MydearLouise,——Isendthisletterbyanexpressbeforehasteningtothechaletmyself。Takecourage。Yourlastletterseemedtomesofrantic,thatIthoughtmyselfjustified,underthecircumstances,inconfidingalltoLouis;itwasaquestionofsavingyoufromyourself。
Ifthemeanswehaveemployedhavebeen,likeyours,repulsive,yettheresultissosatisfactorythatIamcertainyouwillapprove。I
wentsofarastosetthepolicetowork,butthewholethingremainsasecretbetweentheprefect,ourselvesandyou。
Inoneword,Gastonisajewel!Butherearethefacts。Hisbrother,LouisGaston,diedatCalcutta,whileintheserviceofamercantilecompany,whenhewasontheverypointofreturningtoFrance,arich,prosperous,marriedman,havingreceivedaverylargefortunewithhiswife,whowasthewidowofanEnglishmerchant。Fortenyearshehadworkedhardthathemightbeabletosendhomeenoughtosupporthisbrother,towhomhewasdevotedlyattached,andfromwhomhislettersgenerouslyconcealedallhistrialsanddisappointments。
ThencamethefailureofthegreatHalmerhouse;thewidowwasruined,andthesuddenshockaffectedLouisGaston’sbrain。Hehadnomentalenergylefttoresistthediseasewhichattackedhim,andhediedinBengal,whitherhehadgonetotryandrealizetheremnantsofhiswife’sproperty。Thedear,goodfellowhaddepositedwithabankerafirstsumofthreehundredthousandfrancs,whichwastogotohisbrother,butthebankerwasinvolvedintheHalmercrash,andthustheirlastresourcefailedthem。
Louis’widow,thehandsomewomanwhomyoutookforyourrival,arrivedinPariswithtwochildren——yournephews——andanemptypurse,hermother’sjewelshavingbarelysufficedtopayforbringingthemover。
TheinstructionswhichLouisGastonhadgiventhebankerforsendingthemoneytohisbrotherenabledthewidowtofindyourhusband’sformerhome。AsGastonhaddisappearedwithoutleavinganyaddress,Mme。LouisGastonwasdirectedtod’Arthez,theonlypersonwhocouldgiveanyinformationabouthim。
D’Arthezwasthemorereadytorelievetheyoungwoman’spressingneeds,becauseLouisGaston,atthetimeofhismarriagefouryearsbefore,hadwrittentomakeinquiriesabouthisbrotherfromthefamousauthor,whomheknewtobeoneofhisfriends。TheCaptainhadconsultedd’ArthezastothebestmeansofgettingthemoneysafelytransferredtoMarie,andd’Arthezhadreplied,tellinghimthatGastonwasnowarichmanthroughhismarriagewiththeBaronnedeMacumer。Thepersonalbeauty,whichwasthemother’srichheritagetohersons,hadsavedthemboth——oneinIndia,theotherinParis——fromdestitution。Atouchingstory,isitnot?
D’Artheznaturallywrote,afteratime,totellyourhusbandoftheconditionofhissister-in-lawandherchildren,informinghim,atthesametime,ofthegenerousintentionsoftheIndianGastontowardshisParisbrother,whichanunhappychancehadfrustrated。Gaston,asyoumayimagine,hurriedofftoParis。Hereisthefirstrideaccountedfor。Duringthelastfiveyearshehadsavedfiftythousandfrancsoutoftheincomeyouforcedhimtoaccept,andthissumheinvestedinthepublicfundsunderthenamesofhistwonephews,securingthemeach,inthisway,anincomeoftwelvehundredfrancs。Nexthefurnishedhissister-in-law’srooms,andpromisedheraquarterlyallowanceofthreethousandfrancs。Hereyouseethemeaningofhisdramaticlaborsandthepleasurecausedhimbythesuccessofhisfirstplay。
Mme。Gaston,therefore,isnorivalofyours,andhaseveryrighttoyourname。AmanofGaston’ssensitivedelicacywasboundtokeeptheaffairsecretfromyou,knowingashedid,yourgenerousnature。Nordoeshelookonwhatyougivehimashisown。D’Arthezreadmetheletterhehadfromyourhusband,askinghimtobeoneofthewitnessesathismarriage。Gastoninthisdeclaresthathishappinesswouldhavebeenperfectbutfortheonedrawbackofhispovertyandindebtednesstoyou。Avirginsoulisatthemercyofsuchscruples。Eithertheymakethemselvesfeltortheydonot;andwhentheydo,itiseasytoimaginetheconflictoffeelingandembarrassmenttowhichtheygiverise。NothingismorenaturalthanGaston’swishtoprovideinsecretasuitablemaintenanceforthewomanwhoishisbrother’swidow,andwhohadherselfsetasideonehundredthousandfrancsforhimfromherownfortune。Sheisahandsomewoman,warm-hearted,andextremelywell-bred,butnotclever。Sheisamother;and,youmaybesure,I
lostmyhearttoheratfirstsightwhenIfoundherwithonechildinherarms,andtheotherdressedlikealittlelord。Thechildrenfirst!iswrittenineverydetailofherhouse。
Farfrombeingangry,therefore,withyourbelovedhusband,youshouldfindinallthisfreshreasonforlovinghim。Ihavemethim,andthinkhimthemostdelightfulyoungfellowinParis。Yes!dearchild,whenIsawhim,Ihadnodifficultyinunderstandingthatawomanmightloseherheadabouthim;hissoulismirroredinhiscountenance。IfIwereyou,Ishouldsettlethewidowandherchildrenatthechalet,inaprettylittlecottagewhichyoucouldhavebuiltforthem,andadopttheboys!
