首页 >出版文学> Letters of Two Brides>第33章
  MydearLouise,——Isendthisletterbyanexpressbeforehasteningtothechaletmyself。Takecourage。Yourlastletterseemedtomesofrantic,thatIthoughtmyselfjustified,underthecircumstances,inconfidingalltoLouis;itwasaquestionofsavingyoufromyourself。
  Ifthemeanswehaveemployedhavebeen,likeyours,repulsive,yettheresultissosatisfactorythatIamcertainyouwillapprove。I
  wentsofarastosetthepolicetowork,butthewholethingremainsasecretbetweentheprefect,ourselvesandyou。
  Inoneword,Gastonisajewel!Butherearethefacts。Hisbrother,LouisGaston,diedatCalcutta,whileintheserviceofamercantilecompany,whenhewasontheverypointofreturningtoFrance,arich,prosperous,marriedman,havingreceivedaverylargefortunewithhiswife,whowasthewidowofanEnglishmerchant。Fortenyearshehadworkedhardthathemightbeabletosendhomeenoughtosupporthisbrother,towhomhewasdevotedlyattached,andfromwhomhislettersgenerouslyconcealedallhistrialsanddisappointments。
  ThencamethefailureofthegreatHalmerhouse;thewidowwasruined,andthesuddenshockaffectedLouisGaston’sbrain。Hehadnomentalenergylefttoresistthediseasewhichattackedhim,andhediedinBengal,whitherhehadgonetotryandrealizetheremnantsofhiswife’sproperty。Thedear,goodfellowhaddepositedwithabankerafirstsumofthreehundredthousandfrancs,whichwastogotohisbrother,butthebankerwasinvolvedintheHalmercrash,andthustheirlastresourcefailedthem。
  Louis’widow,thehandsomewomanwhomyoutookforyourrival,arrivedinPariswithtwochildren——yournephews——andanemptypurse,hermother’sjewelshavingbarelysufficedtopayforbringingthemover。
  TheinstructionswhichLouisGastonhadgiventhebankerforsendingthemoneytohisbrotherenabledthewidowtofindyourhusband’sformerhome。AsGastonhaddisappearedwithoutleavinganyaddress,Mme。LouisGastonwasdirectedtod’Arthez,theonlypersonwhocouldgiveanyinformationabouthim。
  D’Arthezwasthemorereadytorelievetheyoungwoman’spressingneeds,becauseLouisGaston,atthetimeofhismarriagefouryearsbefore,hadwrittentomakeinquiriesabouthisbrotherfromthefamousauthor,whomheknewtobeoneofhisfriends。TheCaptainhadconsultedd’ArthezastothebestmeansofgettingthemoneysafelytransferredtoMarie,andd’Arthezhadreplied,tellinghimthatGastonwasnowarichmanthroughhismarriagewiththeBaronnedeMacumer。Thepersonalbeauty,whichwasthemother’srichheritagetohersons,hadsavedthemboth——oneinIndia,theotherinParis——fromdestitution。Atouchingstory,isitnot?
  D’Artheznaturallywrote,afteratime,totellyourhusbandoftheconditionofhissister-in-lawandherchildren,informinghim,atthesametime,ofthegenerousintentionsoftheIndianGastontowardshisParisbrother,whichanunhappychancehadfrustrated。Gaston,asyoumayimagine,hurriedofftoParis。Hereisthefirstrideaccountedfor。Duringthelastfiveyearshehadsavedfiftythousandfrancsoutoftheincomeyouforcedhimtoaccept,andthissumheinvestedinthepublicfundsunderthenamesofhistwonephews,securingthemeach,inthisway,anincomeoftwelvehundredfrancs。Nexthefurnishedhissister-in-law’srooms,andpromisedheraquarterlyallowanceofthreethousandfrancs。Hereyouseethemeaningofhisdramaticlaborsandthepleasurecausedhimbythesuccessofhisfirstplay。
  Mme。Gaston,therefore,isnorivalofyours,andhaseveryrighttoyourname。AmanofGaston’ssensitivedelicacywasboundtokeeptheaffairsecretfromyou,knowingashedid,yourgenerousnature。Nordoeshelookonwhatyougivehimashisown。D’Arthezreadmetheletterhehadfromyourhusband,askinghimtobeoneofthewitnessesathismarriage。Gastoninthisdeclaresthathishappinesswouldhavebeenperfectbutfortheonedrawbackofhispovertyandindebtednesstoyou。Avirginsoulisatthemercyofsuchscruples。Eithertheymakethemselvesfeltortheydonot;andwhentheydo,itiseasytoimaginetheconflictoffeelingandembarrassmenttowhichtheygiverise。NothingismorenaturalthanGaston’swishtoprovideinsecretasuitablemaintenanceforthewomanwhoishisbrother’swidow,andwhohadherselfsetasideonehundredthousandfrancsforhimfromherownfortune。Sheisahandsomewoman,warm-hearted,andextremelywell-bred,butnotclever。Sheisamother;and,youmaybesure,I
  lostmyhearttoheratfirstsightwhenIfoundherwithonechildinherarms,andtheotherdressedlikealittlelord。Thechildrenfirst!iswrittenineverydetailofherhouse。
  Farfrombeingangry,therefore,withyourbelovedhusband,youshouldfindinallthisfreshreasonforlovinghim。Ihavemethim,andthinkhimthemostdelightfulyoungfellowinParis。Yes!dearchild,whenIsawhim,Ihadnodifficultyinunderstandingthatawomanmightloseherheadabouthim;hissoulismirroredinhiscountenance。IfIwereyou,Ishouldsettlethewidowandherchildrenatthechalet,inaprettylittlecottagewhichyoucouldhavebuiltforthem,andadopttheboys!
