andIknowyoucannotspeakorwriteafalsehood,solongonlyshallyoubeconsideredaswell。“
Fannythankedhimagain,butwasaffectedanddistressedtoadegreethatmadeitimpossibleforhertosaymuch,oreventobecertainofwhatsheoughttosay。
Thiswastowardsthecloseoftheirwalk。Heattendedthemtothelast,andleftthemonlyatthedooroftheirownhouse,whenheknewthemtobegoingtodinner,andthereforepretendedtobewaitedforelsewhere。
“Iwishyouwerenotsotired,“saidhe,stilldetainingFannyafteralltheotherswereinthehouse——“IwishI
leftyouinstrongerhealth。IsthereanythingIcandoforyouintown?IhavehalfanideaofgoingintoNorfolkagainsoon。IamnotsatisfiedaboutMaddison。
Iamsurehestillmeanstoimposeonmeifpossible,andgetacousinofhisownintoacertainmill,whichI
designforsomebodyelse。Imustcometoanunderstandingwithhim。ImustmakehimknowthatIwillnotbetrickedonthesouthsideofEveringham,anymorethanonthenorth:thatIwillbemasterofmyownproperty。
Iwasnotexplicitenoughwithhimbefore。Themischiefsuchamandoesonanestate,bothastothecreditofhisemployerandthewelfareofthepoor,isinconceivable。
IhaveagreatmindtogobackintoNorfolkdirectly,andputeverythingatonceonsuchafootingascannotbeafterwardsswervedfrom。Maddisonisacleverfellow;
Idonotwishtodisplacehim,providedhedoesnottrytodisplace_me_;butitwouldbesimpletobedupedbyamanwhohasnorightofcreditortodupeme,andworsethansimpletolethimgivemeahard-hearted,gripingfellowforatenant,insteadofanhonestman,towhomIhavegivenhalfapromisealready。Woulditnotbeworsethansimple?ShallIgo?Doyouadviseit?“
“Iadvise!Youknowverywellwhatisright。“
“Yes。Whenyougivemeyouropinion,Ialwaysknowwhatisright。Yourjudgmentismyruleofright。“
“Oh,no!donotsayso。Wehaveallabetterguideinourselves,ifwewouldattendtoit,thananyotherpersoncanbe。Good-bye;Iwishyouapleasantjourneyto-morrow。“
“IstherenothingIcandoforyouintown?“
“Nothing;Iammuchobligedtoyou。“
“Haveyounomessageforanybody?“
“Mylovetoyoursister,ifyouplease;andwhenyouseemycousin,mycousinEdmund,IwishyouwouldbesogoodastosaythatIsupposeIshallsoonhearfromhim。“
“Certainly;andifheislazyornegligent,Iwillwritehisexcusesmyself。“
Hecouldsaynomore,forFannywouldbenolongerdetained。
Hepressedherhand,lookedather,andwasgone。
_He_wenttowhileawaythenextthreehoursashecould,withhisotheracquaintance,tillthebestdinnerthatacapitalinnaffordedwasreadyfortheirenjoyment,and_she_turnedintohermoresimpleoneimmediately。
Theirgeneralfareboreaverydifferentcharacter;
andcouldhehavesuspectedhowmanyprivations,besidesthatofexercise,sheenduredinherfather’shouse,hewouldhavewonderedthatherlookswerenotmuchmoreaffectedthanhefoundthem。ShewassolittleequaltoRebecca’spuddingsandRebecca’shashes,broughttotable,astheyallwere,withsuchaccompanimentsofhalf-cleanedplates,andnothalf-cleanedknivesandforks,thatshewasveryoftenconstrainedtodeferherheartiestmealtillshecouldsendherbrothersintheeveningforbiscuitsandbuns。
AfterbeingnursedupatMansfield,itwastoolateinthedaytobehardenedatPortsmouth;andthoughSirThomas,hadheknownall,mighthavethoughthisnieceinthemostpromisingwayofbeingstarved,bothmindandbody,intoamuchjustervalueforMr。Crawford’sgoodcompanyandgoodfortune,hewouldprobablyhavefearedtopushhisexperimentfarther,lestshemightdieunderthecure。
Fannywasoutofspiritsalltherestoftheday。
ThoughtolerablysecureofnotseeingMr。Crawfordagain,shecouldnothelpbeinglow。Itwaspartingwithsomebodyofthenatureofafriend;andthough,inonelight,gladtohavehimgone,itseemedasifshewasnowdesertedbyeverybody;itwasasortofrenewedseparationfromMansfield;andshecouldnotthinkofhisreturningtotown,andbeingfrequentlywithMaryandEdmund,withoutfeelingssonearakintoenvyasmadeherhateherselfforhavingthem。
Herdejectionhadnoabatementfromanythingpassingaroundher;afriendortwoofherfather’s,asalwayshappenedifhewasnotwiththem,spentthelong,longeveningthere;andfromsixo’clocktillhalf-pastnine,therewaslittleintermissionofnoiseorgrog。Shewasverylow。ThewonderfulimprovementwhichshestillfanciedinMr。Crawfordwasthenearesttoadministeringcomfortofanythingwithinthecurrentofherthoughts。
Notconsideringinhowdifferentacircleshehadbeenjustseeinghim,norhowmuchmightbeowingtocontrast,shewasquitepersuadedofhisbeingastonishinglymoregentleandregardfulofothersthanformerly。
And,ifinlittlethings,mustitnotbesoingreat?
