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第15章

  theworld;aye,anddon’tknowwheret’getanotherwhenthatrag’sdone,thoughthey’returningoutmileso’calicoeveryday;andmanyamileo’tislyinginwarehouses,stoppinguptradeforwanto’purchasers。Yetakemyadvice,JohnBarton,andaskParliamenttosettradefree,soasworkmencanearnadecentwage,andbuytheirtwo,ayeandthree,shirtsa-year;
  thatwouldmakeweavingbrisk。“Heputhispipeinhismouthagain,andredoubledhispuffing,tomakeupforlosttime。“I’mafeard,neighbours,“saidJohnBarton,“I’venotmuchchanceo’telling’emallyosay;whatIthinkon,isjustspeakingoutaboutthedistressthattheysayisnought。Whentheyhearo’childrenbornonwetflags,withoutaragt’cover’emorabito’foodforth’mother;whentheybearoffolklyingdowntodiei’th’streets,orhidingtheirwanti’someholeo’acellartilldeathcometoset’emfree;andwhentheyhearo’
  allthisplague,pestilence,andfamine,they’llsurelydosomewhatwiserforusthanwecanguessatnow。Howe’er,Ihannoobjection,ifsobethere’sanopening,tospeakupforwhatyosay;anyhow,I’lldomybest,andyoseenow,ifbettertimesdon’tcomeafterParliamentknowsall。“Someshooktheirheads,butmorelookedcheery:andthenonebyonedroppedoff,leavingJohnandhisdaughteralone。“DidstthoumarkbowpoorlyJaneWilsonlooked?“askedhe,astheywounduptheirhardday’sworkbyasuppereatenoverthefire,whichglowedandglimmeredthroughtheroom,andformedtheironlylight。“No,Ican’tsayasIdid。Butshe’sneverrightlyheldupherheadsincethetwinsdied;andallalongshehasneverbeenastrongwoman。“Neversin’heraccident。AforethatImindherlookingasfreshandlikelyagirlase’eraoneinManchester。““Whataccident,father?““Shecotchedhersideagainawheel。Itwereaforewheelswereboxedup。
  Itwerejustwhensheweretohavebeenmarried,andmanyaonethoughtGeorgewouldha’beenoffhisbargain;butIknewhewern’tthechapforthattrick。Prettynearthefirstplaceshewenttowhenshewereabletogoaboutagain,wasth’OudChurch;poorwench,allpaleandlimpingshewentuptheaisle,Georgeholdingherupastenderasamother,andwalkingasslowase’erhecould,nottohurryher,thoughtherewereplentyenowofrudeladstocasttheirjestsathimandher。Herfacewerewhitelikeasheetwhenshecameinchurch,butaforeshegottoth’altarshewerealloneflush。Butfora’thatit’sbeenahappymarriage,andGeorgehasstuckbymethroughlifelikeabrother。He’llneverholduphisheadagainifhelosesJane。Ididn’tlikeherlookstonight。“Andsohewenttobed,thefearofforthcomingsorrowtohisfriendminglingwithhisthoughtsofto-morrow,andhishopesforthefuture。Marywatchedhimsetoff,withherhandsoverhereyestoshadethemfromthebrightslantingraysofthemorningsun,andthensheturnedintothehousetoarrangeitsdisorderbeforegoingtoherwork。Shewonderedifsheshouldlikeordisliketheeveningandmorningsolitude;forseveralhourswhentheclockstruckshethoughtofherfather,andwonderedwherehewas;
  shemadegoodresolutionsaccordingtoherlights;andby-and-bycamethedistractionsandeventsofthebroadfulldaytooccupyherwiththepresent,andtodeadenthememoryoftheabsent。OneofMary’sresolutionswas,thatshewouldnotbepersuadedorinducedtoseeMrHarryCarsonduringherfather’sabsence。Therewassomethingcrookedinherconscienceafterall;forthisveryresolutionseemedanacknowledgmentthatitwaswrongtomeethimatanytime;andyetshehadbroughtherselftothinkherconductquiteinnocentandproper,foralthoughunknowntoherfather,andcertain,evendidheknowit,tofailofobtaininghissanction,sheesteemedherlove-meetingswithMrCarsonassuretoendinherfather’sgoodandhappiness。Butnowthathewasaway,shewoulddonothingthathewoulddisapproveof;no,noteventhoughitwasforhisowngoodintheend。Now,amongstMissSimmonds’youngladieswasonewhohadbeenfromthebeginningaconfidanteinMary’sloveaffair,madesobyMrCarsonhimself。
