theironlyregretisthattheyaresosoontoquitit;butoh,yedeardeludedhearts,itisnoteveryonewhoissofortunate!
Tothegeneralityofmankindthereisnoperiodlikeyouth。Thegeneralityarefarfromfortunate;buttheperiodofyouth,eventotheleastso,offersmomentsofconsiderablehappiness,fortheyarenotonlydisposedbutabletoenjoymostthingswithintheirreach。Withwhattriflesatthatperiodarewecontent;thethingsfromwhichinafter-lifeweshouldturnawayindisdainpleaseusthen,forweareinthemidstofagoldencloud,andeverythingseemsdeckedwithagoldenhue。Neverduringanyportionofmylifedidtimeflowonmorespeedilythanduringthetwoorthreeyearsimmediatelysucceedingtheperiodtowhichwearrivedintheprecedingchapter:sincethenithasflaggedoftenenough;
sometimesithasseemedtostandentirelystill;andthereadermayeasilyjudgehowitfaresatthepresent,fromthecircumstanceofmytakingpeninhand,andendeavouringtowritedownthepassagesofmylife-alastresourcewithmostpeople。ButattheperiodtowhichIalludeIwasjust,asImaysay,enteringuponlife;I
hadadoptedaprofession,and,tokeepupmycharacter,simultaneouslywiththatprofession-thestudyofanewlanguage。
Ispeedilybecameaproficientintheone,buteverremainedanoviceintheother:anoviceinthelaw,butaperfectmasterintheWelshtongue。
Yes;verypleasanttimeswerethose,whenwithinthewombofaloftydealdesk,behindwhichIsatforsomeeighthourseveryday,transcribingwhenIimaginedeyeswereuponmedocumentsofeverydescriptionineverypossiblehand,BlackstonekeptcompanywithAbGwilym-thepolishedEnglishlawyerofthelastcentury,whowrotelongandprosychaptersontherightsofthings-withacertainwildWelshman,whosomefourhundredyearsbeforethattimeinditedimmortalcowyddsandodestothewivesofCambrianchieftains-
moreparticularlytooneMorfydd,thewifeofacertainhunchbackeddignitarycalledbythepoetfacetiouslyBwaBach-generallyterminatingwiththemodestrequestofalittleprivateparlancebeneaththegreenwoodbough,withnootherwitnessthantheeos,ornightingale,arequestwhich,ifthepoethimselfmaybebelieved,ratheradoubtfulpoint,wasseldom,veryseldom,denied。AndbywhatstrangechancehadAbGwilymandBlackstone,twopersonagessoexceedinglydifferent,beenthusbroughttogether?Fromwhatthereaderalreadyknowsofme,hemaybequitepreparedtofindmereadingtheformer;butwhatcouldhaveinducedmetotakeupBlackstone,orratherthelaw?
