首页 >出版文学> LADY CHATTERLEY’S LOVER>第19章
  Butitwasdifficult,theearthundertheirfeetwasamystery,buthefelthiswaybytread:hewasusedtoit。Atthegatehegaveherhiselectrictorch。`It’sabitlighterinthepark,’hesaid;`buttakeitforfearyougetoffth’path。’
  Itwastrue,thereseemedaghost-glimmerofgreynessintheopenspaceofthepark。Hesuddenlydrewhertohimandwhippedhishandunderherdressagain,feelingherwarmbodywithhiswet,chillhand。
  `Icoulddieforthetouchofawomanlikethee,’hesaidinhisthroat。
  `Iftha’wouldstopanotherminute。’
  Shefeltthesuddenforceofhiswantingheragain。
  `No,Imustrun,’shesaid,alittlewildly。
  `Ay,’hereplied,suddenlychanged,lettinghergo。
  Sheturnedaway,andontheinstantsheturnedbacktohimsaying:`Kissme。’
  Hebentoverherindistinguishableandkissedheronthelefteye。Sheheldhermouthandhesoftlykissedit,butatoncedrewaway。Hehatedmouthkisses。
  `I’llcometomorrow,’shesaid,drawingaway;`ifIcan,’sheadded。
  `Ay!notsolate,’herepliedoutofthedarkness。Alreadyshecouldnotseehimatall。
  `Goodnight,’shesaid。
  `Goodnight,yourLadyship,’hisvoice。
  Shestoppedandlookedbackintothewetdark。Shecouldjustseethebulkofhim。`Whydidyousaythat?’shesaid。
  `Nay,’hereplied。`Goodnightthen,run!’
  Sheplungedoninthedark-greytangiblenight。Shefoundtheside-dooropen,andslippedintoherroomunseen。Assheclosedthedoorthegongsounded,butshewouldtakeherbathallthesame——shemusttakeherbath。
  `ButIwon’tbelateanymore,’shesaidtoherself;`it’stooannoying。’
  Thenextdayshedidnotgotothewood。ShewentinsteadwithCliffordtoUthwaite。Hecouldoccasionallygooutnowinthecar,andhadgotastrongyoungmanaschauffeur,whocouldhelphimoutofthecarifneedbe。Heparticularlywantedtoseehisgodfather,LeslieWinter,wholivedatShipleyHall,notfarfromUthwaite。Winterwasanelderlygentlemannow,wealthy,oneofthewealthycoal-ownerswhohadhadtheirhey-dayinKingEdward’stime。KingEdwardhadstayedmorethanonceatShipley,fortheshooting。Itwasahandsomeoldstuccohall,veryelegantlyappointed,forWinterwasabachelorandpridedhimselfonhisstyle;buttheplacewasbesetbycollieries。LeslieWinterwasattachedtoClifford,butpersonallydidnotentertainagreatrespectforhim,becauseofthephotographsinillustratedpapersandtheliterature。TheoldmanwasabuckoftheKingEdwardschool,whothoughtlifewaslifeandthescribblingfellowsweresomethingelse。TowardsConnietheSquirewasalwaysrathergallant;hethoughtheranattractivedemuremaidenandratherwastedonClifford,anditwasathousandpitiesshestoodnochanceofbringingforthanheirtoWragby。Hehimselfhadnoheir。
  ConniewonderedwhathewouldsayifheknewthatClifford’sgame-keeperhadbeenhavingintercoursewithher,andsayingtoher`thamuncometoth’cottageonetime。’Hewoulddetestanddespiseher,forhehadcomealmosttohatetheshovingforwardoftheworkingclasses。Amanofherownclasshewouldnotmind,forConniewasgiftedfromnaturewiththisappearanceofdemure,submissivemaidenliness,andperhapsitwaspartofhernature。Wintercalledher`dearchild’andgaveheraratherlovelyminiatureofaneighteenth-centurylady,ratheragainstherwill。