  Hehadfeltthenecessityofsomethirdpersontocarrylettersandmessages,andtopleadhiscausewhenhewasabsent。InagirlnamedSallyLeadbitterhehadfoundawillingadvocate。Shewouldhavebeenwillingtohaveembarkedinalove-affairherselfespeciallyaclandestineone,forthemereexcitementoftheg;butherwillingnesswasstrengthenedbysundryhalf-sovereigns,whichfromtimetotimeMrCarsonbestoweduponher。SallyLeadbitterwasvulgar-mindedtothelastdegree;nevereasyunlesshertalkwasofloveandlovers;inhereyesitwasanhonourtohavehadalonglistofwooers。Soconstituted,itwasapitythatSallyherselfwasbutaplain,red-haired,freckledgirl;neverlikely,onewouldhavethought,tobecomeaheroineonherownaccount。Butwhatshelackedinbeautyshetriedtomakeupforbyakindofwittyboldness,whichgaveherwhatherbetterswouldhavecalledpiquancy。Considerationsofmodestyorproprietynevercheckedherutteranceofagoodthing。Shehadjusttalentenoughtocorruptothers。Herverygood-naturewasanevilinfluence。
  Theycouldnothateonewhowassokind;theycouldnotavoidonewhowassowillingtoshieldthemfromscrapesbyanyexertionofherown;whosereadyfingerswouldatanytimemakeupfortheirdeficiencies,andwhosestillmoreconvenienttonguewouldatanytimeinventforthem。TheJews,orMohammedansIforgetwhich,believethatthereisonelittleboneofourbody,——oneofthevertebrae,ifIrememberrightly,——whichwillneverdecayandturntodust,butwilllieincorruptandindestructibleinthegrounduntiltheLastDay:thisistheSeedoftheSoul。ThemostdepravedhavealsotheirSeedoftheHolinessthatshallonedayovercometheirevil。Theironegoodquality,lurkinghidden,butsafe,amongallthecorruptandhad。Sally’sseedofthefuturesoulwasherloveforhermother,anagedbedriddenwoman。Forhershehadself-denial;forher,hergood-natureroseintotenderness;tocheerherlonelybed,herspirits,intheevenings,whenherbodywasoftenwofullytired,neverflagged,butwerereadytorecounttheeventsoftheday,toturnthemintoridicule,andtomimic,withadmirablefidelity,anypersongiftedwithanabsurditywhohadfallenunderherkeeneye。ButthemotherwaslightlyprincipledlikeSallyherself;norwasthereneedtoconcealfromherthereasonwhyMrCarsongavehersomuchmoney。Shechuckledwithpleasure,andonlyhopedthatthewooingwouldbelonga-doing。Stillneithershe,norherdaughter,norHarryCarsonlikedthisresolutionofMary,nottoseehimduringherfather’sabsence。Oneeveningandtheearlysummereveningswerelongandbrightnow,SallymetMrCarsonbyappointment,tobechargedwithaletterforMary,imploringhertoseehim,whichSallywastobackwithallherpowersofpersuasion。
  Afterpartingfromhimshedetermined,asitwasnotsoverylate,togoatoncetoMary’s,anddeliverthemessageandletter。ShefoundMaryingreatsorrow。ShehadjustheardofGeorgeWilson’ssuddendeath:heroldfriend,herfather’sfriend,Jem’sfather——allhisclaimscamerushinguponher。Thoughnotguardedfromunnecessarysightorsoundofdeath,asthechildrenoftherichare,yetithadsooftenbeenbroughthometoherthislastthreeorfourmonths。Itwassoterriblethustoseefriendafterfrienddepart。Herfather,too,whohaddreadedJaneWilson’sdeaththeeveningbeforehesetoff。Andshe,theweakly,wasleftbehind,whilethestrongmanwastaken。Atanyratethesorrowherfatherhadsofearedforhimwasspared。Suchwerethethoughtswhichcameoverher。Shecouldnotgotocomfortthebereaved,evenifcomfortwereinherpowertogive;forshehadresolvedtoavoidJem;andshefeltthatthisofallotherswasnottheoccasiononwhichshecouldkeepupastudiouslycoldmanner。Andinthisshockofgrief,SallyLeadbitterwasthelastpersonshewishedtosee。However,sherosetowelcomeher,betrayinghertear-swollenface。“Well,IshalltellMrCarsonto-morrowhowyou’refrettingforhim;it’snomorenorhe’sdoingforyou,Icantellyou。““Forhim,indeed!“saidMary,withatossofherprettyhead。“Aye,miss,forhim!You’vebeensighingasifyourheartwouldbreaknowforseveraldays,overyourwork;now,arn’tyoualittlegoosenottogoandseeonewhoIamsurelovesyouashislife,andwhomyoulove;