Ihaveeverlovedtobeasexplicitaspossible;onwhichaccount,perhaps,Ineverattainedtoanyproficiencyinthelaw,theessenceofwhichissaidtobeambiguity;mostquestionsmaybeansweredinafewwords,andthisamongtherest,thoughconnectedwiththelaw。MyparentsdeemeditnecessarythatIshouldadoptsomeprofession,theynamedthelaw;thelawwasasagreeabletomeasanyotherprofessionwithinmyreach,soIadoptedthelaw,andtheconsequencewas,thatBlackstone,probablyforthefirsttime,foundhimselfincompanywithAbGwilym。ByadoptingthelawIhadnotceasedtobeLavengro。
SoIsatbehindadeskmanyhoursintheday,ostensiblyengagedintranscribingdocumentsofvariouskinds;thesceneofmylabourswasastrangeoldhouse,occupyingonesideofalongandnarrowcourt,intowhich,however,thegreaternumberofthewindowslookednot,butintoanextensivegarden,filledwithfruittrees,intherearofalarge,handsomehouse,belongingtoahighlyrespectablegentleman,who,moyennantundouceurconsiderable,hadconsentedtoinstructmyfather’syoungestsoninthemysteriesofgloriousEnglishlaw。Ah!wouldthatIcoulddescribethegoodgentlemaninthemannerwhichhedeserves;hehaslongsincesunktohisplaceinarespectablevault,intheaisleofaveryrespectablechurch,whilstanexceedinglyrespectablemarbleslabagainsttheneighbouringwalltellsonaSundaysomeeyewanderingfromitsprayer-bookthathisdustliesbelow;tosecuresuchrespectabilitiesindeath,hepassedamostrespectablelife。Letnoonesneer,heaccomplishedmuch;hislifewaspeaceful,sowashisdeath。Arethesetrifles?IwishIcoulddescribehim,forI
lovedtheman,andwithreason,forhewaseverkindtome,towhomkindnesshasnotalwaysbeenshown;andhewas,moreover,achoicespecimenofaclasswhichnolongerexists-agentlemanlawyeroftheoldschool。Iwouldfaindescribehim,butfigureswithwhichhehasnoughttodopressforwardandkeephimfrommymind’seye;
theretheypass,SpaniardandMoor,Gypsy,Turk,andlividJew。
Butwhoisthat?whatthatthickpursymanintheloose,snuff-
colouredgreatcoat,withthewhitestockings,drabbreeches,andsilverbucklesonhisshoes;thatmanwiththebullneck,andsingularhead,immenseinthelowerpart,especiallyaboutthejaws,buttaperingupwardlikeapear;themanwiththebushybrows,smallgrayeyesrepletewithcatlikeexpression,whosegrizzledhairiscutclose,andwhoseear-lobesarepiercedwithsmallgoldenrings?Oh!thatisnotmydearoldmaster,butawidelydifferentpersonage。Bonjour,MonsieurVidocq!expressionsdemapartaMonsieurLeBaronTaylor。Butherehecomesatlast,myveritableoldmaster!
Amorerespectable-lookingindividualwasneverseen;hereallylookedwhathewas,agentlemanofthelaw-therewasnothingofthepettifoggerabouthim:somewhatunderthemiddlesize,andsomewhatrotundinperson,hewasalwaysdressedinafullsuitofblack,neverwornlongenoughtobecomethreadbare。Hisfacewasrubicund,andnotwithoutkeenness;butthemostremarkablethingabouthimwasthecrownofhishead,whichwasbald,andshonelikepolishedivory,nothingmorewhite,smooth,andlustrous。Somepeoplehavesaidthatheworefalsecalves,probablybecausehisblacksilkstockingsneverexhibitedawrinkle;theymightjustaswellhavesaidthathewaddled,becausehisshoescreaked;fortheselast,whichwerealwayswithoutaspeck,andpolishedashiscrown,thoughofadifferenthue,didcreak,ashewalkedratherslowly。IcannotsaythatIeversawhimwalkfast。
Hehadahandsomepractice,andmighthavediedaveryrichman,muchricherthanhedid,hadhenotbeeninthehabitofgivingratherexpensivedinnerstocertaingreatpeople,whogavehimnothinginreturnexcepttheircompany;Icouldneverdiscoverhisreasonsfordoingso,ashealwaysappearedtomearemarkablyquietman,bynatureaversetonoiseandbustle;butinalldispositionsthereareanomalies:Ihavealreadysaidthathelivedinahandsomehouse,andImayaswellhereaddthathehadaveryhandsomewife,whobothdressedandtalkedexceedinglywell。
