Heisahandsomeyoungfellow,butmelancholy,andgiventomoods。I
havedivinedhissecret,thoughneithertheDukenorDuchesshasaninklingofit。Inspiteofhisyouthandhistitle,heisjealousofhisfather。HehasnopositionintheState,nopostatCourt,heneverhastosay,“IamgoingtotheChamber。“Ialoneinthehousehavesixteenhoursformeditation。Myfatherisabsorbedinpublicbusinessandhisownamusements;mymother,too,isneveratleisure;
nomemberofthehouseholdpractisesself-examination,theyareconstantlyincompany,andhavehardlytimetolive。
Ishouldimmenselyliketoknowwhatisthepotentcharmwieldedbysocietytokeeppeopleprisonerfromnineeveryeveningtilltwoorthreeinthemorning,andforcethemtobesolavishalikeofstrengthandmoney。WhenIlongedforit,Ihadnoideaoftheseparationsitbroughtabout,oritsovermasteringspell。But,then,Iforget,itisPariswhichdoesitall。
Itispossible,itseems,formembersofonefamilytolivesidebysideandknowabsolutelynothingofeachother。Ahalf-fledgednunarrives,andinacoupleofweekshasgraspeddomesticdetails,ofwhichthemasterdiplomatistattheheadofthehouseisquiteignorant。Orperhapshe/does/see,andshutshiseyesdeliberately,aspartofthefather’s/role/。ThereisamysteryherewhichImustplumb。
Yesterday,attwoo’clock,IwenttodriveintheChamps-ElyseesandtheBoisdeBoulogne。ItwasoneofthoseautumndayswhichweusedtofindsobeautifulonthebanksoftheLoire。SoIhaveseenParisatlast!ThePlaceLouisXV。iscertainlyveryfine,butthebeautyisthatofman’shandiwork。
Iwasdressedtoperfection,pensive,withsetfacethoughinwardlymuchtemptedtolaugh,underalovelyhat,myarmscrossed。Wouldyoubelieveit?Notasinglesmilewasthrownatme,notonepooryouthwasstruckmotionlessasIpassed,notasoulturnedtolookagain;
andyetthecarriageproceededwithadeliberationworthyofmypose。
No,Iamwrong,therewasone——aduke,andacharmingman——whosuddenlyreinedinaswewentby。Theindividualwhothussavedappearancesformewasmyfather,andheproclaimedhimselfhighlygratifiedbywhathesaw。Imetmymotheralso,whosentmeabutterflykissfromthetipsofherfingers。TheworthyGriffith,whofearsnoman,castherglanceshitherandthitherwithoutdiscrimination。Inmyjudgment,ayoungwomanshouldalwaysknowexactlywhathereyeisrestingon。
Iwasmadwithrage。Onemanactuallyinspectedmycarriagewithoutnoticingme。Thisflatteringhomageprobablycamefromacarriage-
maker。Ihavebeenquiteoutinthereckoningofmyforces。Plainly,beauty,thatraregiftwhichcomesfromheaven,iscommonerinParisthanIthought。Isawhatsdoffedwithdeferencetosimperingfools;apurplefacecalledforthmurmursof,“Itisshe!“Mymotherreceivedanimmenseamountofadmiration。Thereisananswertothisproblem,andImeantofindit。
Themen,mydear,seemedtomegenerallyveryugly。Theveryfewexceptionsarebadcopiesofus。Heavenknowswhatevilgeniushasinspiredtheircostume;itisamazinglyinelegantcomparedwiththoseofformergenerations。Ithasnodistinction,nobeautyofcolororromance;itappealsneithertothesenses,northemind,northeeye,anditmustbeveryuncomfortable。Itismeagreandstunted。Thehat,aboveall,struckme;itisasortoftruncatedcolumn,anddoesnotadaptitselfintheleasttotheshapeofthehead;butIamtolditiseasiertobringaboutarevolutionthantoinventagracefulhat。
CourageinParisrecoilsbeforethethoughtofappearinginaroundfelt;andforlackofoneday’sdaring,menstickalltheirlivestothisridiculousheadpiece。AndyetFrenchmenaresaidtobefickle!
