Fannywasdoublysilencedhere;thoughwhenthemomentwaspassed,couldregretthatshehadnotforcedherselfintotheacknowledgedcomprehensionofonehalfofhismeaning,andencouragedhimtosaysomethingmoreofhissisterandEdmund。Itwasasubjectwhichshemustlearntospeakof,andtheweaknessthatshrunkfromitwouldsoonbequiteunpardonable。
WhenMr。Priceandhisfriendhadseenallthattheywished,orhadtimefor,theotherswerereadytoreturn;
andinthecourseoftheirwalkback,Mr。Crawfordcontrivedaminute’sprivacyfortellingFannythathisonlybusinessinPortsmouthwastoseeher;thathewascomedownforacoupleofdaysonheraccount,andhersonly,andbecausehecouldnotendurealongertotalseparation。
Shewassorry,reallysorry;andyetinspiteofthisandthetwoorthreeotherthingswhichshewishedhehadnotsaid,shethoughthimaltogetherimprovedsinceshehadseenhim;
hewasmuchmoregentle,obliging,andattentivetootherpeople’sfeelingsthanhehadeverbeenatMansfield;
shehadneverseenhimsoagreeable——so_near_beingagreeable;
hisbehaviourtoherfathercouldnotoffend,andtherewassomethingparticularlykindandproperinthenoticehetookofSusan。Hewasdecidedlyimproved。Shewishedthenextdayover,shewishedhehadcomeonlyforoneday;
butitwasnotsoverybadasshewouldhaveexpected:
thepleasureoftalkingofMansfieldwassoverygreat!
Beforetheyparted,shehadtothankhimforanotherpleasure,andoneofnotrivialkind。Herfatheraskedhimtodothemthehonouroftakinghismuttonwiththem,andFannyhadtimeforonlyonethrillofhorror,beforehedeclaredhimselfpreventedbyapriorengagement。Hewasengagedtodinneralreadybothforthatdayandthenext;hehadmetwithsomeacquaintanceattheCrownwhowouldnotbedenied;
heshouldhavethehonour,however,ofwaitingonthemagainonthemorrow,etc。,andsotheyparted——Fannyinastateofactualfelicityfromescapingsohorribleanevil!
Tohavehadhimjointheirfamilydinner-party,andseealltheirdeficiencies,wouldhavebeendreadful!
Rebecca’scookeryandRebecca’swaiting,andBetsey’seatingattablewithoutrestraint,andpullingeverythingaboutasshechose,werewhatFannyherselfwasnotyetenoughinuredtoforheroftentomakeatolerablemeal。
_She_wasniceonlyfromnaturaldelicacy,but_he_hadbeenbroughtupinaschoolofluxuryandepicurism。
ThePriceswerejustsettingoffforchurchthenextdaywhenMr。Crawfordappearedagain。Hecame,nottostop,buttojointhem;hewasaskedtogowiththemtotheGarrisonchapel,whichwasexactlywhathehadintended,andtheyallwalkedthithertogether。
Thefamilywerenowseentoadvantage。Naturehadgiventhemnoinconsiderableshareofbeauty,andeverySundaydressedthemintheircleanestskinsandbestattire。
SundayalwaysbroughtthiscomforttoFanny,andonthisSundayshefeltitmorethanever。HerpoormothernowdidnotlooksoveryunworthyofbeingLadyBertram’ssisterasshewasbuttooapttolook。Itoftengrievedhertothehearttothinkofthecontrastbetweenthem;
tothinkthatwherenaturehadmadesolittledifference,circumstancesshouldhavemadesomuch,andthathermother,ashandsomeasLadyBertram,andsomeyearsherjunior,shouldhaveanappearancesomuchmorewornandfaded,socomfortless,soslatternly,soshabby。ButSundaymadeheraverycreditableandtolerablycheerful-lookingMrs。Price,comingabroadwithafinefamilyofchildren,feelingalittlerespiteofherweeklycares,andonlydiscomposedifshesawherboysrunintodanger,orRebeccapassbywithaflowerinherhat。
Inchapeltheywereobligedtodivide,butMr。Crawfordtookcarenottobedividedfromthefemalebranch;
andafterchapelhestillcontinuedwiththem,andmadeoneinthefamilypartyontheramparts。
Mrs。PricetookherweeklywalkontherampartseveryfineSundaythroughouttheyear,alwaysgoingdirectlyaftermorningserviceandstayingtilldinner-time。Itwasherpublicplace:thereshemetheracquaintance,heardalittlenews,talkedoverthebadnessofthePortsmouthservants,andwoundupherspiritsforthesixdaysensuing。
Thithertheynowwent;Mr。CrawfordmosthappytoconsidertheMissPricesashispeculiarcharge;andbeforetheyhadbeentherelong,somehoworother,therewasnosayinghow,Fannycouldnothavebelievedit,buthewaswalkingbetweenthemwithanarmofeachunderhis,andshedidnotknowhowtopreventorputanendtoit。
