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第83章

  Fannywasdoublysilencedhere;thoughwhenthemomentwaspassed,couldregretthatshehadnotforcedherselfintotheacknowledgedcomprehensionofonehalfofhismeaning,andencouragedhimtosaysomethingmoreofhissisterandEdmund。Itwasasubjectwhichshemustlearntospeakof,andtheweaknessthatshrunkfromitwouldsoonbequiteunpardonable。
  WhenMr。Priceandhisfriendhadseenallthattheywished,orhadtimefor,theotherswerereadytoreturn;
  andinthecourseoftheirwalkback,Mr。Crawfordcontrivedaminute’sprivacyfortellingFannythathisonlybusinessinPortsmouthwastoseeher;thathewascomedownforacoupleofdaysonheraccount,andhersonly,andbecausehecouldnotendurealongertotalseparation。
  Shewassorry,reallysorry;andyetinspiteofthisandthetwoorthreeotherthingswhichshewishedhehadnotsaid,shethoughthimaltogetherimprovedsinceshehadseenhim;
  hewasmuchmoregentle,obliging,andattentivetootherpeople’sfeelingsthanhehadeverbeenatMansfield;
  shehadneverseenhimsoagreeable——so_near_beingagreeable;
  hisbehaviourtoherfathercouldnotoffend,andtherewassomethingparticularlykindandproperinthenoticehetookofSusan。Hewasdecidedlyimproved。Shewishedthenextdayover,shewishedhehadcomeonlyforoneday;
  butitwasnotsoverybadasshewouldhaveexpected:
  thepleasureoftalkingofMansfieldwassoverygreat!
  Beforetheyparted,shehadtothankhimforanotherpleasure,andoneofnotrivialkind。Herfatheraskedhimtodothemthehonouroftakinghismuttonwiththem,andFannyhadtimeforonlyonethrillofhorror,beforehedeclaredhimselfpreventedbyapriorengagement。Hewasengagedtodinneralreadybothforthatdayandthenext;hehadmetwithsomeacquaintanceattheCrownwhowouldnotbedenied;
  heshouldhavethehonour,however,ofwaitingonthemagainonthemorrow,etc。,andsotheyparted——Fannyinastateofactualfelicityfromescapingsohorribleanevil!
  Tohavehadhimjointheirfamilydinner-party,andseealltheirdeficiencies,wouldhavebeendreadful!
  Rebecca’scookeryandRebecca’swaiting,andBetsey’seatingattablewithoutrestraint,andpullingeverythingaboutasshechose,werewhatFannyherselfwasnotyetenoughinuredtoforheroftentomakeatolerablemeal。
  _She_wasniceonlyfromnaturaldelicacy,but_he_hadbeenbroughtupinaschoolofluxuryandepicurism。
  ThePriceswerejustsettingoffforchurchthenextdaywhenMr。Crawfordappearedagain。Hecame,nottostop,buttojointhem;hewasaskedtogowiththemtotheGarrisonchapel,whichwasexactlywhathehadintended,andtheyallwalkedthithertogether。
  Thefamilywerenowseentoadvantage。Naturehadgiventhemnoinconsiderableshareofbeauty,andeverySundaydressedthemintheircleanestskinsandbestattire。
  SundayalwaysbroughtthiscomforttoFanny,andonthisSundayshefeltitmorethanever。HerpoormothernowdidnotlooksoveryunworthyofbeingLadyBertram’ssisterasshewasbuttooapttolook。Itoftengrievedhertothehearttothinkofthecontrastbetweenthem;
  tothinkthatwherenaturehadmadesolittledifference,circumstancesshouldhavemadesomuch,andthathermother,ashandsomeasLadyBertram,andsomeyearsherjunior,shouldhaveanappearancesomuchmorewornandfaded,socomfortless,soslatternly,soshabby。ButSundaymadeheraverycreditableandtolerablycheerful-lookingMrs。Price,comingabroadwithafinefamilyofchildren,feelingalittlerespiteofherweeklycares,andonlydiscomposedifshesawherboysrunintodanger,orRebeccapassbywithaflowerinherhat。
  Inchapeltheywereobligedtodivide,butMr。Crawfordtookcarenottobedividedfromthefemalebranch;
  andafterchapelhestillcontinuedwiththem,andmadeoneinthefamilypartyontheramparts。
  Mrs。PricetookherweeklywalkontherampartseveryfineSundaythroughouttheyear,alwaysgoingdirectlyaftermorningserviceandstayingtilldinner-time。Itwasherpublicplace:thereshemetheracquaintance,heardalittlenews,talkedoverthebadnessofthePortsmouthservants,andwoundupherspiritsforthesixdaysensuing。
  Thithertheynowwent;Mr。CrawfordmosthappytoconsidertheMissPricesashispeculiarcharge;andbeforetheyhadbeentherelong,somehoworother,therewasnosayinghow,Fannycouldnothavebelievedit,buthewaswalkingbetweenthemwithanarmofeachunderhis,andshedidnotknowhowtopreventorputanendtoit。