  ButConniewaspreoccupiedwithheraffairwiththekeeper。Afterall,MrWinter,whowasreallyagentlemanandamanoftheworld,treatedherasapersonandadiscriminatingindividual;hedidnotlumphertogetherwithalltherestofhisfemalewomanhoodinhis`thee’and`tha’。
  Shedidnotgotothewoodthatdaynorthenext,northedayfollowing。
  Shedidnotgosolongasshefelt,orimaginedshefelt,themanwaitingforher,wantingher。Butthefourthdayshewasterriblyunsettledanduneasy。Shestillrefusedtogotothewoodandopenherthighsoncemoretotheman。Shethoughtofallthethingsshemightdo——drivetoSheffield,payvisits,andthethoughtofallthesethingswasrepellent。Atlastshedecidedtotakeawalk,nottowardsthewood,butintheoppositedirection;
  shewouldgotoMarehay,throughthelittleirongateintheothersideoftheparkfence。Itwasaquietgreydayofspring,almostwarm。Shewalkedonunheeding,absorbedinthoughtsshewasnotevenconsciousofShewasnotreallyawareofanythingoutsideher,tillshewasstartledbytheloudbarkingofthedogatMarehayFarm。MarehayFarm!ItspasturesranuptoWragbyparkfence,sotheywereneighbours,butitwassometimesinceConniehadcalled。
  `Bell!’shesaidtothebigwhitebull-terrier。`Bell!haveyouforgottenme?Don’tyouknowme?’Shewasafraidofdogs,andBellstoodbackandbellowed,andshewantedtopassthroughthefarmyardontothewarrenpath。
  MrsFlintappeared。ShewasawomanofConstance’sownage,hadbeenaschool-teacher,butConniesuspectedherofbeingratherafalselittlething。
  `Why,it’sLadyChatterley!Why!’AndMrsFlint’seyesglowedagain,andsheflushedlikeayounggirl。`Bell,Bell。Why!barkingatLadyChatterley!
  Bell!Bequiet!’Shedartedforwardandslashedatthedogwithawhiteclothsheheldinherhand,thencameforwardtoConnie。
  `Sheusedtoknowme,’saidConnie,shakinghands。TheFlintswereChatterleytenants。
  `OfcoursesheknowsyourLadyship!She’sjustshowingoff,’saidMrsFlint,glowingandlookingupwithasortofflushedconfusion,`butit’ssolongsinceshe’sseenyou。Idohopeyouarebetter。’
  `Yesthanks,I’mallright。’
  `We’vehardlyseenyouallwinter。Willyoucomeinandlookatthebaby?’
  `Well!’Conniehesitated。`Justforaminute。’
  MrsFlintflewwildlyintotidyup,andConniecameslowlyafterher,hesitatingintheratherdarkkitchenwherethekettlewasboilingbythefire。BackcameMrsFlint。
  `Idohopeyou’llexcuseme,’shesaid。`Willyoucomeinhere?’
  Theywentintotheliving-room,whereababywassittingontheraghearthrug,andthetablewasroughlysetfortea。Ayoungservant-girlbackeddownthepassage,shyandawkward。
  Thebabywasaperkylittlethingofaboutayear,withredhairlikeitsfather,andcheekypale-blueeyes。Itwasagirl,andnottobedaunted。
  Itsatamongcushionsandwassurroundedwithragdollsandothertoysinmodernexcess。
  `Why,whatadearsheis!’saidConnie,`andhowshe’sgrown!Abiggirl!Abiggirl!’
  Shehadgivenitashawlwhenitwasborn,andcelluloidducksforChristmas。
  `There,Josephine!Who’sthatcometoseeyou?Who’sthis,Josephine?
  LadyChatterley——youknowLadyChatterley,don’tyou?’