Beatpeace,then,dearsoul,andplanthislittlesurprise,inyourturn,forGaston。
MME。GASTONTOTHECOMTESSEDEL’ESTORADE
Ah!mydearfriend,whatcanIsayinanswerexceptthecruel/“Itistoolate“/ofthatfoolLafayettetohisroyalmaster?Oh!mylife,mysweetlife,whatphysicianwillgiveitbacktome。Myownhandhasdealtthedeathblow。Alas!haveInotbeenamerewill-o’-the-wisp,whosetwinklingsparkwasfatedtoperishbeforeitreachedaflame?
Myeyesraintorrentsoftears——andyettheymustnotfallwhenIamwithhim。Iflytohim,andheseeksme。Mydespairisallwithin。
ThistortureDanteforgottoplaceinhis/Inferno。/Cometoseemedie!
Mylove,——TakethechildrenawaytoProvencewithoutme;IremainwithLouise,whohasonlyafewdaysyettolive。Icannotleaveeitherherorherhusband,forwhosereasonIfear。
YouknowthescrapofletterwhichsentmeflyingtoVilled’Avray,pickingupthedoctorsonmyway。SincethenIhavenotleftmydarlingfriend,andithasbeenimpossibletowritetoyou,forIhavesatupeverynightforafortnight。
WhenIarrived,IfoundherwithGaston,infulldress,beautiful,laughing,happy。Itwasaheroicfalsehood!Theywereliketwolovelychildrentogetherintheirrestoredconfidence。ForamomentIwasdeceived,likeGaston,bytheeffontery;butLouisepressedmyhand,whispering:
“Hemustnotknow;Iamdying。“
AnicychillfellovermeasIfeltherburninghandandsawtheredspotsonhercheeks。Icongratulatedmyselfonmyprudenceinleavingthedoctorsinthewoodtilltheyshouldbesentfor。
“Leaveusforalittle,“shesaidtoGaston。“Twowomenwhohavenotmetforfiveyearshaveplentyofsecretstotalkover,andRenee,I
havenodoubt,hasthingstoconfideinme。“
Directlywewerealone,sheflungherselfintomyarms,unablelongertorestrainhertears。
“Tellmeaboutit,“Isaid。“Ihavebroughtwithme,incaseofneed,thebestsurgeonandthebestphysicianfromthehospital,andBianchonaswell;therearefouraltogether。“
“Ah!“shecried,“havetheminatonceiftheycansaveme,ifthereisstilltime。Thepassionwhichhurriedmetodeathnowcriesforlife!“
“Butwhathaveyoudonetoyourself?“
“Ihaveinafewdaysbroughtmyselftothelaststageofconsumption。“
“Buthow?“
“Igotmyselfintoaprofuseperspirationinthenight,andthenranoutandlaydownbythesideofthelakeinthedew。GastonthinksI
haveacold,andIamdying!“
“SendhimtoParis;Iwillfetchthedoctorsmyself,“Isaid,asI
rushedoutwildlytothespotwhereIhadleftthem。
Alas!mylove,aftertheconsultationwasover,notoneofthedoctorsgavemetheleasthope;theyallbelievethatLouisewilldiewiththefalloftheleaves。Thedearchild’sconstitutionhaswonderfullyhelpedthesuccessofherplan。Itseemsshehasapredispositiontothiscomplaint;andthough,intheordinarycourse,shemighthavelivedalongtime,afewdays’follyhasmadethecasedesperate。
IcannottellyouwhatIfeltonhearingthissentence,basedonsuchclearexplanations。YouknowthatIhavelivedinLouiseasmuchasinmyownlife。Iwassimplycrushed,andcouldnotstirtoescorttothedoortheseharbingersofevil。Idon’tknowhowlongIremainedlostinbitterthoughts,thetearsrunningdownmycheeks,whenIwasrousedfrommystuporbythewords:
“Sothereisnohopeforme!“inaclear,angelicvoice。
ItwasLouise,withherhandonmyshoulder。Shemademegetup,andcarriedmeofftohersmalldrawing-room。Withabeseechingglance,shewenton:
“Staywithmetotheend;Iwon’thavedolefulfacesroundme。Aboveall,Imustkeepthetruthfrom/him/。IknowthatIhavethestrengthtodoit。Iamfullofyouthandspirit,andcandiestanding!Formyself,Ihavenoregrets。IamdyingasIwishedtodie,stillyoungandbeautiful,intheperfectionofmywomanhood。