  Itmadeheruncomfortableforatime,butyettherewereenjoymentsinthedayandintheviewwhichwouldbefelt。
  Thedaywasuncommonlylovely。ItwasreallyMarch;
  butitwasAprilinitsmildair,brisksoftwind,andbrightsun,occasionallycloudedforaminute;
  andeverythinglookedsobeautifulundertheinfluenceofsuchasky,theeffectsoftheshadowspursuingeachotherontheshipsatSpitheadandtheislandbeyond,withtheever-varyinghuesofthesea,nowathighwater,dancinginitsgleeanddashingagainsttherampartswithsofineasound,producedaltogethersuchacombinationofcharmsforFanny,asmadehergraduallyalmostcarelessofthecircumstancesunderwhichshefeltthem。Nay,hadshebeenwithouthisarm,shewouldsoonhaveknownthatsheneededit,forshewantedstrengthforatwohours’
  saunterofthiskind,coming,asitgenerallydid,uponaweek’spreviousinactivity。Fannywasbeginningtofeeltheeffectofbeingdebarredfromherusualregularexercise;shehadlostgroundastohealthsinceherbeinginPortsmouth;andbutforMr。Crawfordandthebeautyoftheweatherwouldsoonhavebeenknockedupnow。
  Thelovelinessoftheday,andoftheview,hefeltlikeherself。Theyoftenstoptwiththesamesentimentandtaste,leaningagainstthewall,someminutes,tolookandadmire;andconsideringhewasnotEdmund,Fannycouldnotbutallowthathewassufficientlyopentothecharmsofnature,andverywellabletoexpresshisadmiration。Shehadafewtenderreveriesnowandthen,whichhecouldsometimestakeadvantageoftolookinherfacewithoutdetection;andtheresultoftheselookswas,thatthoughasbewitchingasever,herfacewaslessbloomingthanitoughttobe。She_said_shewasverywell,anddidnotliketobesupposedotherwise;
  buttakeitallinall,hewasconvincedthatherpresentresidencecouldnotbecomfortable,andthereforecouldnotbesalutaryforher,andhewasgrowinganxiousforherbeingagainatMansfield,whereherownhappiness,andhisinseeingher,mustbesomuchgreater。
  “Youhavebeenhereamonth,Ithink?“saidhe。
  “No;notquiteamonth。Itisonlyfourweeksto-morrowsinceIleftMansfield。“
  “Youareamostaccurateandhonestreckoner。Ishouldcallthatamonth。“
  “IdidnotarriveheretillTuesdayevening。“
  “Anditistobeatwomonths’visit,isnot?“
  “Yes。Myuncletalkedoftwomonths。Isupposeitwillnotbeless。“
  “Andhowareyoutobeconveyedbackagain?Whocomesforyou?“
  “Idonotknow。Ihaveheardnothingaboutityetfrommyaunt。PerhapsImaybetostaylonger。
  Itmaynotbeconvenientformetobefetchedexactlyatthetwomonths’end。“
  Afteramoment’sreflection,Mr。Crawfordreplied,“IknowMansfield,Iknowitsway,Iknowitsfaultstowards_you_。Iknowthedangerofyourbeingsofarforgotten,astohaveyourcomfortsgivewaytotheimaginaryconvenienceofanysinglebeinginthefamily。
  Iamawarethatyoumaybelefthereweekafterweek,ifSirThomascannotsettleeverythingforcominghimself,orsendingyouraunt’smaidforyou,withoutinvolvingtheslightestalterationofthearrangementswhichhemayhavelaiddownforthenextquarterofayear。
  Thiswillnotdo。Twomonthsisanampleallowance;
  Ishouldthinksixweeksquiteenough。Iamconsideringyoursister’shealth,“saidhe,addressinghimselftoSusan,“whichIthinktheconfinementofPortsmouthunfavourableto。
  Sherequiresconstantairandexercise。WhenyouknowheraswellasIdo,Iamsureyouwillagreethatshedoes,andthatsheoughtnevertobelongbanishedfromthefreeairandlibertyofthecountry。If,therefore“turningagaintoFanny,“youfindyourselfgrowingunwell,andanydifficultiesariseaboutyourreturningtoMansfield,withoutwaitingforthetwomonthstobeended,_that_mustnotberegardedasofanyconsequence,ifyoufeelyourselfatalllessstrongorcomfortablethanusual,andwillonlyletmysisterknowit,giveheronlytheslightesthint,sheandIwillimmediatelycomedown,andtakeyoubacktoMansfield。Youknowtheeaseandthepleasurewithwhichthiswouldbedone。
  Youknowallthatwouldbefeltontheoccasion。“
  Fannythankedhim,buttriedtolaughitoff。
  “Iamperfectlyserious,“hereplied,“asyouperfectlyknow。
  AndIhopeyouwillnotbecruellyconcealinganytendencytoindisposition。Indeed,youshall_not_;
  itshallnotbeinyourpower;forsolongonlyasyoupositivelysay,ineverylettertoMary,’Iamwell,’