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第33章

  intheverycottagewhereshewasborn,ifwecouldgetit。Dear!andhowdifferentitis!Hereisshestillinabackstreeto’Manchester,neverlikelytoseeherownhomeagain;andI,asailor,offforAmericanextweek。IwishshehadbeenabletogotoBurtononceaforeshedied。““Shewouldmaybehavefoundallsadlychanged,“saidMary,thoughherheartechoedWill’sfeeling。“Aye!aye!Idaresayit’sbest。OnethingIdowishthough,andIhaveoftenwisheditwhenoutaloneonthedeepsea,wheneventhemostthoughtlesscan’tchoosebutthinkonth’pastandth’future;andthatis,thatI’dnevergrievedher。OhMary!manyahastywordcomessorelybackontheheart,whenonethinksoneshallneverseethepersonwhomonehasgrievedagain!“Theybothstoodthinking。SuddenlyMarystarted。“That’sfather’sstep。Andhisshirtisnotready!“Shehurriedtoherirons,andtriedtomakeupforlosttime。JohnBartoncamein。Suchahaggardandwildlyanxious-lookingman,Willthoughthehadneverseen。HelookedatWill,butspokenowordofgreetingorwelcome。“I’mcometobidyougood-bye,“saidthesailor,andwouldinhissociablefriendlyhumourhavegoneonspeaking。ButJohnansweredabruptly,“Good-byetoye,then。“Therewasthatinhismannerwhichleftnodoubtofhisdesiretogetridofthevisitor,andWillaccordinglyshookhandswithMary,andlookedatJohn,asifdoubtinghowfartooffertoshakehandswithhim。Buthemetwithnoansweringglanceorgesture,sohewenthisway,stoppingforaninstantatthedoortosay,“You’llthinkonmeonTuesday,Mary。That’sthedayweshallhoistourBluePeter,JackHarrissays。“Marywasheartilysorrywhenthedoorclosed;itseemedlikeshuttingoutafriendlysunbeam。Andherfather!whatcouldbethematterwithhim?
  Hewassorestless;notspeakingshewishedhewould,butstartingupandthensittingdown,andmeddlingwithherirons;heseemedsofierce,too,tojudgefromhisface。ShewonderedifhedislikedWillbeingthere;
  orifhewerevexedtofindthatshehadnotgotfurtheronwithherwork。
  Atlastshecouldbearhisnervouswaynolonger,itmadeherequallynervousandfidgety。Shewouldspeak。“Whenareyougoing,father?Idon’tknowthetimeo’thetrains。““Andwhyshouldstthouknow?“repliedhe,gruffly。“Meddlewiththyironing,butdonnotbeaskingquestionsaboutwhatdoesn’tconcernthee。““Iwantedtogetyousomethingtoeatfirst,“answeredshe,gently。“ThoudostnotknowthatI’mlamingtodowithoutfood,“saidhe。Marylookedathimtoseeifhespokejestingly。No!helookedsavagelygrave。Shefinishedherbitofironing,andbeganpreparingthefoodshewassureherfatherneeded;forbythistimeherexperienceinthedegreesofhungerhadtaughtherthathispresentirritabilitywasincreased,ifnotcaused,bywantoffood。HehadhadasovereigngivenhimtopayhisexpensesasdelegatetoGlasgow,andoutofthishehadgivenMaryafewshillingsinthemorning;soshebadbeenabletobuyasufficientmeal,andnowhercarewastocookitsoasmosttotempthim。“Ifthou’rtdoingthatforme,Mary,thoumay’stsparethylabour。ItelledtheeIwerenotforeating。““Justalittlebit,father,beforestarting,“coaxedMary,perseveringly。AtthatinstantwhoshouldcomeinbutJobLegh。Itwasnotoftenhecame,butwhenhedidpayvisits,Maryknewfrompastexperiencetheywereanythingbutshort。