  ThequeerpertlittlemitegazedcheekilyatConnie。Ladyshipswerestillallthesametoher。
  `Come!Willyoucometome?’saidConnietothebaby。
  Thebabydidn’tcareonewayoranother,soConniepickedherupandheldherinherlap。Howwarmandlovelyitwastoholdachildinone’slap,andthesoftlittlearms,theunconsciouscheekylittlelegs。
  `Iwasjusthavingaroughcupofteaallbymyself。Luke’sgonetomarket,soIcanhaveitwhenIlike。Wouldyoucareforacup,LadyChatterley?
  Idon’tsupposeit’swhatyou’reusedto,butifyouwould……’
  Conniewould,thoughshedidn’twanttoberemindedofwhatshewasusedto。Therewasagreatrelayingofthetable,andthebestcupsbroughtandthebesttea-pot。
  `Ifonlyyouwouldn’ttakeanytrouble,’saidConnie。
  ButifMrsFlinttooknotrouble,wherewasthefun!SoConnieplayedwiththechildandwasamusedbyitslittlefemaledauntlessness,andgotadeepvoluptuouspleasureoutofitssoftyoungwarmth。Younglife!Andsofearless!Sofearless,becausesodefenceless。Alltheotherpeople,sonarrowwithfear!
  Shehadacupoftea,whichwasratherstrong,andverygoodbreadandbutter,andbottleddamsons。MrsFlintflushedandglowedandbridledwithexcitement,asifConnieweresomegallantknight。Andtheyhadarealfemalechat,andbothofthemenjoyedit。
  `It’sapoorlittletea,though,’saidMrsFlint。
  `It’smuchnicerthanathome,’saidConnietruthfully。
  `Oh-h!’saidMrsFlint,notbelieving,ofcourse。
  ButatlastConnierose。
  `Imustgo,’shesaid。`MyhusbandhasnoideawhereIam。He’llbewonderingallkindsofthings。’
  `He’llneverthinkyou’rehere,’laughedMrsFlintexcitedly。`He’llbesendingthecrierround。’
  `Goodbye,Josephine,’saidConnie,kissingthebabyandrufflingitsred,wispyhair。
  MrsFlintinsistedonopeningthelockedandbarredfrontdoor。Connieemergedinthefarm’slittlefrontgarden,shutinbyaprivethedge。Thereweretworowsofauriculasbythepath,veryvelvetyandrich。
  `Lovelyauriculas,’saidConnie。
  `Recklesses,asLukecallsthem,’laughedMrsFlint。`Havesome。’
  Andeagerlyshepickedthevelvetandprimroseflowers。
  `Enough!Enough!’saidConnie。
  Theycametothelittlegardengate。
  `Whichwaywereyougoing?’askedMrsFlint。
  `BytheWarren。’
  `Letmesee!Ohyes,thecowsareintheginclose。Butthey’renotupyet。Butthegate’slocked,you’llhavetoclimb。’
  `Icanclimb,’saidConnie。
  `PerhapsIcanjustgodowntheclosewithyou。’
  Theywentdownthepoor,rabbit-bittenpasture。Birdswerewhistlinginwildeveningtriumphinthewood。Amanwascallingupthelastcows,whichtrailedslowlyoverthepath-wornpasture。
  `They’relate,milking,tonight,’saidMrsFlintseverely。`TheyknowLukewon’tbebacktillafterdark。’
  Theycametothefence,beyondwhichtheyoungfir-woodbristleddense。
  Therewasalittlegate,butitwaslocked。Inthegrassontheinsidestoodabottle,empty。
  `There’sthekeeper’semptybottleforhismilk,’explainedMrsFlint。
  `Webringitasfarashereforhim,andthenhefetchesithimself’
  `When?’saidConnie。
  `Oh,anytimehe’saround。Ofteninthemorning。Well,goodbyeLadyChatterley!Anddocomeagain。Itwassolovelyhavingyou。’
  Connieclimbedthefenceintothenarrowpathbetweenthedense,bristlingyoungfirs。MrsFlintwentrunningbackacrossthepasture,inasun-bonnet,becauseshewasreallyaschoolteacher。Constancedidn’tlikethisdensenewpartofthewood;itseemedgruesomeandchoking。Shehurriedonwithherheaddown,thinkingoftheFlints’baby。Itwasadearlittlething,butitwouldbeabitbow-leggedlikeitsfather。Itshowedalready,butperhapsitwouldgrowoutofit。Howwarmandfulfillingsomehowtohaveababy,andhowMrsFlinthadshoweditoff!ShehadsomethinganyhowthatConniehadn’tgot,andapparentlycouldn’thave。Yes,MrsFlinthadflauntedhermotherhood。AndConniehadbeenjustabit,justalittlebitjealous。
  Shecouldn’thelpit。
  Shestartedoutofhermuse,andgavealittlecryoffear。Amanwasthere。
  Itwasthekeeper。HestoodinthepathlikeBalaam’sass,barringherway。
  `How’sthis?’hesaidinsurprise。
  `Howdidyoucome?’shepanted。
  `Howdidyou?Haveyoubeentothehut?’
