首页 >出版文学> LADY CHATTERLEY’S LOVER>第13章
  Thenewkeeperhadnodoubtputinfreshpebbles。Sheheardthefainttinkleofwater,asthetinyoverflowtrickledoveranddownhill。Evenabovethehissingboomofthelarchwood,thatspreaditsbristling,leafless,wolfishdarknessonthedown-slope,sheheardthetinkleasoftinywater-bells。
  Thisplacewasalittlesinister,cold,damp。Yetthewellmusthavebeenadrinking-placeforhundredsofyears。Nownomore。Itstinyclearedspacewaslushandcoldanddismal。
  Sheroseandwentslowlytowardshome。Asshewentsheheardafainttappingawayontheright,andstoodstilltolisten。Wasithammering,orawoodpecker?Itwassurelyhammering。
  Shewalkedon,listening。Andthenshenoticedanarrowtrackbetweenyoungfir-trees,atrackthatseemedtoleadnowhere。Butshefeltithadbeenused。Sheturneddownitadventurously,betweenthethickyoungfirs,whichgavewaysoontotheoldoakwood。Shefollowedthetrack,andthehammeringgrewnearer,inthesilenceofthewindywood,fortreesmakeasilenceevenintheirnoiseofwind。
  Shesawasecretlittleclearing,andasecretlittlehotmadeofrusticpoles。Andshehadneverbeenherebefore!Sherealizeditwasthequietplacewherethegrowingpheasantswerereared;thekeeperinhisshirt-sleeveswaskneeling,hammering。Thedogtrottedforwardwithashort,sharpbark,andthekeeperliftedhisfacesuddenlyandsawher。Hehadastartledlookinhiseyes。
  Hestraightenedhimselfandsaluted,watchingherinsilence,asshecameforwardwithweakeninglimbs。Heresentedtheintrusion;hecherishedhissolitudeashisonlyandlastfreedominlife。
  `Iwonderedwhatthehammeringwas,’shesaid,feelingweakandbreathless,andalittleafraidofhim,ashelookedsostraightather。
  `Ah’mgettin’th’coopsreadyforth’youngbods,’hesaid,inbroadvernacular。
  Shedidnotknowwhattosay,andshefeltweak。`Ishouldliketositdownabit,’shesaid。
  `Comeandsit’erei’th’’ut,’hesaid,goinginfrontofhertothehut,pushingasidesometimberandstuff,anddrawingoutarusticchair,madeofhazelsticks。
  `AmAht’lightyeralittlefire?’heasked,withthecuriousnaï;veté;
  ofthedialect。
  `Oh,don’tbother,’shereplied。
  Buthelookedatherhands;theywereratherblue。Sohequicklytooksomelarchtwigstothelittlebrickfire-placeinthecorner,andinamomenttheyellowflamewasrunningupthechimney。Hemadeaplacebythebrickhearth。
  `Sit’erethenabit,andwarmyer,’hesaid。
  Sheobeyedhim。Hehadthatcuriouskindofprotectiveauthoritysheobeyedatonce。Soshesatandwarmedherhandsattheblaze,anddroppedlogsonthefire,whilstoutsidehewashammeringagain。Shedidnotreallywanttosit,pokedinacornerbythefire;shewouldratherhavewatchedfromthedoor,butshewasbeinglookedafter,soshehadtosubmit。
  Thehutwasquitecosy,panelledwithunvarnisheddeal,havingalittlerustictableandstoolbesideherchair,andacarpenter’sbench,thenabigbox,tools,newboards,nails;andmanythingshungfrompegs:axe,hatchet,traps,thingsinsacks,hiscoat。Ithadnowindow,thelightcameinthroughtheopendoor。Itwasajumble,butalsoitwasasortoflittlesanctuary。
  Shelistenedtothetappingoftheman’shammer;itwasnotsohappy。
  Hewasoppressed。Herewasatrespassonhisprivacy,andadangerousone!
  Awoman!Hehadreachedthepointwhereallhewantedonearthwastobealone。Andyethewaspowerlesstopreservehisprivacy;hewasahiredman,andthesepeoplewerehismasters。
  Especiallyhedidnotwanttocomeintocontactwithawomanagain。
  Hefearedit;forhehadabigwoundfromoldcontacts。Hefeltifhecouldnotbealone,andifhecouldnotbeleftalone,hewoulddie。Hisrecoilawayfromtheouterworldwascomplete;hislastrefugewasthiswood;
  tohidehimselfthere!
