Indeed,andindeedIcanproveit;hewaswithWillallthatnight;hewas,indeed,Job!““Mywench!whosewordhastthouforthat?“saidJob,pityingly。“Why!hismothertoldme,andI’llgetWilltobearwitnesstoit。But,oh!Job“burstingintotears,“itishardifyouwon’tbelieveme。HowshallIclearhimtostrangers,whenthosewhoknowhim,andoughttolovehim,aresosetagainsthisbeinginnocent?““Godknows,I’mnotagainsthisbeinginnocent,“saidJob,solemnly。“I’dgivehalfmyremainingdaysonearth,——I’dgivethemall,MaryandbutfortheloveIbeartomypoorblindgirl,they’dbenogreatgift,ifIcouldsavehim。You’vethoughtmehard,Mary,butI’mnothardatbottom,andI’llhelpyouifIcan,thatIwill,rightorwrong,“headded;butinalowvoice,andcoughedtheuncertainwordsawaythemomentafterwards。“Oh,Job!ifyouwillhelpme,“exclaimedMary,brighteningupthoughitwasbutawintrygleamafterall,“tellmewhattosay,whentheyquestionme;Ishallbesogloppened,Isha’n’tknowwhattoanswer。““Thoucanstdonoughtbetterthantellthetruth。Truth’sbestatalltimes,theysay;andforsureitiswhenfolkhavetodowithlawyers;forthey’re’cuteandcunningenoughtogetitoutsoonerorlater,anditmakesfolklooklikeTomNoddies,whentruthfollowsfalsehood,againsttheirwill。““ButIdon’tknowthetruth;Imean——Ican’tsayrightlywhatImean;butI’msure,ifIwerepentup,andstaredatbyhundredsoffolk,andaskedeversosimpleaquestion,Ishouldbeforansweringitwrong;iftheyaskedmeifIhadseenyouonaSaturday,oraTuesday,oranyday,Ishouldhavecleanforgottenallaboutit,andsaytheverythingIshouldnot。““Well,well,don’tgofortogetsuchnotionsintoyourhead;they’rewhattheycall’narvous,’andtalkingon’emdoesnogood。Here’sMargaret!
blessthewench!Look,Mary,howwellsheguideshersel’。“Jobfelltowatchinghisgranddaughter,aswithbalancing,measuredsteps,timedalmostasiftomusic,shemadeherwayacrossthestreet。Maryshrankasiffromacoldblast——shrankfromMargaret!Theblindgirl,withherreserve,hersilence,seemedtobeaseverejudge;she,listening,wouldbesuchachecktothetrustingearnestnessofconfidence,whichwasbeginningtounlockthesympathyofJob。Maryknewherselftoblame;
felthererrorsineveryfibreofherheart;butyetshewouldratherhavehadthemspokenabout,evenintermsofseverestcensure,thanhavebeentreatedintheicymannerinwhichMargarethadreceivedherthatmorning。“Here’sMary,“saidJob,almostasifhewishedtopropitiatehisgrand-daughter,“cometotakeabitofdinnerwithus,forI’llwarrantshe’sneverthoughtofcookinganyforherselfto-day;andshelooksaswanandpaleasaghost。“Itwascallingoutthefeelingofhospitality,sostrongandwarminmostofthosewhohavelittletooffer,butwhoseheartgoeseagerlyandkindlywiththatlittle。MargaretcametowardsMarywithawelcominggesture,andakindermannerbyfarthanshehadusedinthemorning。“Nay,Mary,thouknow’stthou’stgettennoughtathome,“urgedJob。AndMary,faintandweary,andwithahearttooaching-fullofothermatterstobepertinaciousinthis,withdrewherrefusal。Theyatetheirdinnerquietly;fortoallitwasanefforttospeak:andafteroneortwoattemptstheyhadsubsidedintosilence。WhenthemealwasendedJobbeganagainonthesubjecttheyallhadatheart。“YonpoorladatKirkdalewillwantalawyertoseetheydon’tputonhim,butdohimjustice。Hastthoughtofthat?“Maryhadnot,andfeltsurehismotherhadnot。Margaretconfirmedthislastsupposition。“I’vebutjustbeenthere,andpoorJaneislikeonedateless;somanygriefscomeonheratonce。Onetimesheseemstomakesurehe’llbehung;