Herfather’scountenancefellbackintothedeepgloomfromwhichitwasbutjustemergingatthesoundofMary’ssweetvoice,andprettypleading。Hebecameagainrestlessandfidgety,scarcelygivingJobLeghthegreetingnecessaryforahostinhisownhouse。Job,however,didnotstanduponceremony。Hehadcometopayavisit,andwasnottobedauntedfromhispurpose。HewasinterestedinJohnBarton’smissiontoGlasgow,andwantedtohearallaboutit;sohesatdown,andmadehimselfcomfortable,inamannerthatMarysawwasmeanttobestationary。“Sothou’rtofftoGlasgow,artthou?“hebeganhiscatechism。“Aye。““Whenartstarting?““To-night。““ThatIknowed。Butbywhattrain?“ThatwasjustwhatMarywantedtoknow;butwhatapparentlyherfatherwasinnomoodtotell。Hegotupwithoutspeaking,andwentup-stairs。
  Maryknewfromhisstep,andhisway,howmuchhewasputout,andfearedJobwouldseeit,too。Butno!Jobseemedimperturbable。Somuchthebetter,andperhapsshecouldcoverherfather’srudenessbyherowncivilitytosokindafriend。So,halflisteningtoherfather’smovementsup-stairspassionate,violent,restlessmotionstheywere,andhalfattendingtoJobLegh,shetriedtopayhimalldueregard。“Whendoesthyfatherstart,Mary?“Thatplaguingquestionagain。“Oh!verysoon。I’mjustgettinghimabitofsupper。IsMargaretverywell?““Yes,she’swellenough。She’smeaningtogoandkeepAliceWilsoncompanyforanhourorsothisevening;assoonasshethinkshernephewwillhavestartedforLiverpool;forshefanciestheoldwomanwillfeelabitlonesome。
  Th’Unionispayingforyourfather,Isuppose?““Yes,they’vegiv’nhimasovereign。You’reoneofth’Union,Job?““Aye!I’mone,sureenough;butI’mbutasleepingpartnerintheconcern。
  Iwereobligedtobecomeamemberforpeace,elseIdon’tgoalongwith’em。Yoseetheythinkthemselveswise,andmesilly,fordifferingwiththem!Well!there’snoharminthat。Butthentheywon’tletmebesillyinpeaceandquietness,butwillforcemetobeaswiseastheyare;nowthat’snotBritishliberty,Isay。I’mforcedtobewiseaccordingtotheirnotions,elsetheypersecuteme,andstarvemeout。“Whatcouldherfatherbedoingup-stairs?Trampingandbangingabout。Whydidhenotcomedown?OrwhydidnotJobgo?Thesupperwouldbespoilt。ButJobhadnonotionofgoing。“Youseemyfollyisthis,Mary。IwouldtakewhatIcouldget;Ithinkhalfaloafisbetterthannobread。Iwouldworkforlowwagesratherthansitidleandstarve。But,comestheTrades’Union,andsays,’Well,ifyoutakethehalf-loaf;we’llworryyououtofyourlife。Willyoubeclemmed,orwillyoubeworried?’Nowclemmingisaquietdeath,andworryingisn’t,soIchooseclemming,andcomeintoth’Union。ButI’dwishthey’dleavemefree,ifIamafool。“Creak,creak,wentthestairs。Herfatherwascomingdownatlast。Yes,hecamedown,butmoredoggedlyfiercethanbefore,andmadeupforthejourney,too;withhislittlebundleonhisarm。HewentuptoJob,and,morecivillythanMaryexpected,wishedhimgood-bye。Hethenturnedtoher,andinashortcoldmanner,badeherfarewell。“Oh!father,don’tgoyet。Yoursupperisallready。Stayonemoment。“Buthepushedheraway,andwasgone。Shefollowedhimtothedoor,hereyesblindedbysuddentears;shestoodtherelookingafterhim。Hewassostrange,socold,sohard。