  Conniegrewwarmbythefire,whichshehadmadetoobig:thenshegrewhot。Shewentandsatonthestoolinthedoorway,watchingthemanatwork。Heseemednottonoticeher,butheknew。Yetheworkedon,asifabsorbedly,andhisbrowndogsatonhertailnearhim,andsurveyedtheuntrustworthyworld。
  Slender,quietandquick,themanfinishedthecoophewasmaking,turneditover,triedtheslidingdoor,thensetitaside。Thenherose,wentforanoldcoop,andtookittothechoppinglogwherehewasworking。
  Crouching,hetriedthebars;somebrokeinhishands;hebegantodrawthenails。Thenheturnedthecoopoveranddeliberated,andhegaveabsolutelynosignofawarenessofthewoman’spresence。
  SoConniewatchedhimfixedly。Andthesamesolitaryalonenessshehadseeninhimnaked,shenowsawinhimclothed:solitary,andintent,likeananimalthatworksalone,butalsobrooding,likeasoulthatrecoilsaway,awayfromallhumancontact。Silently,patiently,hewasrecoilingawayfromherevennow。Itwasthestillness,andthetimelesssortofpatience,inamanimpatientandpassionate,thattouchedConnie’swomb。
  Shesawitinhisbenthead,thequickquiethands,thecrouchingofhisslender,sensitiveloins;somethingpatientandwithdrawn。Shefelthisexperiencehadbeendeeperandwiderthanherown;muchdeeperandwider,andperhapsmoredeadly。Andthisrelievedherofherself;shefeltalmostirresponsible。
  Soshesatinthedoorwayofthehutinadream,utterlyunawareoftimeandofparticularcircumstances。Shewassodriftedawaythatheglancedupatherquickly,andsawtheutterlystill,waitinglookonherface。
  Tohimitwasalookofwaiting。Andalittlethintongueoffiresuddenlyflickeredinhisloins,attherootofhisback,andhegroanedinspirit。
  Hedreadedwitharepulsionalmostofdeath,anyfurtherclosehumancontact。
  Hewishedaboveallthingsshewouldgoaway,andleavehimtohisownprivacy。Hedreadedherwill,herfemalewill,andhermodernfemaleinsistency。
  Andaboveallhedreadedhercool,upper-classimpudenceofhavingherownway。Forafterallhewasonlyahiredman。Hehatedherpresencethere。
  Conniecametoherselfwithsuddenuneasiness。Sherose。Theafternoonwasturningtoevening,yetshecouldnotgoaway。Shewentovertotheman,whostoodupatattention,hiswornfacestiffandblank,hiseyeswatchingher。
  `Itissonicehere,sorestful,’shesaid。`Ihaveneverbeenherebefore。’
  `No?’
  `IthinkIshallcomeandsitheresometimes。
  `Yes?’
  `Doyoulockthehutwhenyou’renothere?’
  `Yes,yourLadyship。’
  `DoyouthinkIcouldhaveakeytoo,sothatIcouldsitheresometimes?
  Aretheretwokeys?’
  `NotasAhknowon,ther’isna。’
  Hehadlapsedintothevernacular。Conniehesitated;hewasputtingupanopposition。Wasithishut,afterall?
  `Couldn’twegetanotherkey?’sheaskedinhersoftvoice,thatunderneathhadtheringofawomandeterminedtogetherway。
  `Another!’hesaid,glancingatherwithaflashofanger,touchedwithderision。
  `Yes,aduplicate,’shesaid,flushing。
  `’AppenSirClifford’udknow,’hesaid,puttingheroff。
  `Yes!’shesaid,`hemighthaveanother。Otherwisewecouldhaveonemadefromtheoneyouhave。Itwouldonlytakeadayorso,Isuppose。
  Youcouldspareyourkeyforsolong。’
  `Ahcannatellyer,m’Lady!Ahknownob’dyasma’eskeysround’ere。’
  Conniesuddenlyflushedwithanger。
  `Verywell!’shesaid。`I’llseetoit。’
  `Allright,yourLadyship。’
  Theireyesmet。Hishadacold,uglylookofdislikeandcontempt,andindifferencetowhatwouldhappen。Herswerehotwithrebuff。
  Butherheartsank,shesawhowutterlyhedislikedher,whenshewentagainsthim。Andshesawhiminasortofdesperation。
  `Goodafternoon!’
  `Afternoon,myLady!’Hesalutedandturnedabruptlyaway。Shehadwakenedthesleepingdogsofoldvoraciousangerinhim,angeragainsttheself-willedfemale。Andhewaspowerless,powerless。Heknewit!
  Andshewasangryagainsttheself-willedmale。Aservanttoo!Shewalkedsullenlyhome。
  ShefoundMrsBoltonunderthegreatbeech-treeontheknoll,lookingforher。
  `Ijustwonderedifyou’dbecoming,myLady,’thewomansaidbrightly。
  `AmIlate?’askedConnie。
  `OhonlySirCliffordwaswaitingforhistea。’
  `Whydidn’tyoumakeitthen?’
  `Oh,Idon’tthinkit’shardlymyplace。Idon’tthinkSirCliffordwouldlikeitatall,myLady。’
  `Idon’tseewhynot,’saidConnie。
  ShewentindoorstoClifford’sstudy,wheretheoldbrasskettlewassimmeringonthetray。
  `AmIlate,Clifford?’shesaid,puttingdownthefewflowersandtakingupthetea-caddy,asshestoodbeforethetrayinherhatandscarf。`I’msorry!Whydidn’tyouletMrsBoltonmakethetea?’
  `Ididn’tthinkofit,’hesaidironically。`Idon’tquiteseeherpresidingatthetea-table。’
  `Oh,there’snothingsacrosanctaboutasilvertea-pot,’saidConnie。
  Heglancedupathercuriously。
  `Whatdidyoudoallafternoon?’hesaid。
  `Walkedandsatinashelteredplace。Doyouknowtherearestillberriesonthebigholly-tree?’