Themenarehideousanyway,whatevertheyputontheirheads。Ihaveseennothingbutworn,hardfaces,withnocalmnorpeaceintheexpression;theharshlinesandfurrowsspeakoffoiledambitionandsmartingvanity。Afineforeheadisrarelyseen。
“AndthesearetheproductofParis!“IsaidtoMissGriffith。
“Mostcultivatedandpleasantmen,“shereplied。
Iwassilent。Theheartofaspinsterofthirty-sixisawelloftolerance。
IntheeveningIwenttotheball,whereIkeptclosetomymother’sside。Shegavemeherarmwithadevotionwhichdidnotmissitsreward。Allthehonorswereforher;Iwasmadethepretextforcharmingcompliments。Shewascleverenoughtofindmefoolsformypartners,whooneandallexpatiatedontheheatandthebeautyoftheball,tillyoumightsupposeIwasfreezingandblind。Notonefailedtoenlargeonthestrange,unheard-of,extraordinary,odd,remarkablefact——thathesawmeforthefirsttime。
Mydress,whichdazzledmeasIparadedaloneinmywhite-and-golddrawing-room,wasbarelynoticeableamidstthegorgeousfineryofmostofthemarriedwomen。Eachhadherbandoffaithfulfollowers,andtheyallwatchedeachotheraskance。Afewwereradiantintriumphantbeauty,andamongstthesewasmymother。Agirlataballisameredancing-machine——athingofnoconsequencewhatever。
Themen,withrareexceptions,didnotimpressmemorefavorablyherethanattheChamps-Elysees。Theyhaveaused-uplook;theirfeaturesaremeaningless,orrathertheyhaveallthesamemeaning。Theproud,stalwartbearingwhichwefindintheportraitsofourancestors——menwhojoinedmoraltophysicalvigor——hasdisappeared。Yetinthisgatheringtherewasonemanofremarkableability,whostoodoutfromtherestbythebeautyofhisface。ButevenhedidnotrouseinmethefeelingwhichIshouldhaveexpected。Idonotknowhisworks,andheisamanofnofamily。Whateverthegeniusandthemeritsofaplebeianoracommoner,hecouldneverstirmyblood。Besides,thismanwasobviouslysomuchmoretakenupwithhimselfthanwithanybodyelse,thatIcouldnotbutthinkthesegreatbrain-workersmustlookonusasthingsratherthanpersons。Whenmenofintellectualpowerlove,theyoughttogiveupwriting,otherwisetheirloveisnottherealthing。Theladyoftheirheartdoesnotcomefirstinalltheirthoughts。IseemedtoreadallthisinthebearingofthemanIspeakof。Iamtoldheisaprofessor,orator,andauthor,whoseambitionmakeshimtheslaveofeverybigwig。
Mymindwasmadeuponthespot。Itwasunworthyofme,Idetermined,toquarrelwithsocietyfornotbeingimpressedbymymerits,andI
gavemyselfuptothesimplepleasureofdancing,whichIthoroughlyenjoyed。IheardagreatdealofineptgossipaboutpeopleofwhomI
knownothing;butperhapsitismyignoranceonmanysubjectswhichpreventsmefromappreciatingit,asIsawthatmostmenandwomentookalivelypleasureincertainremarks,whetherfallingfromtheirownlipsorthoseofothers。Societybristleswithenigmaswhichlookhardtosolve。Itisaperfectmazeofintrigue。YetIamfairlyquickofsightandhearing,andastomywits,Mlle。deMaucombedoesnotneedtobetold!
Ireturnedhometiredwithapleasantsortoftiredness,andinallinnocencebegandescribingmysensationstomymother,whowaswithme。ShecheckedmewiththewarningthatImustneversaysuchthingstoanyonebuther。
“Mydearchild,“sheadded,“itneedsasmuchtacttoknowwhentobesilentaswhentospeak。“
Thisadvicebroughthometomethenatureofthesensationswhichoughttobeconcealedfromeveryone,notexceptingperhapsevenamother。AtaglanceImeasuredthevastfieldoffeminineduplicity。I
canassureyou,sweetheart,thatwe,inourunabashedsimplicity,wouldpassfortwoverywide-awakelittlescandal-mongers。Whatlessonsmaybeconveyedinafingeronthelips,inaword,alook!