“Asforhim,IcanseeverywellnowthatIshouldhavemadehislifemiserable。Passionhasmeinitsgrips,likeastrugglingfawn,impatientofthetoils。Mygroundlessjealousyhasalreadywoundedhimsorely。Whenthedaycamethatmysuspicionsmetonlyindifference——
whichinthelongrunistherightfulmeedofalljealousy——well,thatwouldhavebeenmydeath。Ihavehadmyshareoflife。Therearepeoplewhosenamesonthemuster-rolloftheworldshowsixtyyearsofservice,andyetinallthattimetheyhavenothadtwoyearsofreallife,whilstmyrecordofthirtyisdoubledbytheintensityofmylove。
“Thusforhim,aswellasforme,thecloseisahappyone。Butbetweenus,dearRenee,itisdifferent。Youlosealovingsister,andthatisalosswhichnothingcanrepair。Youaloneherehavetherighttomournmydeath。“
Afteralongpause,duringwhichIcouldonlyseeherthroughamistoftears,shecontinued:
“Themoralofmydeathisacruelone。Mydeardoctorinpetticoatswasright;marriagecannotrestuponpassionasitsfoundation,norevenuponlove。Howfineandnobleisyourlife!keepingalwaystotheonesaferoad,yougiveyourhusbandanever-growingaffection;whilethepassionateeagernesswithwhichIthrewmyselfintoweddedlifewasboundinnaturetodiminish。TwicehaveIgoneastray,andtwicehasDeathstretchedforthhisbonyhandtostrikemyhappiness。Thefirsttime,herobbedmeofthenoblestandmostdevotedofmen;nowitismyturn,thegrinningmonstertearsmefromthearmsofmypoethusband,withallhisbeautyandhisgrace。
“YetIwouldnotcomplain。HaveInotknowninturntwomen,eachtheverypatternofnobility——oneinmind,theotherinoutwardform?InFelipe,thesouldominatedandtransformedthebody;inGaston,onecouldnotsaywhichwassupreme——heart,mind,orgraceofform。Idieadored——whatmorecouldIwishfor?Time,perhaps,inwhichtodrawneartheGodofwhomImayhavetoolittlethought。MyspiritwilltakeitsflighttowardsHim,fulloflove,andwiththeprayerthatsomeday,intheworldabove,Hewillunitemeoncemoretothetwowhomadeaheavenofmylifebelow。Withoutthem,paradisewouldbeadeserttome。
“Toothers,myexamplewouldbefatal,forminewasnocommonlot。TomeetaFelipeoraGastonismorethanmortalscanexpect,andthereforethedoctrineofsocietyinregardtomarriageaccordswiththenaturallaw。Womanisweak,andinmarryingsheoughttomakeanentiresacrificeofherwilltothemanwho,inreturn,shouldlayhisselfishnessatherfeet。Thestirwhichwomenoflateyearshavecreatedbytheirwhiningandinsubordinationisridiculous,andonlyshowshowwellwedeservetheepithetofchildren,bestowedbyphilosophersonoursex。“
Shecontinuedtalkingthusinthegentlevoiceyouknowsowell,utteringthegravesttruthsintheprettiestmanner,untilGastonentered,bringingwithhimhissister-in-law,thetwochildren,andtheEnglishnurse,whom,atLouise’srequest,hehadbeentofetchfromParis。
“Herearetheprettyinstrumentsofmytorture,“shesaid,ashernephewsapproached。“Wasnotthemistakeexcusable?Whatawonderfullikenesstotheiruncle!“
ShewasmostfriendlytoMme。Gastontheelderandbeggedthatshewouldlookuponthechaletasherhome;inshort,sheplayedthehostesstoherinherbestdeChaulieumanner,inwhichnoonecanrivalher。