Suddenly,attheendofthecourt,heturned,andsawherstandingthere;hecamebackquickly,andtookherinhisarms。“Godblessthee,Mary!——Godinheavenblessthee,poorchild!“Shethrewherarmsroundhisneck。“Don’tgoyet,father;Ican’tbearyoutogoyet。Comein,andeatsomesupper;youlooksoghastly;dearfather,do!““No,“hesaid,faintlyandmournfully。“It’sbestasitis。Icouldn’teat,andit’sbesttobeoff。Icannotbestillathome。Imustbemoving。“Sosaying,heunlacedhersofttwiningarms,andkissingheroncemore,setoffonhisfierceerrand。Andhewasoutofsight!Shedidnotknowwhy,butshehadneverbeforefeltsodepressed,sodesolate。SheturnedintoJob,whosattherestill。
  Herfather,assoonashewasoutofsight,slackenedhispace,andfellintothatheavylistlessstep,whichtoldaswellaswordscoulddo,ofhopelessnessandweakness。Itwasgettingdark,butheloiteredon,returningnogreetingtoanyone。Achild’scrycaughthisear。HisthoughtswererunningonlittleTom;
  onthedeadandburiedchildofhappieryears。Hefollowedthesoundofwail,thatmighthavebeenhis,andfoundapoorlittlemortal,whohadlosthisway,andwhosegriefchokeduphisthoughtstothesinglewant,“Mammy,mammy。“Withtenderaddress,JohnBartonsoothedthelittleladdie,andwithbeautifulpatiencehegatheredfragmentsofmeaningfromthehalf-spokenwordswhichcamemingledwithsobsfromtheterrifiedlittleheart。So,aidedbyinquirieshereandtherefromapasser-by,heledandcarriedthelittlefellowhome,wherehismotherhadbeentoobusytomisshim,butnowreceivedhimwiththankfulness,andwithaneloquentIrishblessing。WhenJohnheardthewordsofblessing,heshookhisheadmournfully,andturnedawaytoretracehissteps。Letusleavehim。Marytookhersewingafterhewasgone,andsaton,andsaton,tryingtolistentoJob,whowasmoreinclinedtotalkthanusual。Shehadconqueredherfeelingofimpatiencetowardshimsofarastobeabletoofferhimherfather’srejectedsupper;andsheeventriedtoeatherself。Butherheartfailedher。Aleadenweightseemedtobangoverher;asortofpresentimentofevil,orperhapsonlyanexcessoflow-spiritedfeelinginconsequenceofthetwodepartureswhichhadtakenplacethatafternoon。ShewonderedhowlongJobLeghwouldsit。Shedidnotlikeputtingdownherwork,andcryingbeforehim,andyetshehadneverinherlifelongedsomuchtobealoneinordertoindulgeagoodheartyburstoftears。“Well,Mary,“shesuddenlycaughthimsaying,“Ithoughtyou’dbeabitlonelyto-night;andasMargaretweregoingtocheerth’oldwoman,IsaidI’dgoandkeeptheyoung’uncompany;andaverypleasantchattyeveningwe’vehad;very。OnlyIwonderasMargaretisnotcomeback。““Butperhapssheis,“suggestedMary。“No,no,Itookcareo’that。Lookyehere!“andhepulledoutthegreathouse-key。“She’llhavetostandwaitingi’th’street,andthatI’msureshewouldn’tdo,whensheknewwheretofindme。““Willshecomebackbyhersel?“askedMary。“Aye。AtfirstIwereafraido’trustingher,andIusedtofollowherabitbehind;neverlettingon,ofcourse。But,blessyou!shegoesalongassteadilyascanbe;ratherslowtobesure,andherheadabitononeside,asifshewerelistening。Andit’srealbeautifultoseehercrosstheroad。She’llwaitaboveabittohearthatallisstill;notthatshe’ssodarkasnottoseeacoachoracartlikeabigblackthing,butshecan’trightlyjudgehowfaroffitisbysight,soshelistens。