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第87章

  flattermyselfthepoorsuffererwillsoonbeabletobeartheremovalwithoutmaterialinconvenienceorinjury。
  AsIhavelittledoubtofyourfeelingforus,mydearFanny,underthesedistressingcircumstances,Iwillwriteagainverysoon。“
  Fanny’sfeelingsontheoccasionwereindeedconsiderablymorewarmandgenuinethanheraunt’sstyleofwriting。
  Shefelttrulyforthemall。Tomdangerouslyill,Edmundgonetoattendhim,andthesadlysmallpartyremainingatMansfield,werecarestoshutouteveryothercare,oralmosteveryother。ShecouldjustfindselfishnessenoughtowonderwhetherEdmund_had_writtentoMissCrawfordbeforethissummonscame,butnosentimentdweltlongwithherthatwasnotpurelyaffectionateanddisinterestedlyanxious。Herauntdidnotneglecther:
  shewroteagainandagain;theywerereceivingfrequentaccountsfromEdmund,andtheseaccountswereasregularlytransmittedtoFanny,inthesamediffusestyle,andthesamemedleyoftrusts,hopes,andfears,allfollowingandproducingeachotherathaphazard。
  Itwasasortofplayingatbeingfrightened。
  ThesufferingswhichLadyBertramdidnotseehadlittlepoweroverherfancy;andshewroteverycomfortablyaboutagitation,andanxiety,andpoorinvalids,tillTomwasactuallyconveyedtoMansfield,andherowneyeshadbeheldhisalteredappearance。ThenaletterwhichshehadbeenpreviouslypreparingforFannywasfinishedinadifferentstyle,inthelanguageofrealfeelingandalarm;thenshewroteasshemighthavespoken。
  “Heisjustcome,mydearFanny,andistakenupstairs;
  andIamsoshockedtoseehim,thatIdonotknowwhattodo。Iamsurehehasbeenveryill。PoorTom!
  Iamquitegrievedforhim,andverymuchfrightened,andsoisSirThomas;andhowgladIshouldbeifyouwereheretocomfortme。ButSirThomashopeshewillbebetterto-morrow,andsayswemustconsiderhisjourney。“
  Therealsolicitudenowawakenedinthematernalbosomwasnotsoonover。Tom’sextremeimpatiencetoberemovedtoMansfield,andexperiencethosecomfortsofhomeandfamilywhichhadbeenlittlethoughtofinuninterruptedhealth,hadprobablyinducedhisbeingconveyedthithertooearly,asareturnoffevercameon,andforaweekhewasinamorealarmingstatethanever。
  Theywereallveryseriouslyfrightened。LadyBertramwroteherdailyterrorstoherniece,whomightnowbesaidtoliveuponletters,andpassallhertimebetweensufferingfromthatofto-dayandlookingforwardtoto-morrow’s。
  Withoutanyparticularaffectionforhereldestcousin,hertendernessofheartmadeherfeelthatshecouldnotsparehim,andthepurityofherprinciplesaddedyetakeenersolicitude,whensheconsideredhowlittleuseful,howlittleself-denyinghislifehadapparentlybeen。
  Susanwasheronlycompanionandlisteneronthis,asonmorecommonoccasions。Susanwasalwaysreadytohearandtosympathise。Nobodyelsecouldbeinterestedinsoremoteanevilasillnessinafamilyaboveanhundredmilesoff;
  notevenMrs。Price,beyondabriefquestionortwo,ifshesawherdaughterwithaletterinherhand,andnowandthenthequietobservationof,“MypoorsisterBertrammustbeinagreatdealoftrouble。“
  Solongdividedandsodifferentlysituated,thetiesofbloodwerelittlemorethannothing。Anattachment,originallyastranquilastheirtempers,wasnowbecomeamerename。Mrs。PricedidquiteasmuchforLadyBertramasLadyBertramwouldhavedoneforMrs。Price。
  ThreeorfourPricesmighthavebeensweptaway,anyorallexceptFannyandWilliam,andLadyBertramwouldhavethoughtlittleaboutit;orperhapsmighthavecaughtfromMrs。Norris’slipsthecantofitsbeingaveryhappythingandagreatblessingtotheirpoordearsisterPricetohavethemsowellprovidedfor。
  Atabouttheweek’sendfromhisreturntoMansfield,Tom’simmediatedangerwasover,andhewassofarpronouncedsafeastomakehismotherperfectlyeasy;
  forbeingnowusedtothesightofhiminhissuffering,helplessstate,andhearingonlythebest,andneverthinkingbeyondwhatsheheard,withnodispositionforalarmandnoaptitudeatahint,LadyBertramwasthehappiestsubjectintheworldforalittlemedicalimposition。
  Thefeverwassubdued;thefeverhadbeenhiscomplaint;