  Beatpeace,then,dearsoul,andplanthislittlesurprise,inyourturn,forGaston。
  MME。GASTONTOTHECOMTESSEDEL’ESTORADE
  Ah!mydearfriend,whatcanIsayinanswerexceptthecruel/“Itistoolate“/ofthatfoolLafayettetohisroyalmaster?Oh!mylife,mysweetlife,whatphysicianwillgiveitbacktome。Myownhandhasdealtthedeathblow。Alas!haveInotbeenamerewill-o’-the-wisp,whosetwinklingsparkwasfatedtoperishbeforeitreachedaflame?
  Myeyesraintorrentsoftears——andyettheymustnotfallwhenIamwithhim。Iflytohim,andheseeksme。Mydespairisallwithin。
  ThistortureDanteforgottoplaceinhis/Inferno。/Cometoseemedie!
  Mylove,——TakethechildrenawaytoProvencewithoutme;IremainwithLouise,whohasonlyafewdaysyettolive。Icannotleaveeitherherorherhusband,forwhosereasonIfear。
  YouknowthescrapofletterwhichsentmeflyingtoVilled’Avray,pickingupthedoctorsonmyway。SincethenIhavenotleftmydarlingfriend,andithasbeenimpossibletowritetoyou,forIhavesatupeverynightforafortnight。
  WhenIarrived,IfoundherwithGaston,infulldress,beautiful,laughing,happy。Itwasaheroicfalsehood!Theywereliketwolovelychildrentogetherintheirrestoredconfidence。ForamomentIwasdeceived,likeGaston,bytheeffontery;butLouisepressedmyhand,whispering:
  “Hemustnotknow;Iamdying。“
  AnicychillfellovermeasIfeltherburninghandandsawtheredspotsonhercheeks。Icongratulatedmyselfonmyprudenceinleavingthedoctorsinthewoodtilltheyshouldbesentfor。
  “Leaveusforalittle,“shesaidtoGaston。“Twowomenwhohavenotmetforfiveyearshaveplentyofsecretstotalkover,andRenee,I
  havenodoubt,hasthingstoconfideinme。“
  Directlywewerealone,sheflungherselfintomyarms,unablelongertorestrainhertears。
  “Tellmeaboutit,“Isaid。“Ihavebroughtwithme,incaseofneed,thebestsurgeonandthebestphysicianfromthehospital,andBianchonaswell;therearefouraltogether。“
  “Ah!“shecried,“havetheminatonceiftheycansaveme,ifthereisstilltime。Thepassionwhichhurriedmetodeathnowcriesforlife!“
  “Butwhathaveyoudonetoyourself?“
  “Ihaveinafewdaysbroughtmyselftothelaststageofconsumption。“
  “Buthow?“
  “Igotmyselfintoaprofuseperspirationinthenight,andthenranoutandlaydownbythesideofthelakeinthedew。GastonthinksI
  haveacold,andIamdying!“
  “SendhimtoParis;Iwillfetchthedoctorsmyself,“Isaid,asI
  rushedoutwildlytothespotwhereIhadleftthem。
  Alas!mylove,aftertheconsultationwasover,notoneofthedoctorsgavemetheleasthope;theyallbelievethatLouisewilldiewiththefalloftheleaves。Thedearchild’sconstitutionhaswonderfullyhelpedthesuccessofherplan。Itseemsshehasapredispositiontothiscomplaint;andthough,intheordinarycourse,shemighthavelivedalongtime,afewdays’follyhasmadethecasedesperate。
  IcannottellyouwhatIfeltonhearingthissentence,basedonsuchclearexplanations。YouknowthatIhavelivedinLouiseasmuchasinmyownlife。Iwassimplycrushed,andcouldnotstirtoescorttothedoortheseharbingersofevil。Idon’tknowhowlongIremainedlostinbitterthoughts,thetearsrunningdownmycheeks,whenIwasrousedfrommystuporbythewords:
  “Sothereisnohopeforme!“inaclear,angelicvoice。
  ItwasLouise,withherhandonmyshoulder。Shemademegetup,andcarriedmeofftohersmalldrawing-room。Withabeseechingglance,shewenton:
  “Staywithmetotheend;Iwon’thavedolefulfacesroundme。Aboveall,Imustkeepthetruthfrom/him/。IknowthatIhavethestrengthtodoit。Iamfullofyouthandspirit,andcandiestanding!Formyself,Ihavenoregrets。IamdyingasIwishedtodie,stillyoungandbeautiful,intheperfectionofmywomanhood。
