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第90章

  ’Ihavenodoubt,myyoungfriend,thatyouarewillingtoadmitthatthemostimportantthingwhichahumanbeingpossessesishissoul;itisofinfinitelymoreimportancethanthebody,whichisafrailsubstance,andcannotlastformanyyears;butnotsothesoul,which,byitsnature,isimperishable。Tooneoftwomansionsthesoulisdestinedtodepart,afteritsseparationfromthebody,toheavenorhell;tothehallsofeternalbliss,whereGodandHisholyangelsdwell,ortotheplaceofendlessmisery,inhabitedbySatanandhisgrislycompanions。Myfriend,ifthejoysofheavenaregreat,unutterablygreat,soarethetormentsofhellunutterablyso。Iwishnottospeakofthem,Iwishnottoterrifyyourimaginationwiththetormentsofhell:indeed,Ilikenottothinkofthem;butitisnecessarytospeakofthemsometimes,andtothinkofthemsometimes,lestyoushouldsinkintoastateofcarnalsecurity。Authors,friend,andlearnedmen,arenotaltogetheragreedastotheparticularsofhell。Theyallagree,however,inconsideringitaplaceofexceedinghorror。
  MasterEllisWyn,whobythebyewasachurchman,callsit,amongstotherthings,aplaceofstrongsighs,andofflamingsparks。
  MasterReesPritchard,whowasnotonlyachurchman,butVicarofLlandovery,andflourishedabouttwohundredyearsago-Iwishmanylikehimflourishednow-speakingofhell,inhiscollectionofsweethymnscalledthe“Welshman’sCandle,“observes,’“Thepooliscontinuallyblazing;itisverydeep,withoutanyknownbottom,andthewallsaresohigh,thatthereisneitherhopenorpossibilityofescapingoverthem。“
  ’But,asItoldyoujustnow,Ihavenogreatpleasureintalkingofhell。No,friend,no;Iwouldsoonertalkoftheotherplace,andofthegoodnessandhospitalityofGodamongstHissaintsabove。’
  Andthentheexcellentmanbegantodilateuponthejoysofheaven,andthegoodnessandhospitalityofGodinthemansionsabove;
  explainingtome,intheclearestway,howImightgetthere。
  Andwhenhehadfinishedwhathehadtosay,heleftme,whereuponWinifreddrewnigh,andsittingdownbymebegantoaddressme。’I
  donotthink,’saidshe,’fromwhatIhaveobservedofthee,thatthouwouldstwishtobeungrateful,andyet,isnotthywholelifeaseriesofingratitude,andtowhom?-tothyMaker。HasHenotendowedtheewithagoodlyandhealthyform;andsenseswhichenabletheetoenjoythedelightsofHisbeautifuluniverse-theworkofHishands?Canstthounotenjoy,eventorapture,thebrightnessofthesun,theperfumeofthemeads,andthesongofthedearbirdswhichinhabitamongthetrees?Yes,thoucanst;forIhaveseenthee,andobservedtheedoingso。Yet,duringthewholetimethatIhaveknownthee,Ihavenotheardproceedfromthylipsonesinglewordofpraiseorthanksgivingto……’
  Andinthismannertheadmirablewomanproceededforaconsiderabletime,andtoallherdiscourseIlistenedwithattention;andwhenshehadconcluded,Itookherhandandsaid,’Ithankyou,’andthatwasall。
  Onthenextdayeverythingwasreadyforourdeparture。Thegoodfamilyofthehousecametobidusfarewell。Therewereshakingofhands,andkisses,asonthenightofourarrival。
  AndasIstoodsomewhatapart,theyounggirlofwhomIhavespokensooftencameuptome,andholdingoutherhand,said,’Farewell,youngman,whereverthougoest。’Then,afterlookingaroundher,shesaid,’Itwasalltrueyoutoldme。YesterdayIreceivedaletterfromhimthouwottestof;heiscomingsoon。Godblessyou,youngman;whowouldhavethoughtthouknewestsomuch!’
