Sosaying,shequittedtheroom,leavingmeverylittledisposedtosleep。
Herewasfoodformyveryworstandmostterriblesuspicions;stilltherewasnotenoughtoremovealldoubt。Ihadnoproofofthetruthofthiswoman’sstatement。
Takenbyitself,therewasnothingtoinducemetoattachweighttoit;butwhenIvieweditinconnectionwiththeextraordinarymysteryofsomeofLordGlen-
fallen’sproceedings,hisstrangeanxietytoexcludemefromcertainportionsofthemansion,doubtlesslestIshouldencounterthisperson——thestronginfluence,nay,commandwhichshepossessedoverhim,acircumstanceclearlyestablishedbytheveryfactofherresidingintheveryplacewhere,ofallothers,heshouldleasthavedesiredtofindher——herthusacting,andcontinuingtoactindirectcontradictiontohiswishes;
when,Isay,Iviewedherdisclosureinconnectionwithallthesecircumstances,Icouldnothelpfeelingthattherewasatleastafearfulverisimilitudeintheallegationswhichshehadmade。
StillIwasnotsatisfied,nornearlyso。
Youngmindshaveareluctancealmostinsurmountabletobelieving,uponanythingshortofunquestionableproof,theexistenceofpremeditatedguiltinanyonewhomtheyhaveevertrusted;andinsupportofthisfeelingIwasassuredthatiftheassertionofLordGlenfallen,whichnothinginthiswoman’smannerhadledmetodisbelieve,weretrue,namelythathermindwasunsound,thewholefabricofmydoubtsandfearsmustfalltotheground。
IdeterminedtostatetoLordGlenfallenfreelyandaccuratelythesubstanceofthecommunicationwhichIhadjustheard,andinhiswordsandlookstoseekforitsprooforrefutation。Fullofthesethoughts,I
remainedwakefulandexcitedallnight,everymomentfancyingthatIheardthesteporsawthefigureofmyrecentvisitor,towardswhomIfeltaspeciesofhorroranddreadwhichIcanhardlydescribe。
Therewassomethinginherface,thoughherfeatureshadevidentlybeenhandsome,andwerenot,atfirstsight,unpleasing,which,uponanearerinspection,seemedtoindicatethehabitualprevalenceandindulgenceofevilpassions,andapowerofexpressingmereanimalanger,withanintensenessthatIhaveseldomseenequalled,andtowhichanalmostunearthlyeffectwasgivenbytheconvulsivequiveringofthesightlesseyes。
Youmayeasilysupposethatitwasnoverypleasingreflectiontometoconsiderthat,whenevercapricemightinducehertoreturn,Iwaswithinthereachofthisviolentand,foraughtIknew,insanewoman,whohad,uponthatverynight,spokentomeinatoneofmenace,ofwhichhermerewords,divestedofthemannerandlookwithwhichsheutteredthem,canconveybutafaintidea。
WillyoubelievemewhenItellyouthatIwasactuallyafraidtoleavemybedinordertosecurethedoor,lestIshouldagainencounterthedreadfulobjectlurkinginsomecornerorpeepingfrombehindthewindow-curtains,soveryachildwasI
inmyfears。
Themorningcame,andwithitLordGlenfallen。Iknewnot,andindeedIcarednot,wherehemighthavebeen;mythoughtswerewhollyengrossedbytheterriblefearsandsuspicionswhichmylastnight’sconferencehadsuggestedtome。
Hewas,asusual,gloomyandabstracted,andIfearedinnoveryfittingmoodtohearwhatIhadtosaywithpatience,whetherthechargesweretrueorfalse。
Iwas,however,determinednottosuffertheopportunitytopass,orLordGlenfallentoleavetheroom,until,atallhazards,Ihadunburdenedmymind。