Soanxiousforherhealthandcomfort,soveryfeelingashenowexpressedhimself,andreallyseemed,mightnotitbefairlysupposedthathewouldnotmuchlongerpersevereinasuitsodistressingtoher?
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ItwaspresumedthatMr。Crawfordwastravellingback,toLondon,onthemorrow,fornothingmorewasseenofhimatMr。Price’s;andtwodaysafterwards,itwasafactascertainedtoFannybythefollowingletterfromhissister,openedandreadbyher,onanotheraccount,withthemostanxiouscuriosity:——
“Ihavetoinformyou,mydearestFanny,thatHenryhasbeendowntoPortsmouthtoseeyou;thathehadadelightfulwalkwithyoutothedockyardlastSaturday,andonestillmoretobedweltonthenextday,ontheramparts;whenthebalmyair,thesparklingsea,andyoursweetlooksandconversationwerealtogetherinthemostdeliciousharmony,andaffordedsensationswhicharetoraiseecstasyeveninretrospect。This,aswellasIunderstand,istobethesubstanceofmyinformation。
Hemakesmewrite,butIdonotknowwhatelseistobecommunicated,exceptthissaidvisittoPortsmouth,andthesetwosaidwalks,andhisintroductiontoyourfamily,especiallytoafairsisterofyours,afinegirloffifteen,whowasofthepartyontheramparts,takingherfirstlesson,Ipresume,inlove。Ihavenottimeforwritingmuch,butitwouldbeoutofplaceifIhad,forthisistobeamereletterofbusiness,pennedforthepurposeofconveyingnecessaryinformation,whichcouldnotbedelayedwithoutriskofevil。Mydear,dearFanny,ifIhadyouhere,howIwouldtalktoyou!
Youshouldlistentometillyouweretired,andadvisemetillyouwerestilltiredmore;butitisimpossibletoputahundredthpartofmygreatmindonpaper,soIwillabstainaltogether,andleaveyoutoguesswhatyoulike。Ihavenonewsforyou。Youhavepolitics,ofcourse;anditwouldbetoobadtoplagueyouwiththenamesofpeopleandpartiesthatfillupmytime。
Ioughttohavesentyouanaccountofyourcousin’sfirstparty,butIwaslazy,andnowitistoolongago;
sufficeit,thateverythingwasjustasitoughttobe,inastylethatanyofherconnexionsmusthavebeengratifiedtowitness,andthatherowndressandmannersdidherthegreatestcredit。Myfriend,Mrs。Fraser,ismadforsuchahouse,anditwouldnotmake_me_miserable。
IgotoLadyStornawayafterEaster;sheseemsinhighspirits,andveryhappy。IfancyLordS。isverygood-humouredandpleasantinhisownfamily,andIdonotthinkhimsoveryill-lookingasIdid——atleast,oneseesmanyworse。
HewillnotdobythesideofyourcousinEdmund。
Ofthelast-mentionedhero,whatshallIsay?IfI
avoidedhisnameentirely,itwouldlooksuspicious。
Iwillsay,then,thatwehaveseenhimtwoorthreetimes,andthatmyfriendshereareverymuchstruckwithhisgentlemanlikeappearance。Mrs。Frasernobadjudge
declaressheknowsbutthreemenintownwhohavesogoodaperson,height,andair;andImustconfess,whenhedinedheretheotherday,therewerenonetocomparewithhim,andwewereapartyofsixteen。Luckilythereisnodistinctionofdressnowadaystotelltales,but——but——
butYoursaffectionately。“
IhadalmostforgotitwasEdmund’sfault:hegetsintomyheadmorethandoesmegoodoneverymaterialthingI
hadtosayfromHenryandmyself——ImeanaboutourtakingyoubackintoNorthamptonshire。Mydearlittlecreature,donotstayatPortsmouthtoloseyourprettylooks。
Thosevilesea-breezesaretheruinofbeautyandhealth。
Mypoorauntalwaysfeltaffectedifwithintenmilesofthesea,whichtheAdmiralofcourseneverbelieved,butIknowitwasso。IamatyourserviceandHenry’s,atanhour’snotice。Ishouldlikethescheme,andwewouldmakealittlecircuit,andshewyouEveringhaminourway,andperhapsyouwouldnotmindpassingthroughLondon,andseeingtheinsideofSt。George’s,HanoverSquare。
OnlykeepyourcousinEdmundfrommeatsuchatime:
Ishouldnotliketobetempted。Whatalongletter!
onewordmore。Henry,Ifind,hassomeideaofgoingintoNorfolkagainuponsomebusinessthat_you_approve;
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