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第4章

  Reader,haveyoueverporeddaysandnightsoverthepagesofSnorro?-probablynot,forhewroteinalanguagewhichfewofthepresentdayunderstand,andfewwouldbetemptedtoreadhimtameddownbyLatindragomans。AbraveoldbookisthatofSnorro,containingthehistoriesandadventuresofoldnorthernkingsandchampions,whoseemedtohavebeenquitedifferentmen,ifwemayjudgefromthefeatswhichtheyperformed,fromthoseofthesedays;oneofthebestofhishistoriesisthatwhichdescribesthelifeofHaraldHaardraade,who,aftermanifoldadventuresbylandandsea,nowapirate,nowamercenaryoftheGreekemperor,becamekingofNorway,andeventuallyperishedatthebattleofStamfordBridge,whilstengagedinagallantonslaughtuponEngland。Now,I
  haveoftenthoughtthattheoldKemp,whosemoulderingskullintheGolgothaofHythemybrotherandmyselfcouldscarcelylift,musthaveresembledinonerespectatleastthisHarald,whomSnorrodescribesasagreatandwiserulerandadeterminedleader,dangerousinbattle,offairpresenceandmeasuringinheightjustFIVEELLS,neithermorenorless。
  IneverforgottheDaneman’sskull;liketheapparitionoftheviperinthesandylane,itdweltinthemindoftheboy,affordingcopiousfoodfortheexerciseofimagination。FromthatmomentwiththenameofDanewereassociatedstrangeideasofstrength,daring,andsuperhumanstature;andanundefinablecuriosityforallthatisconnectedwiththeDanishracebegantopervademe;andif,longafter,whenIbecameastudentIdevotedmyselfwithpeculiarzesttoDanishloreandtheacquirementoftheoldNorsetongueanditsdialects,IcanonlyexplainthematterbytheearlyimpressionreceivedatHythefromthetaleoftheoldsexton,beneaththepent-house,andthesightoftheDanishskull。
  Andthuswewentonstrayingfromplacetoplace,atHytheto-day,andperhapswithinaweeklookingoutfromourhostel-windowuponthestreetsofoldWinchester,ourmotionseverinaccordancewiththe’route’oftheregiment,sohabituatedtochangeofscenethatithadbecomealmostnecessarytoourexistence。Pleasantwerethesedaysofmyearlyboyhood;andamelancholypleasurestealsovermeasIrecallthem。ThosewerestirringtimesofwhichIamspeaking,andtherewasmuchpassingaroundmecalculatedtocaptivatetheimagination。ThedreadfulstrugglewhichsolongconvulsedEurope,andinwhichEnglandboresoprominentapart,wasthenatitshottest;wewereatwar,anddeterminationandenthusiasmshoneineveryface;man,woman,andchildwereeagertofighttheFrank,thehereditary,but,thankGod,neverdreadedenemyoftheAnglo-Saxonrace。’LoveyourcountryandbeattheFrench,andthennevermindwhathappens,’wasthecryofentireEngland。Oh,thoseweredaysofpower,gallantdays,bustlingdays,worththebravestdaysofchivalryatleast;tallbattalionsofnativewarriorsweremarchingthroughtheland;therewastheglitterofthebayonetandthegleamofthesabre;theshrillsqueakofthefifeandloudrattlingofthedrumwereheardinthestreetsofcountrytowns,andtheloyalshoutsoftheinhabitantsgreetedthesoldieryontheirarrival,orcheeredthemattheirdeparture。Andnowletusleavetheupland,anddescendtothesea-bord;thereisasightforyouuponthebillows!Adozenmen-
  of-warareglidingmajesticallyoutofport,theirlongbuntingsstreamingfromthetop-gallantmasts,callingontheskulkingFrenchmantocomeforthfromhisbightsandbays;andwhatloomsuponusyonderfromthefog-bankintheeast?agallantfrigatetowingbehindherthelonglowhullofacrippledprivateer,whichbutthreeshortdaysagohadleftDieppetoskimthesea,andwhosecrewofferociousheartsarenowcursingtheirimprudenceinanEnglishhold。Stirringtimesthose,whichIlovetorecall,fortheyweredaysofgallantryandenthusiasm,andweremoreoverthedaysofmyboyhood。
