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第94章

  Hewassufferingfromdisappointmentandregret,grievingoverwhatwas,andwishingforwhatcouldneverbe。
  Sheknewitwasso,andwassorry;butitwaswithasorrowsofoundedonsatisfaction,sotendingtoease,andsomuchinharmonywitheverydearestsensation,thattherearefewwhomightnothavebeengladtoexchangetheirgreatestgaietyforit。
  SirThomas,poorSirThomas,aparent,andconsciousoferrorsinhisownconductasaparent,wasthelongesttosuffer。
  Hefeltthatheoughtnottohaveallowedthemarriage;
  thathisdaughter’ssentimentshadbeensufficientlyknowntohimtorenderhimculpableinauthorisingit;thatinsodoinghehadsacrificedtherighttotheexpedient,andbeengovernedbymotivesofselfishnessandworldlywisdom。
  Thesewerereflectionsthatrequiredsometimetosoften;
  buttimewilldoalmosteverything;andthoughlittlecomfortaroseonMrs。Rushworth’ssideforthemiseryshehadoccasioned,comfortwastobefoundgreaterthanhehadsupposedinhisotherchildren。Julia’smatchbecamealessdesperatebusinessthanhehadconsidereditatfirst。
  Shewashumble,andwishingtobeforgiven;andMr。Yates,desirousofbeingreallyreceivedintothefamily,wasdisposedtolookuptohimandbeguided。Hewasnotverysolid;
  buttherewasahopeofhisbecominglesstrifling,ofhisbeingatleasttolerablydomesticandquiet;
  andatanyrate,therewascomfortinfindinghisestaterathermore,andhisdebtsmuchless,thanhehadfeared,andinbeingconsultedandtreatedasthefriendbestworthattendingto。TherewascomfortalsoinTom,whograduallyregainedhishealth,withoutregainingthethoughtlessnessandselfishnessofhisprevioushabits。
  Hewasthebetterforeverforhisillness。Hehadsuffered,andhehadlearnedtothink:twoadvantagesthathehadneverknownbefore;andtheself-reproacharisingfromthedeplorableeventinWimpoleStreet,towhichhefelthimselfaccessorybyallthedangerousintimacyofhisunjustifiabletheatre,madeanimpressiononhismindwhich,attheageofsix-and-twenty,withnowantofsenseorgoodcompanions,wasdurableinitshappyeffects。
  Hebecamewhatheoughttobe:usefultohisfather,steadyandquiet,andnotlivingmerelyforhimself。
  Herewascomfortindeed!andquiteassoonasSirThomascouldplacedependenceonsuchsourcesofgood,Edmundwascontributingtohisfather’seasebyimprovementintheonlypointinwhichhehadgivenhimpainbefore——
  improvementinhisspirits。AfterwanderingaboutandsittingundertreeswithFannyallthesummerevenings,hehadsowelltalkedhismindintosubmissionastobeverytolerablycheerfulagain。
  ThesewerethecircumstancesandthehopeswhichgraduallybroughttheiralleviationtoSirThomas,deadeninghissenseofwhatwaslost,andinpartreconcilinghimtohimself;
  thoughtheanguisharisingfromtheconvictionofhisownerrorsintheeducationofhisdaughterswasnevertobeentirelydoneaway。
  ToolatehebecameawarehowunfavourabletothecharacterofanyyoungpeoplemustbethetotallyoppositetreatmentwhichMariaandJuliahadbeenalwaysexperiencingathome,wheretheexcessiveindulgenceandflatteryoftheiraunthadbeencontinuallycontrastedwithhisownseverity。
  Hesawhowillhehadjudged,inexpectingtocounteractwhatwaswronginMrs。Norrisbyitsreverseinhimself;
  clearlysawthathehadbutincreasedtheevilbyteachingthemtorepresstheirspiritsinhispresencesoastomaketheirrealdispositionunknowntohim,andsendingthemforalltheirindulgencestoapersonwhohadbeenabletoattachthemonlybytheblindnessofheraffection,andtheexcessofherpraise。
  Herehadbeengrievousmismanagement;but,badasitwas,hegraduallygrewtofeelthatithadnotbeenthemostdirefulmistakeinhisplanofeducation。Somethingmusthavebeenwanting_within_,ortimewouldhavewornawaymuchofitsilleffect。Hefearedthatprinciple,activeprinciple,hadbeenwanting;thattheyhadneverbeenproperlytaughttogoverntheirinclinationsandtempersbythatsenseofdutywhichcanalonesuffice。
  Theyhadbeeninstructedtheoreticallyintheirreligion,butneverrequiredtobringitintodailypractice。
  Tobedistinguishedforeleganceandaccomplishments,theauthorisedobjectoftheiryouth,couldhavehadnousefulinfluencethatway,nomoraleffectonthemind。
  Hehadmeantthemtobegood,buthiscareshadbeendirectedtotheunderstandingandmanners,notthedisposition;
  andofthenecessityofself-denialandhumility,hefearedtheyhadneverheardfromanylipsthatcouldprofitthem。
  Bitterlydidhedeploreadeficiencywhichnowhecouldscarcelycomprehendtohavebeenpossible。
  Wretchedlydidhefeel,thatwithallthecostandcareofananxiousandexpensiveeducation,hehadbroughtuphisdaughterswithouttheirunderstandingtheirfirstduties,orhisbeingacquaintedwiththeircharacterandtemper。
  ThehighspiritandstrongpassionsofMrs。Rushworth,especially,weremadeknowntohimonlyintheirsadresult。
  ShewasnottobeprevailedontoleaveMr。Crawford。
  Shehopedtomarryhim,andtheycontinuedtogethertillshewasobligedtobeconvincedthatsuchhopewasvain,andtillthedisappointmentandwretchednessarisingfromtheconvictionrenderedhertempersobad,andherfeelingsforhimsolikehatred,astomakethemforawhileeachother’spunishment,andtheninduceavoluntaryseparation。
  ShehadlivedwithhimtobereproachedastheruinofallhishappinessinFanny,andcarriedawaynobetterconsolationinleavinghimthanthatshe_had_dividedthem。
  Whatcanexceedthemiseryofsuchamindinsuchasituation?
