighStreet,notamileoff。’
  Ideclinedtheproposaldrily。
  ’Yourcautionistooeasilyalarmed,’
  saidhe。’Idonotwishyoutomakethismanyourbosomfriend:Imerelydesirethatyoushouldseeandspeaktohim,andifyouformanyacquaintancewithhim,itmustbeofthatslightnaturewhichcanbedroppedorcontinuedatpleasure。’
  FromthetimethatO’ConnorhadannouncedthefactthathisfriendwasnootherthanthenotoriousFitzgerald,aforebodingofsomethingcalamitoushadcomeuponme,anditnowoccurredtomethatifanyunpleasantnessweretobefearedaslikelytoresulttoO’Connorfromtheirconnection,Imightfindmyattemptstoextricatehimmuchfacilitatedbymybeingacquainted,howeverslightly,withFitzgerald。Iknownotwhethertheideawasreasonable——itwascertainlynatural;