’Iamthegentlemanyouname,’saidO’Connor;’andasyouappearimpatient,wehadbetterproceedtoyourcommissionwithoutdelay。’
’Then,Mr。O’Connor,youwillpleasetoreadthatnote,’saidthecaptain,placingasealedpaperinhishand。
O’Connorreaditthrough,andthenobserved:
’Thisisveryextraordinaryindeed。
Thisnoteappearstomeperfectlyunaccountable。’
’Youareveryyoung,Mr。O’Connor,’
saidthecaptain,withvulgarfamiliarity;
’but,withoutmuchexperienceinthesematters,Ithinkyoumighthaveanticipatedsomethinglikethis。Youknowtheoldsaying,“Secondthoughtsarebest;“andsotheyareliketoprove,byG——!’
’Youwillhavenoobjection,CaptainM’Creagh,onthepartofyourfriend,tomyreadingthisnotetothesegentlemen;
theyarebothconfidentialfriendsofmine,andoneofthemhasalreadyactedformeinthisbusiness。’
’Icanhavenoobjection,’repliedthecaptain,’toyourdoingwhatyoupleasewithyourown。IhavenothingmoretodowiththatnoteonceIputitsafeintoyourhand;andwhenthatisoncedone,itisallonetome,ifyoureadittohalftheworld——that’sYOURconcern,andnoaffairofmine。’
O’Connorthenreadthefollowing:
’Mr。Fitzgeraldbegsleavetostate,thatuponre-perusingMr。O’Connor’scommunicationofthismorningcarefully,withanexperiencedfriend,heisforcedtoconsiderhimselfaschallenged。Hisfriend,CaptainM’Creagh,hasbeenempoweredbyhimtomakeallthenecessaryarrangements。
’T——Inn,Thursday。’
IcanhardlydescribetheastonishmentwithwhichIheardthisnote。Iturnedtothecaptain,andsaid:
’Surely,sir,thereissomemistakeinallthis?’
’Nottheslightest,I’llassureyou,sir。’
saidhe,coolly;’thecaseisaveryclearone,andIthinkmyfriendhasprettywellmadeuphisminduponit。MayI
requestyouranswer?’hecontinued,turningtoO’Connor;’timeisprecious,youknow。’
O’Connorexpressedhiswillingnesstocomplywiththesuggestion,andinafewminuteshadfoldedanddirectedthefollowingrejoinder:
’Mr。O’ConnorhavingreceivedasatisfactoryexplanationfromMr。
Fitzgerald,ofthelanguageusedbythatgentleman,feelsthattherenolongerexistsanygroundsformisunderstanding,andwishesfurthertostate,thatthenoteofwhichMr。Fitzgeraldspeakswasnotintendedasachallenge。’
Withthisnotethecaptaindeparted;andaswedidnotdoubtthatthemessagewhichhehaddeliveredhadbeensuggestedbysomeunintentionalmisconstructionofO’Connor’sfirstbillet,wefeltassuredthattheconclusionofhislastnotewouldsetthematteratrest。Inthisbelief,however,weweremistaken;beforewehadleftthetable,andinanincrediblyshorttime,thecaptainreturned。Heenteredtheroomwithacountenanceevidentlytaskedtoavoidexpressingthesatisfactionwhichaconsciousnessofthenatureofhismissionhadconferred;butinspiteofallhiseffortstolookgravelyunconcerned,therewasatwinkleinthesmallgreyeye,andanalmostimperceptiblemotioninthecornerofthemouth,whichsufficientlybetrayedhisinternalglee,asheplacedanoteinthehandofO’Connor。Astheyoungmancasthiseyeoverit,hecoloureddeeply,andturningtoM’Donough,hesaid:
’Youwillhavethegoodnesstomakeallthenecessaryarrangementsforameeting。
SomethinghasoccurredtorenderonebetweenmeandMr。Fitzgeraldinevitable。Understandmeliterally,whenIsaythatitisnowtotallyimpossiblethatthisaffairshouldbeamicablyarranged。
Youwillhavethegoodness,M’Donough,toletmeknowassoonasalltheparticularsarearranged。Purcell,’hecontinued,’willyouhavethekindnesstoaccompanyme?’andhavingbowedtoM’Creagh,welefttheroom。
AsIclosedthedoorafterme,Iheardthecaptainlaugh,andthoughtIcoulddistinguishthewords——’By——IknewFitzgeraldwouldbringhimtohiswayofthinkingbeforehestopped。’
IfollowedO’Connorintohisstudy,andonentering,thedoorbeingclosed,heshowedmethecommunicationwhichhaddeterminedhimuponhostilities。Itslanguagewasgrosslyimpertinent,anditconcludedbyactuallythreateningto’POST’