’Mylord,’saidI,afteralongsilence,summoningupallmyfirmness——’mylord,Iwishtosayafewwordstoyouuponamatterofverygreatimportance,ofverydeepconcernmenttoyouandtome。’
Ifixedmyeyesuponhimtodiscern,ifpossible,whethertheannouncementcausedhimanyuneasiness;butnosymptomofanysuchfeelingwasperceptible。
’Well,mydear,’saidhe,’thisisnodoubtaverygravepreface,andportends,Ihavenodoubt,somethingextraordinary。
Prayletushaveitwithoutmoreado。’
Hetookachair,andseatedhimselfnearlyoppositetome。
’Mylord,’saidI,’Ihaveseenthepersonwhoalarmedmesomuchashorttimesince,theblindlady,again,uponlastnight。’Hisface,uponwhichmyeyeswerefixed,turnedpale;hehesitatedforamoment,andthensaid:
’Anddidyou,pray,madam,sototallyforgetorspurnmyexpresscommand,astoenterthatportionofthehousefromwhichyourpromise,Imightsayyouroath,excludedyou?——answermethat!’headdedfiercely。
’Mylord,’saidI,’IhaveneitherforgottenyourCOMMANDS,sincesuchtheywere,nordisobeyedthem。Iwas,lastnight,wakenedfrommysleep,asIlayinmyownchamber,andaccostedbythepersonwhomIhavementioned。HowshefoundaccesstotheroomIcannotpretendtosay。’
’Ha!thismustbelookedto,’saidhe,halfreflectively;’andpray,’addedhe,quickly,whileinturnhefixedhiseyesuponme,’whatdidthispersonsay?sincesomecommentuponhercommunicationforms,nodoubt,thesequeltoyourpreface。’
’Yourlordshipisnotmistaken,’saidI;
’herstatementwassoextraordinarythatIcouldnotthinkofwithholdingitfromyou。Shetoldme,mylord,thatyouhadawifelivingatthetimeyoumarriedme,andthatshewasthatwife。’
LordGlenfallenbecameashypale,almostlivid;hemadetwoorthreeeffortstoclearhisvoicetospeak,butinvain,andturningsuddenlyfromme,hewalkedtothewindow。Thehorroranddismaywhich,intheoldentime,overwhelmedthewomanofEndorwhenherspellsunexpectedlyconjuredthedeadintoherpresence,werebuttypesofwhatIfeltwhenthuspresentedwithwhatappearedtobealmostunequivocalevidenceoftheguiltwhoseexistenceIhadbeforesostronglydoubted。
Therewasasilenceofsomemoments,duringwhichitwerehardtoconjecturewhetherIormycompanionsufferedmost。
LordGlenfallensoonrecoveredhisself-
command;hereturnedtothetable,againsatdownandsaid:
’Whatyouhavetoldmehassoastonishedme,hasunfoldedsuchatissueofmotivelessguilt,andinaquarterfromwhichIhadsolittlereasontolookforingratitudeortreachery,thatyourannouncementalmostdeprivedmeofspeech;
thepersoninquestion,however,hasoneexcuse,hermindis,asItoldyoubefore,unsettled。Youshouldhaverememberedthat,andhesitatedtoreceiveasunexceptionableevidenceagainstthehonourofyourhusband,theravingsofalunatic。I
nowtellyouthatthisisthelasttimeI
shallspeaktoyouuponthissubject,and,inthepresenceoftheGodwhoistojudgeme,andasIhopeformercyinthedayofjudgment,Iswearthatthechargethusbroughtagainstmeisutterlyfalse,unfounded,andridiculous;Idefytheworldinanypointtotaintmyhonour;and,asIhavenevertakentheopinionofmadmentouchingyourcharacterormorals,I
thinkitbutfairtorequirethatyouwillevincealiketendernessforme;andnow,onceforall,neveragaindaretorepeattomeyourinsultingsuspicions,ortheclumsyandinfamouscalumniesoffools。