  CHAPTERIII
  PrettyD——Thevenerablechurch-Thestrickenheart-Dormantenergies-Thesmallpacket-Nerves-Thebooks-Apicture-
  Mountain-likebillows-Thefootprint-SpiritofDeFoe-
  Reasoningpowers-TerrorsofGod-Headsofthedragons-High-
  Churchclerk-Ajourney-Thedrownedcountry。
  ANDwhenIwasbetweensixandsevenyearsofagewewereoncemoreatD-,theplaceofmybirth,whithermyfatherhadbeendespatchedontherecruitingservice。Ihavealreadysaidthatitwasabeautifullittletown-atleastitwasatthetimeofwhichIamspeaking-whatitisatpresentIknownot,forthirtyyearsandmorehaveelapsedsinceIlasttroditsstreets。Itwillscarcelyhaveimproved,forhowcoulditbebetterthanitthenwas?Ilovetothinkonthee,prettyquietD-,thoupatternofanEnglishcountrytown,withthycleanbutnarrowstreetsbranchingoutfromthymodestmarket-place,withthineold-fashionedhouses,withhereandtherearoofofvenerablethatch,withthyonehalf-
  aristocraticmansion,whereresidedthyLadyBountiful-she,thegenerousandkind,wholovedtovisitthesick,leaningonhergold-headedcane,whilstthesleekoldfootmanwalkedatarespectfuldistancebehind。PrettyquietD-,withthyvenerablechurch,inwhichmoulderthemortalremainsofEngland’ssweetestandmostpiousbard。
  Yes,prettyD-,Icouldalwayslovethee,wereitbutforthesakeofhimwhosleepsbeneaththemarbleslabinyonderquietchancel。
  Itwaswithintheethatthelong-oppressedbosomheaveditslastsigh,andthecrushedandgentlespiritescapedfromaworldinwhichithadknownnoughtbutsorrow。Sorrow!doIsay?Howfaintawordtoexpressthemiseryofthatbruisedreed;miserysodarkthatablindwormlikemyselfisoccasionallytemptedtoexclaim,Betterhadtheworldneverbeencreatedthanthatonesokind,soharmless,andsomild,shouldhaveundergonesuchintolerablewoe!
  Butitisovernow,for,asthereisanendofjoy,sohasafflictionitstermination。DoubtlesstheAll-wisedidnotafflicthimwithoutacause:whoknowsbutwithinthatunhappyframelurkedviciousseedswhichthesunbeamsofjoyandprosperitymighthavecalledintolifeandvigour?Perhapsthewitheringblastsofmiserynippedthatwhichotherwisemighthaveterminatedinfruitnoxiousandlamentable。Butpeacetotheunhappyone,heisgonetohisrest;thedeath-likefaceisnolongeroccasionallyseentimidlyandmournfullylookingforamomentthroughthewindow-paneuponthymarket-place,quietandprettyD-;thehindinthyneighbourhoodnolongeratevening-fallviews,andstartsasheviews,thedarklathyfiguremovingbeneaththehazelsandaldersofshadowylanes,orbythesideofmurmuringtroutstreams,andnolongeratearlydawndoesthesextonoftheoldchurchreverentlydoffhishat,as,supportedbysomekindfriend,thedeath-strickencreaturetottersalongthechurch-pathtothatmoulderingedificewiththelowroof,inclosingaspringofsanatorywaters,builtanddevotedtosomesaint,ifthelegendoverthedoorbetrue,bythedaughterofanEastAnglianking。
  Buttoreturntomyownhistory。Ihadnowattainedtheageofsix:shallIstatewhatintellectualprogressIhadbeenmakinguptothisperiod?Alas!uponthispointIhavelittletosaycalculatedtoaffordeitherpleasureoredification;Ihadincreasedrapidlyinsizeandinstrength:thegrowthofthemind,however,hadbynomeanscorrespondedwiththatofthebody。Itistrue,Ihadacquiredmyletters,andwasbythistimeabletoreadimperfectly;butthiswasall:andeventhispoortriumphoverabsoluteignorancewouldneverhavebeeneffectedbutfortheunremittingattentionofmyparents,who,sometimesbythreats,sometimesbyentreaties,endeavouredtorousethedormantenergiesofmynature,andtobendmywishestotheacquisitionoftherudimentsofknowledge;butininfluencingthewishlaythedifficulty。Letbutthewillofahumanbeingbeturnedtoanyparticularobject,anditistentoonethatsoonerorlaterheachievesit。AtthistimeImaysafelysaythatIharbouredneitherwishesnorhopes;Ihadasyetseennoobjectcalculatedtocallthemforth,andyetItookpleasureinmanythingswhichperhapsunfortunatelywereallwithinmysphereofenjoyment。I
