首页 >出版文学> Letters on Literature>第21章
  ’Shecouldnotseehisface,’saidEmily,’andshewasinsuchahurrytoescapethatshescarcelynoticedhim。’
  SirArthurappearedsatisfied,andtheconversationended。
  Thisslightconversation,repeatedaccuratelytomebyEmily,hadtheeffectofconfirming,ifindeedanythingwasrequiredtodoso,allthatIhadbeforebelievedastoEdward’sactualpresence;andInaturallybecame,ifpossible,moreanxiousthanevertodespatchthelettertoMr。
  Jefferies。Anopportunityatlengthoccurred。
  AsEmilyandIwerewalkingonedaynearthegateofthedemesne,aladfromthevillagehappenedtobepassingdowntheavenuefromthehouse;thespotwassecluded,andasthispersonwasnotconnectedbyservicewiththosewhoseobservationIdreaded,Icommittedthelettertohiskeeping,withstrictinjunctionsthatheshouldputitwithoutdelayintothereceiverofthetownpost-office;atthesametimeIaddedasuitablegratuity,andthemanhavingmademanyprotestationsofpunctuality,wassoonoutofsight。
  HewashardlygonewhenIbegantodoubtmydiscretioninhavingtrustedthisperson;butIhadnobetterorsafermeansofdespatchingtheletter,andIwasnotwarrantedinsuspectinghimofsuchwantondishonestyasaninclinationtotamperwithit;butIcouldnotbequitesatisfiedofitssafetyuntilIhadreceivedananswer,whichcouldnotarriveforafewdays。BeforeIdid,however,aneventoccurredwhichalittlesurprisedme。
  Iwassittinginmybedroomearlyintheday,readingbymyself,whenIheardaknockatthedoor。
  ’Comein,’saidI;andmyuncleenteredtheroom。
  ’Willyouexcuseme?’saidhe。’I
  soughtyouintheparlour,andthenceI
  havecomehere。Idesiredtosayawordwithyou。Itrustthatyouhavehithertofoundmyconducttoyousuchasthatofaguardiantowardshiswardshouldbe。’
  Idarednotwithholdmyconsent。
  ’And,’hecontinued,’Itrustthatyouhavenotfoundmeharshorunjust,andthatyouhaveperceived,mydearniece,thatIhavesoughttomakethispoorplaceasagreeabletoyouasmaybe。’
  Iassentedagain;andheputhishandinhispocket,whencehedrewafoldedpaper,anddashingituponthetablewithstartlingemphasis,hesaid:
  ’Didyouwritethatletter?’
  Thesuddenandtearfulalterationofhisvoice,manner,andface,but,morethanall,theunexpectedproductionofmylettertoMr。Jefferies,whichIatoncerecognised,soconfoundedandterrifiedme,thatIfeltalmostchoking。
  Icouldnotutteraword。
  ’Didyouwritethatletter?’herepeatedwithslowandintenseemphasis。’Youdid,liarandhypocrite!Youdaredtowritethisfoulandinfamouslibel;butitshallbeyourlast。Menwilluniversallybelieveyoumad,ifIchoosetocallforaninquiry。Icanmakeyouappearso。Thesuspicionsexpressedinthisletterarethehallucinationsandalarmsofmopinglunacy。
  Ihavedefeatedyourfirstattempt,madam;
  andbytheholyGod,ifeveryoumakeanother,chains,straw,darkness,andthekeeper’swhipshallbeyourlastingportion!’