Ishallinstantlylettheworthyladywhocontrivedthissomewhatoriginaldevice,understandfullymyopinionuponthematter。Goodmorning;’andwiththesewordsheleftmeagainindoubt,andinvolvedinallhorrorsofthemostagonisingsuspense。
IhadreasontothinkthatLordGlenfallenwreakedhisvengeanceupontheauthorofthestrangestorywhichIhadheard,withaviolencewhichwasnotsatisfiedwithmerewords,foroldMartha,withwhomIwasagreatfavourite,whileattendingmeinmyroom,toldmethatshefearedhermasterhadill-usedthepoorblindDutchwoman,forthatshehadheardherscreamasiftheverylifewereleavingher,butaddedarequestthatIshouldnotspeakofwhatshehadtoldmetoanyone,particularlytothemaster。
’HowdoyouknowthatsheisaDutchwoman?’inquiredI,anxioustolearnanythingwhateverthatmightthrowalightuponthehistoryofthisperson,whoseemedtohaveresolvedtomixherselfupinmyfortunes。
’Why,mylady,’answeredMartha,’themasteroftencallshertheDutchhag,andothernamesyouwouldnotliketohear,andIamsuresheisneitherEnglishnorIrish;for,whenevertheytalktogether,theyspeaksomequeerforeignlingo,andfastenough,I’llbebound。ButIoughtnottotalkaboutheratall;itmightbeasmuchasmyplaceisworthtomentionher——onlyyousawherfirstyourself,sotherecanbenogreatharminspeakingofhernow。’
’Howlonghasthisladybeenhere?’
continuedI。
’Shecameearlyonthemorningafteryourladyship’sarrival,’answeredshe;’butdonotaskmeanymore,forthemasterwouldthinknothingofturningmeoutofdoorsfordaringtospeakofheratall,muchlesstoyou,mylady。’
Ididnotliketopressthepoorwomanfurther,forherreluctancetospeakonthistopicwasevidentandstrong。
Youwillreadilybelievethatupontheveryslightgroundswhichmyinformationafforded,contradictedasitwasbythesolemnoathofmyhusband,andderivedfromwhatwas,atbest,averyquestionablesource,Icouldnottakeanyverydecisivemeasurewhatever;andastothemenaceofthestrangewomanwhohadthusunaccountablytwiceintrudedherselfintomychamber,although,atthemoment,itoccasionedmesomeuneasiness,itwasnot,eveninmyeyes,sufficientlyformidabletoinducemydeparturefromCahergillagh。
AfewnightsafterthescenewhichI
havejustmentioned,LordGlenfallenhaving,asusual,earlyretiredtohisstudy,IwasleftaloneintheparlourtoamusemyselfasbestImight。
ItwasnotstrangethatmythoughtsshouldoftenrecurtotheagitatingscenesinwhichIhadrecentlytakenapart。
Thesubjectofmyreflections,thesolitude,thesilence,andthelatenessofthehour,asalsothedepressionofspiritstowhichI
hadoflatebeenaconstantprey,tendedtoproducethatnervousexcitementwhichplacesuswhollyatthemercyoftheimagination。
InordertocalmmyspiritsIwasendeavouringtodirectmythoughtsintosomemorepleasingchannel,whenIheard,orthoughtIheard,uttered,withinafewyardsofme,inanodd,half-sneeringtone,thewords,’Thereisblooduponyourladyship’sthroat。’
SovividwastheimpressionthatI
startedtomyfeet,andinvoluntarilyplacedmyhanduponmyneck。
Ilookedaroundtheroomforthespeaker,butinvain。
Iwentthentotheroom-door,whichI
opened,andpeeredintothepassage,nearlyfaintwithhorrorlestsomeleering,shapelessthingshouldgreetmeuponthethreshold。
WhenIhadgazedlongenoughtoassuremyselfthatnostrangeobjectwaswithinsight,’Ihavebeentoomuchofarakelately;
