ateandIdrank;and,asIateanddrank,Imusedwithinmyself,andmyeyeswerefrequentlydirectedtoasmallgreenbox,whichconstitutedpartofmyluggage,andwhich,withtherestofmythings,stoodinonecorneroftheroom,tillatlast,leavingmybreakfastunfinished,Irose,and,goingtothebox,unlockedit,andtookouttwoorthreebundlesofpaperstiedwithredtape,and,placingthemonthetable,Iresumedmyseatandmybreakfast,myeyesintentlyfixeduponthebundlesofpapersallthetime。
AndwhenIhaddrainedthelastcupofteaoutofadingyteapot,andatethelastsliceofthedingyloaf,Iuntiedoneofthebundles,andproceededtolookoverthepapers,whichwerecloselywrittenoverinasingularhand,andIreadforsometime,tillatlastIsaidtomyself,’Itwilldo。’AndthenIlookedattheotherbundleforsometimewithoutuntyingit;andatlastIsaid,’Itwilldoalso。’AndthenIturnedtothefire,and,puttingmyfeetagainstthesidesofthegrate,Ileanedbackonmychair,and,withmyeyesuponthefire,fellintodeepthought。
AndthereIcontinuedinthoughtbeforethefire,untilmyeyesclosed,andIfellasleep;whichwasnottobewonderedat,afterthefatigueandcoldwhichIhadlatelyundergoneonthecoach-top;
and,inmysleep,Iimaginedmyselfstillthere,amidstdarknessandrain,hurryingnowoverwildheaths,andnowalongroadsoverhungwiththickandumbrageoustrees,andsometimesmethoughtI
heardthehornoftheguard,andsometimesthevoiceofthecoachman,nowchiding,nowencouraginghishorses,astheytoiledthroughthedeepandmiryways。Atlengthatremendouscrackofawhipsalutedthetympanumofmyear,andIstartedupbroadawake,nearlyoversettingthechaironwhichIreclined-andlo!Iwasinthedingyroombeforethefire,whichwasbythistimehalfextinguished。InmydreamIhadconfoundedthenoiseofthestreetwiththoseofmynightjourney;thecrackwhichhadarousedmeI
soonfoundproceededfromthewhipofacarter,who,withmanyoaths,wasflogginghisteambelowthewindow。
Lookingataclockwhichstooduponthemantelpiece,Iperceivedthatitwaspasteleven;whereuponIsaidtomyself,’Iamwastingmytimefoolishlyandunprofitably,forgettingthatIamnowinthebigworld,withoutanythingtodependuponsavemyownexertions’;
andthenIadjustedmydress,and,lockingupthebundleofpaperswhichIhadnotread,Itieduptheother,and,takingitundermyarm,Iwentdownstairs;and,afteraskingaquestionortwoofthepeopleofthehouse,Isalliedforthintothestreetwithadeterminedlook,thoughatheartIfeltsomewhattimorousattheideaofventuringoutaloneintothemazesofthemightycity,ofwhichIhadheardmuch,butofwhich,ofmyownknowledge,Iknewnothing。
Ihad,however,nogreatcauseforanxietyinthepresentinstance;
IeasilyfoundmywaytotheplacewhichIwasinquestof-oneofthemanynewsquaresonthenorthernsideofthemetropolis,andwhichwasscarcelytenminutes’walkfromthestreetinwhichIhadtakenupmyabode。Arrivingbeforethedoorofatolerablylargehousewhichboreacertainnumber,Istoodstillforamomentinakindoftrepidation,lookinganxiouslyatthedoor;IthenslowlypassedontillIcametotheendofthesquare,whereIstoodstill,andponderedforawhile。Suddenly,however,likeonewhohasformedaresolution,Iclenchedmyrighthand,flingingmyhatsomewhatononeside,and,turningbackwithhastetothedoorbeforewhichIhadstopped,Isprangupthesteps,andgavealoudrap,ringingatthesametimethebellofthearea。Afterthelapseofaminutethedoorwasopenedbyamaid-servantofnoverycleanlyorprepossessingappearance,ofwhomIdemanded,inatoneofsomehauteur,whetherthemasterofthehousewasathome。
Glancingforamomentatthewhitepaperbundlebeneathmyarm,thehandmaidmadenoreplyinwords,but,withakindoftossofherhead,flungthedooropen,standingononesideasiftoletmeenter。Ididenter;andthehand-maid,havingopenedanotherdoorontherighthand,wentin,andsaidsomethingwhichIcouldnothear:afteraconsiderablepause,however,Iheardthevoiceofamansay,’Lethimcomein’;whereuponthehandmaid,comingout,motionedmetoenter,and,onmyobeying,instantlyclosedthedoorbehindme。
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THEREweretwoindividualsintheroominwhichInowfoundmyself;