AllinamomentIwasseizedwithexcessiveshyness。What!mayIneveragainspeakofthenaturalpleasureIfeelintheexerciseofdancing?
“Howthen,“Isaidtomyself,“aboutthedeeperfeelings?“
Iwenttobedsorrowful,andIstillsufferfromtheshockproducedbythisfirstcollisionofmyfrank,joyousnaturewiththeharshlawsofsociety。Alreadythehighwayhedgesarefleckedwithmywhitewool!
Farewell,beloved。
RENEEDEMAUCOMBETOLOUISEDECHAULIEU
October。
Howdeeplyyourlettermovedme;aboveall,whenIcompareourwidelydifferentdestinies!Howbrilliantistheworldyouareentering,howpeacefultheretreatwhereIshallendmymodestcareer!
IntheCastleofMaucombe,whichissowellknowntoyoubydescriptionthatIshallsaynomoreofit,IfoundmyroomalmostexactlyasIleftit;onlynowIcanenjoythesplendidviewitgivesoftheGemenosvalley,whichmychildisheyesusedtoseewithoutcomprehending。Afortnightaftermyarrival,myfatherandmothertookme,alongwithmytwobrothers,todinewithoneofourneighbors,M。
del’Estorade,anoldgentlemanofgoodfamily,whohasmadehimselfrich,aftertheprovincialfashion,byscrapingandparing。
M。del’EstoradewasunabletosavehisonlysonfromtheclutchesofBonaparte;aftersuccessfullyeludingtheconscription,hewasforcedtosendhimtothearmyin1813,tojointheEmperor’sbodyguard。
AfterLeipsicnomorewasheardofhim。M。deMontriveau,whomthefatherinterviewedin1814,declaredthathehadseenhimtakenbytheRussians。Mme。del’EstoradediedofgriefwhilstavainsearchwasbeingmadeinRussia。TheBaron,averypiousoldman,practisedthatfinetheologicalvirtuewhichweusedtocultivateatBlois——Hope!
Hopemadehimseehissonindreams。Hehoardedhisincomeforhim,andguardedcarefullytheportionofinheritancewhichfelltohimfromthefamilyofthelateMme。del’Estorade,nooneventuringtoridiculetheoldman。
Atlastitdawneduponmethattheunexpectedreturnofthissonwasthecauseofmyown。Whocouldhaveimagined,whilstfancywasleadingusagiddydance,thatmydestinedhusbandwasslowlytravelingonfootthroughRussia,Poland,andGermany?HisbadluckonlyforsookhimatBerlin,wheretheFrenchMinisterhelpedhisreturntohisnativecountry。M。del’Estorade,thefather,whoisasmalllandedproprietorinProvence,withanincomeofabouttenthousandlivres,hasnotsufficientEuropeanfametointeresttheworldinthewanderingKnightdel’Estorade,whosenamesmacksofhisadventures。
TheaccumulatedincomeoftwelvethousandlivresfromthepropertyofMme。del’Estorade,withtheadditionofthefather’ssavings,providesthepoorguardofhonorwithsomethingliketwohundredandfiftythousandlivres,notcountinghouseandlands——quiteaconsiderablefortuneinProvence。Hisworthyfatherhadbought,ontheveryeveoftheChevalier’sreturn,afinebutbadly-managedestate,wherehedesignstoplanttenthousandmulberry-trees,raisedinhisnurserywithaspecialviewtothisacquisition。TheBaron,havingfoundhislong-lostson,hasnowbutonethought,tomarryhim,andmarryhimtoagirlofgoodfamily。
Myfatherandmotherenteredintotheirneighbor’sideawithaneyetomyinterestssosoonastheydiscoveredthatReneedeMaucombewouldbeacceptablewithoutadowry,andthatthemoneythesaidReneeoughttoinheritfromherparentswouldbedulyacknowledgedashersinthecontract。Inasimilarway,myyoungerbrother,JeandeMaucombe,assoonashecameofage,signedadocumentstatingthathehadreceivedfromhisparentsanadvanceupontheestateequalinamounttoone-
thirdofwhole。ThisisthedevicebywhichthenoblesofProvenceeludetheinfamousCivilCodeofM。deBonaparte,acodewhichwilldriveasmanygirlsofgoodfamilyintoconventsasitwillfindhusbandsfor。TheFrenchnobility,fromthelittleIhavebeenabletogather,seemtobedividedonthesematters。