Iamrackingoutmynerves,’saidI,speakingaloud,withaviewtoreassuremyself。
Irangthebell,and,attendedbyoldMartha,Iretiredtosettleforthenight。
Whiletheservantwas——aswashercustom——arrangingthelampwhichIhavealreadystatedalwaysburnedduringthenightinmychamber,Iwasemployedinundressing,and,indoingso,Ihadrecoursetoalargelooking-glasswhichoccupiedaconsiderableportionofthewallinwhichitwasfixed,risingfromthegroundtoaheightofaboutsixfeet——thismirrorfilledthespaceofalargepanelinthewainscotingoppositethefootofthebed。
Ihadhardlybeenbeforeitforthelapseofaminutewhensomethinglikeablackpallwasslowlywavedbetweenmeandit。
’Oh,God!thereitis,’Iexclaimed,wildly。’Ihaveseenitagain,Martha——
theblackcloth。’
’Godbemercifultous,then!’answeredshe,tremulouslycrossingherself。’Somemisfortuneisoverus。’
’No,no,Martha,’saidI,almostinstantlyrecoveringmycollectedness;for,althoughofanervoustemperament,Ihadneverbeensuperstitious。’Idonotbelieveinomens。YouknowIsaw,orfanciedI
saw,thisthingbefore,andnothingfollowed。’
’TheDutchladycamethenextmorning,’
repliedshe。
’Butsurelyhercomingscarcelydeservedsuchadreadfulwarning,’I
replied。
’Sheisastrangewoman,mylady,’saidMartha;’andsheisnotGONEyet——markmywords。’
’Well,well,Martha,’saidI,’Ihavenotwitenoughtochangeyouropinions,norinclinationtoaltermine;soIwilltalknomoreofthematter。Good-night,’andsoIwaslefttomyreflections。
Afterlyingforaboutanhourawake,Iatlengthfellintoakindofdoze;butmyimaginationwasstillbusy,forIwasstartledfromthisunrefreshingsleepbyfancyingthatIheardavoiceclosetomyfaceexclaimasbefore:
’Thereisblooduponyourladyship’sthroat。’
Thewordswereinstantlyfollowedbyaloudburstoflaughter。
Quakingwithhorror,Iawakened,andheardmyhusbandentertheroom。Eventhiswasitrelief。
ScaredasIwas,however,bythetrickswhichmyimaginationhadplayedme,I
preferredremainingsilent,andpretendingtosleep,toattemptingtoengagemyhusbandinconversation,forIwellknewthathismoodwassuch,thathiswordswouldnot,inallprobability,conveyanythingthathadnotbetterbeunsaidandunheard。
LordGlenfallenwentintohisdressing-
room,whichlayupontheright-handsideofthebed。Thedoorlyingopen,Icouldseehimbyhimself,atfulllengthuponasofa,and,inabouthalfanhour,Ibecameaware,byhisdeepandregularlydrawnrespiration,thathewasfastasleep。
Whenslumberrefusestovisitone,thereissomethingpeculiarlyirritating,nottothetemper,buttothenerves,intheconsciousnessthatsomeoneisinyourimmediatepresence,actuallyenjoyingtheboonwhichyouareseekinginvain;atleast,Ihavealwaysfounditso,andnevermorethanuponthepresentoccasion。
Athousandannoyingimaginationsharassedandexcitedme;everyobjectwhichIlookedupon,thougheversofamiliar,seemedtohaveacquiredastrangephantom-
likecharacter,thevaryingshadowsthrownbytheflickeringofthelamplight,seemedshapingthemselvesintogrotesqueandunearthlyforms,andwhenevermyeyeswanderedtothesleepingfigureofmyhusband,hisfeaturesappearedtoundergothestrangestandmostdemoniacalcontortions。
Hourafterhourwastoldbytheoldclock,andeachsucceedingonefoundme,ifpossible,lessinclinedtosleepthanitspredecessor。