  So,afterwehadtakenourfarewellofthegoodfamily,wedeparted,proceedinginthedirectionofWales。Peterwasverycheerful,andenlivenedthewaywithgodlydiscourseandspiritualhymns,someofwhichwereintheWelshlanguage。AtlengthIsaid,’ItisapitythatyoudidnotcontinueintheChurch;youhaveaturnforPsalmody,andIhaveheardofamanbecomingabishopbymeansofalessqualification。’
  ’Veryprobably,’saidPeter;’morethepity。ButIhavetoldyouthereasonofmyforsakingit。Frequently,whenIwenttothechurchdoor,Ifounditbarred,andthepriestabsent;whatwasI
  todo?Myheartwasburstingforwantofsomereligioushelpandcomfort;whatcouldIdo?asgoodMasterReesPritchardobservesinhis“CandleforWelshmen“:-
  ’“Itisadolefulthingtoseelittlechildrenburningonthehotcoalsforwantofhelp;butyetmoredolefultoseeaflockofsoulsfallingintotheburninglakeforwantofapriest。“’
  ’TheChurchofEnglandisafinechurch,’saidI;’IwouldnotadviseanyonetospeakilloftheChurchofEnglandbeforeme。’
  ’Ihavenothingtosayagainstthechurch,’saidPeter;’allIwishisthatitwouldflingitselfalittlemoreopen,andthatitspriestswouldalittlemorebestirthemselves;inaword,thatitwouldshoulderthecrossandbecomeamissionarychurch。’
  ’Itistooproudforthat,’saidWinifred。
  ’YouaremuchmoreofaMethodist,’saidI,’thanyourhusband。
  Buttellme,’saidI,addressingmyselftoPeter,’doyounotdifferfromthechurchinsomepointsofdoctrine?I,ofcourse,asatruememberofthechurch,amquiteignorantofthepeculiaropinionsofwanderingsectaries。’
  ’Ohtheprideofthatchurch!’saidWinifred,halftoherself;
  ’wanderingsectaries!’
  ’Wedifferinnopointsofdoctrine,’saidPeter;’webelieveallthechurchbelieves,thoughwearenotsofondofvainandsuperfluousceremonies,snow-whiteneckclothsandsurplices,asthechurchis。Welikewisethinkthatthereisnoharminasermonbytheroad-side,orinholdingfreediscoursewithabeggarbeneathahedge,oratinker,’headded,smiling;’itwasthosesuperfluousceremonies,thosesurplicesandwhiteneckcloths,and,aboveall,thenecessityofstrictlyregulatinghiswordsandconversation,whichdroveJohnWesleyoutofthechurch,andsenthimwanderingupanddownasyouseeme,poorWelshPeter,do。’
  Nothingfartherpassedforsometime;wewerenowdrawingnearthehills:atlastIsaid,’Youmusthavemetwithagreatmanystrangeadventuressinceyoutookupthiscourseoflife?’
  ’Many,’saidPeter,’ithasbeenmylottomeetwith;butnonemorestrangethanonewhichoccurredtomeonlyafewweeksago。Youwereaskingme,notlongsince,whetherIbelievedindevils?Ay,truly,youngman;andIbelievethattheabyssandtheyetdeeperunknowndonotcontainthemall;somewalkaboutuponthegreenearth。Soithappened,someweeksago,thatIwasexercisingmyministryaboutfortymilesfromhere。Iwasalone,Winifredbeingslightlyindisposed,stayingforafewdaysatthehouseofanacquaintance;Ihadfinishedafternoon’sworship-thepeoplehaddispersed,andIwassittingsolitarybymycartundersomegreentreesinaquietretiredplace;suddenlyavoicesaidtome,“Good-
  evening,Pastor“;Ilookedup,andbeforemestoodaman,atleasttheappearanceofaman,dressedinablacksuitofratherasingularfashion。Hewasaboutmyownage,orsomewhatolder。AsIlookeduponhim,itappearedtomethatIhadseenhimtwicebeforewhilstpreaching。Irepliedtohissalutation,andperceivingthathelookedsomewhatfatigued,Itookoutastoolfromthecart,andaskedhimtositdown。Webegantodiscourse;I
  atfirstsupposedthathemightbeoneofourselves,somewanderingminister;butIwassoonundeceived。Neitherhislanguagenorhisideaswerethoseofanyoneofourbody。Hespokeonallkindsofmatterswithmuchfluency;tillatlasthementionedmypreaching,complimentingmeonmypowers。Ireplied,aswellImight,thatI