Thedinner,darling,wasafirstmeetingbetweenyoursweetheartandtheexile。TheComtedeMaucombe’sservantsdonnedtheiroldlacedliveriesandhats,thecoachmanhisgreattop-boots;wesatfiveintheantiquatedcarriage,andarrivedinstateabouttwoo’clock——thedinnerwasforthree——atthegrange,whichisthedwellingoftheBarondel’Estorade。
Myfather-in-lawtobehas,yousee,nocastle,onlyasimplecountryhouse,standingbeneathoneofourhills,attheentranceofthatnoblevalley,theprideofwhichisundoubtedlytheCastleofMaucombe。Thebuildingisquiteunpretentious:fourpebblewallscoveredwithayellowishwash,androofedwithhollowtilesofagoodred,constitutethegrange。Theraftersbendundertheweightofthisbrick-kiln。Thewindows,insertedcasually,withoutanyattemptatsymmetry,haveenormousshutters,paintedyellow。ThegardeninwhichitstandsisaProvencalgarden,enclosedbylowwalls,builtofbigroundpebblessetinlayers,alternatelyslopingorupright,accordingtotheartistictasteofthemason,whichfindshereitsonlyoutlet。
Themudinwhichtheyaresetisfallingawayinplaces。
Thankstoanironrailingattheentrancefacingtheroad,thissimplefarmhasacertainairofbeingacountry-seat。Therailing,longsoughtwithtears,issoemaciatedthatitrecalledSisterAngeliquetome。Aflightofstonestepsleadstothedoor,whichisprotectedbyapent-houseroof,suchasnopeasantontheLoirewouldtolerateforhiscoquettishwhitestonehouse,withitsblueroof,glitteringinthesun。Thegardenandsurroundingwalksarehorriblydusty,andthetreesseemburntup。ItiseasytoseethatforyearstheBaron’slifehasbeenamererisingupandgoingtobedagain,dayafterday,withoutathoughtbeyondthatofpilingupcoppers。Heeatsthesamefoodashistwoservants,aProvencalladandtheoldwomanwhousedtowaitonhiswife。Theroomsarescantilyfurnished。
Nevertheless,thehouseofl’Estoradehaddoneitsbest;thecupboardshadbeenransacked,anditslastmanbeatenupforthedinner,whichwasservedtousonoldsilverdishes,blackenedandbattered。Theexile,mydarlingpet,isliketherailing,emaciated!Heispaleandsilent,andbearstracesofsuffering。Atthirty-sevenhemightbefifty。Theoncebeautifulebonlocksofyoutharestreakedwithwhitelikealark’swing。Hisfineblueeyesarecavernous;heisalittledeaf,whichsuggeststheKnightoftheSorrowfulCountenance。
Spiteofallthis,IhavegraciouslyconsentedtobecomeMme。del’Estoradeandtoreceiveadowryoftwohundredandfiftythousandlivres,butonlyontheexpressconditionofbeingallowedtoworkmywilluponthegrangeandmakeaparkthere。Ihavedemandedfrommyfather,insetterms,agrantofwater,whichcanbebroughtthitherfromMaucombe。InamonthIshallbeMme。del’Estorade;for,dear,I
havemadeagoodimpression。AfterthesnowsofSiberiaamanisreadyenoughtoseemeritinthoseblackeyes,whichaccordingtoyou,usedtoripenfruitwithalook。Louisdel’Estoradeseemswellcontenttomarrythe/fairReneedeMaucombe/——suchisyourfriend’ssplendidtitle。
Whilstyouarepreparingtoreapthejoysofthatmany-sidedexistencewhichawaitsayoungladyoftheChaulieufamily,andtoqueenitinParis,yourpoorlittlesweetheart,Renee,thatchildofthedesert,hasfallenfromtheempyrean,whithertogetherwehadsoared,intothevulgarrealitiesofalifeashomelyasadaisy’s。Ihavevowedtomyselftocomfortthisyoungman,whohasneverknownyouth,butpassedstraightfromhismother’sarmstotheembraceofwar,andfromthejoysofhiscountryhometothefrostsandforcedlaborofSiberia。