  Shetookoffherscarf,butnotherhat,andsatdowntomaketea。Thetoastwouldcertainlybeleathery。Sheputthetea-cosyoverthetea-pot,androsetogetalittleglassforherviolets。Thepoorflowershungover,limpontheirstalks。
  `They’llreviveagain!’shesaid,puttingthembeforehimintheirglassforhimtosmell。
  `SweeterthanthelidsofJuno’seyes,’hequoted。
  `Idon’tseeabitofconnexionwiththeactualviolets,’shesaid。
  `TheElizabethansareratherupholstered。’
  Shepouredhimhistea。
  `DoyouthinkthereisasecondkeytothatlittlehutnotfarfromJohn’sWell,wherethepheasantsarereared?’shesaid。
  `Theremaybe。Why?’
  `Ihappenedtofindittoday——andI’dneverseenitbefore。Ithinkit’sadarlingplace。Icouldsittheresometimes,couldn’tI?’
  `WasMellorsthere?’
  `Yes!That’showIfoundit:hishammering。Hedidn’tseemtolikemyintrudingatall。InfacthewasalmostrudewhenIaskedaboutasecondkey。’
  `Whatdidhesay?’
  `Oh,nothing:justhismanner;andhesaidheknewnothingaboutkeys。’
  `TheremaybeoneinFather’sstudy。Bettsknowsthemall,they’reallthere。I’llgethimtolook。’
  `Ohdo!’shesaid。
  `SoMellorswasalmostrude?’
  `Oh,nothing,really!ButIdon’tthinkhewantedmetohavethefreedomofthecastle,quite。’
  `Idon’tsupposehedid。’
  `Still,Idon’tseewhyheshouldmind。It’snothishome,afterall!
  It’snothisprivateabode。Idon’tseewhyIshouldn’tsitthereifI
  wantto。’
  `Quite!’saidClifford。`Hethinkstoomuchofhimself,thatman。’
  `Doyouthinkhedoes?’
  `Oh,decidedly!Hethinkshe’ssomethingexceptional。Youknowhehadawifehedidn’tgetonwith,sohejoinedupin1915andwassenttoIndia,Ibelieve。AnyhowhewasblacksmithtothecavalryinEgyptforatime;
  alwayswasconnectedwithhorses,acleverfellowthatway。ThensomeIndiancoloneltookafancytohim,andhewasmadealieutenant。Yes,theygavehimacommission。IbelievehewentbacktoIndiawithhiscolonel,anduptothenorth-westfrontier。Hewasill;hewasapension。Hedidn’tcomeoutofthearmytilllastyear,Ibelieve,andthen,naturally,itisn’teasyforamanlikethattogetbacktohisownlevel。He’sboundtoflounder。Buthedoeshisdutyallright,asfarasI’mconcerned。OnlyI’mnothavinganyoftheLieutenantMellorstouch。’
  `HowcouldtheymakehimanofficerwhenhespeaksbroadDerbyshire?’
  `Hedoesn’t……exceptbyfitsandstarts。Hecanspeakperfectlywell,forhim。Isupposehehasanideaifhe’scomedowntotheranksagain,he’dbetterspeakastheranksspeak。’
  `Whydidn’tyoutellmeabouthimbefore?’
  `Oh,I’venopatiencewiththeseromances。They’retheruinofallorder。
  It’sathousandpitiestheyeverhappened。’
  Conniewasinclinedtoagree。Whatwasthegoodofdiscontentedpeoplewhofittedinnowhere?
  InthespelloffineweatherClifford,too,decidedtogotothewood。
  Thewindwascold,butnotsotiresome,andthesunshinewaslikelifeitself,warmandfull。
  `It’samazing,’saidConnie,`howdifferentonefeelswhenthere’sareallyfreshfineday。Usuallyonefeelstheveryairishalfdead。Peoplearekillingtheveryair。’
  `Doyouthinkpeoplearedoingit?’heasked。
  `Ido。Thesteamofsomuchboredom,anddiscontentandangeroutofallthepeople,justkillsthevitalityintheair。I’msureofit。’
  `Perhapssomeconditionoftheatmospherelowersthevitalityofthepeople?’hesaid。
  `No,it’smanthatpoisonstheuniverse,’sheasserted。
  `Foulshisownnest,’remarkedClifford。
  Thechairpuffedon。Inthehazelcopsecatkinswerehangingpalegold,andinsunnyplacesthewood-anemoneswerewideopen,asifexclaimingwiththejoyoflife,justasgoodasinpastdays,whenpeoplecouldexclaimalongwiththem。Theyhadafaintscentofapple-blossom。ConniegatheredafewforClifford。
  Hetookthemandlookedatthemcuriously。
  `Thoustillunravishedbrideofquietness,’hequoted。`ItseemstofitflowerssomuchbetterthanGreekvases。’
  `Ravishedissuchahorridword!’shesaid。`It’sonlypeoplewhoravishthings。’