him,incasehefurtherattempted’tobeOFF。’IcannotdescribetheagonyofindignationinwhichO’Connorwrithedunderthisinsult。Hesaidrepeatedlythat’hewasadegradedanddishohouredman,’
that’hewasdraggedintothefield,’that’therewasignominyintheverythoughtthatsuchalettershouldhavebeendirectedtohim。’ItwasinvainthatIreasonedagainstthisimpression;theconvictionthathehadbeendisgracedhadtakenpossessionofhismind。HesaidagainandagainthatnothingbuthisDEATHcouldremovethestainwhichhisindecisionhadcastuponthenameofhisfamily。I
hurriedtothehall,onhearingM’Donoughandthecaptainpassing,andreachedthedoorjustintimetohearthelattersay,ashemountedhishorse:
’Alltherestcanbearrangedonthespot;andsofarewell,Mr。M’Donough——
we’llmeetatPhilippi,youknow;’andwiththisclassicalallusion,whichwasaccompaniedwithagrinandabow,andprobablyservedmanysuchoccasions,thecaptaintookhisdeparture。
M’Donoughbrieflystatedthefewparticularswhichhadbeenarranged。Thepartiesweretomeetatthestand-house,intherace-ground,whichlayataboutanequaldistancebetweenCastleConnorandthetownofT。Thehourappointedwashalf-pastfiveonthenextmorning,atwhichtimethetwilightwouldbesufficientlyadvancedtoaffordadistinctview;
andtheweaponstobeemployedwerePISTOLS——M’Creaghhavingclaimed,onthepartofhisfriend,alltheadvantagesoftheCHALLENGEDparty,andhaving,consequently,insisteduponthechoiceof’TOOLS,’asheexpressedhimself;anditwasfurtherstipulatedthattheutmostsecrecyshouldbeobserved,asFitzgeraldwouldincurgreatriskfromtheviolenceofthepeasantry,incasetheaffairtookwind。
Theseconditionswere,ofcourse,agreeduponbyO’Connor,andM’Donoughleftthecastle,havingappointedfouro’clockuponthenextmorningasthehourofhisreturn,bywhichtimeitwouldbehisbusinesstoprovideeverythingnecessaryforthemeeting。Onhisdeparture,O’Connorrequestedmetoremainwithhimuponthatevening,sayingthat’hecouldnotbeartobealonewithhismother。’Itwastomeamostpainfulrequest,butatthesametimeonewhichI
couldnotthinkofrefusing。Ifelt,however,thatthedifficultyatleastofthetaskwhichIhadtoperformwouldbeinsomemeasuremitigatedbythearrivaloftworelationsofO’Connoruponthatevening。
’Itisveryfortunate,’saidO’Connor,whosethoughtshadbeenrunninguponthesamesubject,’thattheO’Gradyswillbewithusto-night;theirgaietyandgood-humourwillrelieveusfromaheavytask。Itrustthatnothingmayoccurtopreventtheircoming。’Ferventlyconcurringinthesamewish,IaccompaniedO’Connorintotheparlour,theretoawaitthearrivalofhismother。
GodgrantthatImayneverspendsuchanotherevening!TheO’GradysDIDcome,buttheirhighandnoisyspirits,sofarfromrelievingme,didbutgiveadditionalgloomtothedespondency,Imightsaythedespair,whichfilledmyheartwithmisery——
theterribleforebodingswhichIcouldnotforaninstantsilence,turnedtheirlaughterintodiscord,andseemedtomockthesmilesandjestsoftheunconsciousparty。WhenIturnedmyeyesuponthemother,I
thoughtIneverhadseenherlooksoproudlyandsolovinglyuponhersonbefore——itcutmetotheheart——oh,howcruellyIwasdeceivingher!Iwasahundredtimesontheverypointofstart-
ingup,and,atallhazards,declaringtoherhowmatterswere;butotherfeelingssubduedmybetteremotions。Oh,whatmonstersarewemadeofbythefashionsoftheworld!howareourkindlierandnoblerfeelingswarpedordestroyedbytheirbalefulinfluences!IfeltthatitwouldnotbeHONOURABLE,thatitwouldnotbeETIQUETTE,tobetrayO’Connor’ssecret。IsacrificedahigherandanoblerdutythanIhavesincebeencalledupontoperform,tothedastardlyfearofbearingtheunmeritedcensureofaworldfromwhichIwasabouttoretire。OFashion!thougaudyidol,whosefeetareredwiththebloodofhumansacrifice,wouldIhadalwaysfelttowardstheeasInowdo!