  lovedtolookupontheheavens,andtobaskintheraysofthesun,ortositbeneathhedgerowsandlistentothechirpingofthebirds,indulgingthewhileinmusingandmeditationasfarasmyverylimitedcircleofideaswouldpermit;but,unlikemybrother,whowasatthistimeatschool,andwhoserapidprogressineverybranchofinstructionastonishedanddelightedhispreceptors,I
  tooknopleasureinbooks,whoseuse,indeed,Icouldscarcelycomprehend,andbadefairtobeasarrantadunceaseverbroughttheblushofshameintothecheeksofanxiousandaffectionateparents。
  Butthetimewasnowathandwhentheicewhichhadhithertoboundthemindofthechildwithitsbenumbingpowerwastobethawed,andaworldofsensationsandideasawakenedtowhichithadhithertobeenanentirestranger。Onedayayounglady,anintimateacquaintanceofourfamily,andgodmothertomybrother,droveuptothehouseinwhichwedwelt;shestayedsometimeconversingwithmymother,andonrisingtodepart,sheputdownonthetableasmallpacket,exclaiming,’Ihavebroughtalittlepresentforeachoftheboys:theoneisaHistoryofEngland,whichIintendformygodsonwhenhereturnsfromschool,theotheris……’-andhereshesaidsomethingwhichescapedmyear,asI
  satatsomedistance,mopinginacorner,-’Iintenditfortheyoungsteryonder,’pointingtomyself;shethendeparted,and,mymothergoingoutshortlyafter,Iwasleftalone。
  Irememberforsometimesittingmotionlessinmycorner,withmyeyesbentupontheground;atlastIliftedmyheadandlookeduponthepacketasitlayonthetable。Allatonceastrangesensationcameoverme,suchasIhadneverexperiencedbefore-asingularblendingofcuriosity,awe,andpleasure,theremembranceofwhich,evenatthisdistanceoftime,producesaremarkableeffectuponmynervoussystem。Whatstrangethingsarethenerves-ImeanthosemoresecretandmysteriousonesinwhichIhavesomenotionthatthemindorsoul,callitwhichyouwill,hasitshabitation;howtheyoccasionallytingleandvibratebeforeanycomingeventcloselyconnectedwiththefuturewealorwoeofthehumanbeing。
  Suchafeelingwasnowwithinme,certainlyindependentofwhattheeyehadseenortheearhadheard。Abookofsomedescriptionhadbeenbroughtforme,apresentbynomeanscalculatedtointerestme;whatcaredIforbooks?IhadalreadymanyintowhichIneverlookedbutfromcompulsion;friends,moreover,hadpresentedmewithsimilarthingsbefore,whichIhadentirelydisregarded,andwhatwasthereinthisparticularbook,whoseverytitleIdidnotknow,calculatedtoattractmemorethantherest?yetsomethingwithintoldmethatmyfatewasconnectedwiththebookwhichhadbeenlastbrought;so,afterlookingonthepacketfrommycornerforaconsiderabletime,Igotupandwenttothetable。
  Thepacketwaslyingwhereithadbeenleft-Itookitup;hadtheenvelope,whichconsistedofwhitishbrownpaper,beensecuredbyastringoraseal,Ishouldnothaveopenedit,asIshouldhaveconsideredsuchanactalmostinthelightofacrime;thebooks,however,hadbeenmerelyfoldedup,andIthereforeconsideredthattherecouldbenopossibleharmininspectingthem,moreespeciallyasIhadreceivednoinjunctiontothecontrary。Perhapstherewassomethingunsoundinthisreasoning,somethingsophistical;butachildissometimesasreadyasagrown-uppersoninfindingexcusesfordoingthatwhichheisinclinedto。Butwhethertheactionwasrightorwrong,andIamafraiditwasnotaltogetherright,I
  undidthepacket:itcontainedthreebooks;twofromtheirsimilarityseemedtobeseparatepartsofoneandthesamework;