  ofcoursehewouldsoonbewellagain。LadyBertramcouldthinknothingless,andFannysharedheraunt’ssecurity,tillshereceivedafewlinesfromEdmund,writtenpurposelytogiveheraclearerideaofhisbrother’ssituation,andacquaintherwiththeapprehensionswhichheandhisfatherhadimbibedfromthephysicianwithrespecttosomestronghecticsymptoms,whichseemedtoseizetheframeonthedepartureofthefever。TheyjudgeditbestthatLadyBertramshouldnotbeharassedbyalarmswhich,itwastobehoped,wouldproveunfounded;buttherewasnoreasonwhyFannyshouldnotknowthetruth。Theywereapprehensiveforhislungs。
  AveryfewlinesfromEdmundshewedherthepatientandthesickroominajusterandstrongerlightthanallLadyBertram’ssheetsofpapercoulddo。Therewashardlyanyoneinthehousewhomightnothavedescribed,frompersonalobservation,betterthanherself;
  notonewhowasnotmoreusefulattimestoherson。
  Shecoulddonothingbutglideinquietlyandlookathim;
  butwhenabletotalkorbetalkedto,orreadto,Edmundwasthecompanionhepreferred。Hisauntworriedhimbyhercares,andSirThomasknewnothowtobringdownhisconversationorhisvoicetothelevelofirritationandfeebleness。Edmundwasallinall。Fannywouldcertainlybelievehimsoatleast,andmustfindthatherestimationofhimwashigherthaneverwhenheappearedastheattendant,supporter,cheererofasufferingbrother。
  Therewasnotonlythedebilityofrecentillnesstoassist:
  therewasalso,asshenowlearnt,nervesmuchaffected,spiritsmuchdepressedtocalmandraise,andherownimaginationaddedthattheremustbeamindtobeproperlyguided。
  Thefamilywerenotconsumptive,andshewasmoreinclinedtohopethanfearforhercousin,exceptwhenshethoughtofMissCrawford;butMissCrawfordgavehertheideaofbeingthechildofgoodluck,andtoherselfishnessandvanityitwouldbegoodlucktohaveEdmundtheonlyson。
  EveninthesickchamberthefortunateMarywasnotforgotten。Edmund’sletterhadthispostscript。
  “Onthesubjectofmylast,IhadactuallybegunaletterwhencalledawaybyTom’sillness,butIhavenowchangedmymind,andfeartotrusttheinfluenceoffriends。
  WhenTomisbetter,Ishallgo。“
  SuchwasthestateofMansfield,andsoitcontinued,withscarcelyanychange,tillEaster。AlineoccasionallyaddedbyEdmundtohismother’sletterwasenoughforFanny’sinformation。Tom’samendmentwasalarminglyslow。
  Eastercameparticularlylatethisyear,asFannyhadmostsorrowfullyconsidered,onfirstlearningthatshehadnochanceofleavingPortsmouthtillafterit。Itcame,andshehadyetheardnothingofherreturn——nothingevenofthegoingtoLondon,whichwastoprecedeherreturn。
  Herauntoftenexpressedawishforher,buttherewasnonotice,nomessagefromtheuncleonwhomalldepended。
  Shesupposedhecouldnotyetleavehisson,butitwasacruel,aterribledelaytoher。TheendofAprilwascomingon;
  itwouldsoonbealmostthreemonths,insteadoftwo,thatshehadbeenabsentfromthemall,andthatherdayshadbeenpassinginastateofpenance,whichshelovedthemtoowelltohopetheywouldthoroughlyunderstand;
  andwhocouldyetsaywhentheremightbeleisuretothinkoforfetchher?
  Hereagerness,herimpatience,herlongingstobewiththem,weresuchastobringalineortwoofCowper’sTirociniumforeverbeforeher。“Withwhatintensedesireshewantsherhome,“wascontinuallyonhertongue,asthetruestdescriptionofayearningwhichshecouldnotsupposeanyschoolboy’sbosomtofeelmorekeenly。
  WhenshehadbeencomingtoPortsmouth,shehadlovedtocallitherhome,hadbeenfondofsayingthatshewasgoinghome;
  thewordhadbeenverydeartoher,andsoitstillwas,butitmustbeappliedtoMansfield。_That_wasnowthehome。PortsmouthwasPortsmouth;Mansfieldwashome。
  Theyhadbeenlongsoarrangedintheindulgenceofhersecretmeditations,andnothingwasmoreconsolatorytoherthantofindherauntusingthesamelanguage:
  “IcannotbutsayImuchregretyourbeingfromhomeatthisdistressingtime,soverytryingtomyspirits。
  Itrustandhope,andsincerelywishyoumayneverbeabsentfromhomesolongagain,“weremostdelightfulsentencestoher。Still,however,itwasherprivateregale。
  Delicacytoherparentsmadehercarefulnottobetraysuchapreferenceofheruncle’shouse。Itwasalways:
  “WhenIgobackintoNorthamptonshire,orwhenIreturntoMansfield,Ishalldosoandso。“Foragreatwhileitwasso,butatlastthelonginggrewstronger,itoverthrewcaution,andshefoundherselftalkingofwhatsheshoulddowhenshewenthomebeforeshewasaware。