  `No!No!IwenttoMarehay。’
  Helookedathercuriously,searchingly,andshehungherheadalittleguiltily。
  `Andwereyougoingtothehutnow?’heaskedrathersternly。`No!I
  mustn’t。IstayedatMarehay。NooneknowswhereIam。I’mlate。I’vegottorun。’
  `Givingmetheslip,like?’hesaid,withafaintironicsmile。`No!
  No。Notthat。Only——’
  `Why,whatelse?’hesaid。Andhesteppeduptoherandputhisarmsaroundher。Shefeltthefrontofhisbodyterriblyneartoher,andalive。
  `Oh,notnow,notnow,’shecried,tryingtopushhimaway。
  `Whynot?It’sonlysixo’clock。You’vegothalfanhour。Nay!Nay!
  Iwantyou。’
  Heheldherfastandshefelthisurgency。Heroldinstinctwastofightforherfreedom。Butsomethingelseinherwasstrangeandinertandheavy。
  Hisbodywasurgentagainsther,andshehadn’ttheheartanymoretofight。
  Helookedaround。
  `Come——comehere!Throughhere,’hesaid,lookingpenetratinglyintothedensefir-trees,thatwereyoungandnotmorethanhalf-grown。
  Helookedbackather。Shesawhiseyes,tenseandbrilliant,fierce,notloving。Butherwillhadlefther。Astrangeweightwasonherlimbs。
  Shewasgivingway。Shewasgivingup。
  Heledherthroughthewallofpricklytrees,thatweredifficulttocomethrough,toaplacewherewasalittlespaceandapileofdeadboughs。
  Hethrewoneortwodryonesdown,puthiscoatandwaistcoatoverthem,andshehadtoliedownthereundertheboughsofthetree,likeananimal,whilehewaited,standingthereinhisshirtandbreeches,watchingherwithhauntedeyes。Butstillhewasprovident——hemadeherlieproperly,properly。Yethebrokethebandofherunderclothes,forshedidnothelphim,onlylayinert。
  Hetoohadbaredthefrontpartofhisbodyandshefelthisnakedfleshagainstherashecameintoher。Foramomenthewasstillinsideher,turgidthereandquivering。Thenashebegantomove,inthesuddenhelplessorgasm,thereawokeinhernewstrangethrillsripplinginsideher。Rippling,rippling,rippling,likeaflappingoverlappingofsoftflames,softasfeathers,runningtopointsofbrilliance,exquisite,exquisiteandmeltingherallmolteninside。Itwaslikebellsripplingupanduptoaculmination。
  Shelayunconsciousofthewildlittlecriessheutteredatthelast。Butitwasovertoosoon,toosoon,andshecouldnolongerforceherownconclusionwithherownactivity。Thiswasdifferent,different。Shecoulddonothing。
  Shecouldnolongerhardenandgripforherownsatisfactionuponhim。