SoIsatbehindthedealdesk,engagedincopyingdocumentsofvariouskinds;andintheapartmentinwhichIsat,andintheadjoiningones,therewereothers,someofwhomlikewisecopieddocuments,whilesomewereengagedintheyetmoredifficulttaskofdrawingthemup;andsomeofthese,sonsofnobody,werepaidfortheworktheydid,whilstothers,likemyself,sonsofsomebody,paidforbeingpermittedtowork,which,asourprincipalobserved,wasbutreasonable,forasmuchaswenotunfrequentlyutterlyspoiledthegreaterpartoftheworkintrustedtoourhands。
TherewasonepartofthedaywhenIgenerallyfoundmyselfquitealone,Imeanatthehourwhentherestwenthometotheirprincipalmeal;I,beingtheyoungest,waslefttotakecareofthepremises,toanswerthebell,andsoforth,tillrelieved,whichwasseldombeforetheexpirationofanhourandahalf,whenI
myselfwenthome;thisperiod,however,wasanythingbutdisagreeabletome,foritwasthenthatIdidwhatbestpleasedme,and,leavingoffcopyingthedocuments,Isometimesindulgedinafitofmusing,mychinrestingonbothmyhands,andmyelbowsplantedonthedesk;or,openingthedeskaforesaid,Iwouldtakeoutoneofthebookscontainedwithinit,andthebookwhichItookoutwasalmostinvariably,notBlackstone,butAbGwilym。
Ah,thatAbGwilym!Iammuchindebtedtohim,anditwereungratefulonmypartnottodevoteafewlinestohimandhissongsinthismyhistory。Startnot,reader,Iamnotgoingtotroubleyouwithapoeticaldissertation;no,no;Iknowmydutytoowelltointroduceanythingofthekind;butI,whoimagineI
knowseveralthings,andamongstotherstheworkingsofyourmindatthismoment,haveanideathatyouareanxioustolearnalittle,averylittle,moreaboutAbGwilymthanIhavehithertotoldyou,thetwoorthreewordsthatIhavedroppedhavingawakenedwithinyoualanguidkindofcuriosity。Ihavenohesitationinsayingthathemakesoneofthesomehalf-dozenreallygreatpoetswhoseverses,inwhateverlanguagetheywrote,existatthepresentday,andaremoreorlessknown。ItmatterslittlehowIfirstbecameacquaintedwiththewritingsofthisman,andhowtheshortthickvolume,stuffedfullwithhisimmortalimaginings,firstcameintomyhands。IwasstudyingWelsh,andI
fellinwithAbGwilymbynoverystrangechance。But,beforeI
saymoreaboutAbGwilym,Imustbepermitted-Ireallymust-tosayawordortwoaboutthelanguageinwhichhewrote,thatsame’SweetWelsh。’IfIrememberright,Ifoundthelanguageadifficultone;inmasteringit,however,IderivedunexpectedassistancefromwhatofIrishremainedinmyhead,andIsoonfoundthattheywerecognatedialects,springingfromsomeoldtonguewhichitself,perhaps,hadsprungfromonemucholder。AndhereI
cannothelpobservingcursorilythatIeverynowandthen,whilststudyingthisWelsh,generallysupposedtobetheoriginaltongueofBritain,encounteredwordswhich,accordingtothelexicographers,werevenerablewordshighlyexpressive,showingthewonderfulpowerandoriginalityoftheWelsh,inwhich,however,theywerenolongerusedincommondiscourse,butwererelics,preciousrelics,ofthefirstspeechofBritain,perhapsoftheworld;withwhichwords,however,Iwasalreadywellacquainted,andwhichIhadpickedup,notinlearnedbooks,classicbooks,andintonguesofoldrenown,butwhilstlisteningtoMr。PetulengroandTawnoChiknotalkingovertheireverydayaffairsinthelanguageofthetents;whichcircumstancedidnotfailtogiverisetodeepreflectioninthosemomentswhen,plantingmyelbowsonthedealdesk,Irestedmychinuponmyhands。ButitisprobablethatIshouldhaveabandonedthepursuitoftheWelshlanguage,afterobtainingaverysuperficialacquaintancewithit,haditnotbeenforAbGwilym。
Astrangesongsterwasthatwho,pretendingtobecaptivatedbyeverywomanhesaw,was,inreality,inlovewithnaturealone-
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