itwasasmallstudy,surroundedwithbookcases,thewindowlookingoutuponthesquare。Oftheseindividualshewhoappearedtobetheprincipalstoodwithhisbacktothefireplace。Hewasatallstoutman,aboutsixty,dressedinaloosemorninggown。Theexpressionofhiscountenancewouldhavebeenbluffbutforacertainsinisterglance,andhiscomplexionmighthavebeencalledrubicundbutforaconsiderabletingeofbiliousyellow。HeeyedmeaskanceasIentered。Theother,apale,shrivelled-lookingperson,satatatableapparentlyengagedwithanaccount-book;hetooknomannerofnoticeofme,neveronceliftinghiseyesfromthepagebeforehim。
’Well,sir,whatisyourpleasure?’saidthebigman,inaroughtone,asIstoodthere,lookingathimwistfully-aswellImight-foruponthatman,atthetimeofwhichIamspeaking,myprincipal,Imaysaymyonly,hopesrested。
’Sir,’saidI,’mynameisso-and-so,andIamthebearerofalettertoyoufromMr。so-and-so,anoldfriendandcorrespondentofyours。’
Thecountenanceofthebigmaninstantlylostthesuspiciousandloweringexpressionwhichithadhithertoexhibited;hestrodeforward,and,seizingmebythehand,gavemeaviolentsqueeze。
’Mydearsir,’saidhe,’IamrejoicedtoseeyouinLondon。I
havebeenlonganxiousforthepleasure-weareoldfriends,thoughwehaveneverbeforemet。Taggart,’saidhetothemanwhosatatthedesk,’thisisourexcellentcorrespondent,thefriendandpupilofourotherexcellentcorrespondent。’
Thepale,shrivelled-lookingmanslowlyanddeliberatelyraisedhisheadfromtheaccount-book,andsurveyedmeforamomentortwo;
nottheslightestemotionwasobservableinhiscountenance。Itappearedtome,however,thatIcoulddetectadrolltwinkleinhiseye:hiscuriosity,ifhehadany,wassoongratified;hemademeakindofbow,pulledoutasnuff-box,tookapinchofsnuff,andagainbenthisheadoverthepage。
’Andnow,mydearsir,’saidthebigman,’praysitdown,andtellmethecauseofyourvisit。Ihopeyouintendtoremainhereadayortwo。’
’Morethanthat,’saidI,’IamcometotakeupmyabodeinLondon。’
’Gladtohearit;andwhathaveyoubeenaboutoflate?gotanythingwhichwillsuitme?Sir,Iadmireyourstyleofwriting,andyourmannerofthinking;andIammuchobligedtomygoodfriendandcorrespondentforsendingmesomeofyourproductions。
Iinsertedthemall,andwishedtherehadbeenmoreofthem-quiteoriginal,sir,quite:tookwiththepublic,especiallytheessayaboutthenon-existenceofanything。Idon’texactlyagreewithyouthough;Ihavemyownpeculiarideasaboutmatter-asyouknow,ofcourse,fromthebookIhavepublished。Nevertheless,averyprettypieceofspeculativephilosophy-nosuchthingasmatter-impossiblethatthereshouldbe-EXNIHILO-whatistheGreek?Ihaveforgot-veryprettyindeed;veryoriginal。’
’Iamafraid,sir,itwasverywrongtowritesuchtrash,andyetmoretoallowittobepublished。’
’Trash!notatall;averyprettypieceofspeculativephilosophy;
ofcourseyouwerewronginsayingthereisnoworld。Theworldmustexist,tohavetheshapeofapear;andthattheworldisshapedlikeapear,andnotlikeanapple,asthefoolsofOxfordsay,Ihavesatisfactorilyprovedinmybook。Now,iftherewerenoworld,whatwouldbecomeofmysystem?ButwhatdoyouproposetodoinLondon?’
’Hereistheletter,sir,’saidI,’ofourgoodfriend,whichI
havenotyetgiventoyou;IbelieveitwillexplaintoyouthecircumstancesunderwhichIcome。’
Hetooktheletter,andperuseditwithattention。’Hem!’saidhe,withasomewhatalteredmanner,’myfriendtellsmethatyouarecomeuptoLondonwiththeviewofturningyourliterarytalentstoaccount,anddesiresmetoassistyouinmycapacityofpublisherinbringingforthtwoorthreeworkswhichyouhaveprepared。MygoodfriendisperhapsnotawarethatforsometimepastIhavegivenuppublishing-wasobligedtodoso-hadmanyseverelosses-donothingatpresentinthatline,savesendingouttheMagazineonceamonth;and,betweenourselves,amthinkingofdisposingofthat-wishtoretire-hightimeatmyage-soyousee-’
’Iamverysorry,sir,tohearthatyoucannotassistme’andI
rememberthatIfeltverynervous;’Ihadhoped-’
’Alosingtrade,Iassureyou,sir;literatureisadrug。Taggart,whato’clockis?’
’Well,sir!’saidI,rising,’asyoucannotassistme,Iwillnowtakemyleave;Ithankyousincerelyforyourkindreception,andwilltroubleyounolonger。’
’Oh,don’tgo。Iwishtohavesomefurtherconversationwithyou;
andperhapsImayhituponsomeplantobenefityou。Ihonourmerit,andalwaysmakeapointtoencourageitwhenIcan;but-
Taggart,gotothebank,andtellthemtodishonourthebilltwelvemonthsafterdateforthirtypoundswhichbecomesdueto-morrow。I
amdissatisfiedwiththatfellowwhowrotethefairytales,andintendtogivehimallthetroubleinmypower。Makehaste。’
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