Itmadeheruncomfortableforatime,butyettherewereenjoymentsinthedayandintheviewwhichwouldbefelt。
Thedaywasuncommonlylovely。ItwasreallyMarch;
butitwasAprilinitsmildair,brisksoftwind,andbrightsun,occasionallycloudedforaminute;
andeverythinglookedsobeautifulundertheinfluenceofsuchasky,theeffectsoftheshadowspursuingeachotherontheshipsatSpitheadandtheislandbeyond,withtheever-varyinghuesofthesea,nowathighwater,dancinginitsgleeanddashingagainsttherampartswithsofineasound,producedaltogethersuchacombinationofcharmsforFanny,asmadehergraduallyalmostcarelessofthecircumstancesunderwhichshefeltthem。Nay,hadshebeenwithouthisarm,shewouldsoonhaveknownthatsheneededit,forshewantedstrengthforatwohours’
saunterofthiskind,coming,asitgenerallydid,uponaweek’spreviousinactivity。Fannywasbeginningtofeeltheeffectofbeingdebarredfromherusualregularexercise;shehadlostgroundastohealthsinceherbeinginPortsmouth;andbutforMr。Crawfordandthebeautyoftheweatherwouldsoonhavebeenknockedupnow。
Thelovelinessoftheday,andoftheview,hefeltlikeherself。Theyoftenstoptwiththesamesentimentandtaste,leaningagainstthewall,someminutes,tolookandadmire;andconsideringhewasnotEdmund,Fannycouldnotbutallowthathewassufficientlyopentothecharmsofnature,andverywellabletoexpresshisadmiration。Shehadafewtenderreveriesnowandthen,whichhecouldsometimestakeadvantageoftolookinherfacewithoutdetection;andtheresultoftheselookswas,thatthoughasbewitchingasever,herfacewaslessbloomingthanitoughttobe。She_said_shewasverywell,anddidnotliketobesupposedotherwise;
buttakeitallinall,hewasconvincedthatherpresentresidencecouldnotbecomfortable,andthereforecouldnotbesalutaryforher,andhewasgrowinganxiousforherbeingagainatMansfield,whereherownhappiness,andhisinseeingher,mustbesomuchgreater。
“Youhavebeenhereamonth,Ithink?“saidhe。
“No;notquiteamonth。Itisonlyfourweeksto-morrowsinceIleftMansfield。“
“Youareamostaccurateandhonestreckoner。Ishouldcallthatamonth。“
“IdidnotarriveheretillTuesdayevening。“
“Anditistobeatwomonths’visit,isnot?“
“Yes。Myuncletalkedoftwomonths。Isupposeitwillnotbeless。“
“Andhowareyoutobeconveyedbackagain?Whocomesforyou?“
“Idonotknow。Ihaveheardnothingaboutityetfrommyaunt。PerhapsImaybetostaylonger。
Itmaynotbeconvenientformetobefetchedexactlyatthetwomonths’end。“
Afteramoment’sreflection,Mr。Crawfordreplied,“IknowMansfield,Iknowitsway,Iknowitsfaultstowards_you_。Iknowthedangerofyourbeingsofarforgotten,astohaveyourcomfortsgivewaytotheimaginaryconvenienceofanysinglebeinginthefamily。
Iamawarethatyoumaybelefthereweekafterweek,ifSirThomascannotsettleeverythingforcominghimself,orsendingyouraunt’smaidforyou,withoutinvolvingtheslightestalterationofthearrangementswhichhemayhavelaiddownforthenextquarterofayear。
Thiswillnotdo。Twomonthsisanampleallowance;
Ishouldthinksixweeksquiteenough。Iamconsideringyoursister’shealth,“saidhe,addressinghimselftoSusan,“whichIthinktheconfinementofPortsmouthunfavourableto。
Sherequiresconstantairandexercise。WhenyouknowheraswellasIdo,Iamsureyouwillagreethatshedoes,andthatsheoughtnevertobelongbanishedfromthefreeairandlibertyofthecountry。If,therefore“turningagaintoFanny,“youfindyourselfgrowingunwell,andanydifficultiesariseaboutyourreturningtoMansfield,withoutwaitingforthetwomonthstobeended,_that_mustnotberegardedasofanyconsequence,ifyoufeelyourselfatalllessstrongorcomfortablethanusual,andwillonlyletmysisterknowit,giveheronlytheslightesthint,sheandIwillimmediatelycomedown,andtakeyoubacktoMansfield。Youknowtheeaseandthepleasurewithwhichthiswouldbedone。
Youknowallthatwouldbefeltontheoccasion。“
Fannythankedhim,buttriedtolaughitoff。
“Iamperfectlyserious,“hereplied,“asyouperfectlyknow。
AndIhopeyouwillnotbecruellyconcealinganytendencytoindisposition。Indeed,youshall_not_;
itshallnotbeinyourpower;forsolongonlyasyoupositivelysay,ineverylettertoMary,’Iamwell,’
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