O’Connorwasnotdejected;onthecontrary,hejoinedwithloudandlivelyalacrityinthehilarityofthelittleparty;
butIcouldseeintheflushofhischeek,andintheunusualbrightnessofhiseye,alltheexcitementoffever——hewasmakinganeffortalmostbeyondhisstrength,buthesucceeded——andwhenhismotherrosetoleavetheroom,itwaswiththeimpressionthathersonwasthegayestandmostlight-heartedofthecompany。Twiceorthriceshehadrisenwiththeintentionofretiring,butO’Connor,withaneagernesswhichIalonecouldunderstand,hadpersuadedhertoremainuntiltheusualhourofherdeparturehadlongpassed;andwhenatlengthshearose,declaringthatshecouldnotpossiblystaylonger,Ialonecouldcomprehendthedesolatechangewhichpassedoverhismanner;andwhenIsawthempart,itwaswiththesickeningconvictionthatthosetwobeings,sodeartooneanother,soloved,socherished,shouldmeetnomore。
O’Connorbrieflyinformedhiscousinsofthepositioninwhichhewasplaced,requestingthematthesametimetoaccompanyhimtothefield,andthishavingbeensettled,weseparated,eachtohisownapartment。IhadwishedtositupwithO’Connor,whohadmatterstoarrangesufficienttoemployhimuntilthehourappointedforM’Donough’svisit;buthewouldnothearofit,andIwasforced,thoughsorelyagainstmywill,toleavehimwithoutacompanion。Iwenttomyroom,and,inastateofexcitementwhichIcannotdescribe,Ipacedforhoursupanddownitsnarrowprecincts。Icouldnot——
whocould?——analysethestrange,contradictory,torturingfeelingswhich,whileI
recoiledinshrinkinghorrorfromthescenewhichthemorningwastobring,yetforcedmetowishtheinterveningtimeannihilated;
eachhourthattheclocktoldseemedtovibrateandtinklethrougheverynerve;
myagitationwasdreadful;fancyconjureduptheformsofthosewhofilledmythoughtswithmorethanthevividnessofreality;thingsseemedtoglidethroughtheduskyshadowsoftheroom。IsawthedreadedformofFitzgerald——Iheardthehatedlaughofthecaptain——andagainthefeaturesofO’Connorwouldappearbeforeme,withghastlydistinctness,paleandwrithedindeath,thegoutsofgoreclottedinthemouth,andtheeye-ballsglaredandstaring。Scaredwiththevisionswhichseemedtothrongwithunceasingrapidityandvividness,Ithrewopenthewindowandlookedoutuponthequietscenearound。Iturnedmyeyesinthedirectionofthetown;aheavycloudwasloweringdarklyaboutit,andI,inimpiousfrenzy,prayedtoGodthatitmightburstinavengingfiresuponthemurderouswretchwholaybeneath。Atlength,sickandgiddywithexcessofexcitement,Ithrewmyselfuponthebedwithoutremovingmyclothes,andendeavouredtocomposemyselfsofarastoremainquietuntilthehourforourassemblingshouldarrive。
Afewminutesbeforefouro’clockIstolenoiselesslydownstairs,andmademywaytothesmallstudyalreadymentioned。A
candlewasburningwithin;and,whenI
openedthedoor,O’Connorwasreadingabook,which,onseeingme,hehastilyclosed,colouringslightlyashedidso。
Weexchangedacordialbutmournfulgreeting;andafteraslightpausehesaid,layinghishanduponthevolumewhichhehadshutamomentbefore:
’Purcell,Ifeelperfectlycalm,thoughI
cannotsaythatIhavemuchhopeastotheissueofthismorning’srencounter。I
shallavoidhalfthedanger。IfImustfall,IamdeterminedIshallnotgodowntothegravewithhisblooduponmyhands。IhaveresolvednottofireatFitzgerald——thatis,tofireinsuchadirectionastoassuremyselfagainsthittinghim。
DonotsayawordofthistotheO’Gradys。
Yourdoingsowouldonlyproducefruitlessaltercation;theycouldnotunderstandmymotives。IfeelconvincedthatIshallnotleavethefieldalive。IfImustdieto-
day,Ishallavoidanawfulaggravationofwretchedness。Purcell,’hecontinued,afteralittlespace,’IwassoweakastofeelalmostashamedofthemannerinwhichI
wasoccupiedasyouenteredtheroom。
Yes,_I——I_whowillbe,beforethisevening,acoldandlifelessclod,wasashamedtohavespentmylastmomentofreflectioninprayer。Godpardonme!Godpardonme!’herepeated。
Itookhishandandpressedit,butI