andifItookherinthatway,sheflewoutpoorbody!andsaid,thatinspiteofwhatfolkssaid,therewerethemascould,andwouldprovehimguiltless。SoIneverknewwheretohaveher。Theonlythingshewasconstantin,wasdeclaringhiminnocent。““Mother-like!“saidJob。“ShemeantWill,whenshespokeofthemthatcouldprovehiminnocent。
HewaswithWillonThursdaynight;walkingapartofthewaywithhimtoLiverpool;nowthethingistolayholdonWill,andgethimtoprovethis。“SospokeMary,calm,fromtheearnestnessofherpurpose。“Don’tbuildtoomuchonit,mydear,“saidJob。“Idobuildonit,“repliedMary,“becauseIknowit’sthetruth,andI
meantotryandroveit,comewhatmay。Nothingyoucansaywilldauntme,Job,sodon’tyougoandtry。Youmayhelp,butyoucannothindermedoingwhatI’mresolvedon。“Theyrespectedherfirmnessofdetermination,andJobalmostgaveintoherbelief;whenhesawhowsteadfastlyshewasactinguponit。Oh!surestwayofconversiontoourfaith,whateveritmaybe,——regardingeithersmallthingsorgreat,——whenitisbeheldastheactuatingprinciple,fromwhichweneverswerve。Whenitisseenthat,insteadofover-muchprofession,itisworkedintothelife,andmoveseveryaction!Marygainedcourageassheinstinctivelyfeltshebadmadewaywithoneatleastofhercompanions。“NowI’mclearaboutthismuch,“shecontinued,“hewaswithWillwhenthe——shotwasfiredshecouldnotbringherselftosay,whenthemurderwascommitted,whensherememberedwhoitwasthat,shehadeveryreasontobelieve,wasthetaker-awayoflife。Willcanprovethis。I
mustfindWill。Hewasn’ttosailtillTuesday。There’stimeenough。Hewastocomebackfromhisuncle’s,intheIsleofMan,onMonday。ImustmeethiminLiverpool,onthatday,andtellhimwhathashappened,andhowpoorJemisintrouble,andthathemustproveanalibi,comeTuesday。AllthisIcanandwilldo,thoughperhapsIdon’tclearlyknowhow,justatpresent。ButsurelyGodwillhelpme。WhenIknowI’mdoingright,Iwillhavenofear,butputmytrustinHim;forI’mactingfortheinnocentandgood,andnotformyownself;whohavedonesowrong。
IhavenofearwhenIthinkofJem,whoissogood。“Shestopped,oppressedwiththefullnessofherheart。Margaretbegantoloveheragain;toseeinherthesame,sweet,faulty,impulsive,lovablecreatureshehadknownintheformerMaryBarton,butwithmoreofdignity,self-relianceandpurpose。Maryspokeagain。“NowIknowthenameofWill’svessel——JohnCropper;andIknowthatsheisboundtoAmerica。Thatissomethingtoknow。ButIforget,ifIeverheard,wherehelodgesinLiverpool。Hespokeofhislandlady,asagood,trustworthywoman;butifhenamedhername,ithasslippedmymemory。Canyouhelpme,Margaret?“Sheappealedtoherfriendcalmlyandopenly,asifperfectlyawareof;
andrecognisingtheunspokentiewhichboundherandWilltogether;sheaskedherinthesamemannerinwhichshewouldhaveaskedawifewhereherhusbanddwelt。AndMargaretrepliedinthelikecalmtone,twospotsofcrimsononhercheeksalonebearingwitnesstoanyinternalagitation。“HelodgesataMrsJones’,Milk-HouseYard,outofNicholasStreet。Hehaslodgedthereeversincebebegantogotosea;sheisaverydecentkindofwoman,Ibelieve。““Well,Mary!I’llgiveyoumyprayers,“saidJob。“It’snotoftenIprayregular,thoughIoftenspeakawordtoGod,whenI’meitherveryhappy,orverysorry;I’vecatchedmyselfthankinghimatoddhourswhenI’vefoundarareinsect,orhadafinedayforanout;butIcannothelpit,nomorethanIcantalkingtoafriend。ButthistimeI’llprayregularforJem,andforyou。AndsowillMargaret,I’llbebound。Still,wench!