  “Asforhim,IcanseeverywellnowthatIshouldhavemadehislifemiserable。Passionhasmeinitsgrips,likeastrugglingfawn,impatientofthetoils。Mygroundlessjealousyhasalreadywoundedhimsorely。Whenthedaycamethatmysuspicionsmetonlyindifference——
  whichinthelongrunistherightfulmeedofalljealousy——well,thatwouldhavebeenmydeath。Ihavehadmyshareoflife。Therearepeoplewhosenamesonthemuster-rolloftheworldshowsixtyyearsofservice,andyetinallthattimetheyhavenothadtwoyearsofreallife,whilstmyrecordofthirtyisdoubledbytheintensityofmylove。
  “Thusforhim,aswellasforme,thecloseisahappyone。Butbetweenus,dearRenee,itisdifferent。Youlosealovingsister,andthatisalosswhichnothingcanrepair。Youaloneherehavetherighttomournmydeath。“
  Afteralongpause,duringwhichIcouldonlyseeherthroughamistoftears,shecontinued:
  “Themoralofmydeathisacruelone。Mydeardoctorinpetticoatswasright;marriagecannotrestuponpassionasitsfoundation,norevenuponlove。Howfineandnobleisyourlife!keepingalwaystotheonesaferoad,yougiveyourhusbandanever-growingaffection;whilethepassionateeagernesswithwhichIthrewmyselfintoweddedlifewasboundinnaturetodiminish。TwicehaveIgoneastray,andtwicehasDeathstretchedforthhisbonyhandtostrikemyhappiness。Thefirsttime,herobbedmeofthenoblestandmostdevotedofmen;nowitismyturn,thegrinningmonstertearsmefromthearmsofmypoethusband,withallhisbeautyandhisgrace。
  “YetIwouldnotcomplain。HaveInotknowninturntwomen,eachtheverypatternofnobility——oneinmind,theotherinoutwardform?InFelipe,thesouldominatedandtransformedthebody;inGaston,onecouldnotsaywhichwassupreme——heart,mind,orgraceofform。Idieadored——whatmorecouldIwishfor?Time,perhaps,inwhichtodrawneartheGodofwhomImayhavetoolittlethought。MyspiritwilltakeitsflighttowardsHim,fulloflove,andwiththeprayerthatsomeday,intheworldabove,Hewillunitemeoncemoretothetwowhomadeaheavenofmylifebelow。Withoutthem,paradisewouldbeadeserttome。
  “Toothers,myexamplewouldbefatal,forminewasnocommonlot。TomeetaFelipeoraGastonismorethanmortalscanexpect,andthereforethedoctrineofsocietyinregardtomarriageaccordswiththenaturallaw。Womanisweak,andinmarryingsheoughttomakeanentiresacrificeofherwilltothemanwho,inreturn,shouldlayhisselfishnessatherfeet。Thestirwhichwomenoflateyearshavecreatedbytheirwhiningandinsubordinationisridiculous,andonlyshowshowwellwedeservetheepithetofchildren,bestowedbyphilosophersonoursex。“
  Shecontinuedtalkingthusinthegentlevoiceyouknowsowell,utteringthegravesttruthsintheprettiestmanner,untilGastonentered,bringingwithhimhissister-in-law,thetwochildren,andtheEnglishnurse,whom,atLouise’srequest,hehadbeentofetchfromParis。
  “Herearetheprettyinstrumentsofmytorture,“shesaid,ashernephewsapproached。“Wasnotthemistakeexcusable?Whatawonderfullikenesstotheiruncle!“
  ShewasmostfriendlytoMme。Gastontheelderandbeggedthatshewouldlookuponthechaletasherhome;inshort,sheplayedthehostesstoherinherbestdeChaulieumanner,inwhichnoonecanrivalher。