  Mr。Rushworthhadnodifficultyinprocuringadivorce;
  andsoendedamarriagecontractedundersuchcircumstancesastomakeanybetterendtheeffectofgoodlucknottobereckonedon。Shehaddespisedhim,andlovedanother;
  andhehadbeenverymuchawarethatitwasso。
  Theindignitiesofstupidity,andthedisappointmentsofselfishpassion,canexcitelittlepity。Hispunishmentfollowedhisconduct,asdidadeeperpunishmentthedeeperguiltofhiswife。_He_wasreleasedfromtheengagementtobemortifiedandunhappy,tillsomeotherprettygirlcouldattracthimintomatrimonyagain,andhemightsetforwardonasecond,and,itistobehoped,moreprosperoustrialofthestate:ifduped,tobedupedatleastwithgoodhumourandgoodluck;
  whileshemustwithdrawwithinfinitelystrongerfeelingstoaretirementandreproachwhichcouldallownosecondspringofhopeorcharacter。
  Whereshecouldbeplacedbecameasubjectofmostmelancholyandmomentousconsultation。Mrs。Norris,whoseattachmentseemedtoaugmentwiththedemeritsofherniece,wouldhavehadherreceivedathomeandcountenancedbythemall。SirThomaswouldnothearofit;
  andMrs。Norris’sangeragainstFannywassomuchthegreater,fromconsidering_her_residencethereasthemotive。
  Shepersistedinplacinghisscruplesto_her_account,thoughSirThomasverysolemnlyassuredherthat,hadtherebeennoyoungwomaninquestion,hadtherebeennoyoungpersonofeithersexbelongingtohim,tobeendangeredbythesocietyorhurtbythecharacterofMrs。Rushworth,hewouldneverhaveofferedsogreataninsulttotheneighbourhoodastoexpectittonoticeher。
  Asadaughter,hehopedapenitentone,sheshouldbeprotectedbyhim,andsecuredineverycomfort,andsupportedbyeveryencouragementtodoright,whichtheirrelativesituationsadmitted;butfartherthan_that_hecouldnotgo。
  Mariahaddestroyedherowncharacter,andhewouldnot,byavainattempttorestorewhatnevercouldberestored,byaffordinghissanctiontovice,orinseekingtolessenitsdisgrace,beanywiseaccessorytointroducingsuchmiseryinanotherman’sfamilyashehadknownhimself。
  ItendedinMrs。Norris’sresolvingtoquitMansfieldanddevoteherselftoherunfortunateMaria,andinanestablishmentbeingformedfortheminanothercountry,remoteandprivate,where,shutuptogetherwithlittlesociety,ononesidenoaffection,ontheothernojudgment,itmaybereasonablysupposedthattheirtempersbecametheirmutualpunishment。
  Mrs。Norris’sremovalfromMansfieldwasthegreatsupplementarycomfortofSirThomas’slife。HisopinionofherhadbeensinkingfromthedayofhisreturnfromAntigua:
  ineverytransactiontogetherfromthatperiod,intheirdailyintercourse,inbusiness,orinchat,shehadbeenregularlylosinggroundinhisesteem,andconvincinghimthateithertimehaddonehermuchdisservice,orthathehadconsiderablyover-ratedhersense,andwonderfullybornewithhermannersbefore。Hehadfeltherasanhourlyevil,whichwassomuchtheworse,asthereseemednochanceofitsceasingbutwithlife;
  sheseemedapartofhimselfthatmustbeborneforever。
  Toberelievedfromher,therefore,wassogreatafelicitythat,hadshenotleftbitterremembrancesbehindher,theremighthavebeendangerofhislearningalmosttoapprovetheevilwhichproducedsuchagood。
  ShewasregrettedbynooneatMansfield。Shehadneverbeenabletoattacheventhoseshelovedbest;andsinceMrs。Rushworth’selopement,hertemperhadbeeninastateofsuchirritationastomakehereverywheretormenting。
  NotevenFannyhadtearsforauntNorris,notevenwhenshewasgoneforever。