IwroteatoncetotheDucandDuchessedeChaulieu,theDucdeRhetore,andtheDucdeLenoncourt-Givry,aswellastoMadeleine。Itwastime。Nextday,Louise,wornoutwithsomuchexertion,wasunabletogoout;indeed,sheonlygotupfordinner。Inthecourseoftheevening,MadeleinedeLenoncourt,hertwobrothers,andhermotherarrived。ThecoolnesswhichLouise’ssecondmarriagehadcausedbetweenherselfandherfamilydisappeared。Everydaysincethatevening,Louise’sfatherandbothherbrothershaveriddenoverinthemorning,andthetwoduchessesspendalltheireveningsatthechalet。
Deathunitesaswellasseparates;itsilencesallpaltryfeeling。
Louiseisperfectioninhercharm,hergrace,hergoodsense,herwit,andhertenderness。Shehasretainedtothelastthatperfecttactforwhichshehasbeensofamous,andshelavishesonusthetreasuresofherbrilliantmind,whichmadeheroneofthequeensofParis。
“Ishouldliketolookwelleveninmycoffin,“shesaidwithhermatchlesssmile,asshelaydownonthebedwhereshewastolingerforafortnight。
Herroomhasnothingofthesick-chamberinit;medicines,ointments,thewholeapparatusofnursing,iscarefullyconcealed。
“Isnotmydeathbedpretty!“shesaidtotheSevrespriestwhocametoconfessher。
Wegloatedoverherlikemisers。Allthisanxiety,andtheterribletruthswhichdawnedonhim,havepreparedGastonfortheworst。Heisfullofcourage,buttheblowhasgonehome。Itwouldnotsurprisemetoseehimfollowhiswifeinthenaturalcourse。Yesterday,aswewerewalkingroundthelake,hesaidtome:
“Imustbeafathertothosetwochildren,“andhepointedtohissister-in-law,whowastakingtheboysforawalk。“ButthoughIshalldonothingtohastenmyend,Iwantyourpromisethatyouwillbeasecondmothertothem,andwillpersuadeyourhusbandtoaccepttheofficeofguardian,whichIshalldeputetohiminconjunctionwithmysister-in-law。“
Hesaidthisquitesimply,likeamanwhoknowsheisnotlongforthisworld。HehassmilesonhisfacetomeetLouise’s,anditisonlyIwhomhedoesnotdeceive。Heisamateforherincourage。
Louisehasexpressedawishtoseehergodson,butIamnotsorryheshouldbeinProvence;shemightwanttorememberhimgenerously,andIshouldbeinagreatdifficulty。
Good-bye,mylove。
August25thherbirthday。
YesterdayeveningLouisewasdeliriousforashorttime;butherdeliriumwastheprettiestbabbling,whichshowsthateventhemadnessofgiftedpeopleisnotthatoffoolsornobodies。InamerethreadofavoiceshesangsomeItalianairsfrom/IPuritani,LaSonnambula,Moise/,whilewestoodroundthebedinsilence。Notoneofus,noteventheDucdeRhetore,haddryeyes,soclearwasittousallthathersoulwasinthisfashionpassingfromus。Shecouldnolongerseeus!Yetshewastherestillinthecharmofthefaintmelody,withitssweetnessnotofthisearth。
Duringthenightthedeathagonybegan。Itisnowseveninthemorning,andIhavejustmyselfraisedherfrombed。Someflickerofstrengthrevived;shewishedtositbyherwindow,andaskedforGaston’shand。Andthen,mylove,thesweetestspiritwhomweshalleverseeonthisearthdeparted,leavingustheemptyshell。
Thelastsacramenthadbeenadministeredtheeveningbefore,unknowntoGaston,whowastakingasnatchofsleepduringthisagonizingceremony;andaftershewasmovedtothewindow,sheaskedmetoreadherthe/DeProfundis/inFrench,whileshewasthusfacetofacewiththelovelyscene,whichwasherhandiwork。Sherepeatedthewordsaftermetoherself,andpressedthehandsofherhusband,whokneltontheothersideofthechair。
August26th。
Myheartisbroken。Ihavejustseenherinherwinding-sheet;herfaceisquitepalenowwithpurpleshadows。Oh!Iwantmychildren!mychildren!Bringmemychildren!
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