  IwroteatoncetotheDucandDuchessedeChaulieu,theDucdeRhetore,andtheDucdeLenoncourt-Givry,aswellastoMadeleine。Itwastime。Nextday,Louise,wornoutwithsomuchexertion,wasunabletogoout;indeed,sheonlygotupfordinner。Inthecourseoftheevening,MadeleinedeLenoncourt,hertwobrothers,andhermotherarrived。ThecoolnesswhichLouise’ssecondmarriagehadcausedbetweenherselfandherfamilydisappeared。Everydaysincethatevening,Louise’sfatherandbothherbrothershaveriddenoverinthemorning,andthetwoduchessesspendalltheireveningsatthechalet。
  Deathunitesaswellasseparates;itsilencesallpaltryfeeling。
  Louiseisperfectioninhercharm,hergrace,hergoodsense,herwit,andhertenderness。Shehasretainedtothelastthatperfecttactforwhichshehasbeensofamous,andshelavishesonusthetreasuresofherbrilliantmind,whichmadeheroneofthequeensofParis。
  “Ishouldliketolookwelleveninmycoffin,“shesaidwithhermatchlesssmile,asshelaydownonthebedwhereshewastolingerforafortnight。
  Herroomhasnothingofthesick-chamberinit;medicines,ointments,thewholeapparatusofnursing,iscarefullyconcealed。
  “Isnotmydeathbedpretty!“shesaidtotheSevrespriestwhocametoconfessher。
  Wegloatedoverherlikemisers。Allthisanxiety,andtheterribletruthswhichdawnedonhim,havepreparedGastonfortheworst。Heisfullofcourage,buttheblowhasgonehome。Itwouldnotsurprisemetoseehimfollowhiswifeinthenaturalcourse。Yesterday,aswewerewalkingroundthelake,hesaidtome:
  “Imustbeafathertothosetwochildren,“andhepointedtohissister-in-law,whowastakingtheboysforawalk。“ButthoughIshalldonothingtohastenmyend,Iwantyourpromisethatyouwillbeasecondmothertothem,andwillpersuadeyourhusbandtoaccepttheofficeofguardian,whichIshalldeputetohiminconjunctionwithmysister-in-law。“
  Hesaidthisquitesimply,likeamanwhoknowsheisnotlongforthisworld。HehassmilesonhisfacetomeetLouise’s,anditisonlyIwhomhedoesnotdeceive。Heisamateforherincourage。
  Louisehasexpressedawishtoseehergodson,butIamnotsorryheshouldbeinProvence;shemightwanttorememberhimgenerously,andIshouldbeinagreatdifficulty。
  Good-bye,mylove。
  August25thherbirthday。
  YesterdayeveningLouisewasdeliriousforashorttime;butherdeliriumwastheprettiestbabbling,whichshowsthateventhemadnessofgiftedpeopleisnotthatoffoolsornobodies。InamerethreadofavoiceshesangsomeItalianairsfrom/IPuritani,LaSonnambula,Moise/,whilewestoodroundthebedinsilence。Notoneofus,noteventheDucdeRhetore,haddryeyes,soclearwasittousallthathersoulwasinthisfashionpassingfromus。Shecouldnolongerseeus!Yetshewastherestillinthecharmofthefaintmelody,withitssweetnessnotofthisearth。
  Duringthenightthedeathagonybegan。Itisnowseveninthemorning,andIhavejustmyselfraisedherfrombed。Someflickerofstrengthrevived;shewishedtositbyherwindow,andaskedforGaston’shand。Andthen,mylove,thesweetestspiritwhomweshalleverseeonthisearthdeparted,leavingustheemptyshell。
  Thelastsacramenthadbeenadministeredtheeveningbefore,unknowntoGaston,whowastakingasnatchofsleepduringthisagonizingceremony;andaftershewasmovedtothewindow,sheaskedmetoreadherthe/DeProfundis/inFrench,whileshewasthusfacetofacewiththelovelyscene,whichwasherhandiwork。Sherepeatedthewordsaftermetoherself,andpressedthehandsofherhusband,whokneltontheothersideofthechair。
  August26th。
  Myheartisbroken。Ihavejustseenherinherwinding-sheet;herfaceisquitepalenowwithpurpleshadows。Oh!Iwantmychildren!mychildren!Bringmemychildren!
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