  couldclaimnomeritofmyown,andthatifIspokewithanyeffect,itwasonlybythegraceofGod。AsIutteredtheselastwords,ahorriblekindofsneercameoverhiscountenance,whichmademeshudder,fortherewassomethingdiabolicalinit。Isaidlittlemore,butlistenedattentivelytohisdiscourse。AtlasthesaidthatIwasengagedinapaltrycause,quiteunworthyofoneofmypowers。“Howcanthatbe,“saidI,“evenifIpossessedallthepowersintheworld,seeingthatIamengagedinthecauseofourLordJesus?“
  ’Thesamekindofsneeragaincameonhiscountenance,buthealmostinstantlyobserved,thatifIchosetoforsakethissamemiserablecause,fromwhichnothingbutcontemptandprivationwastobeexpected,hewouldenlistmeintoanother,fromwhichImightexpectbothprofitandrenown。Anideanowcameintomyhead,andItoldhimfirmlythatifhewishedmetoforsakemypresentprofessionandbecomeamemberoftheChurchofEngland,Imustabsolutelydecline;thatIhadnoill-willagainstthatchurch,butIthoughtIcoulddomostgoodinmypresentposition,whichI
  wouldnotforsaketobeArchbishopofCanterbury。Thereuponheburstintoastrangelaughter,andwentaway,repeatingtohimself,“ChurchofEngland!ArchbishopofCanterbury!“Afewdaysafter,whenIwasoncemoreinasolitaryplace,heagainappearedbeforeme,andaskedmewhetherIhadthoughtoverhiswords,andwhetherIwaswillingtoenlistunderthebannersofhismaster,addingthathewaseagertosecureme,asheconceivedthatImightbehighlyusefultothecause。Ithenaskedhimwhohismasterwas;
  hehesitatedforamoment,andthenanswered,“TheRomanPontiff。“
  “Ifitbehe,“saidI,“Icanhavenothingtodowithhim;IwillservenoonewhoisanenemyofChrist。“Thereuponhedrewneartome,andtoldmenottotalksomuchlikeasimpleton;thatasforChrist,itwasprobablethatnosuchpersoneverexisted,butthatifHeeverdid,Hewasthegreatestimpostortheworldeversaw。
  HowlonghecontinuedinthiswayIknownot,forInowconsideredthatanevilspiritwasbeforeme,andshrankwithinmyself,shiveringineverylimb;whenIrecoveredmyselfandlookedaboutme,hewasgone。Twodaysafter,heagainstoodbeforeme,inthesameplace,andaboutthesamehour,renewinghispropositions,andspeakingmorehorriblythanbefore。Imadehimnoanswer;
  whereuponhecontinued;butsuddenlyhearinganoisebehindhim,helookedroundandbeheldWinifred,whohadreturnedtomeonthemorningofthatday。“Whoareyou?“saidhe,fiercely。“Thisman’swife,“saidshe,calmlyfixinghereyesuponhim。“Begonefromhim,unhappyone,thoutemptesthiminvain。“Hemadenoanswer,butstoodasiftransfixed:atlength,recoveringhimself,hedeparted,muttering“Wife!wife!Ifthefoolhasawife,hewillneverdoforus。“’
  CHAPTERLXXX
  Theborder-Thankyouboth-Pipeandfiddle-Taliesin。
  WEwerenowdrawingverynearthehills,andPetersaid,’IfyouaretogointoWales,youmustpresentlydecide,forwearecloseupontheborder。’
  ’Whichistheborder?’saidI。
  ’Yonsmallbrook,’saidPeter,’intowhichthemanonhorsebackwhoiscomingtowardsusisnowentering。’
  ’Iseeit,’saidI,’andtheman;hestopsinthemiddleofit,asiftowaterhissteed。’
  Weproceededtillwehadnearlyreachedthebrook。’Well,’saidPeter,’willyougointoWales?’
  ’WhatshouldIdoinWales?’Idemanded。
  ’Do!’saidPeter,smiling,’learnWelsh。’
  Istoppedmylittlepony。’ThenIneednotgointoWales;I
  alreadyknowWelsh。’
  ’KnowWelsh!’saidPeter,staringatme。
  ’KnowWelsh!’saidWinifred,stoppinghercart。
  ’Howandwhendidyoulearnit?’saidPeter。
  ’Frombooks,inmyboyhood。’
  ’ReadWelsh!’saidPeter;’isitpossible?’
  ’ReadWelsh!’saidWinifred;’isitpossible?’