Hark!that’sher!“Yes;inshecamewithherusuallycalmface,alltear-stainedandsorrow-marked。“What’sthematter,mywench?“saidJob,hastily。“Oh,grandfather!AliceWilson’ssobad!“Shecouldsaynomoreforherbreathlessagitation。Theafternoon,andthepartingwithWill,hadweakenedhernervesforanyafter-shock。“Whatisit?DotellusMargaret!“saidMary,placingherinachair,andlooseningherbonnet-strings。“Ithinkit’sastrokeo’thepalsy。Anyrateshehaslosttheuseofoneside。““WasitaforeWillhadsetoff?“askedMary。“No,heweregonebeforeIgotthere,“saidMargaret;“andsheweremuchaboutaswellasshehasbeenformanyaday。Shespokeabit,butnotmuch;butthatwereonlynatural,forMrsWilsonlikestohavethetalktohersel,youknow。Shegotuptogoacrosstheroom,andthenIheardadragwi’herleg,andpresentlyafall,andMrsWilsoncamerunning,andsetupsuchacry!Istoppedwi’Alice,whileshefetchedadoctor;
  butshecouldnotspeak,toanswerme,thoughshetried,Ithink。““WherewasJem?Whydidn’thegoforthedoctor?““HewereoutwhenIgotthere,andhenevercamehomewhileIstopped。““Thou’stneverleftMrsWilsonalonewi’poorAlice?“askedJob,hastily。“No,no,“saidMargaret。“Butoh!grandfather,it’snowIfeelhowharditistohavelostmysight。IshouldhavesolovedtonurseherandI
  didtry,untilIfoundIdidmoreharmthangood。Oh,grandfather;ifI
  couldbutsee!“Shesobbedalittle;andtheylethergivethateasetoherheart。Thenshewenton——“No!IwentroundbyMrsDavenport’s,andshewerehardatwork;but,theminuteItoldmyerrand,shewerereadyandwillingtogotoJaneWilson,andstopupallnightwithAlice。““Andwhatdoesthedoctorsay?“askedMary。“Oh!muchwhatalldoctorssayheputsafenceonthisside,andafenceonthat,forfearheshouldbecaughttrippinginhisjudgement。Onemomenthedoesnotthinkthere’smuchhope——butwhilethereislifethereishope;
  th’nexthesaysheshouldthinkshemightrecoverpartial——butherageisagain’her。He’sorderedherleechestoherhead。“Margarethavingtoldhertale,leantbackwithweariness,bothofbodyandmind。Maryhastenedtomakeheracupoftea;whileJob,latelysotalkative,satquietandmournfullysilent。“I’llgofirstthingto-morrowmorning,andlearnhowsheis;andI’llbringwordbackbeforeIgotowork,“saidMary。“It’sabadjobWill’sgone,“saidJob。Janedoesnotthinksheknowsanyone,“repliedMargaret。“It’sperhapsaswellheshouldn’tseehernow,fortheysayherfaceissadlydrawn。
  He’llrememberherwithherownfacebetter,ifhedoesnotseeheragain。“Withafewmoresorrowfulremarkstheyseparatedforthenight,andMarywasleftaloneinherhouse,tomeditateontheheavydaythathadpassedoverherhead。Everythingseemedgoingwrong。Willgone;herfathergone——andsostrangelytoo!AndtoaplacesomysteriouslydistantasGlasgowseemedtobetoher!ShehadfelthispresenceasaprotectionagainstHarryCarsonandhisthreats;andnowshedreadedlestheshouldlearnshewasalone。
  Herheartbegantodespair,too,aboutJem。Shefearedhehadceasedtoloveher;andshe——sheonlylovedhimmoreandmoreforhisseemingneglect。
  And,asifallthisaggregateofsorrowfulthoughtswasnotenough,herewasthisnewwoe,ofpoorAlice’sparalyticstroke。