  ’Howmuch,Mary?’’Thismuch,’asthechildrensay“openingherarmsverywide。“Nonsense,“saidMarypouting;“IoftenthinkIdon’tlovehimatall。““AndI’mtotellhimthat,amI,nexttimeIseehim?“askedSally。“Ifyoulike,“repliedMary。“I’msureIdon’tcareforthatoranythingelsenow;“weepingafresh。ButSallydidnotliketobethebearerofanysuchnews。Shesawshehadgoneonthewrongtack,andthatMary’sheartwastoofulltovalueeithermessageorletterassheought。Soshewiselypausedintheirdelivery,andsaid,inamoresympathetictonethanshehadhithertoused。“Dotellme,Mary,what’sfrettingyouso?YouknowInevercouldabidetoseeyoucry。“GeorgeWilson’sdroppeddowndeadthisafternoon,“saidMary,fixinghereyesforoneminuteonSally,andthenexthidingherfaceinherapronasshesobbedanew。“Dear,dear!Allfleshisgrass;hereto-dayandgoneto-morrow,astheBiblesays。Stillhewasanoldman,andnotgoodformuch;there’sbetterfolkthanhimleftbehind。Isth’cantingoldmaidasWashissisteraliveyet?““Idon’tknowwhoyoumean,“saidMary,sharply;forshedidknow,anddidnotliketohaveherdear,simpleAlicesospokenof。“Come,Mary,don’tbesoinnocent。IsMissAliceWilsonalive,then;willthatpleaseyou?Ihaven’tseenherhereaboutslately。““No,she’sleftlivinghere。Whenthetwinsdied,shethoughtshecould,maybe,beofusetohersister,whowassadlycastdown,andAlicethoughtshecouldcheerherup;atanyrateshecouldlistentoherwhenherheartgrewoverburdened;soshegaveuphercellarandwenttolivewiththem。““Well,goodgowithher。I’dnofancyforher,andI’dnofancyforhermakingmyprettyMaryintoaMethodee。““Shewasn’taMethodeeshewasChurcho’England。““Well,well,Mary,you’reveryparticular。YouknowwhatImeant。Look,whoisthisletterfrom?holdingupHenryCarson’sletter。“Idon’tknow,anddon’tcare,“saidMary,turningveryred。“Myeye!asifIdidn’tknowyoudidknowanddidcare。““Well,giveitme,“saidMary,impatiently,andanxiousinherpresentmoodforhervisitor’sdeparture。Sallyrelinquisheditunwillingly。Shehad,however,thepleasureofseeingMarydimpleandblushasshereadtheletter,whichseemedtosaythewriterwasnotindifferenttoher。“YoumusttellhimIcan’tcome,“saidMary,raisinghereyesatlast。
  “IhavesaidIwon’tmeethimwhilefatherisaway,andIwon’t。““But,Mary,hedoessolookforyou。You’dbequitesorryforhim,he’ssoputoutaboutnotseeingyou。Besides,yougowhenyourfather’sathome,withoutlettingontohim,andwhatharmwouldtherebeingoingnow?““Well,Sally,youknowmyanswer,Iwon’t;andIwon’t。““I’lltellhimtocomeandseeyouhimselfsomeevening,insteado’sendingme;he’dmaybefindyounotsohardtodealwith。“Maryflashedup。“Ifhedarestocomeherewhilefather’saway,I’llcalltheneighboursintoturnhimout,sodon’tbeputtinghimuptothat。““Mercyonus!onewouldthinkyouwerethefirstgirlthateverhadalover;
  haveyouneverheardwhatothergirlsdoandthinknoshameof?““Hush,Sally!that’sMargaretJenningsatthedoor。“AndinaninstantMargaretwasintheroom。MaryhadbeggedJobLeghtolethercomeandsleepwithher。Intheuncertainfire-lightyoucouldnothelpnoticingthatshehadthegropingwalkofablindperson。“Well,Imustgo,Mary,“saidSally。“Andthat’syourlastword?““Yes,yes;goodnight,“Sheshutthedoorgladlyonherunwelcomevisitor——unwelcomeatthattimeatleast。“Oh,Margaret,haveyeheardthissadnewsaboutGeorgeWilson?““Yes,thatIhave。Poorcreatures,they’vebeensoretriedlately。NotthatIthinksuddendeathsobadathing;it’seasy,andthere’snoterrorsforhimasdies。Forthemassurvivesit’sveryhard。PoorGeorge!heweresuchahearty-lookingman。““Margaret,“saidMarywhohadbeencloselyobservingherfriend,“thou’rtveryblindto-night,arn’tthou?Isitwi’crying?Youreyesaresoswollenandred。““Yes,dear!butnotcryingforsorrow。HanyebeardwhereIwaslastnight?““No;where?““Lookhere。“Sheheldupabrightgoldensovereign。Maryopenedherlargegreyeyeswithastonishment。“I’lltellyouallhowandaboutit。Youseethere’sagentlemanlecturingonmusicatth’Mechanics’,andhewantsfolktosinghissongs。