  Withtheseastoundingwordshelefttheroom,leavingmealmostfainting。
  Iwasnowalmostreducedtodespair;
  mylastcasthadfailed;Ihadnocourseleftbutthatofelopingsecretlyfromthecastle,andplacingmyselfundertheprotectionofthenearestmagistrate。Ifeltifthiswerenotdone,andspeedily,thatI
  shouldbeMURDERED。
  Noone,frommeredescription,canhaveanideaoftheunmitigatedhorrorofmysituation——ahelpless,weak,inexperiencedgirl,placedunderthepowerandwhollyatthemercyofevilmen,andfeelingthatshehaditnotinherpowertoescapeforamomentfromthemalignantinfluencesunderwhichshewasprobablyfatedtofall;
  andwithaconsciousnessthatifviolence,ifmurderweredesigned,herdyingshriekwouldbelostinvoidspace;nohumanbeingwouldbeneartoaidher,nohumaninterpositioncoulddeliverher。
  IhadseenEdwardbutonceduringhisvisit,andasIdidnotmeetwithhimagain,Ibegantothinkthathemusthavetakenhisdeparture——aconvictionwhichwastoacertaindegreesatisfactory,asI
  regardedhisabsenceasindicatingtheremovalofimmediatedanger。
  Emilyalsoarrivedcircuitouslyatthesameconclusion,andnotwithoutgoodgrounds,forshemanagedindirectlytolearnthatEdward’sblackhorsehadactuallybeenforadayandpartofanightinthecastlestables,justatthetimeofherbrother’ssupposedvisit。Thehorsehadgone,and,assheargued,theridermusthavedepartedwithit。
  Thispointbeingsofarsettled,Ifeltalittlelessuncomfortable:whenbeingonedayaloneinmybedroom,Ihappenedtolookoutfromthewindow,and,tomyun-
  utterablehorror,Ibeheld,peeringthroughanoppositecasement,mycousinEdward’sface。HadIseentheevilonehimselfinbodilyshape,Icouldnothaveexperiencedamoresickeningrevulsion。
  Iwastoomuchappalledtomoveatoncefromthewindow,butIdidsosoonenoughtoavoidhiseye。Hewaslookingfixedlyintothenarrowquadrangleuponwhichthewindowopened。Ishrankbackunperceived,topasstherestofthedayinterroranddespair。Iwenttomyroomearlythatnight,butIwastoomiserabletosleep。
  Atabouttwelveo’clock,feelingverynervous,IdeterminedtocallmycousinEmily,whoslept,youwillremember,inthenextroom,whichcommunicatedwithminebyaseconddoor。BythisprivateentranceIfoundmywayintoherchamber,andwithoutdifficultypersuadedhertoreturntomyroomandsleepwithme。
  Weaccordinglylaydowntogether,sheundressed,andIwithmyclotheson,forI
  waseverymomentwalkingupanddowntheroom,andfelttoonervousandmiserabletothinkofrestorcomfort。
  Emilywassoonfastasleep,andIlayawake,ferventlylongingforthefirstpalegleamofmorning,reckoningeverystrokeoftheoldclockwithanimpatiencewhichmadeeveryhourappearlikesix。
  Itmusthavebeenaboutoneo’clockwhenIthoughtIheardaslightnoiseatthepartition-doorbetweenEmily’sroomandmine,asifcausedbysomebody’sturningthekeyinthelock。Iheldmybreath,andthesamesoundwasrepeatedattheseconddoorofmyroom——thatwhichopeneduponthelobby——thesoundwasheredistinctlycausedbytherevolutionoftheboltinthelock,anditwasfollowedbyaslightpressureuponthedooritself,asiftoascertainthesecurityofthelock。
  Theperson,whoeveritmightbe,wasprobablysatisfied,forIheardtheoldboardsofthelobbycreakandstrain,asifundertheweightofsomebodymovingcautiouslyoverthem。Mysenseofhearingbecameunnaturally,almostpainfullyacute。Isupposetheimaginationaddeddistinctnesstosoundsvagueinthemselves。
  IthoughtthatIcouldactuallyhearthebreathingofthepersonwhowasslowlyreturningdownthelobby。Attheheadofthestaircasethereappearedtooccurapause;andIcoulddistinctlyheartwoorthreesentenceshastilywhispered;thestepsthendescendedthestairswithapparentlylesscaution。Inowventuredtowalkquicklyandlightlytothelobby-door,andattemptedtoopenit;itwasindeedfastlockedupontheoutside,aswasalsotheother。
  Inowfeltthatthedreadfulhourwascome;butonedesperateexpedientremained——itwastoawakenEmily,andbyourunitedstrengthtoattempttoforcethepartition-door,whichwasslighterthantheother,andthroughthistopasstothelowerpartofthehouse,whenceitmightbepossibletoescapetothegrounds,andforthtothevillage。
  IreturnedtothebedsideandshookEmily,butinvain。NothingthatIcoulddoavailedtoproducefromhermorethanafewincoherentwords——itwasadeath-
  likesleep。Shehadcertainlydrankofsomenarcotic,ashadIprobablyalso,spiteofallthecautionwithwhichIhadexaminedeverythingpresentedtoustoeatordrink。