whatthinkyeofalawyer?Iknowone,MrCheshire,who’srathergiventoth’insectline——andagoodkindo’chap。HeandIhaveswoppedspecimensmany’sthetime,wheneitherofushadaduplicate。He’lldomeakindturn,I’msure。I’lljusttakemyhat,andpayhimavisit。“Nosoonersaidthandone。MargaretandMarywereleftalone。Andthisseemedtobringbackthefeelingofawkwardness,nottosayestrangement。ButMary,excitedtoanunusualpitchofcourage,wasthefirsttobreaksilence。“Oh,Margaret!“saidshe,“Isee——IfeelhowwrongyouthinkIhaveacted;
youcannotthinkmeworsethanIthinkmyself;nowmyeyesareopened。“
Herehersobscamechokinguphervoice。“Nay,“Margaretbegan,“Ihavenorightto——““Yes,Margaret,youhavearighttojudge;youcannothelpit;onyinyourjudgementremembermercy,astheBiblesays。You,whohavebeenalwaysgood,cannottellhoweasyitisatfirsttogoalittlewrong,andthenhowharditistogoback。Oh!IlittlethoughtwhenIwasfirstpleasedwithMrCarson’sspeeches,howitwouldallend;perhapsinthedeathofhimIlovebetterthanlife。“Sheburstintoapassionoftears。Thefeelingspentupthroughthedaywouldhavevent。Butcheckingherselfwithastrongeffort,andlookingupatMargaretaspiteouslyasifthosecalm,stonyeyescouldseeherimploringface,sheadded,“Imustnotcry;Imustnotgiveway;therewillbetimeenoughforthathereafter,if——Ionlywantedyoutospeakkindlytome,Margaret,forI
amvery,verywretched;morewretchedthananyonecaneverknow;morewretched,Isometimesfancy,thanIhavedeserved,——butthat’swrong,isn’tit,Margaret?Oh!Ihavedonewrong,andIampunished:youcannottellhowmuch。“Whocouldresisthervoice,hertonesofmisery,ofhumility?Whowouldrefusethekindnessforwhichshebeggedsopenitently?NotMargaret。Theoldfriendlymannercameback。Withit,maybe,moreoftenderness。“Oh!Margaret,doyouthinkhecanbesaved;doyouthinktheycanfindhimguilty,ifWillcomesforwardasawitness?Won’tthatbeagoodalibi?“Margaretdidnotanswerforamoment。“Oh,speak!Margaret,“saidMary,withanxiousimpatience。“Iknownoughtaboutlaw,oralibis,“repliedMargaret,meekly;
“but,Mary,asgrandfathersays,aren’tyoubuildingtoomuchonwhatJaneWilsonhastoldyouabouthisgoingwithWill?Poorsoul,she’sgonedateless,Ithink,withcare,andwatching,andovermuchtrouble;andwhocanwonder?
OrJemmayhavetoldherhewasgoing,bywayofablind。““Youdon’tknowJem,“saidMary,startingfromherseatinahurriedmanner,“oryouwouldnotsayso。“IhopeImaybewrongbutthink,Mary,howmuchthereisagainsthim。Theshotwasfiredwithhisgun;heitwasasthreatenedMrCarsonnotmanydaysbefore;hewasabsentfromhomeatthatverytime,asweknow,and,asI’mmuchafeared,someonewillbecalledontoprove;andthere’snooneelsetosharesuspicionwithhim。“Maryheavedadeepsigh。“But,Margaret,hedidnotdoit,“Maryagainasserted。Margaretlookedunconvinced。“Icandonogood,Isee,bysayingso,fornoneonyoubelieveme,andIwon’tsaysoagaintillIcanproveit。MondaymorningI’llgotoLiverpool。
Ishallbeathandforthetrial。Ohdear!dear!AndIwillfindWill;
andthen,Margaret,Ithinkyou’llbesorryforbeingsostubbornaboutJem。““Don’tflyoff,dearMary,I’dgiveadealtobewrong。AndnowI’mgoingtobeplainspoken。You’llwantmoney。Themlawyersisnobetterthanaspongeforsuckingupmoney;letaloneyourhuntingoutWill,andyourkeepinLiverpool,andwhatnot。YoumusttakesomeofthemintI’vegotlaidbyintheoldteapot。Youhavenorighttorefuse,forIofferittoJem,nottoyou;it’sforhispurposesyou’retouseit。““Iknow——Isee。Thankyou,Margaret;you’reakindoneatanyrate。ItakeitforJem;andI’lldomyverybestwithitforhim。Notall,though;
don’tthinkI’lltakeall。They’llpaymeformykeepI’lltakethis,“
acceptingasovereignfromthehoardwhichMargaretproducedoutofitsaccustomedplaceinthecupboard。“Yourgrandfatherwillpaythenoughttodowithhim,“shudderingassherememberedJob’swords,aboutlawyers’
skillinalwaysdiscoveringthetruth,soonerorlater;andknowingwhatwasthesecretshehadtohide。“Blessyou!don’tmakesuchadoaboutit,“saidMargaret,cuttingshortMary’sthanks。“Isometimesthinkthere’stwosidestothecommandment;
andthatwemaysay,’Letothersdountoyou,asyouwoulddountothem,’
forprideoftenpreventsourgivingothersagreatdealofpleasure,innotlettingthembekind,whentheirheartsarelongingtohelp;andwhenweourselvesshouldwishtodojustthesame,ifwewereintheirplace。
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