  Inowattempted,withaslittlenoiseaspossible,toforcefirstonedoor,thentheother——butallinvain。Ibelievenostrengthcouldhaveeffectedmyobject,forbothdoorsopenedinwards。IthereforecollectedwhatevermovablesIcouldcarrythither,andpiledthemagainstthedoors,soastoassistmeinwhateverattemptsI
  shouldmaketoresisttheentranceofthosewithout。Ithenreturnedtothebedandendeavouredagain,butfruitlessly,toawakenmycousin。Itwasnotsleep,itwastorpor,lethargy,death。Ikneltdownandprayedwithanagonyofearnestness;
  andthenseatingmyselfuponthebed,I
  awaitedmyfatewithakindofterribletranquillity。
  IheardafaintclankingsoundfromthenarrowcourtwhichIhavealreadymentioned,asifcausedbythescrapingofsomeironinstrumentagainststonesorrubbish。IatfirstdeterminednottodisturbthecalmnesswhichInowfelt,byuselesslywatchingtheproceedingsofthosewhosoughtmylife;butasthesoundscontinued,thehorriblecuriositywhichI
  feltovercameeveryotheremotion,andI
  determined,atallhazards,togratifyit。
  Ithereforecrawleduponmykneestothewindow,soastoletthesmallestportionofmyheadappearabovethesill。
  Themoonwasshiningwithanuncertainradianceupontheantiquegreybuildings,andobliquelyuponthenarrowcourtbeneath,onesideofwhichwasthereforeclearlyilluminated,whiletheotherwaslostinobscurity,thesharpoutlinesoftheoldgables,withtheirnoddingclustersofivy,beingatfirstalonevisible。
  Whoeverorwhateveroccasionedthenoisewhichhadexcitedmycuriosity,wasconcealedundertheshadowofthedarksideofthequadrangle。Iplacedmyhandovermyeyestoshadethemfromthemoonlight,whichwassobrightastobealmostdazzling,and,peeringintothedarkness,Ifirstdimly,butafterwardsgradually,almostwithfulldistinctness,beheldtheformofamanengagedindiggingwhatappearedtobearudeholecloseunderthewall。Someimplements,probablyashovelandpickaxe,laybesidehim,andtotheseheeverynowandthenappliedhimselfasthenatureofthegroundrequired。Hepursuedhistaskrapidly,andwithaslittlenoiseaspossible。
  ’So,’thoughtI,as,shovelfulaftershovel-
  ful,thedislodgedrubbishmountedintoaheap,’theyarediggingthegraveinwhich,beforetwohourspass,Imustlie,acold,mangledcorpse。IamTHEIRS——Icannotescape。’
  Ifeltasifmyreasonwasleavingme。
  Istartedtomyfeet,andinmeredespairI
  appliedmyselfagaintoeachofthetwodoorsalternately。Istrainedeverynerveandsinew,butImightaswellhaveattempted,withmysinglestrength,toforcethebuildingitselffromitsfoundation。I
  threwmyselfmadlyupontheground,andclaspedmyhandsovermyeyesasiftoshutoutthehorribleimageswhichcrowdeduponme。
  Theparoxysmpassedaway。Iprayedoncemore,withthebitter,agonisedfervourofonewhofeelsthatthehourofdeathispresentandinevitable。WhenIarose,I
  wentoncemoretothewindowandlookedout,justintimetoseeashadowyfigureglidestealthilyalongthewall。Thetaskwasfinished。Thecatastropheofthetragedymustsoonbeaccomplished。
  Ideterminednowtodefendmylifetothelast;andthatImightbeabletodosowithsomeeffect,Isearchedtheroomforsomethingwhichmightserveasaweapon;buteitherthroughaccident,orfromananticipationofsuchapossibility,everythingwhichmighthavebeenmadeavailableforsuchapurposehadbeencarefullyremoved。Imustthendietamelyandwithoutanefforttodefendmyself。
  Athoughtsuddenlystruckme——mightitnotbepossibletoescapethroughthedoor,whichtheassassinmustopeninordertoentertheroom?Iresolvedtomaketheattempt。Ifeltassuredthatthedoorthroughwhichingresstotheroomwouldbeeffected,wasthatwhichopeneduponthelobby。Itwasthemoredirectway,besidesbeing,forobviousreasons,lessliabletointerruptionthantheother。
  Iresolved,then,toplacemyselfbehindaprojectionofthewall,whoseshadowwouldservefullytoconcealme,andwhenthedoorshouldbeopened,andbeforetheyshouldhavediscoveredtheidentityoftheoccupantofthebed,tocreepnoiselesslyfromtheroom,andthentotrusttoProvidenceforescape。
  Inordertofacilitatethisscheme,I
  removedallthelumberwhichIhadheapedagainstthedoor;andIhadnearlycompletedmyarrangements,whenIperceivedtheroomsuddenlydarkenedbythecloseapproachofsomeshadowyobjecttothewindow。Onturningmyeyesinthatdirection,Iobservedatthetopofthecasement,asifsuspendedfromabove,firstthefeet,thenthelegs,thenthebody,andatlengththewholefigureofamanpresenthimself。ItwasEdwardT——n。